# Rotting With Ambivalence

# rotting with ambivalence

i don't write poetry often, so this is likely not written well; and i have an unusual speech pattern, so this may not flow well aside from in my own reading; enjoy

i look at you and all i know is fading

my sense of couth lost, as im found desperately trying to reach it

all im bound to find is despair.

but you know that right?

youll tear me down to shame, night by night;

"my heart is not for the taking"

though this bruise feels all too loving

and so do my words.

another crack is left on my lips

i beg for you to think about me just once

to think about me in the sense of family.

we both know youll never get there

instead ill look for whats left of you;

i see you in the swans, their beauty suddenly ruined

i sit and watch as they deceive their admirers;

ill never blame them.

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What language do you use to describe club foot and what to avoid.

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Disgusting

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themes of; royalty, lgbt relationships, forbidden love, classism, religeous trauma

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tag; #wip: more than royalty

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Masterlist

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Alia Vallence

Willow Marwah

Marian Vallence

Desmond Vallence

Wade Vallence

Navya Marwah


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