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rotating hamlet in your head when you're NOT mentally unwell is actually a wonderful experience. because now you can see outside the barbed walls of pain. beyond the balcony rails that look like prison bars. you can see the glimmers of gertrude's undeniable love for hamlet, even when she did it all wrong. you can see the defiance in ophelia's yes my lords, a sort of kindredness to the women you grew up with who knew how to pick battles and hide a smirk. you can see the banter between horatio and hamlet, like boys playing in a creek before one moves away for good. you can watch hamlet mouth the plays the thing, wherein ill catch the conscience of the king and have your heart break for the scared son who's clinging to a reason to live through narrative. and oh, how you notice the narrative. how it encircles. how it continues, despite laertes trying to fling himself to be with ophelia, despite horatio's lips almost kissing the cup. now, you can hold the characters gently, with the distance and closeness of a gravedigger. now, you can hold yourself gently: act five is over now. close the curtains, strike the props, hug the other ones who made it out covered in fake blood and real sweat. the play's the thing, and you might have to do it again. the story lives, on and on and on, in a hundred adaptations in a hundred formats. in a hundred broken peoples heads, and sometimes, those people heal long enough to say denmark was a prison, let me tell you about it.

what if every Tumblr user suddenly looses their mouse?

me when i have like 20 notifications in the span of five minutes and when i go check its just the same guy rapidfire liking and reblogging posts

hey if you died right now whats your ghost outfit you cant change it be honest

I don’t think healthy people every really get chronic illness.

I have a friend I know from when we were both 6. She is the only person living nearby and so she saw me go from walking through limping to wheelchair on a daily basis. I keep her updated on my health even tho we rarely hang out anymore. She was gonna come over yesterday and I had to cancel. She asked if I can’t hang out later that day. When I said i won’t feel better later, that if I feel that bad in the morning later will only get worse she got annoyed and “joked” that I’m just finding excuses. And I was surprised, she knows all about me being disabled after all? So, a bit taken aback, I told her it’s a normal thing for me.

“But you got the diagnosis now, aren’t you better?? I thought you’ll get better now”

She was honestly surprised and it made me realize a thing. They don’t get it. They don’t get that getting diagnosed only equals benefits like welfare or parking spot for us, and sometimes better pain meds but that is just like pushing luck. That it’s a forever thing. That that one day we felt good a week ago was just a bright spot and doesn’t mean we won’t need our aids anymore, cause chronic illness is not linear and will make a great comeback in next four hours, and the next good day is planned on when we’re 70. Cause when abled people are sick, they get better. And our illness is just an excuse for them. And when we say we will never get better they think we’re being dramatic and pessimistic. And I don’t think they’ll ever get it, cause to get it you need to live it. And I want my friends to stay healthy and not go through hell.

gothic framework narrators are great as ace because they watch the drama with popcorn and ink blot filled letters

by the way Jekyll can be gay but i’m claiming Utterson as asexual because. i like the idea.

Just Hitched 🏍

Guess I can post this here too I'm still very confused....

things i made very stoned and don’t remember doing

"redbull gives you wiiings" no redbull gives you a motherfucking laser arm

FOR THE STARS TELL ME HE WOULDN’T DRINK THIS IN OUR MODERN TIMES!!!

reblog to make someone bisexual

was thinking about how because the only dance aziraphale can do is the galvonette and crowley can only do some shitty disco dancing their dance at their wedding would be a mess but THEN i realized that they wouldn't just dive in and wing it. no. they'd practice dancing together for weeks in preparation, stepping on each other's toes and bickering over the sound of some demonstrative video that they end up replaying dozens of times

hiii let me assign you a citrus fruit and try to analyse your personality based on these weird questions <3

A part of me knew that one last stop was going to get less hype than red white and royal blue because people find gay men more attractive than lesbians but it still hurts to see it and I didn’t think that I’d see people openly admitting to not liking it because it’s a wlw story

Actual issues we should discuss about when it comes to pride:

events still being held during a pandemic

the presence of cops, politicians, and military branches in the parade and at other events (and how they prey on LGBT youth for recruitment at these events)

accessibility for disabled LGBT people

events being taken over by non-LGBT identities and corporations

some events and parades platforming TERFs or Drop The T groups

the omnipresence of alcohol at events (related to the corporate take over)

how many LGBT people cannot afford to go to ticketed pride events

the prevalence of the word queer at these events, considering it is still very triggering for many LGBT people

the complete sanitization and de-radicalization of pride so that no one associates it with its actual history and purpose

how pride is being used to sell shit and how pride month is officially just free advertising

how whitewashed the actual events are and i mean this literally–the focus is often on white celebrities performing shows and a white take on Stonewall’s history with very little support for groups of LGBT POC besides lip service like using the Philly Pride flag

The discourse we have every year instead:

is pride too horny?

it is too horny, you evil deviants

i saw a woman with no shirt on and a man in a leather harness i’m calling the cops

think about the children

this is not the account i wanted to use shoot

do you ever just talk to straight ppl about boys and they assume you too are straight and then its like theres a sign above your head that says “there is one imposter among us”

oh my god and when girls say ‘girlfriend’ but mean it in a friend way i get an aneurysm no joke

do you ever just talk to straight ppl about boys and they assume you too are straight and then its like theres a sign above your head that says “there is one imposter among us”

You know what sucks? Despite being on this site for almost a year now, I have never seen one positivity post about LGBTQ+ people that are muslim, and I think that’s really bad, so I’m making my own.

Muslim sapphics who wear hijabs / niqabs / burqas? Y’all are absolutely amazing and beautiful.

Muslim people who like multiple genders? Stunning and I hope you have a wonderful day!

Don’t even get me started on muslim trans and nonbinary people, oh my god you guys are so incredible and so freaking valid.

Your religion does not contradict your identity, I am so proud of all of you 

hey! dark academia tips for a beginner?

Hey, thanks for sending! Here are my best tips for amateur dark academics:

1. Indulge intellectually stimulating activities. Dark academics are always looking to learn more, do more, and be more. Do things that better your brain, such as researching. Find a topic that interests you— one that cannot be easily answered by a simple Google search and collect as much information as you can about it. And despite popular belief, that topic doesn’t have to be literature-based; it can be abnormal psychology, French history, hell— anything your heart desires and your brain would benefit from knowing.

2. Improve your penmanship. Dark academics are always taking notes, annotating, and scribbling things down in their journals. Said notes are usually in cursive or at the least—legible. And what’s worse than distasteful penmanship? Not only will this help you channel your inner dark academic, the people who have to read what you write won’t have to squint and sigh when reading it.

3. Drink more herbal teas and rich coffees. Tea and coffee are probably the two most consumed beverages by dark academics. Tea is relaxing, nice to sip after a laborious day at work or school and coffee is stimulating, a nice early morning wake-up beverage for a majority of the human population.

4. Learn about the classics. This is not exclusive to books and authors. If you’re more of a movie person, like myself, don’t hesitate to go back in time and learn what you can about the most iconic screenwriters of say… the 1940s. If you’re into vintage music, learn what you wish about the most influential musicians of the time. You can never go wrong with vintage! Well… except the racism, homophobia, sexism, slavery, classism, and poor tastes in eyebrow makeup, but that’s a discussion for later.

5. Purchase clothing of darker and earthier tones. This isn’t an absolute must, but many correlate the clothing with the aesthetic, so it would be a helpful identifier if you want the world to know that you’re a dark academic. By “dark and earthier tones”, I mean shades of brown, dark greens— including forest green and sage, greys and of course, blacks. Stay away from the ostentatious neons and pastels, as this is more common in the cottagecore aesthetics. Plaid and tweed are also treasured amongst the dark academia community, but they certainly don’t look good on everyone, so find what works for you. Dark academics also LOVE button-down blouses—especially ones with unique sleeves and Victorian-Era designs.

You don’t have to spend an arm and a leg curating your wardrobe, either. I personally purchase most of my clothing from thrift stores and online resell sites, such as Depop and Poshmark because they’re so much cheaper than buying them new.

6. Opt for darker makeup. This is pretty self-explanatory— wear darker lipstick shades and darker eyeshadow, if you wish. Also, you don’t have to conceal your eyebags, as they give an enigmatic depth to most people’s eyes.

That’s all I have right now, I hope this was helpful!

most of the time i dont care for odazai but i am 100% certain that dazai was completely wholeheartedly in love with odasaku

and im also convinced that chuuya was in love with dazai so :)

Let me talk about Dazai Osamu.

Dazai is often so animated, whether it be flirting shamelessly with beautiful women, or trying to get on Kunikida’s nerves, or messing with naive little Atsushi, or irritating the living heck out of Chuuya.

But, emotions? In a previous post, I talked a bit about deciphering Dazai’s emotions, about how he shows real and true emotions only in certain very calculated and planned situations.

Even for a person who rarely shows true emotions, it is visible how his face changes when the Port Mafia is brought up. His voice, his eyes, the tightness in his jaws— everything changes.

Season 1 Episode 3, when Kunikida is describing the Port Mafia to Atsushi.

For me, this is a very important hint to decipher him, a tiny gap in space-time from where I can peek into his heart.

In Season 1 Episode 5, when he intervenes the sergeant’s nervous rant to say, “No, this wasn’t the Mafia’s doing”, he’s a changed man. He not only describes, but reminisces and relives the numerous times he’s seen the event he’s describing unfold.

He doesn’t meet anybody’s eyes, he’s staring into space. His voice is lower, a sharp contrast to the usual high pitched, lulting, lively voice. This isn’t the voice he uses to talk with his colleagues in the Detective Agency, with Atsushi.

In Dead Apple, while facing away from Atsushi, he says, “I might have stayed there, murdering people.” His head is angled towards the ground, voice low.

(what might he have been feeling then? that’s a topic for another day.)

In Season 2 Episode 9, while he’s talking directly with the Port Mafia boss, Mori-san, there’s is somethingly uncannily odd about his face— eyes open far too wide, smile far too forced.

I’ve searched long for the right word to describe this expression— it’s uncomfortable.

Haunted.

He’s uncomfortable, he’s uneasy, but he doesn’t know that, he can’t acknowledge that, he wouldn’t accept that, because how do you hide what you don’t know you’re feeling?

∘

The problem here is, Dazai cannot see that he himself, was also a victim. He sees himself only as an abuser.

The fact that he’s also a victim, a young boy who watched his boss murder an old man, a young boy held at gunpoint so he couldn’t go to save his friend— he doesn’t understand his abuse. He doesn’t understand he was also wronged, he always sees himself as the wrong do-er.

Which is why he never let himself heal, because in order to do that, you have to notice your injuries first. Like he literally covered himself up in bandages, figuratively he did so too— made up a smile and built walls all around him, impenetrable, insurmountable.

In these specific moments though, his face betrays his mind.

His face makes it very apparent that he was affected, is still affected, regardless of whatever he tells himself.

It’s in these moments, that you see he has a living, beating heart, scarred and heavy and haunted with the trauma of his unspeakable past.

It’s in these moments that you see he’s human— still, despite, after all.

∘

Ehhh forgot to share this one here too. It’s just an extra for my angel AU Luz. She looks cute with them wings apparently.

he doesnt need anyones help, he’ll do it all by himself, thank you very much

stop being a coward and put dazai in a dress you fucks

INCORRECT QUOTE HERE by @incorrectbungoustraydogs

i was really inspired and wanted to practice animating so!! ive been working on this on and off for a few months c:

this might be controversial but if battle of the labyrinth is your fav book you care about the metaphors, if the last olympian is your fav you just care about percabeth, if the lightning thief is your fav you care about family, if the sea of monsters is your fav you care about adventure, if titan’s curse is your fav you actually care about the plot

ah yes virgina woolf, the iconic definetely sapphic literary feminist.

Virginia Woolf, in a letter to Vita Sackville-West, February 1927.

Virginia Woolf, A Room of One’s Own, September 1929.

i think writing fanfiction is easier than writing original stories because there are restrictions. You known, like characterization or past events or genres. Because some flowers can only grow if they have a wall to climb

Raindrops + Glass