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"OH, SLEEP. Nothing else could ever bring me such pleasure, such freedom, the power to feel and move and think and imagine, safe from the miseries of my waking consciousness."

Ottessa Mosfegh, My year of rest and relaxation

"Things get broken, and sometimes they get repaired, and in most cases, you realize that no matter what gets damaged, life rearranges itself to compensate for your loss, sometimes wonderfully."

A little life, Hanya Yanagihara

"How was a friendship any more codependent than a relationship? Why was it admirable when you were twenty-seven but creepy when you were thirty-seven? Why wasn’t friendship as good as a relationship? Why wasn’t it even better? It was two people who remained together, day after day, bound not by sex or physical attraction or money or children or property, but only by the shared agreement to keep going, the mutual dedication to a union that could never be codified. Friendship was witnessing another’s slow drip of miseries, and long bouts of boredom, and occasional triumphs. It was feeling honored by the privilege of getting to be present for another person’s most dismal moments, and knowing that you could be dismal around him in return."

A little life, Hanya Yanagihara

"Life is as messy as a bag whose owner never cleans it out. You have no idea when you might reach in and pull out a piece of old trash, and you’re afraid someone is going to look through your bag someday. Maybe your ‘baggage’ is like an old bag, too. You toss it around any which way, not caring how worn it gets or where it lands, and no one notices. You can’t afford a new bag so you carefully and painstakingly hold it so the rough patches don’t show."

I want to die but i want to eat Tteokbokki, Baek Sehee

"The fairy tales we read as children are very one-dimensional. There are good people and bad people in those stories. But in the books adults read, it becomes harder to divide up characters into absolutely good and absolutely bad people."

I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki,Baek Sehee

"I often look for books that are like medicine, that fit my situation and my thoughts, and I read them over and over again until the pages are tattered, underlining everything, and still the book will have something to give me. Books never tire of me. And in time they present a solution, quietly waiting until I am fully healed. That’s one of the nicest things about books."

I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki, Baek Sehee

"I wonder about others like me, who seem totally fine on the outside but are rotting on the inside, where the rot is this vague state of being not-fine and not-devastated at the same time."

I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki,Baek Sehee

“Soon we’ll be old and ugly. Life is short, you know? Die young and leave a beautiful corpse. Who said that?”

“Someone who liked fucking corpses.”

Ottessa Mosfegh, My Year of Rest and Relaxation

KAREN: I think people that are too similar…they don’t mix well. I used to think soul mates were two of the same. I used to think I was supposed to look for somebody that was just like me.

I don’t believe in soul mates anymore and I’m not looking for anything. But if I did believe in them, I’d believe your soul mate was somebody who had all the things you didn’t, that needed all the things you had. Not somebody who’s suffering from the same stuff you are.

Daisy Jones and the six, Taylor Jenkins Reid

DAISY: I run hot and I always have. I am not going to sit around sweating my ass off just so men can feel more comfortable. It’s not my responsibility to not turn them on. It’s their responsibility to not be an asshole.

Daisy Jones and the Six, Taylor Jenkins Reid

Ma. You once told me that memory is a choice. But if you were god, you’d know it’s a flood.

Ocean Vuong,One earth we are briefly gorgeous

In the end, that was the problem with romance. It was so easy to romanticise romance because it was everywhere. It was in music and on TV and in filtered Instagram photos. It was in the air, crisp and alive with fresh possibility. It was in falling leaves, crumbling wooden doorways, scuffed cobblestones and fields of dandelions. It was in the touch of hands, scrawled letters, crumpled sheets and the golden hour. A soft yawn, early morning laughter, shoes lined up together by the door. Eyes across a dance floor.

I could see it all, all the time, all around, but when I got closer, I found that nothing was there.

A mirage.

Loveless by Alice Oseman

Stories were living inside us. I think we were born to tell our stories. After we died, our stories would survive.

Maybe it was our stories that fed the universe the energy it needed to keep on giving life.Maybe all we were meant to do on this earth was to keep on telling stories.

Our stories—and the stories of the people we loved.

Benjamin Alire Sáenz, Aristotle and Dante Dive into the Waters of the World

“There’s a difference between being dead and dying. We’re all dying. Some of us die for ninety years, and some of us die for nineteen. But each morning everyone on this planet wakes up one day closer to their death. Everyone. So living and dying are actually different words for the same thing, if you think about it.”

Robyn Schneider, Extraordinary Means

"loneliness was a fundamental part of being a human in an essentially meaningless universe"

Matt Haig , The midnight library

You know what the problem is, I always give other people amazing and useful gift but they never give me a proper gift . There gifts are always useless. So from now on I have also started to give them cheap and useless gifts. Tit for tat :-).

Does it ever happen to you that you suddenly start to cry and you keep on crying but actually you do not know the reason behind it? You just cry!

"When you are a person who always care about others then who is supposed to care about you ".

"Everyone is afraid of something and that is a fact."

My mind is divided into two parts. One part always motivates me to do my best but the other part just demotivates me. Most of the time the other part wants to punish me for my failure. Not physical pain but the mental pain. These mental pain reduces my enthusiasm to do any work which leads to emotional breakdown and overthinking. The part which motivates me had helped me to deal with this emotional breakdown. Books have also helped me alot. Writing helps me to deal with overthinking. But still its quite hard.

Does this happen to you?

"What had happened that night in the Odysseides home was like phantom tide that swept in and out of her mind, etching deeper into the sand with each return. Sometimes she could go weeks without thinking about it, sometimes days, sometimes only hours. But then it would come again: diconnection from the body she fought so hard to strengthen, the suffocating feeling of powerlessness."

Llana Masad, Lore

"Maybe we just lived between hurting and healing."

Benjamin Alire Sáenz, Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe

"Another secret of the universe: Sometimes pain was like a storm that came out of nowhere. The clearest summer could end in a downpour. Could end in lightning and thunder."

Benjamin Alire Sánez,Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe

All I wanted to say is life could be hard sometimes so go easy on yourself.

"We are all alone trapped in these bodies and our minds and whatever company we have in this life is only fleeting and superficial."

Jennifer Niven, All the bright places

“You’re so obsessed with finding someone to love you because you can’t love yourself.”

— Unknown

"In the end, the thing that broke me also made me whole."

The broken heart gallery

"It is good to be loved, even though it will not last."

E.Lockhart, We were liars

"Death isn't about the person who's dead, it's about the people who are still alive."

Llana Masad, All my mother's lover

"It is hard to wait for people to make amends for and if you told them how they hurt you, they'd only feel bad about it and then you'd feel worse about yourself."

Llana Masad, All my mother's lovers