I Wish I Could Change That But I Cannot Write :') I Loved Your One Though!

It's maybe dump buuut any changes on Venuses approach towards Bill after a night-whimper story time?

(Context just in case, I'm a month late lololol)

Not at all, anon! I really like this question actually, and the reason it took me so long to answer is cause I really had to think about it, but I think I've got a good one for ya now.

Some complementary snuggles for ya, possibly a continuation of the last piece? Up to you! Answer's under the cut since it ended up being pretty long.

So, Bill is a pretty inherently childish character. He just wants to break rules and do whatever the hell he wants with no regard for anyone else because he can. Venuz lives with a pretty normal kid (Yung Cuz), and I like to imagine that he raised him himself, so Venuz knows how kids act. I think that Bill dropping his mask and revealing that, essentially, when things went to shit he stuck his fingers in his ears and went "la-la-la" instead of dealing with it like an adult showcased that immaturity of his, and Venuz recognized it.

Now, Venuz's feelings in regards to this depend on your headcanons of his character. Personally I bounce around two different ones: the Nuclear Throne interpretation and the Gun Godz interpretation.*

In NT he's just what we would think of when we think of a god; he's immortal, he's all-powerful, he's always been around and has always been a god. In this case, he can afford to be a careless and trusting guy because he can solve any problem with a thought. This Venuz immediately takes what Bill says at face value and lemme tell ya if he wasn't in love with the guy before this tragic side of him sure did it. Venuz likes when his gold chains are squeaky-clean, not his lovers; I think he adores that Bill's a terrifying disaster. (Not that he doesn't want to help of course; I'm sure the morning after was breakfast in bed and excessive cuddles and kisses)

In GG, Venuz is still a god, but he wasn't always. (I think I unconsciously took a lot of this from this awesome fic so credit where it's due lol) The planet runs on a system where Gun God is a title taken by force, i.e., to become the Gun God you need to kill the Gun God. He has been through the grinder and though he's mellowed out quite a bit after becoming Gun God he has issues really and truly trusting people. This Venuz is more cautious and keeps Bill's history of being a master manipulator in mind, knowing that there is no reason at all that Bill couldn't be putting on an act. That being said, Bill is pretty much harmless as long as Venuz doesn't consciously decide to return his powers to him, so he still tries to comfort him just in case.

Both are pretty great I think, one is lower-stakes and fun while the other has room for more angst and character growth. There is a hole in the GG logic though which is that if Bill got his hands on a gun he could just kill Venuz and become the Gun God, so uh...oops? Idk, this ship is still mostly crack and good fun tbh.

*TL;DR: NT Venuz sees this pathetic man and goes "shit. i love him even more now"; GG Venuz sees this pathetic man and goes "ok but if he's actually telling the truth then he needs me so"

Thanks for the ask!

Some recent rough paintings I forgot to post! I like being experimental in these so they all typically look kinda different from one another. Characters belong in order to wheat, Y00KIIE and Kyoshi_Kenshin <3

Furries can’t draw Switches, it is true

Got something big in the works but until then here are some incorrect quotes for my favorite video game. The second one’s noticeably older than the first but it still makes me go heeheehaha

More Bill and YV PLEASE I'm obsessed

Always happy to provide, anon! Here are some unseen sketches from The Archives™

[Please zoom in, there's a lot of detail! And a massive file size...ouch]

Hi guys, long time no post! Been working on Art Fight and life stuff, but I've got something kinda fun for you.

This is a compilation exploring how a mortal Bill may interact with our world if there were still some kinda Euclidean instincts buried in there. Y'know, before the Book of Bill ruins all my headcanons >:P (EDIT: IT HAS BEEN READ. YAHOOOOOO)

Also quite an experimental piece as you can probably tell. Lots of details on both said headcanons and the art stuff under the cut, but I invite you to study the colorful texture yourself beforehand and think about what it might be representative of, just for fun because I got some really cool answers from my friends when asked :]c

TL;DR: the headcanon is that Euclideans have exceptional eyes for geometry. They find things like symmetry, tessellating patterns, graphs and fractals very aesthetically pleasing. If pushed into our 3D world, they feel comforted by the familiarity flat objects/spaces bring, as well as high-contrast patterns. Shadows especially are a familiar dimensional reduction that may bring them much comfort.

Bill would surely not be happy about these inclinations, constant reminders of a past long gone, but I'm not sure he's even aware of them here :P I think his ego gets in the way to the point where he just views these interests as common sense, which, of course, us lame humans just don't understand because we aren't nearly as cool as him. Of course he likes perfectly symmetrical leaves and staring at the kitchen floor, it's called taste, look it up!

And yet, he can't seem to shake the strange sense of melancholy he gets from viewing his own shadow.

~ End of TL;DR, long version below! ~

🔺 Headcanon Development

So, the catalyst of this idea was in relation to my friend and I's AU ( @love-triangles-au ). TL;DR, Bill's brought back mortal, meets another triangle named Y.V. (it's his hand holding the paper in the piece, actually), at some point they fall in yaois together, you know how it is. And, in writing a pair of triangles (or, more broadly, writing from the perspective of a different species), something I've had to consider was that you really can't get much further removed from a human being than sentient geometry.

The anatomical aspect was mostly figured out (see my piece on Bill's eye-mouth), but I wanted to consider what psychological differences might be at play. I wanted them to be weirder, more alien, double-so for Bill. At first I explored these possibilities through the lens of Bill and Y.V.'s relationship, specifically the question "what might a triangle find appealing about another triangle?"

Well, really the only things that came to mind were straight lines and symmetry, anything related to the geometric form of such a creature. That's more-or-less where that ended until the thought struck me that there's no reason this aesthetic appreciation couldn't extend to the rest of the environment, and then further when I realized, "wait, this is a species that is designed to live in a 2D environment. Like, they should seriously be really weird. I need to push this like 200% more."

So...yeah! I did some thinking and brainstorming with others and came up with a pretty long list of things a Euclidean in our world may be inclined to enjoy or find some level of comfort in. It's worth noting again that in this piece specifically this is a mortal/powerless Bill, so he can't really escape this Earthly environment. IF he's aware of these instincts at all (and that's a big "if"; when have you last been cognizant of your own instincts let alone known where they were stemming from?) I think he'd have snuffed them out in immortality and/or purposefully gone against them; he doesn't take kindly to being told what to do.

In order from left-to-right, top-to-bottom, here's an explanation for each!:

Flat objects such as paper are something he may find particularly engaging. It's basically 2D!

Tessellations are especially fascinating, and our world has them everywhere in the form of tile floors. Symmetry and such a predictable pattern...as the infinity of the starry sky might for us, the infinite potential of tessellations might invoke a similar sense of awe in him. Add on the maximum contrast of black on white kitchen tiles and the forms are only even better defined! A sensitivity to contrast would be very helpful for a 2D being navigating their environment.

Fields are flat and open, much like Euclydia itself. Laying flat may make him feel a little more at home.

More tessellation in the honeycomb of hymenopterans (bees, wasps and friends)! It helps that pain is hilarious.

The city is an absolute treasure trove. Rectangular buildings, precise architecture, square sidewalks and straight lines abound...he may as well be looking at a rainbow or an art gallery! I think a Euclidean's brain is very fine-tuned to mathematics, especially in regards to trigonometry. What may appear to be a straight painting might appear obnoxiously crooked to him.

Zebras are high-contrast :]

Another flat surface, another relaxing space <3

I think graphs are about as high as high art gets to most Euclideans.

I've touched on shadows before, and for good reason; truly they must be something borderline magical to the Euclidean and perhaps bitterly nostalgic.

This one kinda speaks for itself. Dweeb.

🎨 The Artsy Stuff

Lately I've been trying to find ways to fit more color into my work, as color is perhaps one of my favorite things in the world. My wardrobe is rather garish; my dad jokes that you could see me from space. My fursona is obnoxiously bright for a reason -- I feel my soul is a very colorful one!

I also realized recently that I don't actually know the exact style that speaks to me. I could talk about the phenomenon of the "style crisis" that many artists have all day, but in my mind the best cure for this feeling is to go against it entirely and begin stealing as much as possible.

So, I've tried to keep an eye out for more sources of inspiration everywhere I go, physical and digital. I've tried to train my mind into making a habit of considering, "can I do anything with this?" everywhere I go, and it recently paid off!

The glittery rainbowy texture you see plastered all over Billiam is this one, a photo-manipulated set of fruit stickers. I must confess I've been obsessed with this image for the past 72 hours, and this seemed like a good excuse to try it out!

I worried throughout the process if it might be so abstract that it loops back around to being horribly deliberate, if that makes sense -- like each sparkle was not a piece of a whole but rather an object in itself -- but it seems like that hasn't been a problem, so I'm grateful for that :Dc

I hope it can dazzle and delight you as it does me, but as long as you find it fascinating at the very least then I consider it a success! I really enjoyed hearing my friends' interpretations while workshopping it, and got tons of amazing answers from opal to kaleidoscope to fossilized bone marrow! I truly believe that the best art has some room for interpretation and it really excites me to be surrounded by that kind of creative energy that follows said pieces. That definitely adds to my pride in this work. It's weird, it's colorful, it's detailed and yet ambiguous. I'm feeling pretty autistic about it

Alright, I think that's about it. Thanks for listening!

Another ref bc I'm on a roll and don't know what I want to draw. This is Alum and I believe he was also designed by Devilbinx! He's a pretty old OC to my knowledge so I'm glad to be giving her ol' guy a forever home. Totally in love with the conspiracy theories theme

I didn't realize I'd mixed up exothermic with ectothermic until it was too late pls don't hate me pls pls pls pls I'm sorry I'm so so sorry pls pls

Untitled, Feb 24th

Quick rendering practice that will never be finished lol. Inspired by my lovely mutual @charseraph‘s absolutely wonderful triangles; hypnotizing you into following them rn and beholding their beautiful crowns wawawawawa

Originally his surface was supposed to be a lot smoother but I kinda dug the hammered gold look so I went with it! My friends say he looks like an Emoji Movie render. Good.

Hi there!!! I hope you’re doing well ^^ I found your art recently and I’m a huge fan, your old kaput and zosky art made me so happy I had to pause for a minute- I really love your stuff!!! I’ve been super obsessed with kaput and zosky, and I’ve seen your accounts all around the internet about them, so it’s kinda got me wondering.. what ever happened to the video essay you were planning for? Was it scrapped? Do you have any plans of releasing the information/footage from the essay itself? I know it’s been a few years since you initially started work on it, and it’s been a while since you’ve posted for the show at all xd but I’m quite curious about it! Anyways, I really appreciate everything you’ve done for the community and it means a lot to me how much effort you put into the archival/wiki especially. Thank you so much for your time, I hope you have a wonderful day :D

Here’s a little zosky doodle for your travels

Hi there!! First of all THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SUCH A LOVELY MESSAGE waughh you've totally made my day!! 🥺🫶 Always love meeting another fan, and I'm so so touched to hear you enjoy my work! Secondly, I'm very glad you asked this, because it's something I've been thinking about lately. My explanation may be a little complicated, but the short version is that yes, it is still in the works!

The long answer is that progress was going very steady up until February 2023 when my mother passed away, which I believe was also when my K&Z posting slowed down. There's a long story within a long story there, but the gist of it is that I've been in a very bad place ever since then. I can't be sure exactly why the event made me drift from K&Z, but I suspect it was because my mom was so looking forward to seeing my video, and the thought that she never would, well...it really messed with me.

With that being said, I'm handling my grief a lot better these days. While things are still in a state of major uncertainty for a whole host of other reasons, I think I've mostly come to terms with that flavor of discontent. I see the project sitting unfinished in my files and I think about how close I am to being done with it, and I know she'd want me to do it. I want to do it, too! I worked very hard!

I began working on it again for the first time in like two years about two weeks ago. Over an hour of content was already fully edited and ready, it's just my last addendum that I need to work on. I'm hitting another problem now, and that is that a lot of my sources have vanished since I wrote the script, so, frustratingly enough, all I can really offer is a "trust me, bro" for quite a few points! But I think the big ones should still be there.

If anyone takes anything from this, I want it to be that you shouldn't wait to finish things, because you won't be the same person you were when you began. Nonetheless, again, it's only that last part, which I suspect shouldn't be more than likeee...ten minutes long? A drop in the bucket compared to the rest, for sure. Unfortunately it's also the most exciting part x'D Oh well, I'll figure it out!

I do still love K&Z, and I know I always will. I have a lot of requests saved up involving them, and I'd love to draw them when I'm in a better place. When I get depressed, I get art block, so only my biggest hyperfixations manage to barge past every now and again, which is why I've been so inactive in general. Nonetheless, I do check back here every day, so I'm always happy to answer any questions!

I'm gonna have a lot of free-time in April, so I'll try to get some more work on it done then for sure. Hopefully I'll be in a much better place as a whole come summertime. Thank you for the support, it really does make me feel excited for it again!

And AHHH thank you so much for the lovely Zöskies!! Such a beautiful style you have, he is wonderfully expressive! It feels so, so good to see him again <3

Have a lovely day, thanks for the much-needed smile! 💖

Phew, Tumblr’s finally given me my account back! Hello again everyone, missed you. :D

I’ve been mainly working on my tboi portraits mod lately, here's a sneak peak! So far I’ve been calling it the “hyper-detailed stylistically-inconsistent portraits mod” but that’s subject to change. Catchy name though, ain’t it?

Oops, almost forgot to post!

Hooray, another finished piece, and this time something all for myself! :D This is my boy Ikkii, he's my first fursuit! Well, kinda. He's just a head, saw him for sale real cheap on eBay and just fell in love with him so made the plunge since I've always wanted a suit. Then I asked my buddy Fantia to design the rest of him, and I just adore him even more now!

He needed a pfp and I needed to paint something so here he is in his fluffy glory. ^^ If you wanna see his suit head it's on his TH!