I HATE My Father So Much

Maybe ill be perfect after eating cold bones?

Worth a try i guess 😂

Me irl

~That girl~ fitness inspo

summer bodies are overrated

what about autumn bodies wearing leggings and oversized jumpers, holding a hot coffee in dainty hands. walking around in the crisp air feeling as light as an autumn leaf.

what about winter bodies at Christmas time helping with the fairy lights, nibbling at a mince pie and curling up against the fire, feeling the warmth against your cold thin body.

what about spring bodies, walking around in breezy skirts and crop tops, looking like a model and reading underneath a pink cherry blossom tree, legs as fragile as the petals floating and landing on your defined collarbones.

Sonntag, 20.06 2021

Morgens:

Gewicht: 54.3 (-500)

Gegessen: -

Kalorien: 0

Hunger: nein

Essverhalten: -

Sport: 60min spazieren

Vormittags:

Gewicht: -

Gegessen: Kirschen, 1 banane, 80g griech joghurt

Kalorien: 300

Hunger: bisschen

Essverhalten: abgelenkt (tumblr), mäßige Geschwindigkeit, essen fotografiert

Sport: -

Mittags:

Gewicht: -

Gegessen: 4 Maiswaffeln mit fettarmem Frischkäse, Stück Gouda

Kalorien: 300

Hunger: nein

Essverhalten: mit der Familie am Esstisch

Sport: -

Nachmittags:

Gewicht: -

Gegessen: Stück Peperonibrot, 1 Dose Mais, 2 maiswaffeln mit Marmelade, bisschen Karamelleis, 2 Neapolitaner, Popcorn

Kalorien: 1000

Hunger: ja, und Heißhunger

Essverhalten: abgelenkt, in der Küche, unkontrolliert, viel zu schnell

Sport: -

Abends:

Gewicht: 55.9

Gegessen: -

Kalorien: 0

Hunger: nein

Essverhalten: -

Sport: 13km joggen in 79min

Fazit

Gewicht&BMI: 54.3kg

Erste Mahlzeit: 10:00 Uhr

Fastenstunden: 15,0

Letzte Mahlzeit: 16:30 Uhr

Gesamte Kalorien: 1600

Getrunken: 3l

Schritte: 30000

Sport: joggen

Just venting

I got a message that yesterday, i had contact to a Person who has covid. I was at the doctors office with my mum and later went to university.

So to decide where i had this contact, i went to my mum and asked her if she had gotten this message, too. My mum and my father were watching a movie when i asked. My mum immediately checked her Phone, but my dad just yelled at me for disturbing them and blamed me for leaving the house so often. Then He yelled at me to go to my room befor my mother could even answer me

Bruh i wish i could live on my own

I have about 6 weeks before i have to go to the doctor for a general check-up

I better lose as much weight as possible before i get there

10 things to do if you feel like binging

1. Listen to music

2. Paint your nails.

3. Do at least 1 homework assignment

4. Go outside and get some air

5. Text/FaceTime a friend

6. Go on tumblr(my favorite😛)

7. Take a shower or bath

8. Play with a pet

9. Do your makeup

10. Do a chore like dishes, or laundry

10 low cal foods to eat

1. Popcorn (50 calories per cup)

2. cucumbers (16 calories in a cup)

3. Rice cakes (30 calories per cake)

4. Lettuce(5 calories per cup!!!)

5. Pickles(16 calories per cup)

6. Carrots( 45 calories per cup)

7.broth (16-ish calories per cup)

8. Watermelon(46 calories per cup)

9.Egg whites(16 calories per egg-also high in protein)

10. Plain non fat yogurt(137 calories per cup)

10 things to do after you binge

1. Take a deep breath, it’s okay

2. Drink at least one cup of water

3. Go on a walk

4. Try and write down what foods made you binge so it won’t happen again

5. Clean up any messes you made

6. Take a shower

7. Write down a plan on how not to binge next time

8. Do something productive

9. Purging isn’t worth it

10. Try again tomorrow❤️

My motivation?

I’ve never experienced being less than 100 lbs.

I’ve never had someone gasp at my small thighs or jutting rib cage

I’ve never had noticeable cheekbones.

I’ve never looked thin in a large sweater, just added pounds to my body.

I’ve never felt comfortable wearing tight shirts.

I’ve never experienced being “thin”, only “normal”.

And I want to change all that.

The first photo i was 55kg and now im 49 kg. This was just after my accident with all my muscles deteriorated