different anon but can you do another part to "where the hurt doesn't reach" but with a female reader? And with Mahiru, Toko and Maki?
Lmao just realised whilst writing that's one girl from each main game
A/N: Of course :} We love some wlw. Just so its made known, though, any time I write for Toko, I am going to add Jack into it as well. Just because there isn't exactly one without the other.
Mahiru:
The afternoon light poured softly through the old windows of Hope’s Peak’s photography studio, painting the floor in golden strips. Dust hung suspended in the beams, undisturbed until Mahiru Koizumi walked through them, camera slung over her shoulder, her gaze sharp but kind.
She hadn’t expected anyone to be here. The studio was usually empty this time of day- most students preferring the courtyard or their dorms. But as she stepped inside, her eyes caught the figure curled in the corner.
(Y/N) sat on the floor, knees drawn up to her chest, arms wrapped around them like she was holding herself together. She flinched before Mahiru even said a word.
Mahiru stopped. No sudden moves. No loud noises. Just a steady breath, then another.
“I didn’t mean to scare you,” she said gently. “I can leave, if you want.”
(Y/N)’s eyes flicked up. She didn’t speak- just shook her head, barely perceptible. Her gaze was wary, but not unkind.
Mahiru studied her for a moment. (Y/N) had always kept to herself in class. Quiet. Careful. Like she was bracing for something. Mahiru had seen bruises like that before- not the kind on skin, but the kind behind the eyes.
“I just wanted to develop some photos,” Mahiru continued, moving to her usual table. She set down her bag with deliberate softness, not looking at (Y/N) again right away. “You can stay. I don’t mind.”
Silence stretched. A quiet, fragile kind. But Mahiru didn’t try to fill it. She just got to work, letting the scent of developer fluid and the rhythmic motions of her craft fill the room with calm.
A soft voice, almost a whisper “You… take photos of people, right?”
Mahiru turned. (Y/N)’s arms were still wrapped around herself, but her gaze had shifted. Curious. Afraid, but curious.
“Yeah,” Mahiru said. “Not the posed kind, though. I like catching real moments. People being themselves.”
“…Is that hard?”
Mahiru tilted her head. “Sometimes. Depends on the person. Some people put up walls. Some people just… disappear behind a smile.” She paused. “But I think everyone deserves to be seen. Really seen. Not judged. Not used. Just… seen.”
(Y/N) blinked. Her throat moved like she wanted to say something else but couldn’t find the words. Mahiru didn’t push her.
Minutes passed. Then… “Can I see one?”
Mahiru smiled, soft and genuine. She handed over a photo- black and white, grainy but intimate. A girl laughing mid-step, barefoot in the rain. The joy in her eyes was unfiltered. Free.
“She looks happy,” (Y/N) murmured, almost like it hurt to say.
“She was. For a moment.”
“…I don’t think I’ve ever looked like that.”
Something in Mahiru’s chest tugged painfully. She crouched near (Y/N), keeping a careful distance, her voice quieter now.
“Then maybe one day,” she said, “I can take a photo of you like that.”
(Y/N) tensed. She didn’t look up. “I don’t… like cameras.”
Mahiru nodded. “Okay. I won’t take any unless you ask.”
A long silence followed, but it was different now. Less sharp. Less suffocating.
Finally, (Y/N) asked, “Why are you being nice to me?”
Mahiru looked at her, earnest and unwavering. “Because I’ve seen what cruelty does to people. And because being kind… costs nothing. But it means everything.”
(Y/N)’s eyes shimmered, and she wiped at them with the back of her sleeve. Not sobbing. Just letting go, piece by piece.
“Most guys I knew didn’t think that way,” she whispered.
“I’m not most guys,” Mahiru said simply. “And they were wrong. About everything.”
The room felt warmer now. Not fully safe- not yet- but safer than it had been. Mahiru turned back to her photos, giving (Y/N) her space, but the quiet between them no longer felt like a wall.
It felt like a bridge.
The next time Mahiru entered the studio, (Y/N) was already there.
She sat on the windowsill this time, knees tucked up, eyes on the light slanting across the floor. She didn’t look surprised when Mahiru arrived- just quietly acknowledged her with a small nod.
Mahiru smiled softly. “Hey.”
“Hi.”
That was all. No explanations, no apologies for taking up space. Just presence.
Mahiru began setting up her camera again, checking the prints she’d left to dry last time. Her hands worked by muscle memory, but her mind was half on (Y/N). She could feel the quiet shift in the air- not tension, but something fragile trying to grow roots.
“You come here a lot,” (Y/N) said after a while, her voice still soft but a little more open.
Mahiru glanced up. “Yeah. It’s my favorite place. It’s quiet, but not lonely. You know?”
(Y/N) nodded. “I think I do.”
They spent more afternoons like that- saying little, doing even less. Sometimes (Y/N) brought a book. Sometimes she watched Mahiru work in silence, eyes following her movements with a kind of wary fascination.
One day, after Mahiru developed a print and held it up to the light, she felt (Y/N)’s gaze linger a little longer than usual.
“…Can I try?”
Mahiru turned, blinking. “You want to take a photo?”
(Y/N) hesitated, like the offer might collapse if she reached for it. Then she nodded.
“Of something else. Not people. Just… I want to know what you see through the camera.”
Mahiru handed it over gently, careful not to overwhelm her. “It’s all about finding the moment,” she said. “Even if it’s quiet. Especially if it’s quiet.”
(Y/N) moved slowly through the room, camera clutched like something precious. She didn’t raise it to her eye right away. Just observed. Then- click.
A stack of worn books on a shelf… The light catching on Mahiru’s film strips. A photo pinned crookedly on the wall, curling at the edges like it had been there too long.
When she handed the camera back, her hands were shaking just a little. But her eyes were calm.
Mahiru reviewed the shots, brows lifting. “These are good.”
“You’re just saying that.”
“No, I’m not.” Mahiru turned the display toward her. “Look. You’ve got an eye for the quiet things. The things most people overlook. That’s rare.”
Something bloomed faintly in (Y/N)’s chest- small, unfamiliar. Not pride. Something gentler. Like she mattered.
“You’re the only one I like being around,” she admitted quietly. “Everyone else feels… too loud. Too close.”
Mahiru set the camera down, her expression unreadable for a moment. Then she moved to sit near her, again keeping distance but close enough to be felt.
“I’ll never be loud with you,” Mahiru promised. “Not unless you want me to be. And if you ever want space, I’ll give it. You call the shots.”
(Y/N) looked at her- really looked at her- and for the first time, the fear in her eyes wasn’t the strongest thing there.
“…Can I take a photo of you?” she asked. “Just once?”
Mahiru blinked. “Me?”
(Y/N) nodded, already lifting the camera. “You were the first person who made me feel like I wasn’t broken.”
Mahiru didn’t speak- just sat still, the warmth in her expression softening every line of her face.
Click....
(Y/N) lowered the camera. Her hands weren’t shaking anymore.
Toko (and Jack):
(Y/N) kept to the corners of Hope’s Peak like a ghost- silent, untouchable, half-there. Shadows had become home, and solitude, the safest companion. The halls were too loud, the stares too sharp, and worst of all, there were too many boys. Too many broad shoulders, too many lowered voices and sudden movements, too many ways for fear to bloom in their chest like a bruise.
So when Toko Fukawa noticed them- really noticed- it was like the page of a book folding open mid-sentence.
She was used to being invisible, too. Not that she wanted attention. Attention meant judgment. Meant whispers and the gleam of disgust in someone’s eye. But (Y/N) wasn’t disgusted. When she looked at her, it was like she was bracing for a storm that never came. Like she was holding her breath, and still chose to meet her gaze anyway.
It unsettled her. And fascinated her.
One afternoon in the library, the silence between them finally broke. (Y/N) sat at the farthest table, fingers twitching as she turned the same page over and over, unread.
“You’re… uh… you’re not doing it right,” Toko blurted, then flinched at herself. “I mean-! You’ve been on that page for six minutes and thirty-two seconds.”
(Y/N) startled like a deer, flinching before shrinking into herself. Toko nearly apologized- nearly- but the words died in her throat. She saw the fear then, tucked behind her eyes like a broken wing.
“I wasn’t watching you,” she lied, cheeks burning. “Okay, maybe I was, but not in a creepy way, I swear. I just- ugh! I mean-” She groaned, burying her face in her sleeves. “This is why I should just talk to paper…”
“…You’re not scary.”
The voice was so soft, Toko almost didn’t hear it.
(Y/N) was still hunched, but she looked at her with something new: caution, not fear. As if testing the waters of her presence.
“You’re not like them,” she said.
Toko blinked. Then flushed deeper.
“W-Well of course not! I’m disgusting and weird and hideous and- wait, no, that wasn’t the point-!” She slapped a hand over her mouth. “God, I’m screwing this up…”
But (Y/N) wasn’t retreating. Their lips twitched upward- not quite a smile, more like the idea of one.
A beat passed. Then Toko hesitated. “Do you… wanna read with me?”
The next few days were different.
(Y/N) didn’t talk much, but she didn’t have to. Toko would sit across from her in the library, the space between filled with the quiet rustle of pages and the faint tap of pencils. She’d sneak glances when (Y/N) wasn’t looking. Noticed how her shoulders flinched whenever someone loud passed by. How she always kept a wall at her back.
Toko knew trauma. Knew what it was like to live with the ghost of a hand too rough and a voice too loud. It made her stomach twist, thinking of what (Y/N) must’ve endured. But she didn’t ask. Instead, she gave her space- and safety.
At least, until Genocide Jack decided to make an appearance.
(Y/N) had been particularly quiet that day. Paler than usual. The bruise of nightmares still dark under her eyes. Toko barely had time to ask what was wrong before the pressure in her chest burst.
A jolt, a cackle, a sneeze- and she was gone.
In her place stood Genocide Jack, twirling scissors in her hand like they were an extension of her fingers.
“Well, hellooo, cupcake!” she sang, eyes glinting. “Didn’t expect to see such a sad little cutie on this fine, freaky day!”
(Y/N) froze.
Jack noticed.
Her smirk faltered, just a little. She cocked her head, lowering her scissors.
“Hey. Hey, woah. Easy there, sweetheart,” she cooed. “You think I’m gonna hurt you? Nah. You’re not my type.” She winked, but it didn’t carry the same manic glee. More… reassuring. Protective, even.
“You’re shaking,” she said, softer now. “Who did it?”
(Y/N)’s eyes flicked away.
Jack crouched down in front of them, still keeping a careful distance.
“You know, Toko’s real boring about this crap. She’d stammer and flail and write you a sad sonnet or whatever.” She tapped her chin. “But me? I get mad. Real mad. No one- and I mean no one- gets to hurt my little book buddy.”
That surprised (Y/N). “Book… buddy?”
“Damn right,” Jack said, grinning. “You’ve been sharing brain space with Toko. Which means, like it or not, you’ve got me too. Congratulations! You’ve earned a raving lunatic guardian angel.”
It was ridiculous. And terrifying. And oddly… comforting.
When Toko returned, blinking back into herself like a splash of cold water, she gasped. “Did she say something weird? She always says something weird-”
“She called me her book buddy,” (Y/N) murmured.
Toko froze. A flush crept up her face.
“She… she what?!”
(Y/N) chuckled.
It was quiet, fragile- but real. The first sound of real laughter that had left her in weeks.
And in that moment, for the first time in longer than she could remember, she felt safe.
Not because the world was safe.
But because someone saw her. Bruises and all. And stayed.
After that strange, oddly healing moment, something began to shift.
(Y/N) kept coming to the library, but now she didn’t sit across from Toko- she sat beside her. Close enough that their sleeves would sometimes brush. Close enough that when loud footsteps echoed down the hall, (Y/N) would inch a little nearer, and Toko wouldn’t say a word. She’d just keep reading, heart pounding but steady, letting her presence do what words couldn’t.
And sometimes, when things got especially bad- when the nightmares came back, when (Y/N) walked the halls like she was holding back tears with each breath- Genocide Jack would come out, unprompted.
Toko didn’t always understand it, but somehow, (Y/N) liked her.
Her. The maniac. The murderer. The sharp-toothed, unfiltered chaos hiding in her bones.
“You’re not afraid of me,” Jack had said once, tilting her head as she sprawled upside down across the library bench. “Why’s that, huh? You like girls with a little stab in their step?”
(Y/N) gave her a look that was half-smile, half-sigh. “You’re honest,” she said simply. “You never lie about what you are.”
Jack blinked. Then she gave a laugh that wasn’t manic at all- just warm.
“Damn. You’re weird. I like it.”
They became an odd trio, in their way. (Y/N), quiet and ghostlike, Toko with her words and shame and fragile pride, and Jack, blazing through it all like a storm with scissors and sarcasm.
When Toko asked, in one of her rare moments of boldness, why (Y/N) kept showing up, she answered without hesitation:
“Because you make me feel okay… just being here.”
That stayed with Toko. Long after the library closed. Long after (Y/N) had gone.
It haunted her in the best way.
One evening, the library was nearly empty. Toko sat with her knees hugged to her chest, notebook open but untouched. (Y/N) hadn’t said much all day. She was pale again. Too still.
“Bad night?” she asked quietly.
(Y/N) nodded, then hesitated. “He used to bang on the door before coming in. Even now… I flinch when I hear knocking.”
Toko’s hands clenched around her sleeves.
“…I know how that feels.”
She looked up, surprised.
Toko wasn’t looking at her- she was staring at the floor, trembling just slightly.
“I had someone like that… he never knocked, either,” she whispered. “Sometimes I think I still hear his footsteps. I hate it. I hate how my body still remembers even when I try to forget.”
(Y/N) shifted. Slowly, she reached out and placed her hand over Toko’s.
Just that.
Toko froze.
But she didn’t pull away.
Neither of them said anything for a while. The silence wasn’t heavy this time. It was soft. Tentative.
“Do you… wanna stay with me tonight?” (Y/N) asked. “We don’t have to talk. Just… I sleep better when I know someone’s nearby.”
Toko’s breath caught.
Then she nodded.
That night, Toko sat curled in a beanbag in (Y/N)’s dorm room, notebook in her lap, glasses slipping down her nose. (Y/N) was in bed, curled under her blanket, already breathing softly.
Jack didn’t come out. For once, she stayed quiet. Still. Maybe even… at peace.
Toko watched (Y/N) sleep for a while, blinking slowly.
She didn’t understand why she liked being around her- around them- but she felt it. Felt it in the way (Y/N) leaned into her presence. Trusted her. Wanted her there.
It didn’t make her feel disgusting.
It made her feel wanted.
Maki:
It started with a broken cup.
(Y/N) hadn’t meant to drop it- it was just a clumsy twitch of the wrist, a ghost memory of flinching at a voice that wasn’t there. The ceramic shattered on the dormitory floor, echoing far too loud in the quiet of the common room. Her breath caught, eyes wide, body frozen like prey expecting punishment.
Maki Harukawa stepped into the doorway at that exact moment.
Her expression was unreadable, the same quiet storm it always was. Sharp eyes flicked from the broken cup to (Y/N), then to the trembling in her hands.
“I’ll clean it,” (Y/N) said quickly, too quickly. Her voice was thin and shaky, like a thread pulled too tight. “I didn’t mean to- please, don’t-”
“I’m not mad.” Maki’s voice was flat, but not cold. She moved slowly, deliberately, as if approaching a wounded animal. “I’ll get the broom.”
(Y/N) blinked. That was all she said.
Minutes passed. The shards were swept into a dustpan. Maki didn’t ask questions, didn’t press. She simply crouched, scooped the last of the fragments into a bag, and threw it away.
Then silence.
(Y/N) stood awkwardly in the corner, arms wrapped tightly around herself. “You didn’t have to do that.”
“I wanted to.”
“You... wanted to?”
Maki finally looked at her then- really looked. Not with pity, but with a kind of quiet understanding that unnerved and comforted at once.
“I’ve seen that look before,” she said after a pause. “The way you flinched. The way your voice changes around men.”
(Y/N) stiffened.
Maki sat down on the edge of the couch, legs tucked under her. She didn’t ask (Y/N) to join her. She didn’t ask anything at all.
But after a moment, (Y/N) sat too. Not beside her- just near enough to feel the warmth of someone who wasn’t going to hurt her.
“It was my stepfather,” (Y/N) whispered, unsure why the words came out. “He was... angry. A lot. And when I couldn’t be what he wanted, he made sure I understood that.”
Maki didn’t look away. Her face didn’t twist in sympathy. She just listened.
“I’m afraid all the time,” (Y/N) admitted. “Especially around men. I know not everyone’s like him, but my body won’t listen. It freezes. I... freeze.”
“You don’t have to explain yourself to me.” Maki’s tone didn’t change, but there was something soft behind it now. “Fear is how we survive sometimes.”
(Y/N) looked at her- the calm way Maki sat, so still, like a blade sheathed but never dull. She didn’t fidget. She didn’t reach out. She gave them space in a way no one else did.
“You’re the first person who hasn’t tried to fix me,” (Y/N) said, voice barely audible.
“That’s because you’re not broken,” Maki answered. “You’re hurt. There’s a difference.”
Silence wrapped around them again, this time not suffocating, but protective. Like a blanket pulled just high enough to hide behind.
Maki stood after a while, heading for the door. But before she left, she paused.
“I’m in the training room most mornings,” she said. “You don’t have to come. But if you do, I won’t ask why.”
(Y/N) blinked. “Are you... inviting me?”
Her eyes met (Y/N)’s. “I’m saying... it’s easier to fight ghosts when you’re not alone.”
And then she was gone.
But the room didn’t feel empty after.
It felt like the beginning of something quiet and kind.
It took three days for (Y/N) to show up.
She lingered at the edge of the training room, hands in her sleeves, unsure if she was welcome or just tolerated. But Maki didn’t stop mid-punch or raise an eyebrow. She just glanced toward her once, nodded like she’d expected it all along, and kept moving.
The rhythmic sound of fists against the sandbag was oddly soothing. Predictable. Controlled.
Unlike the chaos in (Y/N)’s chest.
“Want to try?” Maki asked without turning around.
(Y/N) hesitated. “I don’t really... fight.”
“That’s fine,” Maki said simply. “You don’t have to be strong like me.”
She offered a pair of gloves anyway, left them on the bench without pressure. (Y/N) didn’t touch them. Not that day.
But she came back. Again and again.
And slowly, something changed.
It wasn’t about the punching bags or the training. It was the routine. The silence. The way Maki didn’t push or prod or fill the air with empty words. She understood the language of people who flinch when spoken to too loudly.
(Y/N) started stretching beside her. Then mimicking the jabs. Then laughing- only once- when she tripped over her own feet, and Maki’s mouth twitched with something dangerously close to a smirk.
She was different when she let her guard down. Her sarcasm was dry and unexpected, her observations razor-sharp but never cruel. And (Y/N) found herself relaxing, just a little, every time she was near.
One morning, (Y/N) came in with a hoodie pulled tight over their head, shoulders hunched. Her eyes were puffy. She didn’t say anything.
Maki didn’t ask.
She just took a water bottle, cracked it open, and handed it over wordlessly.
“I had a nightmare,” (Y/N) whispered after a while. “I woke up and thought I was back there.”
Maki looked at her, silent for a moment. Then she said, “Sometimes I still dream of the first person I had to kill.”
(Y/N)’s breath caught.
“I didn’t want to,” Maki continued. “But I was told it was necessary. That if I didn’t, they’d kill me instead.”
A pause.
Then, gently: “You’re not alone in waking up afraid.”
(Y/N) looked down at her hands. “I hate how weak I feel.”
“You’re not weak. You survived.”
One week later, (Y/N) asked if she could walk with Maki to the courtyard.
It wasn’t much. Just sitting together in the chilly breeze, backs against the wall, sharing a peach Maki had taken from the kitchen like it was nothing.
Maki glanced sideways as (Y/N) chewed in silence. “You don’t have to stay near me just because I make you feel safe.”
(Y/N)’s eyes widened. “That’s not the only reason.”
“Oh?”
“I... like you.” The words stumbled out in a rush. “I mean, not just the way you make me feel calm. I like you. The way you listen. The way you don’t treat me like glass.”
Maki blinked. For a second, she said nothing.
Then: “I like being around you too.”
She didn’t blush. Didn’t fidget. But she let her knee brush against (Y/N)’s, the contact featherlight but real. Present. Intentional.
“I won’t touch you unless you ask,” Maki said quietly. “But if you ever want to be close, I’ll be here.”
And (Y/N), for the first time in years, leaned in just enough to rest her head against her shoulder.
The air smelled like fallen leaves and something new.
Something safe.
pt.1
Summary: After a mission leaves (Y/N) grappling with guilt, she isolates herself, struggling to accept what she has done. Despite her friends' attempts to reach her, it’s Silco’s quiet reassurance that helps her begin to heal. Two weeks later, she reemerges, cutting her hair and returning to work and training, determined to move forward. One night, she confides in Silco, fearing she has become a monster. He reassures her that guilt proves she still has a heart, grounding her in his unwavering support. As life in Zaun stabilizes, the group- Vander, Silco, (Y/N), and Felicia- find comfort in their bond. Together, the group moves forward- not just as friends, but as family.
The bar was alive with noise- laughter, drunken shouts, the clinking of glasses- but to (Y/N), it all sounded distant. Muted.
She barely noticed the people in her way as she shoved past them, her steps quick, purposeful. Her fingers trembled as she climbed the stairs, her breath unsteady, her mind still caught in the warehouse. Still caught in that moment.
By the time she reached her room, she slammed the door shut and locked it behind her. Only then did she allow herself to exhale.
The room felt suffocating. Her skin felt tainted.
She had done what she needed to do. What they had all agreed had to be done. But the truth settled in her gut like a stone- she wasn’t just the hunted anymore.
She was the hunter.
She had become what they feared.
(Y/N) sat down heavily on the edge of her bed, running a hand over her face. The faint scent of smoke still clung to her fingers, her clothes. She looked down at her hands, staring at them in the dim candlelight. They still held the smallest warmth, a whisper of the magic she had used, a reminder of what she had done.
She clenched her hands into fists, taking a deep breath.
Outside, the bar carried on. Life moved forward, just as it always did.
Silco hadn’t followed her. She was grateful for that. She didn’t want to see the way he looked at her- not with judgment, because he wouldn’t judge her. But maybe with understanding. And that, somehow, was worse.
Because it meant he knew exactly what this felt like.
Downstairs, Silco leaned against the bar, tracing the rim of his glass as Vander and the others waited for him to speak.
“It’s done,” he finally said, his voice even.
Vander exhaled, rubbing his jaw. Benzo gave a small nod, as if he had already expected as much. Felicia shifted uncomfortably, glancing toward the stairs but saying nothing.
No one asked for details. No one needed them.
Silco took a slow sip from his glass, his mind still half elsewhere.
(Y/N) would come to him when she was ready.
Until then, he would wait.
The days blurred together in a haze of smoke and silence.
(Y/N) barely left her room. If she did, it was only for a moment- to grab water, to stare out the window before disappearing again. She barely ate. She barely spoke.
They all tried. Vander knocked first, his voice gentle but firm, asking if she needed anything. She didn’t answer.
Felicia tried next, lingering outside the door, speaking softly, but (Y/N) still said nothing.
Even Benzo made an attempt, though he only sighed when he was met with silence, muttering something about how no one could hide away forever.
Silco was the last to try. He didn’t knock. He simply stood outside her door, silent for a moment, before speaking low enough that only she could hear.
“I’m still here.”
That was all. Then he left.
Still, she didn’t come out.
The bar continued on without her, though an uneasy weight hung over the place. Silco tried to act like it didn’t bother him, but his foot tapped anxiously under the counter, his cigarette burned lower than usual, and the shadows beneath his eyes darkened.
Vander, on the other hand, was dealing with an entirely different shift.
A title had been given to him- The Hound of the Underground.
It spread quickly. People whispered about the job they had pulled, about how the Enforcer captain had vanished without a trace. But more than that, they whispered about Vander.
Vander never wanted to be a leader. That had always seemed more like Silco’s role. But now, people were looking to him- to his strength, to his ability to stand against Piltover’s boot. And, whether he liked it or not, he was stepping into the role.
Silco found it amusing, watching Vander take the spotlight while he worked from the shadows… It had its own benefits.
A new captain had been appointed. A woman named Grayson.
Enforcer patrols had increased tenfold. They were more careful, more disciplined. But they still didn’t have a single lead.
And so, life went on.
For everyone- except (Y/N).
The second week passed, heavy with silence.
But that morning, (Y/N) made a decision.
She rose from bed, the stiffness in her limbs a reminder of how long she had spent lying in one place. The room was dim, the light from the cracked window barely illuminating the space. Slowly, she stepped into the washroom, bracing herself against the sink as she stared into the mirror.
She barely recognized herself.
Her eyes were dull, rimmed with exhaustion. Her skin was more pale, her lips pressed in a thin, tired line. The weight of what she had done clung to her, suffocating, but she wasn’t going to let it keep consuming her.
Not anymore.
(Y/N) opened one of the cabinets, searching until her fingers curled around a pair of old scissors. She exhaled, steadying her grip, and lifted them to her hair.
The first snip was the hardest.
But once she started, she didn’t stop. Strands of hair fell into the sink, a stark contrast against the porcelain, as she cut her way up to her eyes. She let it frame her face, leaving the back a little longer. She had done this before- cut Silco’s hair when they were younger, Vander’s, even Felicia’s once when she had been too impatient to grow it out.
So she wasn’t completely clueless.
She evened out the edges as best as she could, then took a step back to examine herself.
It was different. But maybe different was what she needed.
Once she was done, she swept the fallen hair into a pile, throwing it away before turning toward the bathtub.
She had let herself sit in her own filth for too long.
(Y/N) ran the water hot, stripping off her clothes and stepping in. The heat burned against her skin, but she welcomed it, scrubbing away the grime and sweat that clung to her. Her stitches had healed now- she had torn the thread from her body a few nights prior, biting down on a cloth to muffle the pain.
It was over now.
She let herself sink beneath the water, closing her eyes for a moment before resurfacing.
She was ready.
Ready to move forward.
(Y/N) got dressed, did the routine she had been avoiding for so long, making herself look a bit more presentable. She took a deep breath, before stepping out of her room.
The scent of smoke, cheap liquor, and freshly brewed coffee filled the air as she made her way down the stairs. The usual sounds of the bar hummed softly around her- glasses clinking, quiet conversation, the occasional creak of a chair against the wooden floor.
Vander stood behind the counter, cleaning a glass with slow, methodical movements. Silco sat off to the side, his head bowed over his journal, the tip of his pen scratching against the page. Across the room, Felicia sat with Connol, a cup of coffee in her hands as she spoke with him.
At first, none of them noticed her.
Then Vander looked up, his hands faltering mid-motion. His brows furrowed slightly before his expression softened, a worried but relieved smile tugging at his lips.
Silco, noticing Vander’s pause, raised an eyebrow and followed his gaze. When his eyes landed on (Y/N), his pen stilled. His gaze lingered on her hair, eyes widening just slightly as he took in the change.
Felicia was the last to notice.
Her conversation with Connol cut off as she turned her head, blinking in surprise before realization dawned on her. Without hesitation, she pushed back from her chair and rushed over, her coffee abandoned.
"(Y/N)!"
Before she could react, Felicia grabbed her, pulling her into a tight embrace.
(Y/N) tensed for a second before slowly relaxing into it, exhaling against Felicia’s shoulder.
“You absolute idiot,” Felicia murmured, voice thick with emotion. “You scared the hell out of us.”
(Y/N) swallowed hard, guilt twisting in her gut.
“I know,” she whispered.
Felicia pulled back, placing her hands on (Y/N)’s shoulders as she took a better look at her. “You cut your hair,” she murmured, brushing her fingers lightly against the shorter strands. “It looks good.”
(Y/N) gave a small, tired smile. “Thanks.”
Felicia let out a breath, shaking her head before pulling her in for another quick hug. “Don’t do that again, alright?”
(Y/N) nodded against her shoulder. “I won’t.”
As they stepped apart, (Y/N) glanced over at Vander and Silco.
Vander, still behind the counter, gave her a slow nod, his expression unreadable. “You hungry?” he asked.
(Y/N) hesitated, but after a moment, she nodded. “Yeah.”
Vander’s lips twitched slightly, and without another word, he turned toward the small kitchen in the back.
Silco, still seated, was watching her closely. His expression wasn’t as easy to read as the others. His gaze flickered back to her hair before meeting her eyes.
(Y/N) raised an eyebrow. “What?”
Silco huffed a quiet chuckle, shaking his head. “Nothing.”
He tapped his pen against his journal before flipping it shut and standing. “C’mon,” he said, nodding toward the counter. “Sit down. You look like you could use something stronger than coffee.”
(Y/N) let out a soft laugh. “I think I’ve had enough of that for a while.”
Silco smirked. “We’ll see.”
As she moved toward the counter, the weight in her chest didn’t feel as heavy as before. She wasn’t sure if things would ever go back to normal.
But at least she wasn’t alone.
Instead of reaching for a bottle of whiskey like she normally would, (Y/N) leaned over the bar and grabbed a cup, pouring herself some coffee. The warmth seeped into her hands as she brought it to her lips, sipping slowly.
Felicia, still watching her carefully, grabbed Connol’s hand and tugged him along to sit beside her at the bar. Silco settled next to (Y/N), resting his arms on the counter as he watched her with quiet curiosity.
(Y/N) set her cup down and exhaled. “Alright… I’ve been ignoring everything for a while now. Catch me up. What’s been happening?”
Felicia and Connol exchanged a look before Felicia started.
“Well… for one, the Enforcers are crawling all over the place now. They’ve been patrolling constantly since the captain went missing, but no one’s been caught or questioned.” She leaned on the counter, tilting her head. “Oh, and Vander has a new title now.”
(Y/N) raised an eyebrow. “Oh?”
Silco smirked. “The Hound of the Underground.”
(Y/N) blinked before huffing out a quiet laugh. “That’s a bit dramatic, don’t you think?”
Felicia grinned. “You know how people get. Word spreads fast, and apparently, he’s got a whole reputation now. People are looking up to him, seeing him as a leader.”
(Y/N) stole another sip of coffee, glancing over toward Vander, who was still in the back making food. She knew he never intended for something like that to happen, but she also knew he wouldn’t ignore it. He never could.
“And the new Enforcer captain?” she asked.
Connol spoke up for the first time. “A woman named Grayson. Word is, she’s not like the last guy. Doesn’t take bribes as easily. She’s been trying to keep the other Enforcers from acting like power-hungry thugs.”
(Y/N) scoffed. “Good luck with that.”
“Yeah,” Felicia muttered, taking a sip of her coffee. “We’ll see how long that lasts.”
As they talked, (Y/N) kept having to tug her shirt back over her shoulder, the fabric slipping more than usual. It wasn’t until Silco’s gaze flickered downward that she realized why.
She had thinned out.
Not drastically, but enough to notice. Two weeks of barely eating had taken its toll. Her sleeves felt looser, her frame not as solid as before.
Silco didn’t say anything, but she caught the way his fingers drummed against the counter, a small furrow forming between his brows.
Felicia noticed too. She didn’t comment, but she shifted closer, nudging (Y/N) lightly.
“Vander’s making you food,” she said, as if reading her thoughts. “You’re eating all of it.”
(Y/N) sighed but didn’t argue. She took another sip of coffee instead, letting the warmth settle in her chest.
It didn’t take Vander long to bring out a plate of food, setting it down in front of (Y/N) with a firm look that told her there was no room for argument. She eyed it for a moment before glancing up at him with a smirk.
“So, ‘Hound of the Underground,’ huh?” she teased, picking up her fork.
Vander groaned, rubbing a hand over his face. “Don’t start.”
Felicia snickered. “Too late.”
(Y/N) chuckled, shaking her head as she finally took a bite. It felt like forever since she’d eaten something warm, something made with care. Vander watched her for a second, making sure she actually ate before he went back to his work.
She ate slowly, listening as the conversation around her continued.
“So,” Silco said, leaning on the counter beside her, “now that you’re up and about again… what’s next?”
(Y/N) paused mid-bite, mulling over the question. Truthfully, she hadn’t thought that far. She had spent so long locking herself away, suffocating under the weight of her own mind, that she hadn’t considered what came after.
She chewed, swallowed, and exhaled. “I don’t know yet,” she admitted.
Felicia crossed her arms. “Well, you’re not running off on your own, if that’s what you’re thinking.”
(Y/N) scoffed. “Not planning to.”
Silco watched her, fingers tapping lazily against the counter. “Then you stay here. Lay low. Let things settle.”
(Y/N) nodded. “That’s the plan.”
For now.
She took another bite, keeping her gaze lowered as the others continued talking. Despite everything, despite the weight still lingering in her chest, she felt… lighter.
Not fixed.
Not free.
But present.
As she ate, (Y/N) let her thoughts wander. She needed something to keep her occupied- something that wasn’t drinking herself numb or locking herself away again. She needed routine, structure.
The mines.
It was how they had started, how they had kept themselves afloat when things were uncertain. Hard work, exhausting work, but it kept them out of trouble. At least, most of the time.
She could go back to that. Spend her days in the mines, doing honest work, something that would wear her down in a way that wasn’t guilt or self-loathing. And when she wasn’t in the mines… she could train.
Her magic had changed- not a whole lot, but still… It had grown stronger. She needed to harness it, sharpen it like a blade instead of letting it lash out blindly.
She tapped her fingers against the counter, coming to a decision.
"I think I’m gonna start working in the mines again," she said finally.
Silco turned his head toward her, arching a brow. “Really?”
She nodded. “Yeah. It’ll keep me busy.” She took another sip of coffee before adding, “And when I’m not working… I’m training.”
Felicia tilted her head. “Training?”
(Y/N) met her gaze. “My magic. I need to be better with it.”
Connol, who had been listening from the other side of the bar, crossed his arms. “Not a bad idea.”
Vander sighed, setting down the glass he’d been cleaning. “Just don’t push yourself too hard.”
(Y/N) offered him a tired smirk. “No promises.”
Silco watched her for a moment, then simply nodded. “I’ll help.”
(Y/N) blinked. “With what?”
“Your training.” He leaned back against the bar, shrugging. “It’s not like you’re going to do it alone, are you?”
Felicia grinned. “Looks like you’ve got a training partner.”
(Y/N) huffed a quiet laugh, shaking her head. But she didn’t argue.
Maybe this was what she needed. Something to focus on. Something to move forward with.
(Y/N) finished her food, the warmth of it settling in her stomach in a way that made her realize just how much she had missed eating properly. Pushing her plate aside, she picked it up along with her cup and made her way behind the bar, ignoring Vander’s protests as she rinsed them off and started washing them herself.
Silco watched her from where he sat, tapping his fingers idly against his journal. He didn’t say anything, just observing as she methodically cleaned the dishes, her movements steady and purposeful.
Once she was done, she dried her hands on a nearby rag and turned back toward the others. “I’ll start in the mines tomorrow,” she said simply.
Felicia gave her an approving nod. “Good... If it’ll keep you busy.”
(Y/N) hummed in agreement, then glanced at Silco. “And for training… we’ll do it in the deeper parts of the mines. Like we used to when we were younger.”
Silco’s lips twitched into a small smirk. “Sounds like a plan.”
Vander sighed, shaking his head. “Just… be careful, alright?”
(Y/N) smirked. “Always.”
Silco snorted at that, but didn’t comment.
With that settled, (Y/N) let out a slow breath. Tomorrow, things would return to some semblance of normal. Or at least, as normal as life in the Undercity ever got.
(Y/N) spent the rest of the day in the bar, determined not to retreat back into her room. It was harder than she thought it would be- there was still a part of her that wanted to disappear upstairs, to avoid the noise, the stares, the weight of existing among people again. But she pushed through it.
She stayed in her seat at the bar beside Silco, nursing a cup of coffee instead of whiskey. He occasionally glanced up from his journal, giving her a quiet, knowing look, but he didn’t press her. She appreciated that.
Felicia and Connol had stayed close too, the two of them talking about anything and everything, just to keep conversation flowing. (Y/N) listened, interjecting now and then, but mostly just taking in the atmosphere- the smell of smoke, alcohol, and the faintest hint of whatever Vander had cooked earlier still lingering in the air.
Vander busied himself behind the bar, wiping down the counter, filling drinks, and chatting with patrons. Every now and then, he would glance at her, making sure she was still there, still okay.
At some point, Benzo showed up, sliding into the seat beside her and giving her a once-over. “Glad to see you out of that room,” he muttered, his tone gruff but not unkind.
(Y/N) smirked slightly. “Figured it was time.”
Benzo nodded approvingly before ordering a drink.
Hours passed, and she found herself relaxing, just a little. She even played a few rounds of cards with Felicia, Connol, and a few of the regulars. She wasn’t particularly good at it, but that wasn’t the point. The point was that she was here. Present... Trying.
As the night went on, the bar grew livelier, but she remained where she was, refusing to let the old instinct to retreat take over. Silco stayed close, occasionally passing her a cigarette without a word, and Vander made sure she always had something to sip on, whether it was coffee or water.
By the time the night wound down, she felt exhausted, but in a different way than before. This wasn’t the heavy, crushing exhaustion of grief and regret- this was just the tiredness of a long day spent in the company of people she cared about. She had made it through the entire day without retreating, without shutting herself away, but now, she was ready to sleep.
She hesitated for a moment before turning to Silco, who had been silently watching her from his place beside her at the bar. She met his gaze, her voice softer than usual. “…Come up with me?”
For weeks, she had shut herself away, refusing company, refusing comfort. But she missed this- missed the quiet warmth of his presence, missed how easy it was to breathe when he was next to her.
Silco’s eyes flickered with something unreadable, but he only gave a small nod. “Of course.”
She didn’t say anything else, just turned and made her way toward the stairs, trusting him to follow. She heard his stool scrape against the floor as he stood, his footsteps light behind her as they ascended.
Once inside her room, she exhaled, feeling some of the tension she hadn’t even realized she was holding finally release. She didn’t bother changing out of her clothes- she was too tired for that. Instead, she simply climbed into bed, shifting just enough to make space for him.
Silco settled in beside her without hesitation. It was familiar, easy. He didn’t say anything- he didn’t need to. Instead, he reached out, gently pulling her closer. She let him.
As they lay in the quiet of her room, tangled together in the dim neon lights filtering through the cracks in the curtains, Silco let out a slow breath. His arms were wrapped securely around her, his fingers tracing slow, absentminded patterns along her back. It had been so long since he had held her like this, and he wasn’t sure he ever wanted to let go.
“You worried me,” he murmured after a long stretch of silence, his voice barely above a whisper.
(Y/N) didn’t respond right away, just curled in a little closer, pressing her forehead against his. He felt her tense slightly, like she was debating whether or not to respond.
Silco didn’t push, not yet. He just kept holding her, patient as ever.
After what felt like forever, she finally spoke, her voice quiet, hesitant. “…I felt like I became everything I was afraid of.”
His brows furrowed, but he didn’t interrupt. He let her speak.
“I justified everything they did to my people. I became the reason they hunt us down. The reason they fear us. I- I killed without hesitation, without remorse, because I thought it was what needed to be done.” She exhaled shakily. “And then I locked myself away because I didn’t know how to live with it.”
Silco’s grip on her tightened slightly, but he still said nothing, waiting to make sure she had gotten everything out.
“I felt disgusting,” she admitted, her voice barely a whisper now. “Like I was drowning in what I’d done.”
Silco let out a slow, measured breath before he finally spoke. “You did what you had to.”
She scoffed, shaking her head. “Did I?”
He stared directly into her eyes, refusing to pull away from her gaze, his hands coming up to cradle her face. “Yes,” he said firmly, his thumbs brushing over her cheeks. “You survived. You protected yourself, protected all of us. That was never wrong.”
Her eyes searched his, uncertain. “Then why do I feel like it was?”
Silco didn’t have a perfect answer. He couldn’t magically take away what she felt, couldn’t erase the weight she carried. But he could remind her of the truth.
“Because you still have a heart,” he murmured, leaning up to press a gentle kiss to her forehead. “Because you aren’t like them.”
She let out a shaky breath, eyes slipping shut as she let herself relax against him.
Silco held her closer, his lips brushing against her temple. “You are not a monster, (Y/N). You never were.”
She didn’t respond, but the way she clung to him a little tighter told him enough.
He would remind her every day if he had to. Because he loved her. And he wasn’t going anywhere.
As the night stretched on, the warmth between them remained steady. Silco kept his arms wrapped securely around her, feeling the steady rise and fall of her breathing against his chest. Every now and then, he would press a slow, reassuring kiss against the top of her head, letting her know without words that she was safe, that she was not alone.
Slowly, her grip on him tightened, fingers curling into the fabric of his shirt as though afraid he would slip away. Even in sleep, she sought him out. Silco only held her closer in response, his fingers idly tracing along her back in a slow, comforting rhythm.
For the first time in weeks, her sleep was peaceful- no restlessness, no muttered words under her breath, no sudden jolts awake. Just warmth and quiet.
And, for the first time in weeks, Silco allowed himself to relax.
It didn’t take long before his own eyes drifted shut, and he finally followed her into sleep.
The morning came gently. A dim light filtered in through the cracks in the curtains, casting a soft glow over the room. The warmth from the night before remained, (Y/N) still clinging tightly to Silco in her sleep, her face nestled against his chest.
Silco woke first. His mind was slow to shake off the haze of sleep, but he didn’t move- he just lay there, watching her.
She looked peaceful. A stark contrast to the last two weeks of sleepless nights and empty stares.
His fingers instinctively threaded through her short hair, brushing through the strands with deliberate, careful movements. It was still strange to see her like this, but not in a bad way.
She shifted slightly at his touch, letting out a quiet breath but not waking up just yet.
Silco only continued his slow movements, watching the way the soft morning light illuminated her features.
Eventually, (Y/N)’s eyes slowly opened, only to be met with Silco’s soft, tired gaze. She gave him a tired smile, before nuzzling into the crook of his neck, her grip on him tightening.
Just her... Just him.
No weight of the past dragging them both down.
As they both hesitantly pulled themselves from the warmth of the bed, (Y/N) stretched her limbs, rubbing the sleep from her eyes before making her way to the small dresser in the room. She sifted through her clothes, pulling out a worn but sturdy set of work clothes suitable for the mines.
Silco lingered for a moment, watching her silently before exhaling through his nose and heading toward the door. “I’ll be downstairs,” he murmured, giving her one last glance before slipping out of the room.
As he descended the stairs into the bar, the familiar scent of smoke and stale liquor filled the air. It was still early, meaning most of their usual patrons weren’t around just yet. Vander was already behind the counter, cleaning up from the night before.
Silco approached him, leaning casually against the bar. “Make her something to eat?” he said, voice low but firm.
Vander glanced up from the glass he was drying, raising an eyebrow. “She ask for something?”
Silco shook his head. “No. But she needs to eat before heading into the mines.”
Vander studied him for a moment before sighing, setting the glass aside. “Yeah, alright. I’ll get something together for her.” He didn’t argue- it was clear Silco was worried, and truthfully, so was he.
Silco gave a small nod of thanks before moving to his usual seat near the bar, pulling out his journal. He tapped a cigarette from his case but didn’t light it just yet, glancing toward the stairs every now and then, waiting for (Y/N) to come down.
(Y/N) came down the stairs, still adjusting her sleeves as she walked over to the bar. Her steps were slow, weighed down by lingering exhaustion, but she was determined to push through it. Spotting Silco in his usual seat, she made her way over, sinking into the spot beside him.
She let out a quiet yawn before slumping forward, draping herself over Silco without a second thought. “Gotta get used to getting up early again…” she mumbled, voice still heavy with sleep. “Bet the first week of working again is gonna be hell.”
Silco huffed in amusement but didn’t push her away. Instead, he let her rest against him, his hand absentmindedly trailing over the back of hers where it rested on the counter.
Vander, who had just set a plate of food down in front of her, smirked at the sight but didn’t say anything.
Felicia, however, was a different story. She leaned forward, her mug of coffee cradled between her hands as she raised an eyebrow at the two of them. “Are uh… you two..?”
(Y/N) stiffened slightly, her face warming, but she didn’t move away. Silco, on the other hand, just exhaled through his nose, his lips curving into the barest hint of a smirk.
“You make it sound like a dramatic revelation,” he murmured, taking a slow sip from his own cup.
Felicia snorted, giving Connol a knowing look. “I mean, considering how long you two have been dancing around each other, yeah, I’d say it is.”
(Y/N) groaned, pressing her forehead against Silco’s shoulder to hide her face. “Not even five minutes into the day, and you’re already fucking with me…”
Felicia just grinned. “You make it too easy.”
Silco nudged her slightly, motioning toward the plate Vander had set in front of her. It was a silent order, one she knew better than to argue against. With a quiet sigh, she sat up properly and picked up her fork, beginning to eat.
Felicia, still grinning, watched the two of them with amusement. They hadn’t made anything official, hadn’t spoken any words to define what they were, but the fact that Silco hadn’t denied her accusation made it clear where he stood.
As (Y/N) ate, Silco resumed writing in his journal, though his free hand remained close to hers on the counter. Every so often, his fingers would brush against hers, a subtle reassurance that she wasn’t alone.
Once she finished, she reached for her plate, intending to wash it, but Felicia was faster. With a smug smirk, she snatched it up before (Y/N) could protest. “Nope. You’ve got work to get to. I’ll take care of this.”
Shaking her head in amusement, (Y/N) slid off her seat and dusted off her pants. She glanced at Silco, hesitating for just a moment before leaning up and pressing a soft kiss to his cheek.
His fingers twitched slightly, but he didn’t pull away. Instead, he simply turned his head enough to meet her gaze, his eyes calm but unreadable.
Before the others could tease her further, she quickly turned on her heel and made her way toward the door. “I’ll be back later,” she called over her shoulder before heading out, making her way toward the mines.
The Undercity was restless. The increased Enforcer presence was obvious- pairs of them stalked the streets, watching, searching. They knew nothing about her, nothing about what had happened. And yet, every time she saw their armor glinting in the dim light, her stomach twisted with guilt. She kept to the shadows, choosing the quieter routes, the paths less patrolled.
By the time she reached the mines, her chest felt lighter, though her thoughts still clung to her like grime after a long shift. She slipped through the entrance, moving past the few workers already getting to it, and headed straight down to the small office they all used.
The room was the same as always- dusty, cluttered, smelling of sweat and metal. She made her way to her usual spot, placing her things down and rolling her shoulders. It had been a while since she’d worked, and she knew today was going to be rough. But that was the point, wasn’t it? To throw herself into something, to stay busy, to not think.
With that thought in mind, she grabbed her gloves, pulled them on tight, and headed out into the tunnels. Work waited, and she was ready for it.
The day was grueling. Each swing of the pickaxe sent a jolt through her arms, each lift of a crate strained muscles she hadn’t used in weeks. The sweat clung to her skin, her breath heavy from exertion, but she didn’t stop. She pushed through the exhaustion, through the aching burn in her limbs, through the thoughts clawing at the back of her mind.
By the time her shift was over, she felt like she could collapse where she stood. Instead, she grabbed a cigarette from her pocket and stepped outside, lighting it with slightly unsteady hands. She inhaled deeply, letting the nicotine calm her frayed nerves as she leaned against the wall of the office.
After a few minutes, she flicked the half-finished cigarette to the ground, crushing it under her boot before turning on her heel. She had something else to do now- something she hadn’t done in a long time.
She needed to get Silco.
Pushing through her exhaustion, she made her way back to the bar, slipping through the bustling streets, dodging Enforcers when needed. By the time she stepped inside, she was already searching for him. And when her eyes landed on him, sitting in his usual spot with his journal, she exhaled softly and approached.
“Come on,” she muttered, nudging his arm. “We’re training.”
Silco glanced up from his journal, eyes flicking over her appearance. She was still drenched in sweat, streaked with soot, her hair clinging to her skin in places. He could see the exhaustion in the slight slump of her shoulders, but she was determined- he knew better than to try and talk her out of it.
He sighed, closing his journal with a soft thud. “You really sure you want to?” he muttered, standing up.
She shrugged. “Just wanna get it over with.”
Without another word, she turned and started for the door, not bothering to check if he was following. Of course, he was.
The walk back to the mines was quiet, aside from the occasional scrape of her boot against the cobbled streets or the distant murmur of Undercity life around them. Silco didn’t press her to talk. He just walked beside her, hands tucked into his coat pockets, his mind already shifting toward their training.
When they reached the entrance to the mines, she led them deeper, past the active work areas, further into the tunnels they had used before. It was quiet here, the only sound being the occasional drip of water from the ceiling and the faint hum of machinery further in the distance.
She finally stopped, rolling her shoulders and shaking out her hands. “Alright,” she said, exhaling slowly. “Let’s get started.”
She rolled up her sleeves, letting the cool underground air brush against her arms. The soot clinging to her skin didn’t matter- she was too focused on the task at hand. The memory of what she had done two weeks ago lingered in her mind, the way the magic had responded without her even reaching out for it. It had felt different, raw, instinctive. She needed to understand it, to control it.
Reaching up, she unhooked one of the lanterns from the wall, the flame flickering in its glass casing. With a deep breath, she snuffed it out, plunging the space into deeper shadow. The faint glow from the tunnels behind them was enough to see, but here, in the quiet, it felt like she was wrapped in darkness.
She lowered the lantern to the ground and sat next to it, crossing her legs as she exhaled slowly. Silco leaned against the rock wall nearby, watching her intently but saying nothing. He knew better than to interrupt.
Closing her eyes, she reached inward, searching for the pulse of magic that had always been there. Normally, she used her hands, guiding the flow of energy outward like she had taught herself to do long ago. But now… now she wanted to pull from something deeper.
The flame had to return. She just needed to make it happen.
She inhaled deeply, steadying herself as she focused on the golden energy flowing through her veins. It was always there, thrumming beneath the surface, waiting to be called upon. Her fingers twitched, the instinct to reach out nearly overpowering- but she resisted. This time, she needed to let the magic move on its own.
Her breath slowed. The world around her faded away.
A familiar warmth coiled in her chest, spreading outward like sunlight breaking through thick storm clouds. Her eyes fluttered open, now glowing a brilliant gold in the dim underground. The energy pulsed, shifting through her like a heartbeat.
Then, the lantern flickered.
At first, just a spark, weak and fleeting. But then, as she exhaled, willing the magic forward, the flame roared to life, golden and warm, casting long shadows against the rock walls.
Silco watched in quiet awe, his sharp eyes reflecting the light as he studied her. She had done it- without her hands, without a gesture. Just raw, unfiltered power.
The lantern burned steadily, proof that she was growing stronger.
She kept her breathing steady, feeling the warmth of the golden flame as it flickered in front of her. Now that it was lit, the real challenge began- controlling it without any physical movement, relying only on her awareness of the power coursing through her.
She focused, letting herself feel the energy, the way it pulsed in time with her heartbeat. Slowly, she tried to pull back, easing her magic just slightly. The flame responded, shrinking down to a faint ember.
...Good...
Now, she pushed forward, letting a bit more power flow through her. The lantern’s flame grew, dancing with intensity, casting brighter light onto the cavern walls.
She repeated the process- pulling back, pushing forward- adjusting the flame’s size with nothing but her focus. Her hands remained still in her lap, but her eyes glowed as she carefully controlled each shift in power.
Silco stayed quiet beside her, watching intently. He knew this was important for her, a way to regain control after everything that had happened. And from what he could see, she was already getting stronger.
As the golden glow of the flame flickered one last time under her control, (Y/N) exhaled deeply, feeling exhaustion settle into her bones. She had been at this for hours, and while she had made progress, it took everything in her to maintain that level of concentration.
Silco watched as the light in her eyes dimmed, returning to normal as she let go of her magic. He could tell she was worn out, her shoulders slumping slightly as she sat back on her hands.
"That's enough for today," he finally said, standing up and offering her a hand. "You're going to pass out if you push yourself any further."
(Y/N) let out a tired chuckle before grabbing his hand, allowing him to pull her up. "Yeah... I think I’ve had enough of this for one night."
They started making their way back through the mines, the cool underground air a stark contrast to the heat she had been working with. It was quiet between them, but not uncomfortably so. (Y/N) leaned into Silco just slightly as they walked, her exhaustion making her movements sluggish.
By the time they reached the bar, the usual nighttime crowd was already in full swing. Laughter and the clinking of glasses filled the air, the atmosphere lively as people drank away the weight of their own struggles.
(Y/N) barely paid attention as she shoved through the people in her way, making a beeline for the stairs. She was ready for sleep- more than ready.
Silco followed close behind, ensuring she made it upstairs without incident. As she stepped into her room, she glanced back at him, hesitating for a moment before mumbling, "You coming?"
Silco smirked, stepping inside and shutting the door behind him. "You don’t have to ask."
(Y/N) sighed as she stretched her sore muscles, peeling off her sooty work clothes before heading straight for the washroom. The warm water helped ease the ache in her limbs, washing away the grime from the mines and the lingering warmth of her magic. She took her time, letting the steam relax her before finally stepping out, drying off, and slipping into something comfortable.
When she emerged, Silco was already waiting for her, sitting on the edge of her bed, one leg crossed over the other. His sharp eyes followed her as she slumped into the chair by her desk, exhaling tiredly.
Without a word, he pulled out a cigarette, lighting it with a practiced flick. He took a slow drag before holding it out toward her. She hesitated only for a moment before leaning forward, taking it between her fingers and inhaling deeply.
They passed it back and forth in silence, the air between them thick with smoke and quiet understanding. Neither of them needed to speak- this was enough. A moment of peace after everything.
As the cigarette burned down to its final embers, (Y/N) let out a slow sigh, her body finally surrendering to exhaustion. Without a word, she pushed herself up from the chair and made her way to the bed, slipping beneath the blankets. Silco followed shortly after, settling in beside her. They didn’t need to say anything- this had become their routine. She pressed herself close to him, and he wrapped an arm around her waist, his breath warm against her hair as they both drifted off into sleep.
The next few weeks followed the same steady rhythm. (Y/N) would wake early, get ready, and head to the mines to work through the day. She pushed through the exhaustion, the sweat, the grime- anything to keep herself busy. After work, she’d find Silco, and the two of them would slip away into the depths of the mines to train.
She was getting better. At first, controlling the flame without physical gestures had been difficult, but with each session, she grew more confident. She learned to summon her fire at will, to adjust its intensity, and even to move it with nothing but her focus. Silco watched her progress with a quiet intensity, pushing her to go further while always making sure she didn’t push herself too hard.
Meanwhile, the tensions with the Enforcers and Mageseekers slowly faded. The increased patrols had begun to die down, and soon, it was as if everything had returned to normal- or as normal as life in the Undercity could be. The bar was always busy, Felicia and Connol were around often, and Vander continued to build his reputation among the people. Even (Y/N) found herself slipping back into the flow of things, the weight on her chest just a little lighter than before.
The warmth of the bar wrapped around them like an old, familiar embrace. The scent of stew, smoke, and aged whiskey lingered in the air, a comforting mix that felt like home. (Y/N) leaned against the bar, her body still aching from training, but the fatigue was drowned out by the simple pleasure of just being there- just being with them.
Vander, ever the host, tossed a bar towel over his shoulder and leaned against the counter, his sharp eyes sweeping over the three of them. “If you’re all gonna sit there, at least have a drink with me. Feels like it’s been a while since we just sat and talked.”
(Y/N) flicked the last of her cigarette into the ashtray and smirked. “Fine. But you’re taking care of the next round.”
Vander let out a hearty chuckle, shaking his head as he reached for a bottle. “When do I not take care of the rounds?”
For the first time in what felt like forever, there was no tension hanging over them. No talk of Enforcers. No whispers of Mageseekers. Just them, drinks in hand, laughter lingering in the air like an old song.
Then, Felicia got that glint in her eye- the one that spelled trouble.
“Oh no,” (Y/N) muttered, already knowing she was about to regret whatever was coming next.
Felicia slammed her hands on the bar, grinning wide. “You-” she jabbed a finger at (Y/N) “-are coming with me.”
(Y/N) barely had time to react before Felicia grabbed her wrist, yanking her toward the open space near the jukebox.
“Fel- no, wait-”
“Shut up and move,” Felicia shot back, already pulling (Y/N) into the rhythm as the music played.
(Y/N) huffed, but the smirk on her face gave her away. She let herself be dragged into the dance, following Felicia’s lead as the beat pulsed around them. The tension that had been weighing her down for weeks melted away, bit by bit, as they moved. Felicia twirled, laughing, and soon enough, (Y/N) found herself laughing too.
From the bar, Vander and Silco watched the scene unfold with varying levels of amusement.
Vander leaned back with a chuckle, arms crossed. “Didn’t think she’d actually go along with it.”
Silco swirled his drink, smirking. “Oh, she’s got a soft spot for Fel, no doubt about it.”
Vander snorted. “We all do.”
Felicia spun (Y/N) one last time before pulling her into a breathless hug. “See? Told you it wouldn’t kill you.”
(Y/N) rolled her eyes, catching her breath. “Nearly did.”
As they made their way back to the bar, Felicia flopped down first, resting her head on her arms. She glanced between them- Vander, Silco, and (Y/N)- before grinning.
Vander set drinks down in front of them, shaking his head. “What’s the occasion?”
Felicia hummed dramatically, waving a hand lazily. “Can’t a lady just be in the mood to dance with her friend to a familiar song?”
Vander raised a brow. “Not this lady. And not that song.”
Felicia smirked but then softened, leaning on her arms. “Tonight feels perfect… The bar is going good, we haven’t had any trouble in a while, Enforcers are backing off… Who would have thought a few harebrained schemes cooked up by the three of you bozos could turn a dank crack in the earth into a thriving, healthy community… Almost too good to be true.”
Vander let out a quiet laugh, glancing at Silco. “You hear that, Bozo Two? We made it. We’re done.”
Silco tilted his head, giving Vander a small smirk. “Oh, you’re sadly mistaken.” He let his gaze drift toward (Y/N). “I’m Bozo One.”
Vander barked out a laugh. “You said that real quick, like you’ve been waiting your whole life for the title.”
Silco took a slow sip of his drink, completely unfazed. “It’s about time I got the recognition I deserve.”
Felicia cackled, leaning against (Y/N), who shook her head with an amused smirk.
“Then what’s that make me?” (Y/N) asked, raising a brow.
“Bozo Two, obviously,” Felicia said without hesitation. “And Vander’s Bozo Three, because he’s too responsible to be anything else.”
Vander sighed dramatically. “Damn. Stuck with you lot, huh?”
Felicia smirked. “Forever, big guy.”
The four of them sat there, savoring the rare moment of peace, the laughter lingering in the air like an old memory.
But something was off.
Felicia, as usual, had a drink in front of her- but tonight, she hadn’t touched it. Not even once.
(Y/N) leaned her arms against the bar, watching her closely. It wasn’t just the drink. It was the way Felicia held it, fingers barely curled around the rim, as if she didn’t even realize it was there.
“You good?” (Y/N) asked, raising an eyebrow as she took a slow drag from her cigarette.
Felicia snapped out of whatever thoughts had been eating at her, blinking once before glancing toward Silco and Vander. Her fingers tapped against the glass once, twice, before she exhaled sharply and muttered, “Shit.”
Silco’s gaze flicked up from his drink, eyes narrowing slightly. “That bad?”
Felicia let out a humorless chuckle. “Depends on how you look at it,” she muttered, running a hand down her face.
Vander, finally catching onto the shift in the air, leaned against the bar in front of Felicia. His expression softened, concern knitting his brows together. “Alright. Out with it. What’s going on?”
Felicia hesitated. She looked at each of them- Vander, Silco, (Y/N)- before finally sighing.
“I’m knocked up.” She swallowed. “A girl.”
...Silence...
Vander’s eyes widened slightly, but his face remained unreadable. Then, without a word, he reached over, plucked her drink from her hands, and swapped it out with a glass of juice.
Silco, for once, didn’t have anything clever to say. He just blinked, as if waiting for the punchline.
(Y/N) exhaled a slow stream of smoke, tilting her head. “...How do you know?”
Felicia hesitated before answering, rubbing at her temple. “Wasn’t really part of my plan…” she admitted. “But, guess that’s everything when you’re living week to week.”
(Y/N) flicked her cigarette into the ashtray, eyes still studying her. “So… what did Connol say?”
Felicia let out a breath of laughter- small, tired. “Haven’t told him yet. Working up the nerve…” Her fingers drummed absently against the bar. “I don’t know anything about kids- I get sweaty being alone with one.”
Vander reached over, resting a reassuring hand on her shoulder. “Hey,” he said, voice steady, “you’re gonna be a great mother.”
Felicia let out an exhausted laugh, shaking her head as she brushed his hand off. “Shut up… I’m not ready for that.” She sighed, stirring her straw in her untouched drink. “I started trying to come up with a name, and it hit me- this one word is a decision she’s gonna live with her whole life…”
She paused, inhaling deeply before looking at them again. “I can’t protect her from all the shit down here and work out how to be a parent at the same time… Then I realized-” she gave them a small, knowing smile “-I don’t have to.”
(Y/N) hummed, leaning her head against Felicia’s shoulder. “Hmm? Why’s that?”
Felicia smirked. “Because the second I told you, I put you on the hook.”
Vander chuckled.
Felicia didn’t hesitate to continue, looking between them. “You’re not allowed to fail anymore. For her- for me.”
Silco smirked, swirling the last of his drink in his glass. “What’s the point of all this if we can’t raise an ankle biter or two?”
Vander huffed a quiet laugh and lifted his glass. “To Zaun, then.”
They clinked their drinks together.
(Y/N) smirked. “Blisters and bedrock.”
The others echoed the words, their voices carrying softly through the bar.
Vander broke the silence with a thoughtful chuckle. “I’ve always liked the name Violet.”
Felicia laughed softly, something warm settling in her chest. “Guess that’s what it’ll have to be, then, huh?”
The night stretched on, the weight of Felicia’s news lingering in the space she left behind.
Felicia stretched as she stood, smoothing down her shirt with a satisfied sigh. “Well, boys, (Y/N), I think it’s about time I go break the news to Connol.” She grinned, though the flicker of nervous energy behind it didn’t go unnoticed.
Vander gave her a reassuring nod. “You got this, Fel.”
Silco smirked, swirling the last of his drink lazily before taking a sip. “If he’s got half a brain, he’ll be over the moon.”
Felicia huffed out a laugh. “Let’s hope.” She glanced at (Y/N), giving her a light nudge. “And don’t let these two get into any trouble while I’m away.”
(Y/N) rolled her eyes, smirking. “No promises.”
With that, Felicia gave them all one last grin before heading for the door, disappearing into the Undercity night.
That left just the three of them.
The bar was officially closing for the night- chairs stacked on tables, lanterns dimmed, the lively hum of the evening now faded into something softer. The only sounds were the faint echoes of Zaun outside, the distant drip of condensation from the pipes, and the quiet clink of glasses being put away.
(Y/N) leaned back against the booth, drink in hand, as Vander and Silco sat across from her. For a while, none of them spoke. They just sat in easy quiet, letting the weight of everything settle.
Eventually, Vander exhaled deeply, breaking the silence. “Crazy, huh? Feels like just yesterday we were a bunch of reckless kids, and now… a baby.”
Silco scoffed lightly. “Speak for yourself. Some of us are still reckless.”
(Y/N) chuckled into her drink. “Recklessness is a sign of maturity now?”
Silco arched a brow. “Please, I was always the mature one... So of course”
Vander let out a deep laugh, shaking his head. “Oh, that’s rich.”
(Y/N) smirked. “You're just mad Fel called us Bozos.”
Silco took another slow sip of his drink before answering, deadpan, “I earned that title.”
That got a real laugh out of both Vander and (Y/N), the sound of it echoing softly in the near-empty bar.
They stayed like that for a while- drinking, reminiscing, letting the night stretch on. The quiet between them wasn’t heavy, just comfortable. A reminder that, despite everything, they were still here.
Eventually, exhaustion settled in alongside the alcohol, and they made their way upstairs. Vander turned down the hall to his own room with a murmured goodnight, leaving just (Y/N) and Silco lingering at the top of the stairs.
(Y/N) hesitated for a moment before reaching out, fingers brushing against Silco’s. It wasn’t much- just a small, soft touch- but he noticed. He always noticed.
Silco glanced down at their hands before meeting her gaze. His expression was unreadable, but he didn’t pull away.
He let her guide him as she turned, leading him toward her room.
Neither of them spoke as she pushed the door open, stepping inside with him close behind. The familiar space was dimly lit by the streetlights outside, casting long shadows across the walls.
(Y/N) exhaled softly, finally releasing his hand as she ran a hand through her hair.
They didn’t need words. They never really did.
As they lay together, the quiet wrapping around them like a second skin, Silco absently traced patterns along (Y/N)’s back. She was curled up against him, her head resting against his chest, her body still carrying the weight of exhaustion no matter how much she tried to hide it.
Neither of them acknowledged the way they clung to each other.
They just let sleep take them- like most nights.
The dim light of early morning seeped through the cracks in the blinds, casting faint streaks across the worn wooden floor. The air was thick with lingering warmth, the kind that settled into the bones and refused to leave.
(Y/N) slowly blinked awake, her body still heavy with exhaustion. But it wasn’t the usual, aching kind. This was different. This was… grounding. Comforting.
The steady rise and fall of Silco’s chest beneath her cheek, the way his arm was slung around her waist, keeping her close- it was all grounding.
She shifted slightly, testing the space between them, only for Silco’s grip to tighten instinctively, pulling her right back against him.
Still half-asleep, his breathing was slow and steady, fingers twitching slightly against the small of her back.
She tilted her head up slightly, peering at Silco’s face. He looked… calm. Peaceful.
The sharp lines of his face were softened by sleep, his usually narrowed eyes still closed, and for once, there was no tension in his expression.
She smirked slightly. “Didn’t take you for a clingy sleeper,” she murmured, voice still hoarse from sleep.
Silco hummed but didn’t open his eyes. “Didn’t take you for someone who would complain about it,” he shot back, his voice low and rough with sleep.
(Y/N) chuckled, shaking her head before pressing her forehead against his chest. “I’m not.”
Silco let out a quiet breath, finally cracking one eye open to glance down at her. “…You sleep okay?”
(Y/N) thought about it for a moment before nodding. “Yeah,” she admitted. “I did… I like sleeping with you.”
Silco studied her for a second before simply pulling her back down against him. “Good,” he murmured. “Then we’re staying like this a little longer.”
(Y/N) didn’t argue.
She let herself sink back into him, the steady beat of his heart under her ear lulling her into something dangerously close to sleep.
But eventually… they had to get up.
As they got dressed, Silco couldn’t seem to keep his hands to himself.
Every time (Y/N) turned around, he was there- fingers brushing over her arm, his palm pressing against the small of her back, lips ghosting over her shoulder as she adjusted her shirt.
She smirked, glancing at him over her shoulder. “You’re being needy,” she teased.
Silco, utterly unapologetic, hummed as he slid his arms around her waist from behind, pulling her against him. “And?” he murmured, pressing a slow kiss to the side of her neck.
(Y/N) rolled her eyes, but she didn’t push him away.
“And if we don’t get moving, Vander’s gonna come knocking, and I don’t think you want him barging in here.”
Silco huffed against her skin, but didn’t immediately let go. Instead, he turned her around in his arms, leaning in to kiss her properly- slow and deep, fingers tangling in her hair.
By the time he pulled back, (Y/N) was breathless, her grip tightening on his shirt.
“…You’re trying to distract me,” she accused.
Silco smirked. “Is it working?”
(Y/N) narrowed her eyes at him before shoving his chest lightly. “Come on, we’ve got things to do.”
Silco sighed dramatically but finally relented, letting her step away- though not before sneaking in one last kiss to her temple.
“Fine,” he murmured. “But don’t think for a second that I’m done with you.”
(Y/N) shook her head with a chuckle. “Wouldn’t dream of it.”
With that, they finally headed downstairs, ready to face the day- though Silco still kept a hand on her, like he wasn’t quite willing to let go just yet.
As they stepped into the main area of the bar, (Y/N) felt the weight of Silco’s hand on the small of her back- a constant, grounding presence. His touch was deliberate, fingers lingering against her skin as he guided her through the space.
Felicia, already at the bar, raised an eyebrow as she caught sight of them.
“Well, well,” she mused, arms crossed. “This is becoming sort of a habit for you two, huh?”
(Y/N) rolled her eyes, playing it off, but Silco only smirked, making no effort to move his hand.
Vander, standing behind the counter, shot them both a knowing look before shaking his head with a chuckle. “You two finally gonna admit whatever this is?”
(Y/N) opened her mouth to respond, but Silco beat her to it.
“We don’t owe anyone an explanation,” he said smoothly, though his fingers absentmindedly traced circles against (Y/N)’s hip.
Felicia snorted. “That’s a fancy way of saying you haven’t figured it out yet.”
(Y/N) took a sip of the drink Vander had just placed in front of her, choosing to ignore the heat creeping up her neck. Because, in truth, they hadn’t talked about it- not really.
What they were. What they meant to each other.
Sure, they had exchanged “I love you’s,” but they had never exactly labeled anything.
But as Silco’s grip subtly tightened, as if silently telling her he wasn’t going anywhere, (Y/N) realized that maybe… they didn’t need to define it. Not yet.
She had just lit her cigarette when, without missing a beat, Silco plucked it from her fingers and took a slow drag, smirking as he exhaled the smoke.
She shot him an unimpressed look. “Really?”
He gave a lazy shrug. “You’ll live.”
Rather than argue, she just leaned against him, reaching up to take it back- but instead of fighting her on it, Silco simply held it between them, offering it up for her to share.
Felicia, watching the exchange, shook her head with a grin. “You two are somethin’ else.”
Vander chuckled, arms crossed as he leaned against the counter. “Alright, enough of that. How’d Connol take the news?”
Felicia sighed, running a hand through her hair before grabbing a glass. “Better than I thought, honestly. He panicked, sure, but not in a bad way. Just- y’know. Like holy shit, this is real kind of panic.” She took a sip of water, shrugging. “But after that, he just held me. Told me we’d figure it out.”
Vander nodded, a small, proud smile tugging at his lips. “Good man.”
Silco, exhaling another stream of smoke before passing the cig back to (Y/N), raised a brow. “You think he’s actually ready?”
Felicia huffed a laugh. “Hell no. But neither am I.” She drummed her fingers against the counter. “But we’ll get there... Eventually.”
(Y/N), taking another drag, studied her friend for a moment before smirking. “You know this means we’re gonna be uncles and an aunt, right?”
Felicia snorted. “Oh, fuck. You three? As family?” She groaned dramatically. “I might’ve made a mistake.”
They all laughed, but (Y/N) could see it- the way Felicia’s shoulders weren’t as tense anymore.
She was nervous, but knowing they had her back? That made all the difference.
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Yes, I do, @ultimategraffitiguy. I added it to my last of fandoms :}
Please may I have The Walking Dead platonic headcanons of what if Carl Grimes had a older sister who is maybe 3 years older than him and had a 6th Sense when it comes to safe houses and places that is unlikely raided for supplies and what to avoid...e.g. if a certain place seemed overrun with walkers being one of them and when someone offering a safe haven being too good to be true and they seemed 'off'..which had saved her group on numerous occasions. She's a good one and always had been..even after her mother's passing, she promised to look out for Carl and for Judith. She learnt how to use a gun under her father's guidance at the start from the age of 12 before handling it on her own when it comes to having to shoot walkers..or use daggers. She is mostly the person who looked after and raised Judith since infancy and was willing to die to protect her when she was in harm's way.
Rick Grimes relationship with his daughter
Carl Grimes relationship with his elder sister
Lori Grimes relationship with her daughter too.
The Group's relationship with her..(with the same ones who knew Carl for a long time too)
Shane's relationship with her..and how he felt that she didn't see him as a father very much..she saw right through him but she didn't say anything because he was her Dad's colleague and friend.
A/N: Absolutely! I might make a longer fic based on this request! Already got permision from the requester :} I'm either gonna base it off this one, or make one new walking dead fic all together. Eighter way, ill credit you for the request, @the-letter-horror-lover!
- (Y/N) has an uncanny gut instinct that rarely fails her: While not supernatural, her "sixth sense" is more of a hyper-awareness built from trauma, observation, and cold survival logic. She knows the difference between quiet and too quiet. She’s the type who will stop everyone mid-step because something “feels off,” even if there are no walkers or sounds- and more often than not, she’s right.
- She can “read” people frighteningly well: One look, and she can tell if someone is lying, desperate, dangerous, or putting on an act. Rick has learned to trust her instincts even over his own at times. In abandoned houses, she can glance at the dust, placement of things, and smell of the air and tell if someone’s been there recently. She’s especially good at finding caches of supplies overlooked by others. She's the one who always checks under floorboards, between false walls, and above ceiling tiles. It’s almost become a running joke- until she finds a forgotten stash of canned goods or ammo.
- Rick started training her in basic gun safety and handling when she was 9, back before the world fell apart: It began with weekends at the range- slow, careful lessons on how to respect the weapon. Mostly so he could eventually go hunting with him, and actually know how to aim.
- She took to it quickly, surprising even Rick with her precision: She never flinched. When she asked to learn how to use a knife next, Rick hesitated, but taught her anyway- something he later thanked himself for.
- After everything went to hell, she became one of the best shots in the group: Not just accurate, but calm. She doesn’t waste bullets. Every shot counts. She's also quick with a dagger or makeshift blade. She's not the strongest, but she’s fast and precise- throat, eye, skull. She's had to learn how to end things cleanly, especially when Judith was with her.
- Lori loved (Y/N), but often didn’t understand her: While Carl was more emotionally reactive, (Y/N) was quiet, steady, and internalized everything. They had friction- especially as the world began to collapse- with Lori sometimes chastising her for “acting like an adult” or “trying to be in charge.” (Y/N) never argued back. She just kept doing what needed to be done… But deep down, Lori was proud. She told Rick, before her death, that (Y/N) was stronger than both of them- that she had something in her that would keep them all alive.
- Their last real moment together was quiet: Lori cupped her daughter’s face, said “Take care of your brother. Take care of Judith.” And (Y/N) nodded once, already promising without needing to say it aloud. After Lori’s death, (Y/N) was the only one who stayed with Carl that whole night. She didn’t say a word. Just let him lean on her until he slept…
- Now (Y/N) often acts more like Carl’s second parent than just a sister: She's firm when she needs to be, but she's never condescending. Carl listens to her more than most, even when he pretends not to. They argue like siblings, but when the world goes to hell (again), Carl always looks for her first. If she’s nearby, he knows things will be okay.
- From the moment Judith was born, (Y/N) took over almost all of her care: She was the one waking in the middle of the night, rocking her, warming formula, changing diapers even during the hardest of times.
- Judith’s first word wasn’t “mama” or “dada.” It was “Sissy,”: The whole group melted when they heard it. She braided Judith’s hair when it got long enough, wrapped her in scraps of blankets when they were on the road, and told her made-up fairy tales when the real world was too ugly to explain. If Judith ever cried or screamed when walkers were near, (Y/N) would press her forehead to hers and whisper calming things until she went quiet- even if her own heart was pounding out of her chest. She once hid with Judith in a broken-down car overnight, clutching her tightly while walkers passed within feet of them She didn't move. Didn't blink. Didn’t breathe until the moans were gone.
- Rick sees (Y/N) as both his daughter and his second-in-command: After Lori’s death, she became the emotional pillar of the family, even when Rick wasn’t in a place to be the father she needed. He regrets that he put too much responsibility on her shoulders too early- relying on her to help raise Judith, to keep Carl in line, to read the room when he couldn’t. But deep down, he trusts her instincts more than almost anyone.
- Their bond is strong but often unspoken: Built on quiet glances, half-nods, and wordless understanding. When something goes wrong, she’s usually the first person he looks to. He’s told her, more than once, “You shouldn’t have to be this strong.” And each time, she just gave him a tired smile and said, “I know.” He worries about the cost of the apocalypse on her soul, even more than Carl’s. She carries so much, and rarely lets anyone see her fall apart.
- Carl both idolizes and resents her, in that complex sibling way: She’s his protector, his compass- but also a reminder of everything they lost. She was the one who taught him how to bandage his first walker scratch, who stayed up with him after nightmares when Rick was spiraling. When Carl went through phases of trying to be hard or emotionless, it was her disappointment- not Rick’s- that stung the most. She didn't yell, just gave him that look that said, "You know better."
- He never wanted to admit how scared he was of losing her: But when she once got clipped during a raid and bled out onto the concrete, Carl didn’t leave her side all night. She always made him feel like he didn’t have to be strong all the time. He could crumble, and she would carry the weight for both of them.
- Everyone knows not to second-guess her gut feelings: Even Daryl has said, “If (Y/N) says we don’t go in there, we don’t go in there.” She's quiet but respected- the kind of person people turn to when things get tense because she doesn’t panic, and she always has a plan. Carol shares a soft, maternal bond with her- the two often look after Judith together. Carol sees how much of herself is reflected in (Y/N)’s sacrifices. Glenn was always amazed by her resourcefulness; he once told Maggie he thought (Y/N) could find a full grocery store in a burnt-out gas station.
- At an abandoned hotel just outside of Atlanta, the group thought they’d struck gold: Clean water, canned goods, beds. (Y/N) took one step in and froze. Said the smell was wrong. Turned out it was a trap set by scavengers waiting on the roof with rifles.
- During a harsh winter, she led them to an abandoned church no one wanted to check: “too obvious,” they said. But she felt it in her bones. Not only was it untouched, it had a hidden root cellar stocked with old food from a prepper priest.
- Once, they were approached by a smiling man offering food and shelter at his supposed “community.”: Everyone wanted to hear him out. She stared him down, her voice flat: “He’s not hungry. Look at his boots- clean. He’s hunting, not surviving.” The man ran when she exposed him.
- When walkers broke into a safehouse and (Y/N) was upstairs with Judith: She shoved the dresser in front of the door, locked herself and the baby in the closet, and readied her knife. She didn’t expect to survive- only to keep the door shut long enough for someone else to get to Judith. In a moment where bullets ran out and Judith was in direct danger, she used herself as a human shield without thinking. Daryl pulled her out at the last second, but she was ready to die without hesitation.
- Once, she and Carl were separated from the group during a supply run: She kept Carl behind her the entire time, even when they were ambushed by a lone hostile survivor. She was the one who fired first- Carl never forgot the look on her face after. Calm. Empty. Controlled.
- Daryl Dixon: Daryl sees a kindred spirit in her. Not loud, not flashy, but lethal when it counts. He’s seen her gut a walker with one arm while holding Judith with the other. They often patrol together in silence, both appreciating the lack of small talk.
- Carol Peletier: Carol is maybe the only person who understands what it means to be both warrior and mother in one body. She once told (Y/N), “We do what we have to, and we carry it forever. That’s just how it is for people like us.”
- Michonne: She respects (Y/N) fiercely. They’ve fought side-by-side more than once, and Michonne once admitted she thinks (Y/N) has the best instincts in the entire group. When things feel “off,” Michonne always checks her face first.
- Glenn Rhee: Glenn used to tease her gently, trying to get her to laugh or loosen up. He told Maggie that she reminded him of a cat- quiet, deadly, and always watching.
- Maggie Greene: Maggie bonded with (Y/N) over motherhood. Though their circumstances were wildly different, they shared a resilience born from loving someone so small in a world so cruel.
- Hershel: Before his death, Hershel treated (Y/N) with warmth and fatherly affection. He once told Rick, “That girl’s got an old soul. Like she’s lived through this before.”
- Shane never knew quite how to handle (Y/N): She was polite, respectful, but distant. She didn’t laugh at his jokes the way Carl did, didn’t trust him the way Lori sometimes did. He could tell she saw through him. Through the bravado, the barking orders, the possessiveness over the Grimes family. And that infuriated him- because she never said anything. Never called him out. Just looked at him.
- That silence was worse than yelling: It was judgment without words. Shane knew she didn’t see him as a father figure- not even close- and that burned. He tried, once, to bond with her. Brought her a box of supplies and said, “Thought you’d like first pick. You earned it.” She just nodded and said, “Thanks,” but her eyes didn’t soften.
- After Shane’s death, she didn’t speak of him often: But once, years later, when Judith asked about “Uncle Shane,” (Y/N) just said, “He tried to love us. But he lost himself before he ever really could.”
Can i have some verosika with a fem reader who normally acts really shy and timid around others but when verosika is in danger, the reader switchs to fight mode and they become really violet towards anyone who tries to hurt Verosika or her friends. 💖💕
A/N: Of course! I had to make Verosika red, since I make the fem readers pink. Hope thats okay :}
The bar was loud. The kind of loud that soaked into your bones and made your chest vibrate like a speaker with the bass turned too high.
(Y/N) sat curled up on one of the worn-out velvet couches in the VIP section, nursing a glass of something pink and fizzy she hadn’t touched in twenty minutes. Her eyes stayed on the rim, watching the bubbles pop.
Across the room, laughter boomed. Someone got shoved. A bottle shattered. Demons flirted and fought like it was the same language. And at the center of it all, shining brighter than the neon signs behind her, was Verosika Mayday.
She was fire. Hot pink and gold, wrapped in black leather and confidence. She leaned back on the bar like she owned it- hell, maybe she did. Every glance in her direction lingered too long. Every demon around her fought for a scrap of her attention.
And then she looked toward the couch.
(Y/N) froze, eyes going wide as Verosika’s smirk softened into something else- something gentle. The succubus broke away from the group mid-conversation and strutted her way over, heels clicking against the floor. With every step, (Y/N)’s heart pounded harder.
“Hey, sugar,” Verosika purred, settling beside her like she’d done this a hundred times before. She tossed an arm over the back of the couch, just enough to brush against (Y/N)’s shoulder. “You doin’ okay? You look like you’re about to melt into the cushions.”
(Y/N) gave a weak smile and nodded, not trusting her voice just yet.
Verosika tilted her head. “Still too loud for you?”
“…A little,” (Y/N) mumbled. “But… I don’t mind being here.”
That earned her a real smile. One of those rare ones where Verosika’s edges softened and she looked more like a person than a pop icon.
“You’re cute, y’know that?” she said, with none of the usual teasing lilt. It was softer. Sincere. “You don’t gotta force yourself to hang out in this mess just ‘cause I’m here.”
“I’m not,” (Y/N) whispered, picking at the hem of her sleeve. “I just… like being near you.”
Verosika paused. That wasn’t something she heard often- especially not like that. Not from someone who didn’t want something from her. No strings. No flirting back. Just honesty in its purest, most fragile form.
She glanced down at the timid girl beside her- eyes downcast, cheeks warm, lashes fluttering nervously- and felt something twist in her chest. A feeling she didn’t have a name for yet. But it was soft. Protective.
“Well,” she said, brushing a stray hair from (Y/N)’s face with the back of her fingers, “lucky for you, I also like you being near me.”
The room roared around them, but in that little corner of the world, all (Y/N) could hear was the soft, fluttering beat of her heart- and Verosika’s voice, low and fond. Verosika took a seat next to (Y/N), and the conversations kept flowing.
Verosika was mid-sentence, telling (Y/N) a story about one of her worst tour stops- something involving a stolen limo, a goat-headed club owner, and way too much champagne- when three guys sauntered over.
They weren’t fans. Not the harmless kind, anyway.
They reeked of that specific Hellborn arrogance: all swagger and smirks, with nothing behind their eyes but entitlement.
“Well, well,” one of them drawled, leaning far too close. “Ain’t you Verosika Mayday? Didn’t think someone like you wasted time in places like this.”
Verosika barely looked at him. “I go wherever I damn well want. You got a problem with that?”
The second one whistled low, eyeing her up and down. “Nah, just surprised you’re hangin’ with… what, a groupie? Pet project?”
(Y/N) shrunk a little under the weight of the gaze- but only for a second.
Verosika’s arm subtly moved closer, her tone getting colder. “Back off, boys.”
But they didn’t.
The third one reached for a strand of Verosika’s hair, twisting it around a clawed finger. “C’mon, baby. Ditch the quiet little doll and come have some real fun.”
That’s when it happened.
A snap. Not audible- but real. Like a thread in (Y/N)’s mind pulled taut and tore clean through.
Her body moved before she thought. Before she even felt it.
One second, she was sitting meekly beside Verosika. The next, her glass shattered against the demon’s face- shards cutting deep as fizzy pink liquid hissed into his wounds. He barely got out a scream before (Y/N) lunged, her face empty of fear. Completely still.
She slammed him to the floor with a strength that didn’t match her frame. Her heel dug into his throat as she grabbed the next one by the horn and wrenched.
“Don’t. Touch. Her.” Her voice was a growl. A low, demonic snarl that didn’t belong to the sweet, blushing girl from five minutes ago.
The bar fell silent.
Even Verosika blinked, stunned.
(Y/N)’s eyes glowed faintly now, a flicker of her demonic form pushing through the seams- claws instead of nails, a jagged smile curling up too wide, too sharp. The demon under her heel gurgled, clawing at her ankle, but she didn’t flinch.
“You think just 'cause she’s pretty and famous you can treat her like property?” she hissed. “You forgot what part of Hell you’re in.”
Blood pooled around the broken glass, and the third guy had already bolted.
Verosika stood slowly, watching the remaining two writhe. She smirked.
“Holy shit, sugar.”
The words snapped (Y/N) out of it.
She blinked, her body trembling as the glow faded. Realizing what she’d done, she looked at Verosika- her hands, the blood, the broken horn- and panicked.
“I- I’m sorry, I didn’t mean-”
But Verosika was already pulling her into a tight hug.
“You don’t have to apologize,” she whispered, breath warm against (Y/N)’s ear. “That was the hottest shit I’ve seen all week.”
(Y/N) didn’t answer. Her heartbeat was a war drum in her chest, fear and adrenaline crashing together- but Verosika held her tighter, grounding her.
“Remind me never to piss you off, baby,” she murmured, brushing a kiss to the side of her head. “You’re full of surprises.”
The alley behind the bar was quieter, lit only by flickering neon and the red glow of Hell’s sky. Verosika’s heels clicked on the pavement as she half-dragged, half-guided (Y/N) down the side path.
“Okay, sit your adorable little ass down,” she said, pushing open the back door of her limo and motioning her inside. “Let me see your hands.”
(Y/N) hesitated, knuckles still stained red. Her hands shook- whether from fear or from the crash of adrenaline, she couldn’t tell. She climbed into the limo anyway, letting Verosika sit beside her with a wet wipe packet in hand and the strangest expression on her face.
It wasn’t anger.
It wasn’t even disgust.
It was awe. Cautious, wild awe.
Verosika gently took (Y/N)’s wrist. “You broke your glass. That’s some sharp-ass instinct.”
“I-I didn’t mean to go that far,” (Y/N) whispered, voice cracking as her walls began to crumble. “I just… I saw them touching you. And I snapped. I don’t even remember deciding to do it…”
Verosika wiped blood from her fingers, slowly. Carefully. “You did good.”
“…Good?” (Y/N) blinked at her.
“Hell yeah. I mean, babe, I have security, but none of them have ever slammed a guy into the floor with a smile like that before.”
(Y/N) flushed hard. She wanted to hide.
“But also,” Verosika said, her voice dipping softer now, “I could tell it scared you.”
(Y/N) swallowed hard and looked away. “I’m… I don’t want to be like that. I just- I don’t know, I didn’t like the way they looked at you. Like you were something they could take.”
That surprised Verosika more than anything else.
Because most people in her world did see her that way. Something to possess. Something to show off, to drag under.
But not (Y/N).
Never (Y/N).
“I like that you got mad for me,” she said honestly. “You saw something ugly and you let yourself be scary. That’s not a bad thing.”
She leaned in closer, dabbing the last of the blood away from her cheek, then gently cupped her face. “But I also like the girl who flinches when people talk too loud and blushes when I call her ‘baby.’ You don’t have to choose which one you are.”
(Y/N)’s breath hitched.
“…You’re not mad?”
Verosika snorted, brushing her thumb across (Y/N)’s cheek. “No. If anything, I’m flattered. You went feral over me. You know how hard it is to get that kind of loyalty in this dump?”
(Y/N) finally gave a weak smile. Her shoulders slumped as some invisible weight lifted.
“…I don’t want you to think I’m dangerous.”
“Oh, I know you’re dangerous,” Verosika said with a teasing glint, leaning in just a little more. “But only when you want to be.”
The limo idled in the alley, the two of them locked in a bubble of quiet aftershock.
And then Verosika murmured, almost like a secret:
“You really care about me, don’t you?”
(Y/N) didn’t look away this time. “Of course I do.”
Verosika studied her for a beat, something unreadable dancing in her eyes.
“…Okay,” she whispered. “Then I guess you’ve earned the front row seat.”
“To what?”
Verosika grinned. “To whatever the hell this is.”
She kissed her on the cheek, then rested her forehead gently against (Y/N)’s. “Thanks for protecting me, sugar.”
I love this 🥺
High-ish quality scans of the Silco & Vander pages from the artbook
can you do second part of where the hurt doesn’t reach with Sayaka, celestia and Sonia?
A/N: Yes, of course! A lot of people seem to be requesting this one :}
Sayaka:
It was the first time (Y/N) had attended Hope’s Peak Academy in over a week. His teachers had stopped asking questions. Some students whispered behind his back, casting glances filled with a mix of curiosity and pity. He could handle that. What he couldn’t handle were the boys who walked too close in the hallways, who slapped each other on the back, laughed too loud, shouted too suddenly. His body would freeze, breath catching in his throat. He’d learned to keep his eyes down, hands tucked close, always calculating an exit.
The world had become a tightrope- and he was so, so tired.
Sayaka Maizono noticed him before anyone else did. She always had, in her own quiet way. The Ultimate Pop Sensation was used to being seen, followed, idolized- but something about (Y/N), the way he disappeared into corners and avoided everyone's gaze, made her heart twist. He didn’t look at her like the others. He didn’t really look at anyone.
She found herself lingering near him between classes. Close, but not too close. Humming softly under her breath, the gentle melodies filling the awkward silences. Not words- never words- until he was ready.
He always looked like he wanted to speak, but was too afraid to.
Until one rainy afternoon.
(Y/N) sat alone in the music room, the overcast light pouring through the tall windows. His sleeves were pulled down past his wrists, fists curled in his lap. He hadn’t meant to cry, but the storm outside had stirred something in him, a memory he wished would stay buried. His breathing was shallow, trying not to make a sound.
Sayaka slipped in without knocking, as if the world had gently told her exactly where to go. She spotted him immediately- curled in on himself, trembling in the dim. Her voice, when it came, was softer than the rain.
“Can I sit with you?”
(Y/N) didn’t answer right away. He didn’t move. But he didn’t say no. That was enough.
Sayaka lowered herself onto the piano bench beside him, careful not to brush against him. Silence lingered- but it wasn’t heavy. It was patient.
“I like this room,” she said after a while, voice low and soothing. “It’s quiet, but it echoes just enough that if you sing, it feels like the whole world is listening. Not judging. Just… listening.”
She glanced at him from the corner of her eye. He was watching her now, his tear-streaked face blotchy and red, lips parted like he wanted to say something but didn’t know how.
“I’m sorry,” he finally said, voice hoarse.
“For what?” Sayaka asked, gently.
“I don’t know. Being like this. Broken. I- I can’t be around people. I can’t breathe when they get close, and I hate it, and it’s stupid, and-”
“It’s not stupid,” she interrupted, her tone gentle but firm. “It’s not your fault.”
His throat bobbed. He looked away again, ashamed.
Sayaka hesitated, then reached out- slowly, giving him time to pull away. When he didn’t, she placed her hand over his on the bench. Light as a feather. No pressure.
“I know what it’s like to smile when you don’t feel safe. To pretend everything’s okay because you don’t want to cause trouble.”
(Y/N) blinked. Her smile was sad now, wistful.
“I had to do that all the time. For the cameras. For the fans. For everyone but me.”
He didn’t speak, but his hand turned under hers, fingers trembling as they curled around hers in a tentative grasp.
“I can’t fix what happened to you,” Sayaka whispered. “But I can be someone who doesn’t scare you. I can stay. Sing, if you want. Or just sit here, holding your hand, and not expect you to be anything but you.”
A breath hitched in his throat. He squeezed her hand just a little tighter.
“I want to trust someone,” he admitted, barely audible. “I want it to be you.”
Her heart ached, full and warm. She nodded.
“Then let’s start with this. Right here. Just us. You don’t have to smile. You don’t have to pretend. Just… be.”
As the rain tapped against the windows, Sayaka began to hum again. A soft lullaby, meant for no one else. (Y/N) closed his eyes, for the first time in months allowing himself to lean- not away, but toward.
Into her voice. Into her warmth.
Into the beginning of something safe.
Weeks pass, and something changed- not all at once, but in subtle, careful ways. (Y/N) still struggled. Crowded hallways remained overwhelming, and loud voices still made his heart race. But in between those moments of fear, he found something else… Her.
Sayaka Maizono had a way of making herself feel like calm in a storm. She never demanded. She never pushed. She simply… waited. Always nearby, always smiling in that soft, understanding way that never felt fake. With her, he didn’t need to keep looking over his shoulder. With her, he could breathe.
They started eating lunch together. In the back corner of the school courtyard, under the old cherry tree. She’d hum while she ate, and eventually she started talking about her life onstage- the costumes, the nerves, the rush of performing. Sometimes she brought him little things. A sweet from the bakery near her home, a flower she found on the way to school, a charm from a fan that she thought was “too cute not to share.”
And when (Y/N) spoke, she always stopped to listen. Like his voice was the most important sound in the world.
“I think I’m starting to like being around you,” he said one afternoon, the words awkward and shy. “Like, I actually look forward to it.”
Sayaka blinked, then beamed, a flush rising to her cheeks.
“I’m really glad,” she said. “Because I feel the same way.”
He smiled. A small one, unsure, but real.
They began spending more time together after school. The music room became their place. Sometimes she played piano while he read. Sometimes he sketched while she practiced a new song. Once, she taught him a simple melody and guided his hands along the keys. He stiffened at first, but she noticed instantly and let go.
“No pressure,” she said, giving him space. “Just when you’re ready.”
He nodded. A week later, he reached for her hand.
It became a routine. Hand in hand at the piano, their fingers brushing like a secret only they shared.
One day, after walking her home under a pale orange sunset, (Y/N) paused at her gate. He looked down, biting his lip, unsure. Sayaka tilted her head at him, waiting.
“I, um…” he stammered. “I know I still flinch sometimes. And I still panic. But when I’m with you… I don’t feel broken. You don’t make me feel weak.”
Her expression softened, almost glowing in the fading light.
“You’re not weak, (Y/N). You’re brave. Every day, you choose to keep going. And I get to be here and watch you heal… That’s an honor.”
A lump formed in his throat. His heart beat hard against his ribs.
“I think I…” He paused, panic rising. But then her hand found his, grounding him. He exhaled shakily. “I think I’m falling for you.”
Sayaka stepped closer, and for once, he didn’t flinch. Her hands were warm against his cheeks.
“Then we can fall together,” she whispered.
Their first kiss was a ghost of a thing- barely there, more promise than anything. But it was safe. Sweet. And (Y/N), for the first time in a long time, didn’t feel afraid.
He felt wanted.
He felt seen.
And most of all, he felt hopeful.
Celestia:
The hallway of Hope’s Peak Academy had long since emptied, save for the faint echo of heels clicking across polished tile. Celestia Ludenberg walked like a shadow with purpose- silent yet commanding. Every movement was deliberate, wrapped in her usual gothic lolita elegance.
Behind her, the silence was thick, but not as heavy as the quiet that clung to the dorm room she approached. His room.
(Y/N).
A boy with sad eyes and a habit of shrinking into himself whenever someone- especially a man- spoke too loud or too fast. Celestia had noticed from the first day. The way his shoulders tensed whenever Kiyotaka got passionate. The way his voice faltered in group conversations. The way he sat at the edges of rooms like a ghost hoping not to be noticed.
And most of all, the way he looked at her- not with desire or awe, like others did- but with a kind of cautious respect. Like he wasn’t sure how long kindness would last.
Today, he hadn’t shown up to class. Not even to the library. That was enough of a reason for her to knock.
A pause. Then a quiet, almost panicked voice- “Go away.”
Celestia didn’t flinch. “I’m afraid that is not an option.”
A rustle, a groan, the sound of someone stumbling across a cluttered room. After several seconds, the door cracked open just enough for one tired eye to peek through. That was all she needed.
He looked terrible. Eyes red-rimmed and dull. His shirt clung to him like he hadn’t changed in days.
“Why are you here?” he asked.
She tilted her head. “Because you are not where you ought to be.”
“I don’t care.”
“I do.”
The door didn’t open wider, but he didn’t close it either.
“Let me in,” she said softly.
He hesitated. But something about the steadiness in her voice- the way she didn’t demand or pity, just... waited- made him move. The door swung open wider, revealing a room barely lit, its corners littered with open books and clothes. The air was stale with solitude.
Celestia stepped in without a word, gliding over to the chair near his desk. She did not sit yet. She turned to him.
“You’ve been hiding.”
(Y/N) looked down. “So what if I have?”
Celestia took a breath. “Then allow me to hide with you.”
His head snapped up, confused. “What?”
She shrugged delicately, shedding her usual smug detachment for something quieter. “Everyone has their limits. Even you, darling. But you do not have to suffer them alone.”
He stared at her. “Why do you care? I’m not... I’m not useful. Not like you.”
A shadow flickered through her expression, but it was gone quickly.
“You are mistaken,” she said. “You possess something quite rare in this academy of masks. You feel. Deeply. I find that... honest.”
(Y/N) sat on the edge of his bed, hands trembling in his lap. “I’m tired, Celeste. Of being scared. Of thinking someone’s going to hurt me every time they raise their voice. I hate this part of me.”
She moved slowly now, kneeling before him, her black skirts pooling like ink on the floor. She reached out, her fingers brushing his hand.
He flinched.
But she didn’t pull away.
“I would never touch you without permission,” she said quietly. “But I will remain here, if you let me. A Queen must protect her kingdom, after all. And you, dear (Y/N)... you are someone I have chosen to keep within mine.”
His breath hitched. “You make it sound like I matter.”
“You do.”
His eyes welled up- unwilling, ashamed.
Celestia leaned just slightly closer, her voice no louder than a whisper. “You are allowed to cry. Even Kings and Queens weep in secret.”
The tears fell then. He didn't sob- just quiet, broken rivers that refused to stop. He didn’t know why her words broke the dam. Maybe it was the way she made him feel safe without ever pretending to understand. Maybe it was the fact that she never tried to fix him.
She simply stayed.
Eventually, as the minutes passed, he spoke again. "I don’t know if I can be normal.”
Celestia offered the faintest smile. “Darling, who in this wretched school is?”
And for the first time in weeks, (Y/N) let himself laugh- just once, just a breath of it. But it was real.
She rose, finally, and sat beside him on the bed. She left space between them but let her sleeve brush his arm lightly.
“Sleep, if you can,” she said. “I will remain. Should the nightmares come.”
“Celeste?”
“Yes?”
“Thank you.”
Her eyes lingered on his, warm beneath their usual sharpness. “No need for gratitude. Loyalty is not something I gamble with.”
As he lay down, his body worn and mind frayed, he felt something foreign settle beside the grief.
Hope.
He wasn’t healed. Not yet.
But he wasn’t alone anymore.
It became routine after that night.
Not loudly. Not all at once. But slowly, like light slipping through the cracks in a boarded window.
Celestia began visiting (Y/N)’s dorm more often. Sometimes she brought books from the library, reading them aloud in her velvety, theatrical cadence. Sometimes she brought tea- actual tea, with tiny biscuits, because of course she did. And sometimes, they just sat in silence. Not the heavy kind that used to choke him, but the kind that felt like breathing next to a fireplace. Comfortable. Undemanding.
She never pressured him to talk, but when he did, she listened. Actually listened.
No judgment. No pity.
Just her gaze- calm, observant, like she was reading the finer print of his soul.
One rainy evening, (Y/N) found himself lingering outside her door, a half-wilted flower clutched awkwardly in his hand.
It was nothing special. A violet he found near the edge of the courtyard, a little bruised but still beautiful. He hadn’t planned to pick it, but he thought of her. And for once, the thought didn’t carry fear or obligation. Just… warmth.
He knocked once, then almost turned to run. But the door opened swiftly.
Celestia stood in a cascade of crimson and black lace, her usual elegant poise giving way to something softer as she took him in- damp hair, shy glance, the flower.
“I, um… saw this and thought of you,” he muttered, not quite meeting her eyes.
She took the flower gently, her fingers brushing his.
“A violet,” she mused, tone almost amused. “You know, in the language of flowers, it means loyalty… and affection.”
“I didn’t know that.”
“You didn’t have to.”
She stepped aside, gesturing for him to enter.
That night, they shared tea on her ornate sofa, the violet placed delicately in a small crystal vase beside her bed. (Y/N) talked more than usual. He told her about his mother’s lullabies. About how his stepfather used to slam cupboard doors just to make him flinch. About how he once hid under a table for two hours after a stranger accidentally raised their voice near him in public.
Celestia’s expression never changed. But her hands tightened just slightly on the teacup.
“I often pretended, as a child,” she said once he finished, voice lower now. “That I lived in a grand castle where no one could hurt me. Where those who tried were cast into the dungeon with no key.”
(Y/N) glanced at her. “Did it help?”
She smiled, a small, secret thing. “I am still here, am I not?”
He let that sink in, then nodded.
A few weeks later, he reached for her hand.
She didn’t say anything- just turned her hand palm up, letting his fingers settle into the spaces between hers.
He marveled at how easy it felt. How right. No panic in his chest. No memories clawing their way forward. Just her cool, steady presence. Her gloved fingers curled gently around his.
“You don’t mind?” he asked, voice barely above a whisper.
“Not at all,” she replied. “In fact… I rather enjoy being close to you.”
His heart fluttered- not in fear, but in something else. Something that might’ve been the early shape of love.
“I like being around you,” he said, more firmly now.
Celestia tilted her head, almost coy. “Of course you do. I am delightful company.”
He laughed- a real one this time. And she smiled, pleased.
That night, as she walked him back to his dorm, she paused before he stepped inside. Her hand lingered near his sleeve.
“May I ask you something, darling?”
“Anything.”
“When you are near me… do you still feel afraid?”
He met her gaze. Her crimson eyes, so sharp and calculating when playing others, now held only curiosity. Maybe even… vulnerability.
He shook his head. “Not at all.”
Her lashes fluttered. And in the hush of the hallway, she leaned in just slightly- not to kiss him, not yet. But close enough that her voice brushed his skin.
“Good,” she whispered. “Then I’ve kept my promise.”
“Promise?”
“To protect you. In my own way.”
(Y/N) swallowed. “You’ve done more than that. You’ve given me something I didn’t think I’d ever feel again.”
“What is that?”
He smiled softly. “Safe.”
And Celestia- poker-faced, invincible, untouchable Celestia- felt something stir in her chest that even she couldn’t gamble away.
Because she was beginning to realize something as well.
She liked being around him, too.
Sonia:
The first time Sonia Nevermind saw (Y/N), he was sitting alone at the edge of the academy courtyard, curled into himself like he was trying to disappear. The spring sun dappled through the leaves overhead, casting soft light across the bruised look in his eyes- not physical bruises, no. These were the kind you didn’t see unless you knew how to look.
Sonia noticed.
She wasn’t oblivious. Despite her bright disposition and the silken lilt of her voice, she had grown up in a world that required constant reading between the lines. The etiquette of royalty demanded it. But even more than that, Sonia had always been drawn to the fragile, the broken, the misunderstood. She saw nobility in endurance. In survival.
And (Y/N) had survived something terrible.
He didn’t speak much. Most of the other students found his distance unnerving- he flinched if someone raised their voice, seemed to shrink when a male classmate passed too close. Rumors whispered through the halls, cruel and speculative. Sonia didn’t listen to them.
Instead, she sat beside him.
Not too close. Just enough.
He didn’t look up at first, but she waited patiently, hands folded in her lap, gaze fixed on the swaying trees ahead.
“You don’t have to talk,” she said gently, as though she knew how the weight of silence could also be a comfort.
(Y/N) peeked at her from the corner of his eye. Her presence was soft. Not imposing. There was no judgment in her expression, only a quiet certainty that unnerved him more than her title ever could.
“You’re… the princess,” he mumbled after a long while.
“I am,” she said, smiling faintly. “But here, I am simply Sonia. I would like to be your friend.”
He stared at his hands. His fingernails were chewed raw.
“…Why?”
She tilted her head. “Because you seem lonely.”
He didn't say anything more that day. But the next day, she sat beside him again.
And the day after that.
Sometimes she spoke about her homeland, about peculiar customs and ghost stories and festivals that lit the sky with fire. Sometimes she said nothing at all. He found he liked that best. Just her company. The way she never reached out to touch him without asking. The way she always kept space between them, yet never felt far.
One day, after weeks of these quiet meetings, (Y/N) showed her a small scar on his wrist. He didn’t explain it. He didn’t have to. Sonia only looked at him with solemn eyes and gently, reverently, pressed a kiss just above it.
“You are still here,” she whispered. “That means everything.”
His throat tightened. He wanted to cry, but he couldn’t remember how. Not properly. The tears never came out right- they clogged up inside him like he didn’t deserve them.
But he nodded. Just once.
After that, he started walking with her between classes. Kept his head down, but her presence made it easier. When a male student bumped into him and muttered an apology, (Y/N) froze- but Sonia stepped between them, not protectively, but firmly. Like a wall of calm. She didn’t have to say anything. Her posture said it all.
Later that evening, when they sat together again under the trees, (Y/N) whispered, “Thank you.”
She turned to him, the last light of day dancing in her golden hair.
“I do not know what your past holds,” she said. “But I want to be part of your future.”
He flinched, not from fear, but from how gently she said it.
“How can you want someone like me?” he asked, voice barely audible. “I’m… broken.”
Sonia leaned in slowly, brushing a lock of hair from his forehead, fingers featherlight. She did not touch skin. She honored the space between them.
“You are not broken,” she said. “You are mending. That is a noble, brave thing. There is no shame in healing slowly.”
A shaky breath escaped his lips. He hadn’t been told that before.
“I’m scared,” he admitted, almost a plea.
“I know,” Sonia said. “I will not rush you. I will wait as long as you need. And when you are ready… I will be here.”
For the first time in a long while, (Y/N) let himself believe it might be true.
That maybe, someday, he could let someone in.
And if anyone could be the first…
…it would be Sonia.
Over the next few weeks, things began to change.
(Y/N) started speaking more during their time together. At first, it was in fragments- simple comments on the weather, shy questions about Sonia’s homeland. But slowly, those fragments became full thoughts, and then stories.
Sometimes he’d catch himself smiling without realizing it. And more often than not, Sonia would already be smiling back.
He never felt pressured with her. She never demanded his happiness or questioned his past. There was no pity in her eyes- only compassion. The difference meant everything.
She took to bringing him little things- a ribbon folded into a rose, a handmade charm for his keyring, a book of folklore from her Homeland. “For when the nightmares come,” she said softly, placing it beside him during lunch. “This one has a happy ending.”
He didn’t know how to tell her that her presence had already begun softening the edge of those nightmares. But she seemed to sense it anyway.
One afternoon, they sat beneath the trees again. The breeze was warm, and the leaves whispered above them.
(Y/N) was lying on his back, hands tucked beneath his head. Sonia sat beside him, legs folded, her gaze turned toward the sky.
“It’s peaceful,” he said, exhaling slowly.
“It is,” she agreed, her voice a melody in the quiet. “Do you know what we say in my Country when we find a moment like this?”
He shook his head.
“Magnificent silence” She smiled down at him. “It is sacred, because it means your heart is calm enough to hear the world.”
(Y/N)’s chest tightened at that. Because for the first time in what felt like years, the silence around him wasn’t terrifying. It wasn’t suffocating. It was full.
And she was there.
“…I like being around you,” he admitted suddenly. It tumbled out before he could stop it.
Sonia’s eyes widened slightly- but then her smile deepened, softened.
“I like being around you as well, (Y/N). Very much.”
His cheeks flushed. He turned his head away, but she didn’t tease him. She only continued watching the trees, allowing him his small, fragile vulnerability.
And then- “I’m… still scared, sometimes. Especially around guys. It doesn’t make sense. I know they’re not all like- like him.”
“You are allowed to be afraid,” Sonia said. “It is not a weakness. It is a wound still healing. We would never call a bandaged arm weak for needing time.”
He bit his lip. She always knew what to say, not because she had all the answers, but because she saw him.
“I’m trying to be better.”
“You already are,” she said softly. “Because you are choosing to stay. To trust. Even just a little. That is what bravery looks like.”
A quiet beat passed between them. The breeze lifted her hair like a silken banner.
“…Can I hold your hand?” he asked, voice small.
Sonia looked at him, gently surprised. Then, carefully, she offered her palm, open and patient.
He took it.
His hand trembled, but she didn’t grip tighter. She simply let it rest there, warm and steady.
They stayed like that, fingers barely laced, as the sun dipped lower through the trees.
It wasn’t loud or showy, what they shared. It didn’t need to be.
pt.1
Summary: After a failed heist exposes (Y/N)’s magic, she, Vander, Silco, and Felicia lay low by working in the mines. Over the years, they establish themselves in the Undercity, with Vander saving to buy the bar that becomes the "Last Drop." As their influence grows, Silco shares his vision of an independent Zaun, planting the seed of revolution. While Vander is hesitant, (Y/N) listens- intrigued but cautious. Lost in her past, she drowns her thoughts in smoke and whiskey, avoiding what haunts her. Yet, the idea of change lingers, and the path ahead is uncertain.
The weight of (Y/N)’s secret still hung thick in the air, pressing against them like the smog outside their hideout. Now that everyone knew, there was no going back.
She sat cross-legged on the floor, staring at her hands- at the faint traces of magic that still tingled beneath her skin. The others were quiet, each of them lost in their own thoughts.
Silco was the first to break the silence. "We need a plan."
Felicia snorted. "You think?" She gestured vaguely in (Y/N)’s direction. "This isn’t just some petty theft or smuggling job, Silco. She’s a mage. The second the wrong people find out, they’ll be all over us."
Vander leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees. His face was grim. "Felicia’s right. The Enforcers will come looking for whoever set off that magic during the heist. We don’t know if anyone saw your face, but if they did…" His jaw tightened. "It won’t just be you they come for, (Y/N). It’ll be all of us."
(Y/N)’s stomach twisted.
She knew. She knew.
She had spent her whole life hiding, knowing that even in the Undercity, where the laws were loose and survival meant everything, people still feared magic. Mages were either used, sold out, or killed.
Silco was watching her again, that calculating look back in his eyes. "Do you know how to control it?"
(Y/N) hesitated.
"Kind of," she admitted. "I’ve had to teach myself, but it’s-" She swallowed. "It’s not perfect. And when I panic, it’s harder to stop."
Felicia let out a long breath. "So if something goes wrong, you might accidentally blow up a building?"
(Y/N) shot her a glare. "I don’t blow things up."
"Could’ve fooled me."
"Felicia," Vander warned, before turning back to (Y/N). "We’ll figure it out," he said, like it was that simple. Like they could just sit down and solve this like any other problem.
(Y/N) wished she could believe that.
Silco leaned against the wall, arms crossed. "You need practice," he said bluntly. "You need to learn how to control it before it controls you."
(Y/N) frowned. "And how exactly do you suggest I do that? I can’t exactly go around throwing magic in the streets."
"Underground," Silco said without hesitation. "There are places in the Lanes where no one asks questions. The lower sectors, the abandoned tunnels- hell, even the Fissures. People go missing down there all the time. No one would notice a few sparks."
Vander didn’t look convinced. "And if someone does see?"
Silco tilted his head, smirking slightly. "Then we make sure they don’t talk."
Felicia groaned. "Great. Now we’re considering murder. Love that."
"We’re not killing anyone," Vander said firmly. "But Silco’s right about one thing- (Y/N) does need to learn how to control it. If the Enforcers come knocking, she needs to be able to hide it. Or fight back."
(Y/N)’s hands curled into fists. "I don’t want to fight."
Vander’s face softened. "I know."
Felicia sighed, rubbing her temples. "Alright. Say we do train her. Say she figures out how to keep her magic in check. What’s the endgame here? We just keep hiding forever?"
The room fell silent again.
Because none of them had an answer.
Eventually, someone would find out. The Undercity thrived on secrets, but it also thrived on selling them. And (Y/N)’s magic was worth more than just coin.
Silco’s gaze flickered toward her. "We don’t have to figure out everything tonight. But the sooner you learn to control it, the safer we all are."
(Y/N) took a slow, shaky breath. She didn’t like it. She didn’t want this.
But what choice did she have?
"Okay," she murmured. "I’ll do it."
Felicia sighed dramatically, throwing up her hands. "Fine. But if you do accidentally blow something up, I’m telling everyone it was Silco’s idea."
Silco smirked. "You say that like it would be the first time."
(Y/N) rolled her eyes, but something in her chest loosened… They weren’t running yet, but they would be ready when the time came.
The decision settled over them like dust, thick and inescapable. If they wanted to keep (Y/N) safe, they needed to stay put. No more bouncing from hideout to hideout, no more risky jobs that put them in Enforcer sights.
For a while now, they had talked about joining the Miners. It wasn’t glamorous work- nothing in the Undercity was- but it was steady, and more importantly, it was a place to disappear.
Felicia was the first to voice it aloud. "We should actually head for the mines, I guess..."
Vander nodded, rubbing his chin. "Yeah. The mines are deep enough that no one asks questions. No Enforcers, no Pilties. Just workers doing what they have to do to survive."
Silco looked less convinced. "It’s miserable work," he pointed out. "Back-breaking, dangerous, and not exactly known for long life expectancy."
"It’s better than getting caught," (Y/N) muttered.
That shut him up.
Felicia huffed, leaning back against the wall. "Besides, people go missing in the mines all the time. If (Y/N) needs a place to train, no one’s going to notice a little flicker of magic in some abandoned tunnel. They’ll just assume it’s fumes or gas leaks."
(Y/N)’s stomach twisted. She didn’t like the idea of being buried underground, of working herself to exhaustion in the mines just to stay invisible. But she liked the alternative even less.
Vander stretched, cracking his neck. "We’ll need to find someone to vouch for us. Miners don’t just take in new hands without a good word."
Silco smirked. "I might know someone."
Felicia raised a brow. "Of course you do."
"I make it a point to know useful people."
(Y/N) exhaled slowly, then nodded. "Okay. If this is what we have to do, then let’s do it."
The decision was made.
Tomorrow, they would start making arrangements. They would lay low, keep (Y/N) hidden, and work in the mines until they figured out their next move.
For now, it was enough to have a plan, it was enough to be together…
The years in the mines had hardened them all, but they had done what they set out to do. (Y/N) could control her magic now, keeping it hidden when needed, calling on it when necessary. She had learned to harness it, to let it flow without losing herself to it.
And more importantly, she had survived.
The four of them still lived together, still watched each other’s backs, but things were changing. They weren’t just desperate kids scrambling to make it through another day. They had goals now, real ones.
Vander had been saving for a while, working longer shifts, cutting corners on meals, taking riskier but better-paying jobs when he could. And now, he had almost enough to buy the old abandoned bar near the Markets.
Felicia had rolled her eyes when he first mentioned it. "You want to be a bartender now?"
Vander had just grinned. "I want to own something. To have a place of our own. A real home."
The idea had stuck.
It would take time, but if they pulled it off, it could be the start of something bigger. A place where they didn’t have to run. A place they could build something for themselves.
Silco had been skeptical at first, but even he had to admit- having a secure location came with its advantages. And Felicia? Well, she liked the idea of a bar because it meant easy access to drinks and a place to keep an eye on the people who owed them favors.
(Y/N)? She just liked the idea of having a home that wasn’t temporary.
They weren’t there yet. But soon, they would be.
And for the first time in a long time, the future felt like something worth looking forward to.
The mines had given them more than just a way to hide- they had given them purpose. Vander and Silco had worked their way up the ranks, gaining respect and authority, while (Y/N) and Felicia put in long hours, their earnings adding to Vander’s growing stash.
The bar was so close to being theirs.
And now, they just had to name it.
"‘The Last Drop,’" Vander mused, leaning back in his chair. "I like it."
Felicia snorted. "Of course, you do. It sounds dramatic enough for you."
(Y/N) smirked. "It is a good name, though. Feels… fitting."
Silco nodded, swirling the cheap liquor in his glass. "A place for the desperate. The ones at the end of their rope. The last refuge before you fall."
Vander grinned. "See? Dramatic. But I like that."
Felicia raised her hands in surrender. "Fine, fine. ‘The Last Drop’ it is."
It felt right… It wasn’t just a name. It was theirs.
It didn't take long to actually achieve it.
After years of scraping by, of moving from place to place, of struggling just to survive, they finally had something permanent…
Vander had stood in the middle of the empty space, hands on his hips, taking it all in with a quiet sense of pride. "Needs work," he had admitted. "But we’ll fix it up."
And they did.
It wasn’t grand, not yet, but it had walls, a roof that mostly kept the rain out, and a counter where drinks could be poured. It had a future.
As Vander and Silco’s reputation grew, so did their network of trusted allies. They weren’t in power- not yet- but they had people who listened when they spoke. People who respected them. And in the Undercity, that was worth more than coin.
One of those people was Benzo, a shop owner they had recently met. His pawn shop sat close to the bar, a place filled with oddities, old weapons, and trinkets that told stories of lives long past. He was sharp, experienced, and- most importantly- he knew things. The kind of man who had eyes and ears in the right places.
And then there was Connol.
Felicia had met him recently, and though she hadn’t shared much about him yet, there was something different in the way she talked about him. A flicker of something new.
The world was shifting around them, and they were finally in a position to shape it instead of just surviving it.
For the first time in years, the future wasn’t just something to fear. It was something to build.
The bar had settled into a comfortable quiet, the kind that only came when the night had dragged on and most of the patrons had stumbled home.
(Y/N) exhaled a slow breath, the ember of her cigarette glowing softly in the dim light. Next to her, Silco leaned over his book, writing with careful strokes, his whiskey glass half-full beside him. Vander stood behind the bar, absentmindedly wiping down the counter, still getting used to the rhythm of tending to the place.
Felicia wasn’t here- she had been disappearing more and more, off doing whatever it was she did with Connol. None of them had asked. Not yet.
Silco turned a page, but his mind wasn’t on the words. It hadn’t been for a while.
He had been thinking- turning an idea over in his mind, letting it take root, letting it grow. The Undercity… It wasn’t just a slum, wasn’t just a place where people survived at the mercy of Piltover’s scraps. It could be more. It should be more.
And maybe- just maybe- they could be the ones to make it happen.
He tapped his pen against the book, then glanced at (Y/N), who was watching him through the smoke curling between them.
"You’ve got that look again," she murmured.
Silco smirked. "What look?"
"The one that means you’re thinking too much."
Vander chuckled from behind the bar. "That is a dangerous thing."
Silco leaned back in his seat, swirling the whiskey in his glass. "Have you ever thought about what the Undercity could be?"
Vander raised a brow. "It is what it is, Silco."
Silco shook his head. "No, it’s what they let it be. Piltover controls everything- our work, our trade, our lives. We live in their shadow, scraping by, pretending that’s all we’ll ever have."
(Y/N) stubbed out her cigarette, watching him closely. "And you think we can change that?"
Silco’s grip tightened around his glass. "I know we can."
Vander sighed, rubbing a hand over his face. "Silco…"
"No, listen," Silco pressed, leaning forward. "We have a foothold now. We have people who trust us, who listen to us. The bar isn’t just a business- it’s a gathering place. A starting point." His eyes gleamed with conviction. "We could be more than this. It could stand on its own. No more crawling to Piltover for scraps. No more living under their rule."
Silco let the words settle between them.
(Y/N) glanced at Vander, who was frowning, thoughtful but hesitant.
"You want to make a war out of this?" Vander finally asked, voice low.
Silco exhaled slowly. "I want to make a home. A real one. One where we don’t have to answer to anyone but ourselves... We can make Zaun..."
(Y/N) was quiet for a long moment. Then, slowly, she reached for another cigarette. "You really think we could pull it off?"
Silco met her gaze, unwavering. "I think if we don’t, no one else ever will."
Vander sighed again, shaking his head- but he didn’t argue.
Because deep down, maybe part of him agreed.
Silco let the idea simmer, allowing Vander and (Y/N) to sit with it, to think about it. He knew better than to push too fast- Vander was cautious, (Y/N) measured. But the seed was planted.
He had spent years thinking about it, turning the idea over in his mind like a gambler weighing his last coin. The Undercity didn’t have to be a gutter for Piltover’s discarded souls. It could be Zaun- not just a slum, not just the shadows beneath the gleaming city above, but a true city. A force of its own.
The mines, the industry, the people- they were the backbone of Piltover’s prosperity. Without them, the Pilties would crumble under the weight of their own arrogance. And yet, the Undercity was treated as a wasteland, a place to be managed rather than respected.
Silco envisioned something greater. A Zaun that stood apart, that no longer bowed to Piltover’s rules. A Zaun where they decided their own future, not one dictated by Piltover’s Enforcers and Council laws.
The bar was quiet now, save for the occasional clink of glass and the low hum of the Undercity’s ever-present machinery beyond its doors. The night stretched on, thick with unspoken thoughts and the weight of Silco’s vision lingering between them.
(Y/N) nursed her drink, her fingers loosely wrapped around the glass as the warmth of it settled in her chest. She was buzzed- definitely buzzed. A lightweight, as always. But that was just how things were down here. You started young, numbing the cold grip of the Undercity however you could.
Vander had stopped trying to stop her a long time ago.
"You’re thinking about it," Silco mused beside her, his voice low and knowing.
(Y/N) smirked lazily, swirling the remnants of her drink. "’Course I am. It’s a lot to think about."
He nodded, taking another sip of his whiskey. "You don’t have to decide anything now."
She snorted. "I know. You’re letting it sit with us, right?"
Silco chuckled, amused. She was sharp, even with alcohol softening the edges of her thoughts. He liked that about her.
She leaned back, exhaling. "Zaun," she murmured, rolling the word on her tongue. "Feels... different. Feels like something real."
Silco glanced at her, studying the way she stared at her drink, thoughtful even through the haze of liquor.
"It will be real," he said, certainty laced in his tone. "Someday."
(Y/N) didn’t argue. Didn’t scoff. She just nodded, because maybe, just maybe, she could see it too.
After some time, Vander started to moved through the bar with practiced ease, cutting people off, sending the last stragglers stumbling toward the door. The place was shutting down for the night. Not that it mattered much to (Y/N) or Silco. They lived here.
Silco sat comfortably, still sipping at his whiskey, but (Y/N)… She had gone quiet.
Her second drink sat half-finished in front of her, her gaze fixed on the worn wood of the bar. The alcohol had softened her edges, but instead of making her talkative, it had drawn her inward.
She was thinking.
Silco knew that look.
(Y/N) didn’t talk much about her past- not beyond the bare bones of it. They all knew about her magic, but her mother? Her life before coming to the Undercity? That was a locked door she never let them open.
Instead, she lit another cigarette, the flicker of flame briefly illuminating her face before she inhaled, filling her lungs with smoke and whiskey, pushing everything else down.
Silco watched her for a moment before breaking the silence.
"Heavy thoughts?"
(Y/N) exhaled, the smoke curling toward the ceiling. "Always."
He hummed, tilting his glass. "Anything worth sharing?"
She smirked, but it didn’t quite reach her eyes. "Not tonight."
That was how it always was, so Silco didn’t push.
He just poured himself another drink and stayed beside her, letting the ghosts settle in around them.
Can you please do like a fluff maybe tiny angst fanfic thing with Inosuke x reader😭🙏 I've been going through and awful time and struggling with my mental health and he's my absolute favorite😢. But also its totally okay if you dont dont worry about it if you dont wanna. Please & thank you! Have a good day!!
A/N: Of course! Inosuke is one of my favorites, too. You didn't give me many details to go off of, so I did my best! Reader is Gender Neutral, because the gender wasn't specified.
The Kamaboko Squad had a strange dynamic, but somehow it worked.
Tanjiro was the heart- kind, patient, unbreakable. Zenitsu was... Nerves and noise, a blur of panic and surprising bursts of bravery. Inosuke was pure instinct, a creature of wild energy and sharp edge.
And then there was (Y/N).
Quiet. Steady. Always nearby, but never quite with them.
At every campfire, they sat a few paces away. When walking the dirt paths between villages, (Y/N) lingered at the rear, eyes constantly sweeping the surroundings. They fought like a shadow- swift, efficient, disappearing into the smoke of battle almost as quickly as they appeared.
Inosuke noticed first.
Not because he was observant, necessarily, but because he was wired to notice the things that slipped between cracks. Wild things. Quiet things.
"Hey, hey! Why are you always sneakin' off?" Inosuke had blurted one night, crouched beside the fire with a hunk of half-roasted meat skewered on his sword. His boar mask tilted toward (Y/N)'s distant figure, silhouetted at the edge of the clearing.
Tanjiro smiled in that warm, understanding way of his. "That's just how (Y/N) is, Inosuke. They like having space."
"Space?!" Inosuke repeated as if the word was foreign. He pushed himself up onto his feet with an explosive spring of motion, sword still in hand, meat forgotten. "There's too much space! We gotta be a pack! Like wolves!" He turned to Zenitsu for backup.
Zenitsu, mouth full of rice, only made a muffled noise that was probably agreement.
(Y/N) shifted slightly, but said nothing. Their gaze flickered toward the group, soft but cautious- like a stray animal deciding whether a hand reaching out was kind or cruel.
Inosuke stomped over without hesitation.
(Y/N) braced for the usual crash of sound and bluster, but when Inosuke stopped just a few feet away, there was something almost... Unsure about him. His fists clenched and unclenched at his sides. Through the slits in his mask, (Y/N) caught the flash of his green eyes- narrowed, searching.
"You don't have to be all... far away," Inosuke muttered, scuffing his foot against the dirt. "You can sit closer. If you want. I mean- it's stupid if you don't."
It was probably the kindest thing he'd ever said to anyone.
(Y/N) stared at him for a long moment, chest tight with something unfamiliar- something warm. Slowly, they rose from their spot and padded closer, settling down a few feet from the others, but noticeably nearer than before.
Inosuke made a triumphant sound, like he'd won some kind of battle, and flopped down next to them with a heavy thud, his shoulder bumping theirs.
He didn't move away.
Neither did (Y/N).
The next few days passed in a blur of walking, fighting, patching wounds, and walking again. It was always like that- endless roads under endless skies, villages clinging to the edges of survival.
Demon attacks never stopped. And neither did the Kamaboko Squad. Currently, though… They were heading somewhere specific. A Demon they had caught wind of while traveling.
But today- Well… Most days… (Y/N) was struggling.
They hid it well- or they thought they did.
The sleepless nights. The tightness in their chest that never went away. The way their hands trembled slightly after battles, not from fear of demons, but from fear of themselves- of what they weren't strong enough to be.
There were days (Y/N) barely felt real at all.
The others were too busy to notice. Or maybe they did notice, but were kind enough not to say.
Except Inosuke.
Inosuke had the instincts of a wild animal. He didn't understand sadness- not in the way most did, not being the best at dealing with emotions. But even he could tell something was wrong.
That night, camped along a mountain trail, he found (Y/N) again sitting at the edge of the firelight, arms wrapped around their knees, face shadowed.
Inosuke didn't announce himself. Didn't shout. He just... crouched down beside them.
"You look weird," he said bluntly.
(Y/N) huffed a breath, part tired, part bitter amusement. "I always look weird."
Inosuke shook his head- his boar mask was pushed up tonight, exposing his messy hair and serious, narrowed eyes. "Not like that. You look... wrong."
He shifted closer, peering into their face with unsettling intensity.
"Are you sick? Hurt? Did somebody bite you?!" he demanded, baring his teeth a little, like he'd hunt down whatever dared.
(Y/N) tried to laugh, but it came out broken. Their throat tightened painfully. "No... I just... I'm just tired, Inosuke."
It was mostly the truth.
Mostly.
Inosuke made a low, growling sound- frustrated, restless. His whole body coiled like he wanted to do something, but he didn’t know what. Fighting he understood. Hunting he understood. This... this invisible enemy inside (Y/N)- He couldn't punch it, couldn't headbutt it into submission.
"I don't like it when you're like this," he said, voice low. "You're supposed to be strong."
(Y/N) flinched.
That was it, wasn’t it? The cruel little echo in their head.
You're supposed to be stronger.
You're supposed to be better.
You're supposed to...
"I know," (Y/N) whispered, barely audible.
Inosuke stared at them- really stared- and something shifted behind his eyes.
Without warning, Inosuke dropped to the ground, sprawling onto his side until his head came to rest against (Y/N)'s arm. He let out a loud, theatrical sigh, as if annoyed with himself. "Tch. Fine," he grumbled. "I'll be strong enough for both of us."
(Y/N) blinked, stunned. Before they could react, Inosuke continued, fiddling with a blade of grass between his fingers. "You don't have to be strong all the time," he muttered. "You can be weak with me."
(Y/N) stared down at the wild mess of his hair, their heart squeezing so tight it hurt to breathe. In his strange, broken, stubborn way, Inosuke was telling them it was okay to fall apart. That it was okay to be a mess- and that he would stay anyway.
Something hot prickled behind their eyes. Slowly, almost without thinking, they leaned down, brushing their forehead lightly against his hair.
"...Thank you," (Y/N) whispered, their voice cracking.
Inosuke made a pleased, confused sound and gently bumped his head against them- a soft, careful nuzzle, rare for him.
For the first time in days, (Y/N) finally let themselves breathe. That night, they all settled in to rest. Inosuke gave (Y/N) space, leaving them alone under the stars.
When morning came, they packed up camp and set off, heading toward the last place the demon had been sighted.
But when they arrived, everything went wrong.
It wasn’t (Y/N)'s fault- not really. The demon was stronger than any of them had expected, its body slick with armored plates, its claws slicing through trees like paper. They fought with everything they had.
(Y/N) fought too. But for just a second- a single, stupid second- they got sloppy.
The demon’s claws slashed across their side, shallow but brutal, sending them crashing into a tree. When Tanjiro and Inosuke finally brought the creature down, (Y/N) was crumpled against the roots, blood darkening the earth beneath them.
Hours later, they sat alone by the dim glow of a dying campfire, one hand fisted tight over the fabric of their bandaged ribs. Their body trembled with exhaustion- and with something heavier. Something black and gnawing at the edges of their mind.
It's your fault.
You should have been faster. Smarter.
If you had died... If you had slowed the others down... Someone else could have gotten hurt.
"You stupid idiot," (Y/N) whispered, nails biting into their palm. "You're dead weight. You shouldn't be here."
A branch cracked somewhere behind them.
(Y/N) stiffened, scrubbing at their face quickly before glancing up- and froze.
Inosuke stood a few feet away, watching them with an intensity that made it impossible to look away. Neither of them spoke for a long moment.
Then Inosuke moved. In one quick, almost clumsy motion, he dropped to his knees in front of (Y/N), grabbed their face in both rough, calloused hands, and forced them to look at him.
"Don't," he said, low and fierce.
(Y/N)'s chest twisted. "Inosuke, I-"
"Shut up," he growled, but there was no anger in it. Only a raw desperation. "I can smell it on you. That stupid guilt. Like rotting meat."
(Y/N)'s breath caught in their throat.
"You fought," Inosuke said, shaking them just slightly, as if trying to jolt the poison thoughts right out of their skull. "You fought like crazy. You were hurt, but you still fought. That's strong."
"But I-" (Y/N) tried again, voice breaking. "I messed up. I let it hit me. If something happened to you, or Tanjiro, or Zenitsu, or-"
"You didn't!" Inosuke snarled. "We're all alive. Because of you."
(Y/N)'s eyes blurred with tears they couldn't stop anymore. Their whole body shook from the weight of it- the guilt, the fear, the endless, clawing pressure to be better, to be perfect, to be worth the space they took up.
"I can't-" they choked out, voice cracking wide open. "I'm not strong enough. I never was."
Inosuke made a frustrated, pained sound deep in his chest- then he pulled (Y/N) forward, hard and fast, until their forehead thumped against his bare shoulder.
"Shut up," he said again, but softer this time- almost broken. His arms wrapped around them tight, like he was physically trying to hold them together.
"You're one of us. I don't care if you're strong or weak or stupid or smart. You're mine," he muttered into their hair. "You don't have to fight alone."
(Y/N) let out a raw, shuddering breath- and finally, finally, the dam inside them cracked.
They buried their face against Inosuke’s chest and sobbed- ugly, shaking, broken sobs, the kind that tore up your ribs and left you gasping for air.
Inosuke didn’t pull away.
He just stayed there- solid and real and grounding- muttering nonsense under his breath, things like "Stupid (Y/N)," and "I'll beat up anything that makes you cry," and "You're not allowed to disappear, you hear me?"
At some point, (Y/N) stopped fighting it. They let themselves lean into him completely, clutching his shoulder gently, breathing in the warm, earthy scent of him.
They weren't okay.
But maybe... maybe they would be.
Because Inosuke- wild, reckless, stubborn Inosuke- wasn't going to let them fall apart alone.
Not anymore.
When (Y/N) woke, the first thing they noticed was the heavy warmth draped over them.
The campfire had burned down to glowing embers. Dawn light bled slowly into the gray sky, painting everything soft and muted. The air was cold, sharp enough that every breath stung their lungs- but they were warm.
Because Inosuke was still there.
Curled around them like a living shield, arms locked tight across their back, chin resting against the crown of their head. His breathing was slow and even, but his muscles were tense- even in sleep, he was ready, guarding them from enemies seen and unseen.
(Y/N) shifted slightly, wincing at the ache in their ribs.
Immediately, Inosuke stirred.
He blinked blearily down at them, messy hair falling across his forehead, green eyes sharp with instant alertness. The moment he registered they were awake, he tightened his hold just slightly, pulling them closer against his chest.
"You're not allowed to move," he mumbled, voice thick with sleep.
(Y/N) gave a hoarse, surprised laugh. "I'm not?"
"Nope," Inosuke said firmly, squeezing them once like a warning.
"You didn't sleep much, did you?" they asked softly, guilt tugging at the edges of their voice.
Inosuke grunted. "I had to keep watch. You were crying like an idiot." There was no venom in it- just blunt concern, the only way he knew how to say I was scared for you without actually saying it.
(Y/N) swallowed hard. Their hands, still trembling slightly, found his shoulder- clutched it again without thinking.
"I'm sorry," they whispered.
Inosuke made a low, growling noise in his throat- angry, almost hurt- and pulled back just enough to stare into their face.
"Don't say that," he said fiercely. "Don't you dare be sorry for needing help."
His words were clumsy. Rough around the edges. But they slammed straight into (Y/N)'s chest, stealing the air from their lungs.
"I need you too," Inosuke said, quieter now. "So you gotta stay. Even if you're hurting. Even if you're scared. You gotta stay."
(Y/N) blinked rapidly against the hot sting behind their eyes. They didn't deserve this kind of loyalty. This kind of raw, stubborn care. And yet- here Inosuke was. Offering it anyway.
Slowly, carefully, (Y/N) leaned their forehead against his again. The touch was feather-light, a soft, tentative thing- but Inosuke didn’t pull away.
Instead, he tilted his head just slightly until their temples touched, grounding them both.
"I'll stay," (Y/N) whispered.
Inosuke huffed, triumphant, like he’d won some kind of secret war. "Good. 'Cause I'm not lettin' you go."
He shifted again, making himself more comfortable- essentially wrapping himself around (Y/N) like a wild animal refusing to be separated from something sacred.
They lay there in the soft light of morning, tucked into each other, heartbeat to heartbeat.
(Y/N)... felt like they belonged.
And Inosuke- reckless, fierce, utterly untamable Inosuke- was right there with them.
Where he intended to stay.
pt.1
Summary: Drunk and lost in thought, (Y/N) is helped to her room by Silco, who dismisses her drunken compliments about his appearance despite the buried feelings they stir. The next morning, she wakes with a pounding hangover and regret but pushes forward. Down in the bar, she shares a tense yet teasing conversation with Silco about the previous night. After making breakfast for their group, (Y/N), Silco, Vander, and Felicia head out to handle supply shipments. Along the way, (Y/N) notices hooded figures following them. She and Silco silently acknowledge the potential threat, deciding to stay cautious.
The night stretched on, the hum of the Undercity’s distant machinery a lull beneath the quiet of the nearly empty bar.
(Y/N) had long since stopped paying attention to her drink, her fingers still loosely curled around her cigarette, the ember fading to nothing. She slumped against the bar, her head resting on her folded arms, her thoughts drifting somewhere Silco couldn’t follow.
He watched her for a moment, then sighed.
She was a mess. But then again, weren’t they all?
With quiet efficiency, he slid off his stool, stepping around to her side. "Come on," he murmured, voice softened just enough to be different from his usual sharpness.
She barely moved, blinking sluggishly as he pried the cigarette from her fingers, snuffing it out before guiding her up. She was unsteady, the alcohol dragging her limbs down like lead, but she followed his lead without complaint.
He brought her to her room- small, tucked away, but hers. He wasn’t gentle, not exactly, but he was careful as he eased her onto the thin mattress. She flopped onto it with a quiet sigh, her eyes half-lidded, lost somewhere between wakefulness and the pull of exhaustion.
Silco turned to leave.
Then- a hand on his wrist.
Her grip was weak, barely there, but it stopped him nonetheless.
He glanced back.
(Y/N) wasn’t looking at him, her gaze still distant, but her fingers curled slightly, as if to keep him from disappearing like the rest of her thoughts.
For a long moment, Silco just stood there.
Then, with an exhale, he sat down at the edge of the bed.
He wouldn’t stay forever. But for now? He’d stay.
(Y/N) stared up at him, her eyes glassy, unfocused- but still seeing him. Really seeing him.
Silco wasn’t looking at her. He was sitting at the edge of the bed, his elbows resting on his knees, fingers loosely clasped together as he exhaled through his nose. He looked exhausted, always carrying the weight of his thoughts, his ambitions. The dim light filtering through the grimy window cast soft shadows over his face, highlighting sharp angles, tired blue eyes.
Gods, he was pretty.
The thought drifted through her whiskey-soaked mind before she could stop it, her lips parting slightly as if she might say it aloud.
She had fallen in love with him years ago, back when they were younger, when their world had been a little smaller, their dreams a little simpler. She had never said anything, never acted on it. What good would it do? They had always been fighting for survival, struggling to carve out something more in a city that tried to swallow them whole.
But the whiskey made her tongue looser than it should have been.
"You know," she murmured, her voice softer than usual, slightly slurred. "You’re really pretty."
Silco blinked, turning his head to look at her properly.
(Y/N) just smiled lazily, her cheek pressed against the pillow, eyes still locked on his face. "Too pretty, really… s’not fair."
Silco scoffed, shaking his head. "You’re drunk."
She hummed in agreement. "Maybe."
He looked away, rubbing a hand over his face, muttering something under his breath about her being a lightweight.
(Y/N) just kept watching him, her mind a fog of whiskey and years of feelings buried too deep.
"Bet you don’t even realize," she mused, her voice barely above a whisper.
Silco turned back to her, brow furrowed. "Realize what?"
(Y/N) just smiled, slow and lopsided.
"Nothing," she murmured, letting her eyes slip shut. She’d keep her secret, for now.
Sleep took her quickly, pulling her under like the tide. The stress of the day, the weight of unspoken thoughts, and the whiskey swirling in her system all dragged her into the depths of exhaustion.
Silco sat there for a moment longer, watching the slow, steady rise and fall of her breath.
She had always been like this- carrying too much, saying too little. Even now, in her drunken haze, she had stopped herself before saying something real.
With a quiet exhale, he stood, carefully pulling the thin blanket over her.
"Idiot," he muttered, though there was no real bite to the word.
Then, with one last glance at her sleeping form, he turned and left the room, shutting the door softly behind him.
(Y/N) woke with a groan, her head pounding like someone had taken a hammer to the inside of her skull. Her mouth was dry, her stomach twisted in protest, and every little sound outside her room felt like a personal attack.
Shit.
She had done this to herself. Again.
It wasn’t the first time she had woken up feeling like death after drinking too much, and it probably wouldn’t be the last. Still, that didn’t make it any less miserable.
For a moment, she just lay there, her face buried in the pillow, trying to will the world away. But she knew better. The longer she stayed in bed, the worse she’d feel.
With a groan, she forced herself to sit up. The room spun slightly, her stomach lurching in protest, but she swallowed it down, running a hand through her tangled hair.
She needed water. Food, maybe. And a cigarette.
With slow, sluggish movements, she dragged herself out of bed and started getting ready for the day, just like every other morning.
(Y/N) moved through her morning routine on autopilot, every action deliberate and slow to avoid making herself feel worse. Don’t move too fast, don’t think too hard, don’t throw up.
By the time she was dressed, her head still felt like it was stuffed with cotton, and her stomach was a mess of nausea and regret. But she had survived worse.
She made her way downstairs, the air in the bar thick with the lingering scent of old liquor and smoke. It was still early- too early for business. The Last Drop didn’t open until midday, sometimes later, depending on what Vander felt like or how much of a headache they all had to deal with.
The place was quiet, save for the distant hum of the Undercity beyond the walls.
(Y/N) let out a slow breath and leaned against the bar, rubbing at her temple. She needed coffee. Or maybe just another drink to even herself out.
She wasn’t sure which sounded worse.
(Y/N) opted for the easiest solution- whiskey.
With a practiced reach over the bar, she grabbed the bottle and poured herself a glass, the amber liquid sloshing slightly as she tried to be steady. She took a slow sip, wincing as the burn hit her throat. It wasn’t pleasant, but it was better than the headache clawing at her skull.
She was halfway through the glass when she heard footsteps descending the stairs.
Silco.
He stepped into the dimly lit bar, looking as put-together as ever, despite the late night before. His sharp gaze flickered to her, then down to the glass in her hand.
“Whiskey for breakfast?” he asked dryly, his voice laced with amusement.
(Y/N) didn’t bother looking up. “Helps the headache.”
Silco scoffed, moving toward the bar. “It causes the headache.”
She shrugged, taking another sip. “Then I’m just balancing things out.”
He leaned against the counter, watching her for a long moment.
“You remember anything from last night?” he asked, his tone casual- too casual.
That made her pause.
She frowned slightly, her mind sluggish as she tried to recall the details of the night before. She remembered drinking. She remembered feeling heavy- dragged down by old memories and smoke. She remembered Silco bringing her to bed…
And then-
Shit.
She had said something, hadn’t she?
(Y/N) took another sip of whiskey, refusing to meet his gaze.
“Not much,” she muttered. “Just that I drank too much.”
Silco hummed, unconvinced, but he didn’t push.
“Figures,” he said, reaching over to steal the glass from her hand, taking a sip himself.
(Y/N) rolled her eyes but didn’t argue… Maybe it was better if they both let last night go.
(Y/N) exhaled a long breath, pulling out a cigarette and lighting it with steady hands- too steady, considering the storm in her head.
She didn’t want to let it go.
Even if the whiskey had dulled the details, she knew what had been there underneath- the truth of it. It wasn’t some drunken slip, some meaningless flattery. It had been real.
And maybe it was stupid, definitely reckless, but for once, she didn’t want to bite her tongue and bury it.
She watched as Silco took another sip from her glass, his sharp eyes already moving past the conversation, onto something else.
(Y/N) took a slow drag of her cigarette, letting the smoke settle in her lungs before she spoke.
“I meant it.”
Silco raised a brow, setting the glass down with a quiet clink. “Meant what?”
Her fingers tightened slightly around the cigarette. “What I said last night.”
Silco studied her, the amusement from earlier fading into something unreadable.
(Y/N) exhaled smoke, glancing off to the side. “I don’t remember everything, but I know I meant it.” She flicked ash into a nearby tray, her voice lower now. “Still do.”
A beat of silence stretched between them.
Silco leaned forward slightly, his expression unreadable. “You are aware you were completely sloshed, yes?”
(Y/N) scoffed. “Doesn’t mean I was wrong.”
Another silence.
Then, Silco smirked, slow and sharp. “I am quite pretty, aren’t I?”
(Y/N) rolled her eyes but couldn’t stop the slight curve of her lips. “Asshole.”
Silco just chuckled, pushing the whiskey back toward her. “If you’re going to start confessing things, at least wait until you’re not hungover.”
(Y/N) shook her head, taking another sip. Maybe she would, maybe she wouldn’t… But at least she had said something.
(Y/N) downed the last of her drink, stubbing out her cigarette in the ashtray before stretching her arms over her head. The whiskey had dulled the edges of her hangover, at least a little, but it wouldn’t last forever.
Time to get moving.
She pushed off the bar, glancing at Silco, who had already made himself comfortable with her glass of whiskey, refilling it. “You planning on helping, or just sitting there looking pretty?”
Silco smirked. “I think you already established my strengths.”
(Y/N) rolled her eyes and made her way toward the small kitchen in the back. The Last Drop wasn’t exactly known for its fine dining, but they had enough supplies to make something decent- decent meaning anything edible that kept them from starving.
Felicia and Connol usually stopped by around this time, and Benzo wasn’t far behind. It had become something of an unspoken routine, a part of their mornings that had settled naturally into place. And (Y/N)? She was usually the one who ended up making breakfast.
She didn’t mind, though.
It was something normal. A small, steady thing in the chaos of the Undercity.
She gathered what ingredients they had- eggs, some bread that wasn’t too stale, and whatever meat Vander had managed to get his hands on- and started cooking, the familiar sounds of sizzling filling the air as she focused on the simple motions.
Soon, the others would show up. The bar would come alive again, and another day in the Lanes would begin.
(Y/N) carried the plates out to the bar, setting them down so everyone could grab what they wanted when they arrived. The scent of cooked food lingered in the air, mixing with the ever-present smell of smoke and old whiskey.
They still had time before the bar opened for the day, so for now, things were slow- calm, even.
Benzo was the first to arrive, pushing open the door with a casual stride. “Smells good in here,” he commented, tossing a glance toward the food. “Better than whatever the hell that street vendor was sellin’ on my way over.”
(Y/N) smirked as she leaned against the bar. “That’s not exactly a high bar, Benzo.”
He chuckled, grabbing a plate without hesitation. “Hey, food is food.”
Not long after, Felicia and Connol arrived.
Felicia was talking before she even stepped fully inside. “Finally! I was starting to think you forgot about breakfast, (Y/N).”
(Y/N) scoffed. “Like I’d let you starve.”
Connol, quiet as usual, gave a nod in greeting before helping himself to some food. He had been around more lately- a lot more, and while (Y/N) didn’t fully know what to make of him yet, he seemed alright. He made Felicia happy, at least, and that was worth something.
Everyone settled in, eating and talking, the morning taking on the familiar rhythm of their routine. For a little while, it almost felt… normal.
Once breakfast was done and the plates were cleared, (Y/N) wiped her hands on a rag before making her way over to Vander and Silco, who were already deep in conversation near the bar.
Vander had his arms crossed, his usual serious expression in place, while Silco leaned against the counter, flipping through his notebook.
(Y/N) slid into the space between them, raising a brow. “So, what’s the plan for today?”
Vander glanced at her, then exhaled, rubbing a hand over his beard. “Depends.”
Silco, without looking up from his notes, added, “We’ve got some shipments coming in later- nothing major, but enough to keep an eye on.”
Vander nodded. “And I was thinkin’ we might head back to the mines later, put in a few hours. Keep up appearances.”
(Y/N) sighed. They didn’t have to work in the mines as much anymore, not with the Last Drop slowly becoming a more stable source of income, but keeping ties there was still important. “Figures.”
Silco finally shut his notebook, glancing between them. “And, if we have time, I wouldn’t mind checking out a few places in the Lanes. Get a read on things.”
That caught (Y/N)’s attention. “You mean more than just ‘getting a read,’ don’t you?”
Silco smirked. “Always.”
Vander gave him a look but didn’t argue.
(Y/N) crossed her arms, considering. A trip to the Lanes could mean anything- connections, information, or just making sure they weren’t falling behind on what was happening in the Undercity.
“Alright,” she said finally. “Sounds like a full day.”
Vander grunted in agreement, and Silco just gave a knowing tilt of his head. With the plan set, they went over the details quickly.
“Alright,” Vander said, leaning against the bar with his arms crossed. “First, we handle the shipments. Make sure everything’s in order.”
Silco nodded, already thinking ahead. “After that, we move through the Lanes, see what’s stirring. There’s been talk of tensions rising in a few places- I’d rather not be blindsided.”
(Y/N) exhaled, rolling her shoulders. “And then we finish off in the mines.” She smirked. “Saving the best for last.”
Vander chuckled. “We’ll be in and out. Just enough to show our faces.”
Felicia, who had been listening from the side while finishing the last of her drink, stretched her arms over her head. “Sounds like a long day.”
Silco shot her a dry look. “You are still capable of working, yes?”
Felicia smirked. “Oh, don’t worry. I’ll be there. Just don’t expect me to be happy about it.”
With everything decided, they gathered what they needed. (Y/N) grabbed her coat, Silco tucked his notebook away, and Vander made sure the bar was set to be running while they were gone. He had gotten one of his newly hired bartenders to come in, along with asking Benzo to sit around and drink… Just to watch things.
Then, without wasting any more time, they headed out into the Undercity to start their day.
Felicia lingered by the door, saying a quick goodbye to Connol before he disappeared into the winding streets of the Undercity. Whatever he did during the day was still a bit of a mystery- probably something inventive. He looked like the type to be scientific, always thinking, always watching.
But that wasn’t (Y/N)’s concern right now.
With Connol gone, the four of them set off, making their way through the dimly lit streets toward where the shipments were being delivered. The air was thick with the usual blend of smoke, oil, and the distant hum of machinery. It was a scent that clung to everything in the Undercity.
As they walked, Vander took the lead, his broad frame naturally clearing a path where needed. Silco, as always, kept sharp eyes on their surroundings, his thoughts likely already drifting toward whatever he expected to find in the Lanes later. Felicia walked beside (Y/N), hands in her pockets, a casual bounce in her step despite the rough streets beneath them.
(Y/N) flicked the butt of a cigarette into the gutter as they approached their destination- a tucked-away storage lot run by a man named Harker, a supplier they’d worked with a few times before. The shipments weren’t anything fancy, just supplies for the Last Drop- booze, some preserved goods, and whatever else they needed to keep the place running.
Vander stepped up first, knocking twice on the metal door. It took a moment, but soon enough, they heard the sound of locks shifting before Harker himself pulled the door open.
The man squinted at them, his face rough with age and soot. “You’re early,” he grunted.
Vander shrugged. “You got it ready or not?”
Harker snorted, stepping aside to let them in. “Yeah, yeah. Come on in. Just don’t touch nothin’ that ain’t yours.”
(Y/N) exchanged a glance with Silco before following the others inside. Time to get to work.
(Y/N) adjusted her grip on one of the heavier crates, the weight digging into her arms as she walked alongside the others. The streets of the Undercity were always filled with movement- faces ducking in and out of alleyways, the low hum of machinery echoing in the distance- but something felt different.
She had noticed them the moment they left the Last Drop- a few hooded figures lingering just a little too long in the alleys, their steps just a little too measured. At first, she thought it might be a coincidence, just another group moving through the Undercity like everyone else.
But now, as they neared the bar, she knew they were being followed.
She didn’t say anything at first, choosing instead to glance toward Silco, who was walking slightly ahead of her. His sharp gaze was usually quick to pick up on things like this- he had to have noticed, right?
Felicia, carrying a smaller crate beside her, was too caught up in complaining about the weight to notice anything. “Seriously, why does alcohol have to be so damn heavy? Can’t we start serving something lighter?”
“Like what?” Vander asked dryly, barely breaking stride.
Felicia huffed. “I dunno, something that doesn’t make my arms feel like they’re gonna fall off.”
(Y/N) wasn’t listening. She shifted her hold on the crate, subtly glancing over her shoulder.
The hooded figures were still there. Three of them. Keeping their distance, but staying close enough that it wasn’t natural.
Her pulse quickened, but her expression remained calm.
Silco turned his head slightly- just enough for his eyes to flicker toward her before looking forward again. He had noticed.
Good.
(Y/n) exhaled through her nose, keeping her pace steady. They were close to the bar now, but that didn’t mean they were safe. Whoever these people were, they weren’t just watching- they were waiting.
For what?
And more importantly- why?
As soon as the last crate was set down in the storage room, (Y/N) dusted off her hands and made her way over to Silco. He was already expecting her.
The others were still busy- Vander double-checking the shipments, Felicia stretching her arms and complaining about the heavy lifting. It gave (Y/N) the perfect moment to pull Silco aside, just out of earshot.
“You saw them too,” she muttered, keeping her voice low.
Silco leaned against the wall, arms crossed, his sharp eyes watching her carefully. “Of course I did.” His tone was calm, but there was a knowing edge to it.
(Y/N) exhaled, running a hand through her hair. “They’ve been following us since we left the bar. I didn’t get a good look, but… they weren’t just passing through.”
Silco hummed in agreement. “No. They weren’t.”
That unsettled her. If Silco was concerned, it meant this wasn’t just her overthinking things.
“You think they’re watching us specifically?” she asked.
Silco tilted his head slightly, considering. “Possibly. Could be unrelated, but I doubt it.” He glanced toward the door. “Three of them, moving like they had a purpose. If they wanted to attack, they would’ve done it already. That means they were either scouting us or waiting for something.”
(Y/N) crossed her arms. “And that’s what worries me.”
Silco studied her for a moment before lowering his voice even further. “Did you notice anything about them? Anything off?”
(Y/N) thought back. They moved well, blending into the streets with ease. But something had felt strange about them. “Their movements were too careful,” she muttered. “Like they weren’t just random thugs.”
Silco’s expression didn’t change, but she could see the gears turning in his head. “We’ll have to keep an eye out. If they’re still around by the time we head to the Lanes, we’ll know for sure.”
(Y/N) nodded. “Should we tell Vander and Felicia?”
Silco considered it, then shook his head. “Not yet. No need to spook them if this turns out to be nothing.” (Y/N) hesitated but ultimately agreed. For now, they’d just have to watch their backs.
With the shipments handled and the Last Drop running smoothly for now, the four of them set off once more, weaving through the winding paths of the Undercity. The Lanes were the heart of the Undercity’s chaos- filled with traders, workers, gang members, and those just trying to survive another day. It was where information spread fastest, where rumors carried weight, and where they could keep their fingers on the pulse of the city.
(Y/N) stayed alert, her eyes flickering to the shadows between buildings, the alleys where trouble tended to brew. She hadn’t seen the hooded figures since they returned to the bar, but that didn’t mean they were gone.
Vander led the way, as he often did, his presence alone enough to command respect. People recognized him now- not as some leader, not yet, but as someone reliable, someone who got things done. Silco walked beside him, quiet but watchful, his mind likely still working through the same concerns (Y/N) had.
Felicia, as usual, brought a different kind of energy to the group. “We should get something to eat while we’re out,” she suggested, stretching her arms. “That stew from Elda’s stall? Real good. And I’m starving.”
Vander smirked. “You’re always starving.”
Felicia grinned. “Yeah, well, lifting crates all morning will do that.”
(Y/N) barely heard them, her attention on the movement around them. She caught glimpses of familiar faces- merchants selling scrap, chem-dealers peddling their poisons, Enforcers nowhere to be seen. It was business as usual.
But still… something felt off.
As they rounded a corner near one of the busier market areas, she caught it again- just for a second. A hooded figure, leaning against a wall, just barely in her peripheral vision. By the time she turned her head fully, they were gone.
Her stomach twisted… They were still being watched.
If you're willing do you mind doing that last prompt you did (the one with Mahiru and Kaede, also fuck that Hina guy wtf) but with Kyoko, Celeste and Toko? I really enjoy subby readers and my gay heart is screaming ♥️
A/N: Absolutely! I tried to make it more subby, I hope this is what you wanted :} Also, yeah, I agree. That guy was super fucking weird. Hopefully, it won't be a problem anymore, though.
Kyoko:
- The Talk Comes First: Kyoko doesn’t act without knowing the full picture. She’ll sit beside (Y/N), voice calm and soothing, hands gently folded in her lap. “Are you sure you’re ready?” she’ll ask- not to test her, but to assure her she’s not going anywhere if she’s not. The detective always makes sure the emotional groundwork is solid before taking any step forward.
- Subtle Nervousness: She seems composed, but the truth is in the little things: how her fingers linger longer than usual, how she hesitates before speaking, how her eyes flick to (Y/N)’s lips then away again. It’s not fear- it’s hope. Quiet, careful hope that (Y/N) will want this just as much as she does.
- Soft, Private Setting: Kyoko prepares everything in advance: the room is clean, the sheets are freshly changed, the lights are low and warm. Maybe there’s a playlist in the background- instrumental, minimal vocals. She creates an atmosphere that wraps around (Y/N) like a protective spell.
- Guided Reassurance: She reads (Y/N)’s every reaction like she’s solving a case. If her breath catches or her fingers twitch, she slows. “Is this okay?” she murmurs. “We stop the moment you say so.” There is no judgment in her voice, only care.
- Uncharacteristically Soft Words: When the walls fall, they fall completely. “You’re beautiful,” she whispers against (Y/N)’s skin. “I’ve never trusted anyone this much.” Her words are rare gems, only shared when they matter most- raw and real in a way that Kyoko doesn’t allow herself to be often.
- Taking Her Time: She savors every kiss, every brush of skin. Her touches are slow, almost reverent, like she's memorizing the love of her life. She’s not rushing to an end- she’s exploring, mapping, learning. Her pace says ‘you matter to me’.
- Detective Instincts… for Love: If (Y/N) tenses, if her voice falters, if her expression shifts even slightly- she knows. She adjusts instantly. “We don’t have to go further. We can just be here.” Kyoko is attentive in a way that feels like she’s holding your soul in her hands.
- She Makes It About (Y/N): This isn’t about her. Kyoko pays attention to (Y/N)’s sighs, her shivers, her breath. She adapts to what she needs, and finds joy in giving her pleasure- not just physically, but emotionally. She’s endlessly patient, giving without asking for anything back.
- Detective-Level Focus: The way (Y/N)’s back arches? Noted. The little gasp when she kisses a certain spot? Locked in. She pieces it together like evidence, each detail helping her uncover exactly how to make her unravel.
- Hands First, Always Controlled: Kyoko’s fingers are her most precise tools- slender, confident, and deliberate. Even with gloves, she’s devastatingly effective. She doesn’t rush, she doesn’t falter. “I want to feel you come undone for me,” she murmurs, and she does.
- Kisses Between Commands: While her fingers do the work, her mouth follows: trailing kisses down (Y/N)’s neck, teeth nipping her collarbone, lips warm and firm. Her voice is low: “Don’t run. Let it happen.” She grounds her with both command and comfort.
- If She Uses Her Mouth… (Y/N)’s Doomed: Kyoko between her thighs is a study in devotion. She licks with purpose, pressure, and slow-building heat. Her hands keeps (Y/N) open, her eyes locked on hers. Every look says, ‘don’t look away from me’. And (Y/N) can't.
- She Talks (Y/N) Through It: “You’re close.” “That’s it, stay with me.” “I want you to let go.” Her voice alone is enough to push her over. She speaks in that even, warm tone (Y/N) trusts more than anything.
- Body Language Queen: When (Y/N) starts trembling, she grounds her. “Breathe. I’ve got you,” she whispers, and she does. She’s right there, adjusting her pace, never leaving her to ride it out alone. She breaks her down just to hold her through it.
- Finishing: When (Y/N) finally falls apart, she catches every piece. Shes in her arms before she can even think. “You did so well,” she murmurs against her temple. “I’m here. I’ve got you.” Her embrace is firm, warm, and unshakable.
- Gentle Aftercare: Warm water, soft clothes, slow fingers brushing through (Y/N)’s hair- Kyoko takes care of her like it’s second nature. Not for show, not for reward, but because (Y/N)’s hers, and that means everything. She wipes her down, tucks her into bed, kisses her wrist or her knuckles. The silence is not awkward- it’s safe. It’s filled with everything she can’t say aloud yet.
- Protective Instincts: She doesn’t move far. Her arm stays around (Y/N)’s waist, her forehead rests against hers, and she whispers, “I’m proud of you.” Even in sleep, she keeps her close, like she’s guarding something precious.
- And Later, When (Y/N)’s Ready: Kyoko brings it up again, gently. “How did that feel for you?” she asks, genuinely curious. She’s not looking for praise- she’s looking to learn, to understand, to grow. “Tell me everything. I want to know you.”
- A New Level of Bond: Afterwards, something in her softens permanently. She reaches for (Y/N)’s hand more in public, touches her back when she’s nervous, sits a little closer when she’s quiet. Her gestures stay small but deeply meaningful.
Celeste:
- Velvet Patience: Celeste is unnervingly calm, even in the most delicate situations. Her voice is a steady lull, her touch a whisper. She picks up on every nervous glance, every stuttered breath, and treats it not as hesitation- but as precious vulnerability to be cherished, not rushed.
- Curated Intimacy: Every moment is an event to Celeste. She crafts the room like a stage deep crimson sheets, flickering candlelight, the warm scent of roses and cinnamon tea. It's a soft fantasy she’s prepared just for (Y/N)- a world where tension melts away.
- Gentle Consent: Before anything begins, she cups (Y/N)’s cheek and asks, “Are you certain, my dear?” Her tone is so gentle, it borders on reverent. Consent, to her, is sacred. One “stop,” and she’ll halt without hesitation, offering warmth and cuddles instead.
- Experience Without Arrogance: Though she’s clearly confident and well-versed, Celeste never flaunts it. She leads with grace, not dominance. Her touches are exploratory, not possessive. She lets (Y/N) guide the pace, only stepping in to soothe or steady with tender encouragement.
- Laughter in Lace: If things go clumsy, she doesn’t blink. She just smiles, maybe chuckles, and says something like, “Perfection is dull, darling. I much prefer sincerity.” It eases the moment, makes (Y/N) feel seen and safe.
- Emotional First, Physical Second: For Celeste, intimacy without emotional resonance is meaningless. She watches (Y/N)’s face more than anything, whispering things like, “You’re doing beautifully,” or, “You have no idea how radiant you are when you trust me.”
- Slow, Intentional Control: Celeste doesn’t rush pleasure. She draws it out like a skilled gambler playing the long game. Her voice drops, sultry and steady: “Relax, mon amour. I know exactly how to make you tremble.” She plays (Y/N) like a prized deck of cards- every shuffle intentional.
- Bare Devotion: She begins with her hands- every movement is slow, studied, circular. One hand soothes while the other teases. If (Y/N) starts to shake, she holds her steady, whispering praise like silk over skin.
- Sweet Words, Wicked Edges: Celeste’s mouth is poetic even in passion. “You’re already this wet? How delightful…” Her tone stays elegant, teasing, yet never crude. She relishes how (Y/N) blushes, coaxing out gasps with every breathy murmur.
- Worship with Her Mouth: Between (Y/N)’s thighs, Celeste becomes reverent- like a queen worshiping a goddess. She alternates pressure and tempo with the finesse of a maestro. Occasionally, she pauses just to listen to the whimper she elicits, then resumes with a devilish glint in her eyes.
- Gentle Restraint: When things peak, Celeste adds pressure with a steady hand on (Y/N)’s hips. If she tries to squirm away or close her legs, Celeste parts them again, whispering, “No hiding, mon trésor. Let me see all of you.”
- Intuitive as a Card Shark: She reads (Y/N)’s reactions like a pro- breath catches, legs tense, voice cracks. Her every move is adjusted in response, keeping (Y/N) right at the edge until she knows- now. Only then does she let her fall.
- Hidden Softness: Only (Y/N) sees her like this- bare-voiced and slightly trembling when she says, “Thank you… for trusting me with something so precious.” It’s the rare crack in her otherwise theatrical façade, and it makes (Y/N) fall even harder.
- That First Finish- Her True Victory: The moment (Y/N) comes undone, Celeste doesn’t let go immediately. She eases her down slowly, lips softening, drawing out every last tremble. Her reward isn’t the climax itself- it’s the broken, blissful trust in (Y/N)’s voice afterward.
- Post-Climax Bliss: Afterward, Celeste is all silk and silence. She brings tea, tucks (Y/N) into bed, and curls around her like a shield. Her parting whisper? “You did beautifully… I hope I was unforgettable.” (Y/N) clings to her, dazed, and Celeste’s smile lingers in the dark.
- Aftercare Royalty: She doesn’t just do aftercare- she elevates it. Warm tea, gentle cleaning, luxurious sleepwear, and the softest embrace. (Y/N) gets to lie on her chest, feeling her fingertips move slowly through her hair as she whispers, “You are safe. You are adored.”
Toko (plus Jack):
- Nervous to the Core: The moment intimacy even approaches the conversation, Toko’s stammering like her life depends on it. “I-I-I- this is m-m-moving so fast! W-We haven’t even talked about lighting conditions!!”
- Hopeless Romantic: Her ideal “first time” is something out of a tragic Victorian novel- faint candlelight, whispered poetry, trembling confessions. She would kill for rose petals.
- Check-in Queen: “A-Are you okay? Did that hurt? I-I can stop- no really, just say the word!!” She checks in every ten seconds, desperate to get things “right.”
- Overheats Instantly: Compliment her? She short-circuits. “You’re so gentle, Toko.” - Cue wide-eyed stare, open mouth, and total emotional collapse.
- Tactile Panic, But Devotion: Touching (Y/N)? Terrifying. But she still does it, hands shaking, because she wants to. She takes her time, watching her reactions like she's memorizing scripture.
- Sacred Kisses: Every kiss is given with shaking lips and reverence. Like she’s afraid she’ll break the moment if she breathes too hard.
- Miracle Complex: When (Y/N) moans? She looks like she’s seen God. “I-I did that? You… because of me?” It's part pride, part panic, part euphoria. “I n-never thought anyone would… want me… Like that.”
- Taking the Stage-: When things get too intense for Toko- sneeze, slice, cackle- Jack’s on deck with that wild grin- “Well helloooo, lover~”
- Confidence on Fire: Where Toko panics, Jack thrives. She's flirty, bold, and loves teasing (Y/N) just to watch her squirm. Even so, shes weirdly considerate? She knows when to reel it in. If (Y/N)’s nervous, she dials it back (still grinning, of course). “Don’t cry on me now, babe. You’re doing sooo good~”
- Romance, But Make It Unhinged: Kisses (Y/N)’s knuckles while whispering, “You're the only one who makes me wanna play nice.” And she means it.
- Tongue Game- Dangerous: She’s filthy. Loud, wet, teasing- moaning like she’s the one getting off from tasting (Y/N). “Damn, sweetheart, you taste like sin~”
- Edge Queen: She loves dragging it out, edging until (Y/N)’s thighs tremble and she’s breathless. All while praising and taunting in equal measure.
- Orgasm Hunter: When she knows (Y/N)’s close, she gets feral. Eyes wild, tongue relentless, chasing her climax like it’s prey.
- Takes Care Afterwards (Sorta): Gently kisses (Y/N)s thighs, helps her clean up… while making a very inappropriate joke. “Can’t break my toy on the first playdate~”
- Balance of Soft and Savage: Toko builds the emotional intensity, Jack brings the fire. (Y/N) learns which version she wants depending on her mood. Toko starts it, slow and shaky. Jack finishes it, wild and ruthless. Tag-team of the century.
- Loving Navigation: (Y/N) learns how to hold Toko through the panic and keep Jack from going full menace. It's a labor of love- beautiful, weird, messy. Despite all the madness, both parts of Toko genuinely want to love and worship (Y/N)… they just express it very differently.
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