ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ᴄʜᴇᴄᴋʟɪꜱᴛ

im like all 3 brains in one

“I’d stand in the shadows of your heart and tell you I’m not afraid of your dark.”

— Andrea Gibson

“stay is a sensitive word. we wear who stayed and who left in our skin forever.”

— Nayyirah Waheed

people will always end up fucking disappointing you, don't expect shit from anyone

having parents that were really angry and petty and abusive when you were young is weird, because it makes part of you grow up to want to be kind, to generate good things, to be a source of peace and wellbeing for others; but it makes another part of you grow up to be quick, and sharp, and spiteful, and that’s always the part that shows itself first in a hard situation, so it’s a struggle between your hateful gut reactions and your wish to not add any more misery to the world. it’s a hard balance, and the people who really, really know me - i know they see that anger flash in my eyes before i quiet it, if i quiet it…i want to overcome years of conditioning, and with gentle, constant force, i know i’ll mellow it. it just takes time.

The Expulsion from Paradise is eternal in its principal aspect: this makes it irrevocable, and our living in this world inevitable, but the eternal nature of the process has the effect that not only could we remain forever in Paradise, but that we are currently there, whether we know it or not.

Franz Kafka, The Zürau Aphorisms