I Need To Rant And Please Don’t Ignore All My Posts, Please Pay Attention To Them.

technically im still jewish due to actual family and ancestor background and my dna proved that its both from my maternal (moms side) and her fathers fathers father's etc side (patrilineal) but my dad on the other hand doesnt have jews, its only my mom and her grandparents and great grandparents and greater that ARE 100% jewish

but that means.. i would need to convert to judaism since im considered a jew by maternal side to be considered FULLY

very excited though!! cant wait to learn more about judaism 🫶🏼 🫶🏼

life is so good right now

been dying to know the sides of my moms family but I know too much of my moms side and still want to know more, so we agreed to the 23andme kit and now we r waiting for the results which takes 5-6 weeks

but once of my uncles, are updating us about digging our family tree and right now, he is saying there is too many mixes in my dads family

bro said that. MY DADS side. has senegalese. swiss. italian. spanish. sweden.

thats the most recent we found and my dad sadly died so I couldnt get to ask him anything.

but being italian and spanish is shocking because he did make me visit his spanish side. my mom said EVERY time she is in that mfing house she IS ALWAYS seeing a flag that has red white and green. she didnt know what that was. but like. ITS THE WAY I WAS THINKING ABOUT VISITING SWITZERLAND AND WANTED TO LIVE THERE in the FUTURE and then boom, a gene has been found.

i love being mixed

anyways,, hi guys i took a dna test last month. its been 2-3 weeks right?? i got results.

interestingly i woke up, and thought “lemme check one last time” and all I saw was waiting in transit.

and then randomly, my momma got an email and says it sent us a notification that it REACHED the lab, analysed & said the results MAY verify but the results will come through. their currently analysing my sample right now oh my god

they are so fucking scam on this shit. it said it will take 6 weeks and guess what? it will ACTUALLY be ready on April 28th TO may 12th. thats like more than 6 fucking weeks BUT either way not complaining 😭😭 im so excited

life is so good right now

been dying to know the sides of my moms family but I know too much of my moms side and still want to know more, so we agreed to the 23andme kit and now we r waiting for the results which takes 5-6 weeks

but once of my uncles, are updating us about digging our family tree and right now, he is saying there is too many mixes in my dads family

bro said that. MY DADS side. has senegalese. swiss. italian. spanish. sweden.

thats the most recent we found and my dad sadly died so I couldnt get to ask him anything.

but being italian and spanish is shocking because he did make me visit his spanish side. my mom said EVERY time she is in that mfing house she IS ALWAYS seeing a flag that has red white and green. she didnt know what that was. but like. ITS THE WAY I WAS THINKING ABOUT VISITING SWITZERLAND AND WANTED TO LIVE THERE in the FUTURE and then boom, a gene has been found.

i love being mixed

okay y’all, my fake friends outed me twice to a teacher at work

basically where i work, there’s teachers who teach kids and there’s one who checks on me each time even though i don’t like her but mostly i do shifts at night so age difference

they outed me and said “oh she’s gay” and so the teacher went “oh she’s gay? wow” and someone went, “oh hell nah.. that’s very..” when they asked me if it was true. they started acting weird by saying they liked girls when they were straight, a STRAIGHT girl and then i asked, “why tryna act like you’re gay when you aren’t?” and they went “oh but hell no thats horrid”

so basically got outed to teachers and 3 different people

mmmhhh okay brothers🫡 this is enough for me today

someone help me please 🙏 .

what are the ways to show your support to the community? because im fr struggling.

im extremely supportive to the community but my family makes fun of me for being lgbtq since i accidentally told them or they possibly knew 😨 .

i came out two yrs ago as pansexual, and they keep making fun of that sexuality, outing me to multiple strangers or family members so i feel like they don’t know how much that affects me.

as a queer living in a household where ppl are lgbtqphobic and using slurs, it's really really disturbing for me.

i am currently closeted and not telling anyone irl atm since that happened and they don’t know my true sexuality nor gender and they lost all respect for me cause of my lgbtq identity.

they constantly make homophobic, biphobic, etc comments about me and keep mislabeling me as “bisexual” when im pansexual is SO ANNOYING.

I hate it so fucking much.

i have a hard time becoming friends with boys due to comphet so i don’t know what to do or what to say cause im stuck.

i’m currently identifying as a lesbian and they don’t know that (even though calling me a lesbian as an “insult”), so what can i do without feeling drained, feeling like i cannot support our community or actually feel like you can't do anything, etc.

i really need help w my sexuality cause im so lost.

how do i support the community without my sexuality being brought up??

and how to actually feel comfortable with labels without feeling uneasy.

i really need the best support rn, im going through a lot.

my friends are making fun of me for being lgbtq and calling me slurs, and being extremely horrible.

i dont care who makes fun of kpop fans or whatever. mfs who hate on us for liking music differently and i dont care who make fun of what i like and love watching but kpop is DIFFERENT and feels different to most people. some see it as a way of being themselves or a connection to different music and people and thats ok and i love seeing that. for me kpop makes me feel a huge range of emotions and feelings.

one of the things i love in the whole world is that as someone who listens to kpop on a regular and daily basis (everyday ALWAYS) for so many years, seeing people who r just like u is so freeing. u could make a reference and everyone will get what u said

another thing i love in the world is seeing CHINESE people in kpop. people like chenle and renjun from nct, people like jun and the8 from seventeen, and more. people like that make me feel safe.

it makes me feel extra connected to a certain aspect of my cultural identity. i grew up hiding the fact that i am asian (desi, arab & chinese) and that i was all kinds of asian, and seeing those idols make me feel so connected oh my god like ways to learn my language by watching them teach fans or them speaking it and making it easy for us by what words means and sentence structures, their culture, their food, their traditions, the way they look, the way they r passionate about where they r from, it makes me feel such a huge connection into being chinese and make me want to know more about my culture like you guys dont understand how FREEING that is for me after hiding that aspect of my identity for so many years OH MY GOD

hi people of tumblr, any recommendations for stim toys? you may have seen my previous post a month ago about them but those were from somewhere else and because of how we got into a fight and they were mean, they took it away.

help an autistic adhd person out please.

what type of stim toys do i need to make sure that everything’s okay and doesn’t go wrong?

💗 Lesbian stimboard 💗

This took a lot longer than I thought 🧍🏽‍♀️

My requests are open so feel free to ask for one. I'll make stimboards and moodboards just clarify which one you want!!

long time I have ever been this inactive.

this full moon, I did a whole fucking egg cleanse to get all that negativity off of me and I made a wish all those who did me bad get their karma. and I wish that all the negative energy leaves me and I feel more calmer.

and once I did an egg cleanse the amount of evil and jealousy that appeared 😭😭

but that's ok, because u finna get it BACK AT U

anyways im gonna try to moon bathe and flush shit that do not serve me anymore

i’ve had enough

(photo of the moon i took!)

wish all the negativity and the energy goes away.

end of results

crazy how i literally got the whole continent of Europe but they said they can't anaylise it and will need time to since Europe was often buried up back in time

life is so good right now

been dying to know the sides of my moms family but I know too much of my moms side and still want to know more, so we agreed to the 23andme kit and now we r waiting for the results which takes 5-6 weeks

but once of my uncles, are updating us about digging our family tree and right now, he is saying there is too many mixes in my dads family

bro said that. MY DADS side. has senegalese. swiss. italian. spanish. sweden.

thats the most recent we found and my dad sadly died so I couldnt get to ask him anything.

but being italian and spanish is shocking because he did make me visit his spanish side. my mom said EVERY time she is in that mfing house she IS ALWAYS seeing a flag that has red white and green. she didnt know what that was. but like. ITS THE WAY I WAS THINKING ABOUT VISITING SWITZERLAND AND WANTED TO LIVE THERE in the FUTURE and then boom, a gene has been found.

i love being mixed

I like the moon