kyomu-doggu
he lives quietly as a monk at weynon priory, near the city of chorrol
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boys complimenting me:
me: ://
my teacher leaving an ‘excellent work!!!’ on my essay:
me, holding a wall for support: bro i’m just…..bro i’m just really teary i’m ghjdgfsdhjfjsdhf i’m hgjggjkhfkdjgj wow thank you idk what to say….bro idk why i’m fjhdsfkjdfg crying right now
You know what’s incredibly irritating? When you’re unconsciously stimming, eg tapping your leg, playing with your jewelry etc in a very special way, then suddenly stop, then realizing something is missing, wanting to return to wiggling your leg but not knowing how exactly you moved it because you did it unconsciously so it just feels wrong no matter what you try you just don’t get that satisfying feeling of That Special Move™️ back so it feels like something important is missing or is it just me
Sometimes (lots of times) (all the time), I have the urge to do a thing but i dont know what. Or, I feel weird, but can't figure out why or what to do to fix it. ADHD, executive dysfunction, how I feel, and the phase of the moon can all make it really hard for me to think of a solution to the issue -- or even know what the issue IS. And while meds and regular sleep certainly help, for better or for worse my brain just isn't wired for this.
So, I decided to outsource my brain.
I couldn't find an app that did what I wanted or was customizable enough for me to fake it. Therefore I built an analog external brain to do my thinking for me.
First, I bought a small, 100-or-so page notebook. It was about eight bucks at my Local Corporate Book Retailer.
Then, I logicked out all the possibilities I might have trouble braining, and started adding each step to the book -- kind of like a choose-your-own-adventure novel.
Here's an example path, which starts with me knowing what I want, and the analog brain telling me how to get there. I twisted my ankle a couple weeks ago and keep forgetting to do things to make it better, so here's my solution:
[image: Do you know what you want? Yes -> 1, No -> 32. Yes is circled]
Yes, analog brain, I know what I want! Let me flip to page 1.
[Image of Page 1: What do you want to do? Exercise -> 2 is circled. Other options include Read -> 13, Watch something -> 20, Eat ->31, Be creative -> 25, Have an adventure ->26, Clean something ->28, Learn something->29.]
Still know what I want, so I flip to page 2.
[Image page 2: What kind of exercise do you want to do? PT -> 5 is circled. Other options include Weights -> 3, Cardio -> 4, Yoga -> 9, Something quick -> 10, Hiking -> 11, Adventure -> 12]
Skipping some pages now! Since this is meant to bounce me around, it doesn't make sense to try and read it in order. (On the plus side, that makes it super easy to add new options to any part of the tree).
[Image page 5: What kind of PT? Ankle ->6 is circled. Other options include Knee->6a, Neck->7, Shoulders->8.]
(When I first numbered the pages, 6 and 6a werw stuck together, whoooops)
[Image page 6: A list of ankle PT exercises]
Eyyyyy my external brain showed me how to do my flippin' PT so my ankle stops hurting! Yay!
But what about when I don't know wtf is wrong or wtf I want? There's an app analog brain for that! (Yes I'm aware its called a decision tree or process flow or what have you. Let me have this).
[Image: Do you know what you want? No->32 is circled]
No, spacebook, idfk what's wrong, I can't brain today.
[Image page 32: How are you feeling? In pain ->33 is circled. Other options include Overstimulated->37, Understimulated, Panicky->43.]
(As you can see, I have plans to add a page for overstimulated but have not done it yet.)
Oh yeah my ankle kinda hurts, maybe I can do something about that...
[Image of page 33: What kind of pain? Knee/ankle/neck/etc ->35 is circled. Other options include Menstrual nonsense->34, Head->38.]
[Image of page 35: Joint/old injury pain: Take advil, Ice or heat, Massage, Foam roll, Warm bath, PT exercises. Under the last option are subsets Ankle->6 (circled), Neck->6a, Knees->7.]
...Aaaand now I'm back around to my list of ankle PT exercises! And I didnt have to think at all!
Anyway -- all it takes to make something like this for yourself is a notebook and some time to think the logic through. You can start by making lists (not in the notebook) of questions you have trouble braining in the moment, and what some solutions are. Then number your pages, and get started!
I wish more people knew how affected our emotions and emotional responses are by ADHD. Everyone will experience their ADHD differently, so feel free to cross out what applies to you! I’ve only recently started externalizing emotions again and..it’s crazy how much energy I put into holding it all back - without great success. Here’s my patreon! (is this a smooth topic change?)
Marigami Week 2020
I nearly forgot! Everyone! I’m holding a Marigami Week in February!
Starting Feb 9 and ending on Feb 16, we Marigami shippers will have another week for these adorable two ^^
Feb 9 - Feb 16
Feb 9: Kwami Swap
Feb 10: First Meetings
Feb 11: School Festival
Feb 12: Cuddle
Feb 13: Confessions
Feb 14: Valentine’s Day
Feb 15: Teasing Each Other
Feb 16: Free Day
These are the prompts for the week! I hope everyone will be looking forward to it!
Also please reblog to let other Marigami shippers see ^^
(PS for any Raven/Starfire shippers, I am hosting a RaeStar Month in February if you feel up to checking it out or participating in it)
I read a drabble fic where in one of the chapters had Adrien being akumaized instead of Kagami in Oni-Chan (The akuma had a space theme that I personally really liked). You wanna take a crack at that prompt?
I know the thing you’re talking about I think. I can’t find it but someone else probably has a link.
So, there are very few times I like writing Akuma!Adrien, because 99% of the time I write Gabriel as having ‘Akumatizing Adrien’ as one of the lines he will not cross.
The few times I do write it, I have it be a situation where Gabriel 1.) didn’t realize it was Adrien’s emotions he was picking up on until the Butterfly took over, and 2.) is a situation where Gabriel would think this could help Adrien more than hurt him.
‘Akumatized over Lila’s bullshit’ is one of those things that works for me!
I’d go with more of an emphasis on ‘personal space’ than an outer space theme tho.
Akuma!Adrien’s main power would be, well, personal space. Creating a barrier around himself. But the barrier would have different levels depending on how much he wants to let someone in.
Lila would immediately get shoved to a ‘does 50 feet or less mean anything to you at all?’ barrier. Might get painful if she was at ‘ground zero’ so to speak, but I’ll be nice and say that instead of slamming her through a window or wall she gets politely teleported into a trashcan.
As an Akuma, Adrien would have to go out and search for Ladybug to fight her. I’ll discuss her and the barrier later, but it does mean we get to see other people.
Random strangers Adrien passes would be stuck at a 20-40 ish feet radius.
Most of the classmates are allowed to the 10 foot barrier. Characters who Adrien is close to like Nino, Alya, Chloé, and Kagami are allowed to the 5 foot barrier. And they are very worried about him. This could get counted as a ‘Lila gets called tf out’ thing, as they ask Adrien what happened and he goes off on Lila’s actions. Not just how uncomfortable she made him, but also all her lies because he’s realized she’s dangerous so fuck the ‘High Road’, Akuma!Adrien is bluntly honest.
And now we get Ladybug!
Ladybug is able to get into the 5 foot barrier, but is unable to get closer. She’s allowed so close because, duh, Adrien loves her. Which is a hell of a revelation when Akuma!Adrien is very blunt about that.
She doesn’t figure out he’s Chat Noir though. He’s aware enough to keep quiet about that. Ladybug is worried about Chat, but assumes he got caught in one of the other barriers.
After a few attempts to get Adrien to let her in further, Ladybug realizes that the problem is that as much as Adrien wants to let her in, the ‘Akuma’ sees her as a threat. If Ladybug gets in, this whole thing stops. Which annoys Hawkmoth because if Ladybug doesn’t get in, Adrien can’t retrieve her Miraculous.
After realizing this, Ladybug tries another tactic. She swings off and detransforms outside the barrier, thinking maybe ‘Marinette’ can convince him more than Ladybug.
Marinette easily makes it past the first barriers, to where the rest of the class is at the 10 foot barrier. She isn’t that surprised, as all of the classmates are there already.
What does surprise her is that there’s no resistance letting her into the 5 foot barrier, with Alya, Nino, Chloé and Kagami. That gets a few reactions from everyone.
Marinette goes to lean aganst the last barrier, to beg Adrien to let her in. Only there isn’t another barrier. Not for her. Because while Adrien hasn’t admitted it yet, he loves her just as much as Ladybug. But the ‘Akuma’ doesn’t see Mari as a threat.
After cautiously making her way too him, and shoving down any ‘ohmygoditsadrien’ nervousness because she’s in Ladybug Mode™, Marinette grabs whatever the Akumatized Item is and smashes it.
That has Adrien turning back to normal and while he’s confused af he’s not upset enough to be Akumatized again. Mari makes up a ‘uh… I should go get Ladybug!’ excuse and bolts off to transform and purify the Butterfly.
Meanwhile, everyone else fills Adrien in on what he did as an Akuma. Alya especially asks questions about Lila, and Adrien does admit to all the bullshit that was going on with her.
Alya, Nino, Chloé and Kagami then all tease/interrogate Adrien about Marinette. Alya and Nino tease, Kagami interrogates, and Chloé does both. Kagami realizes she’s obviously lost to Marinette if Adrien let her in. Chloé’s just like ‘I know I’m kinda trying to be nicer but really?? Her??? You absolute dork!!’.
Adrien’s just confused. Luckily Alya was recording so she can show him how Mari was the only one allowed to touch him. Adrien’s confused until they mention that even Ladybug was stopped by a barrier.
Adrien has a small crisis before realizing ‘holy shit I might be in love with her’.
Hey, lesbians and wlw can still sexualize and fetishize mlm relationships. Just bc you like girls doesn’t excuse you from the gross behavior. Please stop.
🥺🥺🥺 i live for this
Kagami VS The Wall of Faces - A Kagaminette Commission
A dragon is a fierce creature. Strong. Dangerous. Greedy.
And Kagami was so very greedy.
Particularly when it came to the time and attention of one Marinette Dupain-Cheng.
Keep reading
People being angry about ~dem gays~ on Target’s Facebook.
hi
im making a separate account for all my elder scrolls stuff. ill post art, writing, screenshots, etc. i will post a lot about my ocs. if you want to see that, follow @elder-doggo
i drew this little friend and i dont know what he is but i love him
I LOVE THIS IDEA SM
If we have Martin and HoK being Miraculous holders... Does that mean that the Guardian is... Jauffre? Who loses the Divine Miraculous because he hid it in a sock drawer?
I like it. Heʻs the one who knew Martinʻs real identity, so it makes plenty of sense.
Iʻm still trying to envision the Dragon and Bunny miraculouses combined too. That is one weird mythological creature and it sounds cool as heck.
i was trying to fight a scamp in castle kvatch but i tripped over something that turned out to be martin. then i tried firing flames at the scamp, but martin chose that moment to regain consciousness, took a fireball to the face, and collapsed again. the battle for kvatch was fun
“After I completed the main quest line for the first time, I was at such a loss and felt so empty and pointless that I went back to a save right before I had to take Martin to the Elder Council Chamber. I’ve been exploring all of Cyrodiil with him at my side, I’ve grown so used to him being my companion that I’m too scared to touch my completed save file.”
Oblivion confessions
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“What’s your name, little dragon?”
“Martin. My name was Martin.”
What I love most about Skyrim (and TES in general) is how, once the surface is at all scratched, you’re confronted with the most buckwild lore in the history of ever. Like, Skyrim’s baseline experience is: you are a person born with the soul of a dragon, which means you can absorb their souls and speak their language. Fair enough! There are two moons! And vampires! Giants herd mammoths across the plains!
But then! Dig a little deeper, and it’s all “yeah, there are two moons, but they aren’t really moons, they’re the corpse of the god who tricked all the other gods into creating the world, and mortals just interpret them as moons”, and “an entire race created technology that runs on souls, and they accidentally erased themselves from existence while trying to become gods, well at least that’s our best guess” and “some dudes replaced their hearts with plants and you can pickpocket the plant-heart right out of their chest” and “here’s a weapon that sometimes turns your enemies into pastries”.
What a game, you guys.
you ever just have regrets
no... jauffre.. please come back
this game.... it was before its time...
bro... that is messed up....
Martin and I had an adventure in a small Ayleid ruin while I was busy not bringing him to Weynon Priory.
yeah guys stop bullying poor joffers he's still badass ok???
Where did the whole sock drawer thing come from? Cuz,, legit Jauffre locked the amulet in a secret room accessible only by a false cabinet in his (the Blades grandmaster’s) own office. It’s obviously not perfect, but it’s not like he just hung it up on the coatrack by the priory door
Don’t get me wrong, I like dunking on grandpa jeffrey as much as the next person, but we can at least give him a bit of credit imo
me: *touches apple*
imperial guards:
this is absolutely what is happening at my sanctuary. i killed them for the quest, but then i revived them using console commands and now they're just like,,, chilling there
im trying to imagine like,,,arquen and the new recruits entering the cheydinhal sanctuary when the rest of the family ISN’T purified would be such a weird mix
like first of all hey arquen i know i KNOW lucien told u the sanctuary was purified BUT hear me out…..no
also the new recruits are always like “hello oh most revered listener thank you for honoring me” but i cant imagine the others being anything but “hey target practice i got u more apples” like ?? absolute clash bonus points if the new ones get all bothered like “u have to respect the Listener” and vicentes like “seniority points”
this message was made specifically for mathieu bellamont
wow
