Musings Part 209

This is my kitty cat Luna, as you can see she loves sleeping and is actually asleep on my lap as I type this.

I hate to do this but I need some help, due to her health issues Luna needs medication multiple times a day, which altogether costs around £200 a month. Which I cannot afford with my paycheck and I have tried. Without her daily medication her health will go downhill and she will have to be euthanised.

I'm not going to ask for donations but if I could have some help signal boosting my Etsy shop that would be awesome! Please have a look, especially if you or someone you know likes pokemon, I have been told they make great gifts too.

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Watching another grieve

You almost want to cut a little bit of the sadness and hold it on their behalf

But you can’t, you can only sit with them, hold them,

Try to pour all the love you can muster into them and hope the sadness doesn’t swallow them whole

Chai tea bag + lil but of brown sugar + apple cider packet + 16 oz. mug of hot but not quite boiling water

it will not Fix You but like. maybe. maybe.

Feelings that come with a new year

It’s melancholy

You can’t be too excited, lest the entire year doesn’t go as expected

You can’t be too sad because there isn’t any present reason to be

Can you hope?

Sometimes it feels futile, your hope can’t make it go any way either good or bad

So I ask for the strength to seat and be excited about the present, while working towards a reality that I am hopeful about

I am choosing to be grateful,

For my body, my legs especially they are so strong and they work so hard, I am also grateful for the wind or breeze helps with the heat cause it’s so hot these days, I am grateful for ice cold water with little chunks of ice in it, I am grateful for my friends and how they cheer me up, I am grateful that my loved ones are okay, I am grateful for my hands, they helps us work and make delicious meals for ourselves, i an thankfull for my gut health, digesting all my food, I am grateful for love, from my family, lovers and friends, I grateful for comfort shows that keeps my breathe moving steadily, grateful for work that is exciting, grateful for the opportunities that come my way.

I am grateful

Missing her

What hurts the most?

The denial within myself

The unveiling of the truth

The painting I drew that was a lie

The preparations to start again at the end

What really hurts the most is the disappointment

From the beginning

It never was

I was never the one

I ain’t even in the running

Sometimes we fall into the in between

A neither here or there situation

It might seem familiar but there are no guidelines

It’s like groping in the dark for a version of something that might or might not exist

Hearts breaking, thoughts spiraling

How do you navigate a path that has never been crossed

Hi there

I hope it hurts a little less today.

An aerial view of one of the busiest cities in West Africa, Lagos, Nigeria

Photographed by Wale Adebisi [@waleadebisiphotography]