If I give my brain what it wants, I have to give up what my body needs.
Every food disgusts me at this point.
I feel my stomach growling :3
My bf can PICK ME UP SO EASY. like wtf I am heavier than him but ๐คญ๐คญ๐ค๐ค HE CAN STILL LIFT MEEEEEE.
I love the skinny part of my ed. Not the part where I get mad at anything food related, getting mad easily and having no energy at all.
My boyfriends BMI is somewhere between 13 to 16 i'm crying.
I don't know his real weight but he's said it starts with a 4.
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when you gain weight or arenโt happy with the scale, instead of lashing out onto yourself or others and making things all around worse on yourself and possibly pushing you towards a binge try
๐ going for a walk first thing in the morning to set a successful, motivated mood
๐ shave, exfoliate and/or lotion your legs
๐ make an aesthetic board for your favorite thinspo and print it, post it or save it somewhere
๐ plan out your intake or meals for the week and get EXCITED
๐ write out your feelings about yourself on one paper and burn it/rip it up. write out what your goals are on another and fold it up and save it for yourself somewhere. it helps.
๐ start a jigsaw puzzle. I find this helps keep my brain alert, distracts me from binging and generally just keeps me busy for a while. you can find these online if you donโt want the physical puzzles.
๐ remember that the best results you will see in yourself are when youโre motivated for YOU and not for someone else
April is my month. April is the time I take a hold of myself and do better. In April, I will focus on weight loss, I will take school more seriously, I will take care of my skin better. I will be better.
Honestly, taking pics of what you have ate during the day, and having a food blog, is a good way to restrict yourself, because why would you post a meal of a whale to the internet, proving that you're binging โ ๏ธ
I hate being short and fat. I wish I was short and skinny.
| pro-recovery for anyone but myself | tbh i'm an oversharer | gw: 48/105, ugw: 42/92 โ 38/83 | i am quite short so these are pretty normal | 5'1 | taken 1y 2mo | TRYING TO FOLLOW EVERY ED ACC THAT FOLLOWS ME โค๏ธ|
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