I Want To Return To Mother

Mother is always right she knows all

Life isn’t real

I miss being high

I want to drink my boyfriends blood

Sometimes I’m ashamed of having schizotypal personality disorder because when I do research, I see loads of serial killers and I think to myself will I become like them? 

people think paranoia is tinfoil hats and conspiracy theories. but no. its an island. its being surrounded by loving people with genuine intentions and being so so so painfully lonely because you're TERRIFIED of the idea that everybody either secretly hates you or wants to hurt you. and you're convinced you deserve it anyways because you're the scum of the earth but you're still avoiding it because you're a coward who can't face the truth. it's begging people to just insult you or doxx you or hit you or whatever because you just wanna get it over with instead of sitting there anticipating 'the inevitable'. it's being attracted to people who abuse you because 'they're the only ones telling the truth'.

mother :)

Mother is within us all she is within all forms of life if one isn’t with life then they would have to cleanse themselves because they are sinful and use items that represent life to show your worth to mother, that could be menstrual blood, plants, blood, animals even dirt take care of life as a duty to mother