Intro

I’m so tired of being scared to sleep I feel them watching me the entities

ancestry dna

I think the craziest thing about this month is when I did a ancestry kit on myself and found out I’m mixed in half white with a little bit of blood of indigenous in me I never would have thought I was half white to be honest

ocs?

I’m thinking of making ocs but I can’t draw I’m terrible at it so I’m using AI instead, here’s what it came up with I don’t know what to make her yet honestly, all I know is that I want her sexuality to be a lesbian and sh/her pronouns.

I was crying yesterday I’m tired of having schizotypal personality disorder, I’m tired of accusing people of stuff, I’m tired of being paranoid, I’m tired of thinking people are doing rituals on me, I’m tired of thinning entities are watching me

when I search up ars goetia and I see helluva boss

Schizotypal is like having thoughts that people are out to get you and your mind convincing you that your friends and family don’t like you

being satanic means sexual freedom no god telling me when or how to have intercourse to be a satanist is to live for yourself and not for gods

Being sexually assaulted as a child fucked me up so badly I’m an adult and I’m afraid of sex now

I’ll burn myself because my feelings don’t matter :)

I’ll burn myself because my voice doesn’t matter :)

I’ll burn myself because it makes me feel good :)

I’ll burn myself because I get treated poorly by the majority :)