Latest Posts by merakiitills - Page 5
it's fingers in his wound wednesday
great. i was hoping my childhood would follow me forever and attach itself to my psyche and spread like mold. This is good
headcanon that all rosiers are creepy and weird. pandoras a seer, evan’s an extreme empath. they make jewelry out of animal bones. they talk to themselves for hours. dora disappears to the woods every couple weeks and is missing for hours, only to return with a wild look in her eyes. evan paints the most disturbing, eerie shit anyone’s ever seen. pandora sleep walks, evan talks in his sleep. they probably made friendship bracelets out of hair. their first friends at hogwarts were the ghosts. they’re just a lil bit crazy okay
i could survive my own autopsy
Fucking BALLER, look at this @n0r
Lol, good stuff.
can my open and heavily bleeding wound hang out with us
Having a traumatic childhood means you cannot talk even objectively about your basic foundational experiences without it being "venting", even if you're not actually venting. You just straight up have a huge chunk of your life you can't talk about, full stop, without it being trauma dumping.
And it not being socially acceptable to talk about your own childhood is super alienating. Sometimes people want to know why, and any answer you can give them is going to be off putting.
It's to the point I get irritated when something I said is framed as venting when I'm literally just talking about my life experiences, doing my best to keep emotion out of it.
Everytime a person portrays Remus as conventionally attractive an angel loses its wings. Not even that, the angel straight up dies.
The world would reach peace if we all accepted the fact that Remus John Lupin? Yeah, that lad has been a loser since birth. He calls the librarian ma’am and bites the skin of his fingers.
So in British secondary terms an absolute freak. Without the marauders this man would’ve been bullied so hard, and it brings me great sorrow to acknowledge it.
That makes wolfstar funnier though. Sirius is meant to be the stereotypical sporty rich boy, but here he is, swooning over the guy he should be making fun of while also not realising this bloke he thinks is miles out of his league actually isn’t. Sirius is just pathetic and queer.
It’s a beautiful dynamic. Give me fourteen of them right now.
Wolfstar hits harder if Remus isn't conventionally attractive.
Because while Sirius is still deep in denial and internalized homophobia, he's convincing himself like "it's okay, i'm not gay, anyone would want to kiss Remus once in a while, he's just objectively hot"
Except Remus is awkward and quiet when not around friends, he's too tall like he grew up too fast and doesn't know what to do with this extra height, his scars scare people away, he wears grandpa sweaters, drinks tea in his free time and goes to sleep at 9 pm, he can't flirt for the life of him (even though he could bc he's witty and sarcastic) because he has no self-confidence and it shows.
He's basically a loser (affectionate) and Sirius is like "it's okay, no need to panic, he's the sexiest man on earth but that's just an astute observation, no gay thoughts here"
and i just think that's funny as hell
Some idiot: "Why are you reading your own fic, that's shallow and stupid"
All fanfic writers and writers everywhere: "Who the fuck do you think I wrote it for?!"
The argument of being ‘too attractive’ to transition has always made me lose it- like full on witch cackling whenever the words reach me.
Cause excuse me, how do you mean. The scars all over my hands and face? Oh and what about the wonky bottom teeth and overbite that features teeth that make me look like a damn American girl doll.
I’ve been bullied my whole life for not looking conventionally attractive, but the second I realised I was a man? No yeah sorry about that, you’re actually a super model.
Let me be an ugly man in PEACE.
"you were such a beautiful girl" "You're gonna be an ugly man" WRONG!!!!!! HAPPINESS WILL NOW SHINE OUT OF ME LIKE RAYS OF SUNLIGHT!!!! BEAUTY IS WHAT IS INSIDE YOUR HEART!!!! WHAT USE IS A PRETTY FACE WITH A ROTTING MISERABLE SOUL
Write it shitty, write it scared, write it without a clue but don't you be so spineless and have an AI write fanfic for you.
@n0r
We all have that one friend who low-key will look nice on the cross
FYI the source material is crimson rivers
reverse gatekeeping. I am on my knees begging people to engage with the source material
subscribing to a fic isn’t enough I need the author to blast a bat signal into the night sky whenever they update
artist : @star_ry_eyed
I just know Peter Pettigrew goes crazy for Ferrero Rocher
hate when someone asks how are you and you say good how are you and they say "oh not so great" or something. it's always like ohh okay i see we're being honest i thought we were playing pretend. can i have a do-over
one time people started theorizing that remus was a werewolf and were waiting for the next full moon to see if he disappears. lily stole polyjuice from slughorn’s office, pretended to be remus, and caused a whole scene the night of the full moon to make sure everyone saw “him”
Remus:Get that disgusting thing away from me!
Sirius:I thought you like chocolate
Remus:That ugly white thing is not chocolate
Sirius:It's called white CHOCOLATE
Remus:They also called you straight and here we are.
gagging you with our red string of fate to shut you up for one fucking second
people who don't experience hyperfixation don't know what it feels like to hyperfixate so much on something that it becomes not only your subject of obsession but also your source of happiness and literally the main reason why you still keep going; literal source of strength and life.
shoutout to my favorite fictional characters, favorite people, favorite ships, favorite movies, favorite tv shows, fanfics and archive of our own
Lily introduced Sirius to the amazing muggle contraption that is the magic 8 ball.
Sirius consulted it for every minor decision he made for the rest of the week and also freaked out when he asked it if Remus loves him and it said the chances were high.
Professor Moony~ (posting this as I’m changing devices ((iPad to huion)) so I wanted something posted for my fellow moony lovers while I figure the basics once again. I used to have one years ago but unfortunately this old dog can’t be taught new tricks as this dog has one brain cell.)
The fucking audacity of the judge to say that ruling the definition of woman is based purely on biological sex “is not a triumph of one side over another.”
As if this hasn’t just fucking decimated trans rights in the UK, made transphobia practically law and blatantly supporting the work of groups like the LGB Alliance.
How fucking dare they.
WARNING do NOT start reading books and comics or watching movies or looking at art!!! you will start wanting to create art yourself. or god forbid. writing.
the marauders fandom is not the reason terfs brought about a deeply transphobic and lesbophobic supreme court ruling in the UK. i’m going to be very clear about that because it’s something this fandom sincerely needs to confront
the ruling itself was written based on a deep misunderstanding of trans, nonbinary and lesbian identity that stems at least in part from a basic lack of british social education and discourse on lgbtq issues. jkr did not cause that. she is one of many right wing bigots capitalising on it and this case specifically only came about because she put £70,000 behind it
that wealth is based off a franchise which became a household name nearly three decades ago. that franchise is sustained because harry potter is ingrained in popular culture worldwide. it’s the families who flew 4000 miles to take their kids to wb studios. the vast majority of the world does not hear about hp or engage with it because of the marauders fandom
i do want to be very clear about that last point, because its a different issue from whether someone is personally uncomfortable engaging with hp in any way or whether engaging with it affects people in your community. that is a different kind of impact, but the discourse in this fandom is repeatedly blurring it with the broader impact on lgbtq people in britain of hp being so profitable and what jkr does with those profits
when you start talking about the harm that financially supporting the hp brand does as a personal moral issue, you are making this about you. when a supreme court ruling comes down that says very specifically that only cis women can be lesbians and five days later the discussion online is how someone feels about posting hp fanfic, you have made this harm about you. and it’s not about you. it’s about the people dealing with the reality of being lgbtq in britain right now. it’s about the ways in which that ruling directly and indirectly affects us
when i go to work each day and navigate the transphobia still rumbling around even in explicitly left wing spaces of british society i quite frankly do not give a fuck about your 100k wolfstar first war slowburn being taken off ao3. neither do the trans and nonbinary people I work with. neither do the parents of trans and nonbinary people I work with. it has literally zero impact on anybody’s lives here and has made absolutely nothing better
so what I am asking is that instead of posting on tumblr or ao3 or tiktok about the morality of being in the marauders fandom you instead share information about lgbtq issues in the uk right now and the voices of people who live here and are going through it. make people hear us. make people understand
being trans or nonbinary in the uk right now feels suffocating. it feels like a constant battle to not have your identity snuffed out. it feels like shouting into a void and being faced with this terrifying, uncaring silence. or worse. i am genuinely begging all of you to actually engage with that reality and stop being one more person talking over us
writing is hard but coming up with a cunty title and catchy summary will slay even god's strongest soldier
