merropeg

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been thinking a lot about when foreman says that the last time he felt truly at home was in his mother’s arms as she hugged him goodbye before he left for med school

Just a tierlist

This is just me complaining about aphantasia.

I tried drawing without reference yesterday night and it was such a terrible experience that I nearly cried myself to sleep afterwards /hj. No but seriously though, I was really restless after that and I just lay in bed, feeling upset and cheated.

No matter how many figure sketches or studies I do, I'll never truly be able to draw without a reference. It's just so demotivating. I don't enjoy art at all, I just keep on practicing in the hope that I'll get better, but it's just not fun for me. I'm not going to quit art because it would waste all the time I've invested in this hobby, but I don't think I'll ever enjoy it.

It kind of irks me when people act like your aptitude in art has nothing to do with talent, because your ability to visualise can make such a huge difference 😭I hope no one interprets this as me invalidating the work that artists put in because that's not what I'm trying to say. I'm just kind of salty that all of those figure sketches and studies I've done have had no effect on my art ability whatsoever. The whole concept of having a visual library made no sense to me for a very long time, and it's only recently that I've realised that's because I never had one in the first place.

When I first found out that I had aphantasia, I didn't think much of it. But I'm beginning to realise how much I'm missing out on. It feels really condescending when people say stuff like "I can't imagine what it's like to not be able to imagine a scene while reading a book" but I guess they're right. Maybe that's why I prefer to read about interactions between characters and internal monologue, and just skim past descriptions of the environment.

Igloo, made using gouache and coloured pencils

Clown bc I love clowns

Personal ranking of the great apes is:

Orangutans

Gorillas bc they're actually pretty nice for such a huge animal

Bonobos bc they're a bit too freaky for me. why does their wikipedia page have a whole section on their freakiness

Chimpanzees I HATE CHIMPANZEES they're just tooo scary, sorry to any chimpanzee fans

was drawing a piece where jesse and nacho are eating food together with emphasis on the fact they both wear red. and then I found out someone else drew that exact same concept 😢lost the motivation to work on it now tbh. I know two people can get the same idea but it's just gonna feel like I'm copying them lmao

kind of upsetting how so many of the yt comments on that scene where house drives into cuddy's house are acting like she deserved it for breaking up with house, or like she should've known better than to get into a relationship with him 😐 reminds me of how some brba fans act like skyler "cheating" on walt is worse than....all the stuff that walt did. PLEASEEEE BE REAL oh my god I hate this so much

Maybe the reason why Cuddy quickly became one of my favs is because she reminds me of Princess Carolyn

I finally finished TMA season 1 and as an acne sufferer, the descriptions of Jane Prentiss picking her face had me lowkey stressed out😭like noo you're gonna make it worse...

I hate oil pastels but I also love them

Cuddy 🙏

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