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Hello! Saw the ask a DID sys post and though we'd drop by. Personally we're curious- how do you cope with having so many beings in your system?

We're a collective of around 40-something at the moment, and we have reason to believe that our headcount will not stop growing, nor will it ever go down. This has caused some distress since we're not quite sure how that will work, and we already completely lack a clear roster of frequent fronters. We've been curious as to how others cope with "high" headcounts by most standards. (Although I recognize "cope" may not be the correct word, as it implies the high headcount to be a bad thing and not everyone would experience it as such.)

Hey! For us, we also have an unclear frequent fronter list and are frequently blurry. It was similar for us in a case where we would not stop discovering new members- and it still is that case for us. We try and cope with high headcounts by documenting activity from fronters whenever possible, along with adding various personal notes about them that may help us understand them better. We also try and establish their roles so we can better realize when they may be out- although it isn't always easy to find out, especially when a large number of them are unformed fragments. There's not exactly a way to 'cope', I'd say, but especially if there's a need for control, organizing and documenting them down definitely helps you feel more in control of your headcount numbers. Also to say, there's nothing wrong with having a high headcount. It's just a representation of how much your brain wanted and tried to protect you, no matter how much it took, even if its hard and stressful.

does anyone else, just after finding an appearance that suits them right… like just after, it is just completely wrong again…. like what the fuck?? where did my sense of identity go?? come back?? -blurry

plus we had the whole 'sorry future me', followed by the internal fuck you when we did something that might've not been the smart

question 95: do you think there were "signs" of your plurality before you officially discovered it (if that applies to you)? what were they, if you dont mind sharing?

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Hi, I am Ahmed from Palestine, from the northern part of Gaza City. I am 33 years old, married, and a father of two children. I live in the Jabalia refugee camp with my family, which consists of 19 members, in a four-story house.

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On May 12th, 2024, the Israeli army besieged the Jabalia camp for the second time and ordered us to evacuate, informing us that it was a military operation zone and a dangerous combat area. We were forced to leave our homes in the camp and flee under heavy bombardment and intense gunfire, navigating through the rubble and bodies lying in the streets and on the roads. We became homeless, with no food or water. During this difficult siege, I lost two of my brothers, Abdullah, 30 years old, and Atallah, 26 years old, due to random shelling and airstrikes on the camp.

Why am I collecting donations?

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oh, so many.

the horrible memory, little recollection of anything more than a week ago, finding things we didn’t remember doing, the huge gender and sexual fluidity & dysmorphia, going from extremely anxious or depressed to calm, the internal dialogue and arguments, the intense fictionkinning and rapidly changing opinions. we mistook two alters for our left brain and right brain. plus more probably

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question 95: do you think there were "signs" of your plurality before you officially discovered it (if that applies to you)? what were they, if you dont mind sharing?

cw: mentions of familial discourse

anyone else still terrified to turn music down on their headphones even after parents are done fighting lol . -blurry

love that guy who helps us sleep. that guys a great guy and i would nominate them for president.

wAIT OK i just realized in my dissociative haze how bad that might sound to someone. but because our chronic pain and stress, this is like one of the most minor things that could happen. and twisted foot doesn’t hurt too bad so like this is the best outcome tbh

Hi guys! How is your life at the moment? Everything is going well, I hope.

hey there! thanks for sending in an ask! all things considered especially due to our current situation and hyper vigilance and such, not too bad. we have a bit of a headache along with a twisted foot, a never-ending appetite, some nausea, and just the usual amount of joint pain with it being a little worse in our back, but all things considered, we’re doing pretty good and we’re still able to function (that’s a fucking win)! thank you for asking. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE ENTITIES?!?!?!?!?!

THANK YOU <333333333 I WAS EXILED FROM MY WOMB THIS DAY IT WAS CRAZY.............................. (i shouldve stayed in the womb chat)

-blurry