You Aren't A Bad Person If Your Source Is Terrible.

thius..... some of us may be uncomfortable with doubles at times when they're just getting used to everything but im not stopping a guy from existing.........

fictive culture is worrying if your mutuals are okay with doubles

we are always cool with doubles

I can't find the original post that inspire this but it doesn't mater if you view trauma as not bad enough to justify having a system

Stfu rn

trauma is trauma, and trauma is valid

*aggressively sends good vibes sent your way*

-jayke

shoutout to the headmate who does things that their headmates can’t do anymore in their place because it’s too difficult or triggering for them. love you all out there. you do a lot of work for your system. <3

generalized amnesia and emotional amnesia goes hard because oh yeah that extremely terrible thing happened and i don’t feel anything i felt while i was experiencing and oh this other thi- NERVOUS SYSTEM SHOWS UP

a: YOU ARENT EVEN REAL!!!! b: YES I AM!!! FUCK YOU c: yeah thats so real a + b: WHAT (c just randomly formed out of nowhere)

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love that guy who helps us sleep. that guys a great guy and i would nominate them for president.

one of the most important things about dissociative identity disorder and generally being a system that i wish people would understand is that it truly isn’t as cut and dry as it may seem for member count.

you’ll see people who say they have “six alters” and then immediately assume it’s six fully fleshed out equal individuals with no confusion or fuzziness regarding identity. that’s simply not true in a majority of cases, as i have seen.

most systems still VERY much deal with confusion regarding potential splits, go through dissociative episodes where they’re unsure of who they are, sometimes feel no attachment towards any identities, feel like they might have split and then suddenly that person is gone, unsure if alters they haven’t heard from often have gone dormant, not sure how to react when alters do come out of dormancy, etc.

it’s not a fun feeling and it’s genuinely unfair in certain situations to force systems to list every single alter to you with full certainty, as if it will never change. because it will. for so many different reasons, systems will grow, they will shrink, they will fuse, they will develop. you can’t expect the person with the dissociative disorder and lack of core identity to be able to keep up a perfected list of forever, it’s simply impossible. you may have alters who stick with you, but that doesn’t mean changes won’t happen.

and systems who may be reading this — please don’t feel bad. you are not a hassle, you are not a headache, and you are not an inconvenience for simply coping with something like this. it’s out of your control and the only thing you can do is continue to cope to find ways to help yourself retrain from these reactions. please don’t allow yourself to be harmed by others who don’t understand what you are going through. there are people who will accept and love you for who you are, all of you.

past, present, and future.

Syscourse is so stupid just leave other people the fuck alone and mind your own business.

- Flair

when you try to share a silly story from your past and they look at you in horror and ask if youre okay

me when!!! squeals. me when!! friend!!/dir i love sm!!!!! hugs so very tightly!!

~ cottontail 🍥

(yes. i got a tag for just this. 🩷🩷🩷🩷/soverypos/ilya)