I got a contract for fulltime work given to me.
I looked at it.
I realized, calculating the amount they wanted to offer, that it would actually be less than I’m making part-time now.
So what did I do?
Let me tell you, every single piece of me wanted to stay quiet and settle and work my way up the ladder.
Until I realized that
I am worth more than they were offering, and it would be an insult to value me at any less than my actual worth.
I have a masters and a year’s worth of teaching under my belt.
I am a qualified professional who wants to make more than assistants pay.
Their reasoning for the pay was insurance. I’m given insurance that’s worth a great deal, so I shouldn’t worry too much because that added up to a bigger salary. Except insurance doesn’t do jack shit if I can’t pay for an apartment or car costs or student loans.
What did I do?
First
I breathed. I took a breath. I washed my face and had a quick cry in the bathroom. Ain’t nothing wrong with a real fast cry.
Second
I left a note on my bosses desk asking if he could speak to me about my contract whenever he was next available.
Third
Once in my bosses office, I calmly handed him my contract back and said, “I’m very honored that you thought of me for a position, but I cannot accept what you’re offering me. I have a masters and I’ve taught in this school for a year, and I’d been under the assumption that I’d be receiving a different position than this.” He asked me what I was looking for. I said, “I would work for no less than [MY RANGE]. And if you cannot offer me that, then I’ll have to continue working for you part time until I can find another position elsewhere that can.” I thanked him very much for the offer. I was polite and upfront about my expectations for the position that I wanted.
I can’t tell you what will happen. But I can tell you that going in there and establishing myself as a no BS worker who looks out for herself and negotiates got me farther than if I’d said nothing.
I don’t know the outcome yet. I really don’t.
But I can tell you that he is currently rewriting my contract with higher pay.
Will it be high enough to keep me there? I don’t know.
But I do know that today was me putting myself forward and taking a chance, and chances, no matter how small, do pay off.
DON’T BE AFRAID TO SPEAK ABOUT YOUR CONTRACTS.
IT’S FUCKING TERRIFYING.
BUT DO IT ANYWAY.
BECAUSE YOU’RE WORTH MORE, AND THEY SHOULD KNOW THAT.
Thank you for coming to my TED talk.
ok so in my mind sirius and marlene are definitely best friends; james was his brother, remus was his boyfriend, and peter was definitely a little neglected, but marlene was his best friend. like they dated for 3 days in fourth year before realizing how gay they ( and each other) were. so when the mckinnons were killed?? anyone who knew sirius knew that he would never support the man who did that. anyone who knew sirius knew that he’d never betray his brother, especially not to the man who killed his best friend. the problem is this: nobody who really knew sirius was still alive. nobody except remus, who upon returning from his sketchy werewolf assignments given by dumbledore, was immediately told that sirius confessed (even though he didn’t). nobody was there when it happened to fight for sirius. marlene, dorcas, james, lily? dead. alice and frank? in hiding and soon to be incapacitated. peter? the one pointing the finger. idk it just makes me sad to know that after all those years of building up a new family for himself to replace the one that abused him, in the moment he really needed someone to fight for him, not a single person was there.
Stressed
Screaming
Gay
In love with a girl
Eating goldfish crackers
Panicking about finals
(Finals are next week… it’s my first time having finals and I’m already stressed…)
“If she chooses you please, I beg of you, hold her hand when she’s nervous and when she isn’t, Never stop responding to her when you’re angry, talk it out because she will lose sleep wondering if things will be the same come morning and if they can be fixed, Over time she will blame herself for the flaws in the relationship, Remind her you’re equally at fault but there will always be things that are out of your control, you’re stronger together. If she chooses you, please listen to her talk about soccer and the gym, She’s addicted to the competitiveness of games and to the rolling wave of a high she gets when she pushes her body, Take her to see her favorite team and cheer her on as much as she cheers the team on. If she chooses you, I ask that you show her every ounce of respect you have, She may come with a bite but she is gentle, She teases and taunts, but if you look at her eyes right before she looks away you’ll see she is afraid of losing something important, She takes herself more seriously than she lets anyone know, So be gentle with her. If she chooses you, wash her hair for her when she bathes and let her squeeze you firmly when she gets into bed next to you, she’ll loosen up when she realizes you aren’t going anywhere. If she chooses you, please pay attention to the little things, Like the way she pouts and curls in on herself getting silent, You don’t have to talk to her in those moments, just be there with her, She’ll love you for it. If she chooses you, plan adventures with her, Go hiking even if it’s too hot or too cold, and make sure you bring an extra jacket in case she gets cold, a blanket too, Take her to see the things you see beauty in, including herself in the mirror each morning. If she chooses you, fight for her when she’s stubborn and always wait for her with an open place next to you in your bed, Don’t let somebody else lay in her spot, She belongs there. If she chooses you, cook for her on the days she spends resting, She exhilarates herself so much that she often forgets to take a break, Feed her and keep her company, Be there when she wakes. If she chooses you, understand how damn lucky you are, There is no competition greater than the one of capturing more than her heart, If she gives it all to you, please take care of it, Take care of her. If she chooses you, please choose her too.”
— ARH // If she chooses you
a playlist for….
dancing the night away
working out
listening to rap & rnb
dancing to the best oldies hits
80s queens !
when you feel happy and joyful
home (not just a place, but a person…)
autumn lovers
stargazing ☆ *:·゚
when you feel in love
outer space enthusiasts
relaxing & hanging out
the beach / living carefree
studying
west coast lovers
spontaneous road trips
indie music lovers (28 hour-long playlist of my faves)
sing-alongs with friends
people who are in need of new music recs
late night drives (listen w/ headphones for the ultimate experience)
a laidback sunday
lo-fi music lovers
a snowy winter day
east coast lovers
traveling!
70s queens
a hipster dance party
zzzzzzz (goodnight)
daydreaming
people who love iconic songs by iconic women
bittersweet moments
springtime
when you’re feeling soft
an upbeat monday
people who love the great outdoors
early mornings
watching sunrises and sunsets
rainy days
italian music lovers
people who want to listen to my current faves
getting ready in the morning
when you feel like you’re in a movie
summertime and feeling warm
going back to school
a funky friday
when you feel nostalgic
the weekend!
people who love exploring the great outdoors / nature lovers
my all-time favorite songs
when you feel calm + delicate
a new year
living in the moment
this took me forever so i hope you guys like these! i’ve worked for a while on each one and im still adding more music. feel free to message me with any song recs. enjoy! :-) ~ cam
Virginia Woolf - "The Waves" / Studio Ghibli - "Howl's moving Castle" / William Shakespeare - "Romeo and Juliet" / Kinuko Y. Craft - "Eros and Psyche" / Florence + The Machine - "Queen of Peace" / Ezio Anichini - "Illustrations from Dante's Divine Comedy" / Dante Alghieri - "The Divine Comedy - Paradiso" / Florence Welch from the High as Hope tour
so i have roughly 300 harry potter fics bookmarked on ao3. do y’all want recs??
and whatever you do, don’t think of Sirius Black breaking down after Regulus’s death realizing that no, he won’t come around eventually. he can’t. because he’s gone.
im rewatching teen wolf, and the most unbelievable part of the first episode is not the werewolves, but the fact that scott mccall knows the word “litigious”
suddenly struck with thoughts about the devastating concept of Jason Todd
because he was good. because he had a bleeding heart despite every reason not to. he loved school and was good at it. he was the first to be adopted, with little pretense of guardianship. he did everything he could to be a perfect Robin and live up to an impossible ideal. he only ever wanted Bruce and Dick to like him.
because he met Bruce in the same place and on the same day that Bruce's parents died--the single defining moment of Batman's existence. and he made Batman laugh. he hit the Dark Knight, Terror of Gotham, with a tire iron. he wasn't afraid of the man who turned fear into a weapon.
because he couldn't save his mother from herself, but he tried. because he was too good not to try and save the woman who gave him up. too good to play the Joker's game. the crowbar didn't kill him, the bomb did. he died knowing he wouldn't make it and tried anyway. he died a hero.
because other Robins have died, but none of them put an irrevocable tear in the mythos of Batman. because Jason Todd always dies, in every universe. he dies for the sins of his father. he was put to death by popular vote, sacrificed by the crowd. doomed by the narrative and doomed by the audience. the boy who only ever tried to prove he was good enough--wasn't good enough.
because he has every reason to be angry. because he didn't ask to be murdered, didn't ask to be brought back, and when he did everyone acted like he was better off dead. Bruce tried to kill him and nearly succeeded. he's blamed for his own death and blamed for his resurrection. he can never come home because the house is haunted by his own ghost.
because he's been the hero, the victim, and the villain. because his family and his writers and his universe don't know what to make of him. they don't know how to look his tragedy in the eye. and how can you?
it hurts to look at the hero who cannot be good enough, the victim who will only ever be angry, the villain who can sometimes be right. the audience hates to feel complicit and, in this exceptional case, they are.