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“We’ll never be those kids again.”

— Frank Ocean

So delicious 😋 

via @kyloandyodabunnies

I want the recipe to this 😍

“Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back, everything is different.”

— C.S. Lewis

“you will never be too much for someone who can’t get enough of you”

— Unknown

Me trying to follow a seminar outside of my field...

Chance

The wind cried out to my soul.

As I basked in the sea of clouds,

The desire of my heart,

Called out of its shroud.

For once I felt unencumbered.

It was almost like you

Were there with me.

For that one moment - ephemeral

Time stood still.

My entire body full of warmth.

Weightless in standing,

Like floating in the exosphere.

But time and circumstance are cruel beings,

Making life the hell we needed.

And as the gulls shattered my brief paradise,

The pit of fact settles back:

That we may never meet-

...I hope we meet.

~pyxisjaded

Crave

To share the joys and all the sorrows,

Know the pain and all the safest places,

And have the love to be empowered.

Be the strengths we're not afraid to borrow,

As our steps align in the shadows,

Together, facing new encounters.

You are the thing I crave to settle;

The thing I crave to have beside me.

You are the desire to leave me fulfilled.

The desire that consumes, my judgement leaves.

~pyxisjaded

This is pure gold! Bwuahahaha

I had a dream where I was playing a real live video-esque game. it was not the first dream of its kind that I've experienced, but it was the first one where I was paired with a person who was responsible for keeping me alive and for whom I had the responsibility to keep alive. Whoever my partner was, I may not have known your name or caught a glimpse of what you looked like, but no one could ask for a more reliable, trustworthy and supportive in-game partner. At the start I may have thought you had abandoned me, leaving me to safeguard our relic on my own, but in the end you proved to be the better tactician who taught me on the fly how to really play the game. From saving my arse from getting killed by OP players, not to mention your crazy, but brilliant driving skills (thank the stars you took over from me. I was surprised I didn't make us crash!), you pretty much carried me until the next portal which was when I woke up. It might've just been a dream (you could just be a figment of my imagination) but thank you nonetheless for taking a stranger under your wings. If old folklore was to be believed, you were the keeper of my abilities to return to the waking plane last night.

“Never apologize for burning too brightly or collapsing into yourself every night. That is how galaxies are made.”

— Tyler Kent White

Waking up in the morning and not wanting to get out of bed.

Jaded Heart

You were the moon who pulled me home

You were the sun that grew me

You were there when I was alone

You were the one who loved me

You promised you'd stay

You were the only one by my side

But one day you casted me away

And all I see now is a divide

The stars, I once tried to reach

The path you lit, I tried to follow

To make you proud was all I ever wished

Now I can't help this happiness I borrow

One misstep and it all disappeared

This great wave rushed over my head

I could no longer see your light

You turned your head as I bled

It ached to think you no longer had faith

I showed you should have trust

But it was already too late

Now your words echo in my head

I couldn't embrace the apologies

I knew you would only lie

So I tried to have faith in myself

But now there is something broken inside

I won't make it, I'm not enough

In the greatest depths my wound still weep

Tried to fake it but somewhere I've given up

My euphoria now lasts skin deep

There is no beacon to turn to

My foundations turned to rubble

Loneliness is my solace

Don't have to confront the troubles

Blame now falls on no one but me

I guess there was truth in your eyes

For now I can't get back up

And I'm stuck wondering, why?

Why am I not strong?

Why stay walking on ice?

My fears seem all gone

But they're taunting in their disguise, for-

You are the moon who untethered me

You are the sun that made me dust

You are the one who left me stranded

You are the one who had my love

- pyxisjaded

Breaking Waves

See the water receding back into the endless abyss

Feel the pull as it gathers strengths in the thousands

Tiny waves coalescing into one

Before it breaks upon the immovable cliff face

Nothing less will make a difference

But something as grand is only mutable

Until the edges are worn by the relentlessness

As the mineral is shaved away by the layers

To not be seen and understood

Until the final blow is dealt

The consequence becomes too shocking

For the cliff rooted in its position

More than a chip off the shoulder

A gaping hole of what once was

The water surrounding the broken piece

Consuming whole the bitterness of old

There is a time for traditions

But there is also time for change

To not allow the growth of all things

Is to let them be enraged

- pyxisjaded

Epiphany

How fast the wind blows

Past the trees a time ago

When we saw our dreams so true

But now we have had to go

The kaleidoscope that once shone through

Our very souls and eyes

With time flown by our every steps

This life has bid goodbye

For the road we travelled on

Fell away beneath our feet

It had been paved for many years

The gravel, now ash of bittersweet

Now it is clearly understood

Our fate was not to cross

For now our selves are shattered

Seems everything is gone

Maybe it was for the best

Separate roots to break through

For divided, I can confess

The worst of me is subdued

You were my blanket

Something I already knew

But the world out there is different

Needing a resilient me to debut

- pyxisjaded

When you get jealous of how good someone else's Western Blot or binding assay results came out... Then there's you, with messed up bands and curves that tell you your protein sucks.

The life of scientists.

Me watching the Violet Evergarden movie: *bawls like a little child* I usually don't cry. Damn, they're good at pulling my heart strings.

Me watching the Titanic: *yawns* This is stupid. Why does he have to die again? *Only perks up hearing Celine Dion sing*

The contrast is insane! LOVE!

📷 by franklikethehotdog

Graduation

The seasons have frosted over into blooms,

The lights are getting brighter,

The stage looming near.

This cap a heavy weight,

The toils and joys I want to share,

The paper weight of all I've fared.

My zealous heart was ready to spring,

To bask in the moment with you,

But you're not here with me.

Yearning for the hold that I miss,

Your memories I hold dear,

So I'll see you in the crowds with my heart gaping.

- pyxisjaded

When the eyes tell more than words can describe in a picture.

Enough

This fire gets dimmer,

But as long as there's a glimmer,

I won't stop to desire.

So I'll lie my way through

To stick with you,

And I'll promise this lie,

That I'll stick by your side.

For you're my home,

The only thing I hope to know,

And when I'm all alone,

You're the only one I can hold.

So chin up, hold our head high.

Don't hold back your tears,

It's OK not to hide.

Under these fears,

It's OK to feel shame.

Bad days are just,

In the scheme of things.

There's no one to blame,

You're enough for me,

One day you'll see.

For you've got me,

And I'm enough for me,

Some day, together, we'll be free.

-pyxisjaded

Gratitude

Despite being lost in translation,

Being pulled apart by an ocean,

Knowing my limitations

I wanted to let you know.

From my first journey walking,

A world where everything was foreign,

Always there for me to fall back,

You guided me by the hand.

Early mornings and cold awakenings,

The winds at my back,

You laughed to shield me from the cold.

Early mornings and early prayings,

I ran to burst,

Your patience was my solace to hold.

Now years have passed,

We're no longer together,

I've grown apart,

But I'll always remember.

You brought me to today,

These steps I take are yours,

These feats I own and life I live,

You brought me to today.

I am made from you,

So with everything I have

MAKASIH.

Aku akan selalu sayang kamu.

-pyxisjaded

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Seeing the leaves fall down,

Seeing the cold seep through the walls,

To feel the rain pour down,

To feel the rays beat your skin.

As the ground trembles,

As your legs waver,

As the blood seeps through the wounds,

To the cracks they fester.

To be renewed outside,

But be in shambles inside,

Sometimes to feel pain,

To feel the extreme is what keeps you remain.

You smell it before you see it,

You can feel the metallic taste.

For your matters to turn from white to grey,

A look in the mirror is what makes you stare.

Stare in the face of clear,

Stare to the look that glares,

Your self destruction is near,

Without your awares.

-pyxisjaded