Look Me Up And Define Me (please Remind Me) (part 2/2)

look me up and define me (please remind me) (part 2/2)

He is whatever puts Thomas first. But that changes so often that he doesn’t know what he is beyond that.

He is Janus when he is alone, but only when he is not someone else.

Janus has never minded the fact that his identity is fluid, ever-changing. He acts as whoever Thomas needs him to be in the moment, and if that means he doesn’t know much about himself as an individual, well. It’s never been a problem for him.

Until he gives away his name, and then it very much is.

Chapter Warnings: identity issues, body dysphoria, body horror, panic attack, self-harm (hair pulling), mild injury

Chapter Word Count: 5,947

Pairings: platonic TDLAMPR, implied Moceit

Notes: This is the second part of a two-part fic, so I’d start with part one if you haven’t read it. Also, this fic as a whole was inspired by the awesome ‘The Record Player Song’ animatic by @turbovickii, which, 10/10 would recommend if you haven’t seen it

(part one)

(masterpost w/ ao3 links)

“Do you ever think about the past?” Patton asks him. It’s a gloomy day, rain beating against the mindscape’s windows to mimic the downpour keeping Thomas trapped inside his apartment. On days like these, he has learned, Patton tends toward melancholy reflection, toward sipping wine in the living room rather than attempting to cook or bake.

He has found himself glad of it, most of the time. Even on a good day, Patton is often too distractible to bake without supervision, and on these days, his eyes glaze and his movements slow as he reminisces on days long gone. Frankly, he should not be trusted anywhere near the kitchen, and they both know it.

“Not really,” he lies. “Not unless it suits. Do you?”

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Punk Virgil background with the Ace pride flag! Not going to lie, this was a lot of fun to make lol I just love the ace punk aesthetic.

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Sanders Sides as Alice of Human Sacrifices.

Based off of listening to the song, I have determined that the sides can represent each of them, with the exception of one extra in one of the categories.

The first Alice. This one I feel like everyone thinks is Virgil or Janus, but personally I believe it would be Remus. I know everyone puts him and Roman as the twins, but Virgil being the first one isn't logical at all, he's fight or flight. Janus could possibly be the first one, but I still believe that Remus fits the role more.

The second Alice. This one I had a hard time deciding between Logan and Janus. I initially thought this role fit Logan more, but ultimately decided that this one could both of them. The song speaks of the man "spreading evil slowly with his voice" This, seems much more like a something Janus would do- and nobody would think he's doing anything bad. This also seems like something Logan would do, whether intentionally or not, and Logan was a harder one to place.

The third Alice, I came to the conclusion that this one would either be Patton or Roman. Roman, although more knight like, seems as though he wouldn't be very fit to be a king (Or queen, as the song goes). Patton seems like he could be a natural leader, with the correct guidance of course. Patton also seems like he would more likely be "lost within a crazy dream" As the song put it. I chose Patton as this Alice.

The last Alice, or Alice's, the twins. There are only two Sides left, Roman and Virgil. Roman seems to fit the role as the "stubborn older sister" While Virgil would seem to fit "the clever younger brother" Role more. Virgil being the clever younger brother, because of him being 'fight or flight" Making him able to determine which situation requires what, and being anxiety would make him think through most if not all of the possible outcome of each situation. Roman being the stubborn older sister because of his stubborn nature.

This is just what I believe all the sides would be in this song. I took like 10-20 minutes thinking up the idea (not original I don't believe), and then another 25 ish minutes typing and figuring it out which side would be which Alice and figuring out the evidence or reasonings.