thalassophilelife

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Having a traumatic childhood means you cannot talk even objectively about your basic foundational experiences without it being "venting", even if you're not actually venting. You just straight up have a huge chunk of your life you can't talk about, full stop, without it being trauma dumping.

And it not being socially acceptable to talk about your own childhood is super alienating. Sometimes people want to know why, and any answer you can give them is going to be off putting.

It's to the point I get irritated when something I said is framed as venting when I'm literally just talking about my life experiences, doing my best to keep emotion out of it.

Mia Wasikowska on the Crimson Peak set, photo by clionafurey

But every step you take today shapes the person you’ll become tomorrow. Remember this: nobody is born ready. Everyone grows into readiness. It’s a journey, not a destination.

Waiting until you feel “ready” to start is the biggest trap of all. The perfect moment simply doesn’t exist.

We tell ourselves things like: “I need more experience,” “I’ll wait until I’m less busy,” or “I’m not good enough yet.” But these are just excuses to run from our fears.

babe is acting like a babygirl, i want to bite your cheeks so badly

World of Tomorrow (2015) dir. Don Hertzfeldt

i think I like to just sit and drink coffee while reading

I forgot where should I click to post. It took me two days to figure it out

tumblr is not social media. idk how to explain but its so calm here. like this is the field and the valleys. over there is the town and people. but here we are little sheep in our pastures eating our grass and laying in the sun <3

anyway I love things like having independence, being intelligent, taking pride in my skills, not feigning incompetence, referring to myself as a woman instead of a girl, aging unapologetically, having pores, stretch marks, grey hairs, wrinkles and body fat, listening to my body's needs, eating as much as I need to satisfy my hunger, being bare-faced, wearing comfortable clothes, etcetera

my favorite coworker told me the scenario she thinks of to fall asleep is she stumbles upon a baby sheep and has to raise it and it grows up and she has to shear it and she says she envisions shearing it so carefully that she always falls asleep at that part

Ilya Kaminsky, from "While the Child Sleeps, Sonya Undresses", Deaf Republic

Jennifer Saunders, from “When the Guest Speaker Told Us“

“Wild Geese”, by Mary Oliver

Jonice Webb, Running on Empty: Overcome Your Childhood Emotional Neglect

I am creating a life i don’t want to run from i am creating a life i don’t want to run from i am creating a life i don’t want to run from

Sometimes I forget how good it feels to take a warm shower and let water wash you from over your head. Feel it cleanse your body and soul, or at least take away from you a little of the weight you carry within. Just focusing on it, on how nice it feels, and letting it caress you and take care of you somehow.

At times it's just not easy to get to it, but it can be good if you can give it a try. Even if it feels like a lot of effort.

kinder than man, althea davis

this randomly blew up on twitter so i figured i’d post it here bc lord knows everyone on this app is neurodivergent

Franz Kafka, 1912

I have found myself getting things done, things I've been putting off for weeks, for months, for years! I'm taking care of myself in ways I wasn't used to in a long time, I cleaned my room, I moved that big ugly chair in front of the house (been there for a year!), I fixed all my ripped clothes, I cleaned the bathroom, I'm taking my meds, I'm brushing my teeth at least 3 times a day, I decluttered my messy stuff all over the house, washed my favorite backpack. I'm taking care of my skin, I'm running. All the things I hoped I would have eventually done on my own, I could only really do with the help of someone who cares about me. She made me want to be a better man. I don't even dissociate as much anymore, dissociation comes from dysfunctional attachment, when you don't have somebody who looks at you and picks you up and responds to you when you are in distress, so you learn to deal with your misery by shutting yourself down. I'm not shutting myself down! I'm not shutting myself down! I'm opening myself up, just, JUST because of the prospect of love. And the thing about love, is that when it approaches you like a soft kind touch, it makes you realize what you've been missing out on.

 “The past can be changed by the future.”  -Yoshiki Hayashi

"you do not owe friends instant responses to every social message, and anxiety over not receiving the same is something for the anxious person to work on, not your responsibility to totally change for"

AND

"you have to put some effort into friendships, which can include open communication with your friends about how to make both of you comfortable re: messaging. expecting other people to do ALL of the work ALL of the time, in terms of getting in touch and carrying on the conversation, may make them feel ignored and/or and leave"

are ideas that can and should coexist

Are You Coming? - Trina Teoh

bitch this is all you’re gonna get. this life, this face, this body. you better not ‘maybe in another universe’ your way out of everything. sit your ass down and face this. go make tea and have a picnic and read a goddamn book. kiss your loved ones, send that damn text, and hug your siblings. this is all you’re gonna get.

they won't tell you this in therapy but sometimes the best way to stop catastrophizing/anxiety is to interrupt your spiraling with "girl what the hell are you talking about"

How Animals Mourn

Anguish by August Friedrich Schenk † The Dead Miner (Mourning the Master) by Charles Christian Nahl † The Faithful Hound by sir Edwin Henry Landseer RA † The Orphan. A Memory of Auvergne by August Friedrich Schenk

I need to stop thinking about my work days as "productive" days and my days off as "unproductive" days that I waste if I haven't built something or deep cleaned my house. What the fuck am I accomplishing at work. My job doesn't wash my dishes