And There In The Dark, He Asks If It Was Really Worth It.

What's meant for you will be all yours at the end. The constellations are in your favour, so my little star-bright, what are you worried about?

I get that you might not be able to understand my point of view, but that doesn't mean that you misunderstand when I'm trying to convey. Don't twist my words to form those judgemental opinions of yours.

How are you feeling? Zachary asks. “Like I’m losing my mind but in a slow, achingly beautiful sort of way.

- Erin Morgenstern, The Starless Sea

02.08.23

I studied for 6 hours today. It feels so good to study. I wish for academia to take over my life and consume me. I want to be a workaholic.

I hope you get to find your peace soon <3 sending hugs and sunflowers 🌻 🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻

Death is a strange thing. People live their whole lives as if it does not exist, and yet it's often one of the great motivations for living. Some of us, in time, become so conscious of it that we live harder, more obstinately, with more fury. Some need its constant presence to even be aware of its antithesis. Others become so preoccupied with it that they go into the waiting room long before it has announced its arrival. We fear it, yet most of us fear more than anything that it may take someone other than ourselves. For the greatest fear of death is always that it will pass us by. And leave us there alone.

- Fredrik Backman, A Man Called Ove

whatever was left, that was ours for a while.

sunrise - louise glück

But I didn't even do anything though

I accepted because mysterious ladies offering bourbon under the stars is very much my aesthetic.

- Erin Morgenstern, The Starless Sea.

But perhaps no parent can truly see their child. When we look we see only the mirror of our own faults.

- Madeline Miller, Circe