If I Get Another Show That Sets Up A Revolution That Goes Absolutely Nowhere Within The Span Of Six Months,

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So, I feel like I’m losing my mind. I keep seeing metas about how Aziraphale wants Crowley to return to Heaven and be an angel again because he wants them to be on the same side/be good/change/etc., etc., etc. but I don’t see that at all. I actually see it as the very opposite.

Aziraphale loves Crowley just as he is. But there’s something more. Something huge.

Aziraphale loves Crowley and because he is an angel who is stuck in seeing things as black and white, he constantly praises Crowley for being nice. For being good. For being kind.

Aziraphale has watched Crowley on and off for 6,000 years. He watched him thwart the plans of Heaven and Hell because it was unjust. He spared the lives of innocents. He did small things that made Aziraphale happy just because (like making Hamlet successful and saving valuable books). And because Aziraphale sees things in black and white, he sees all the things Crowley has done as nice, as good, as kind.

Crowley vehemently attests he’s not nice or good or kind.

He’s not exactly wrong nor is he lying when he says this. When Crowley spares goats during a cruel bet over a righteous man and swallowing laudanum to prevent a suicide, when he prevents Armageddon by working with Aziraphale and stopping the Anti-Christ from being the Anti-Christ, he’s not doing the nice/good/kind thing.

He’s doing the right thing.

Crowley chooses to do the right thing without hesitation. He is better than all of Heaven and Hell who have callous and dispassionate view of all existence because he questions, because he makes choices. Crowley sees the world for all its messiness and he sees himself. He sees a place where he fits in. He sees the blurred edges.

And Aziraphale sees that, even if seeing the blurred edges is hard for him.

But here’s the thing that Aziraphale can’t voice.

It’s the reason why he told Crowley about being allowed to return to Heaven and become an angel again. He doesn’t want Crowley to change. He doesn’t think Crowley is flawed. Or not enough.

It’s something that is so monumental that it cannot be put into words. Because to put it into words would be more than blasphemy. It’s down right unthinkable for anyone in Heaven, Hell, or Earth to say what Aziraphale knows deep in his soul.

God was wrong to cast out Crowley.

Aziraphale believes Crowley can/should return to Heaven because he knows that Crowley should never have fallen in the first place. He wants him to be forgiven because when Crowley fell it was unjust. Aziraphale is trying to correct a mistake. He’s trying to do the right thing.

Yes, Crowley would never accept returning to Heaven. And Aziraphale was wrong to even suggest it (although that conversation is another can of worms to unpack).

Aziraphale loves Crowley. He loves him exactly as he is. He doesn’t want him to change. Aziraphale knows that Crowley the best of all of them. He wants to change Heaven because of it. Because God was wrong and Aziraphale knows it.

Aziraphale may have difficulty seeing beyond black and white, but when it comes to Crowley he sees everything crystal clear and in vivid color.

in this house we support happy first years

is your comfort character also a sad pretty boy with trauma and questionable morals or are you normal

Two thoughts:

Satosugu— never dated, probably never confessed (until whatever satoru said in jjk0), they both KNEW though and pre-Star plasma vessel they thought they had time to just exist around each other and be in love without any kind of name on it. Satoru gets overworked and Suguru falls into depression & defects but their mutual love never goes away. They’re allergic to communication.

Itafushi— yearnology masters. They knew they couldn’t fall in love (yuji’s pending execution and then EVERYTHING ELSE) but they both did anyways. They both understand that the other would do absolutely anything for them but I don’t think they have actually confessed at all. Mutual pining for dumbasses. After the events of everything, I think they end up talking about it all, realizing their mutual feelings, and then they get together. They DO and CAN communicate healthily. They do get to eat the same foods, hang laundry, and exist with each other. Thanks.

ONE of them pulled an all-nighter in the lab. guess who.

bonus smooches:

I think the plot of JJK was Yuji and Megumi trying to figure out what it means to save someone and the conclusion was them deciding it's enough to just save each other.

gege akutami’s top 5 gayest scenes:

(ranked by me, a gay person)

5. “if you like men, that’s fine too.” (todo to megumi) ((self explanatory))

4. megumi wanting to save yuuji because of “personal feelings”

3. this artwork of maki and nobara.

2. gojo’s theme for JJK0 being “shame on me (for loving you)”, and telling yuuta about how love is a curse, while his relationship with geto is first explored in animation

1. the parallels between orpheus and eurydice to gojo and geto

I had another concept come to me today for Masquerade porn. Victor seeing tattooed Yuuri in a yukata for the first time and being shooketh.

and it slips off his shoulder and Victor can see all the colours underneath that stand out against the black fabric. shbbvf

So this happened today on @captain-erwinmerica‘s twitter. You can bet your life on it that I’m not able to ignore such trains of thought. ♪