BELATED FEBURARY DUMP

after repeatedly supergluing my boots back together (as well as sellotaping them multiple times) after the literal bottom half of it came off as well as the paint on them, I finally got new ones bro I'm so happy

watch me become a gym rat the moment I get surgery

AUGUST DUMP!!!!! 1!!!

BELATED OCTOBER DUMP

octobers a really hard month every year but I made it through. trauma shit sucks. most of this past month has either been at work or in my bed just rotting away. I hope it gets better. I also slept in like 4 binders one night and really fucked my ribs. don't bind like that

why is my brain like this

this song is my hype man

meltdown diaries #1

why is finding friends so hard i don't understand. I don't think I've had a friend irl or even really talked to someone my age in 2 years. I dont know what's so wrong with me. I'm 17, I'm supposed to have sorted this out by now. I don't know how to fix myself, I swear I've grown in these two years. don't know if it's my autism again but i just need friends. I like friends. I like talking. I have autistic peers at college and they have friends, but they all have their own groups and I feel like I don't fit. i just need something, someone. theres no clubs where I live so I don't even know where to find friends. the only thing I have is work college and my bed, and I can't go on like this. I just need the world to be gentle, just for once. I just want to laugh with someone who isn't my 15 year old sister who has to talk to me because we live in the same house. Im just tired, so tired. feel like I'll be alone forever, and I swear I'm a better person. I'm just shy. I wish I was normal, but it's always been this way, and it always will

COME W ME TO INVERNESS :333

on the bus, listening to alesana and I'm super fucking happy cause it's a double decker and my audhd loves sitting at the top of these things

WE'RE HERE and yes this was taken in a toilet... who cares?

SCREECHING. got unknown pleasures by joy division but also really wanted all the plushies in HMV that I couldn't get :( they were all so fucking expensive :(

scran. also had a cig while I was at it... so, super fun. also the lentil chips STUNK. SO BAD. I mean I know it says cheddar cheese on the front but god damn

read itgo for a while on my tablet, got to chapter 15 so will be updating the 'rereading itgo' posts on @zaachknight

grabbed some more scran after walking around the works and waterstones... and maybe HMV again.

got the 6pm bus back and got back to my town around half 7 so goals.

then got the bus back home and literally just went to sleep I was so tired :/

been kinda sick the last few days and thought I had covid so I took a test

thankfully negative! but I likely have the flu instead which really sucks

celebrating results day went well....