Zephiris - Another Transfem Programmer

unfinished song synth rock thing. idk if i'm gonna finish it so i'm posting it. I want to post more on this site but i don't really have anything to show because i'm not actively working on any personal projects besides music

What i have to say today is this:

I have noticed that I was so addicted to reddit that even now that I haven't used reddit in months, my fingers would still open a new tab and type reddit.com whenever i need dopamine.

It's only thanks to a site blocker extension that i catch myself and go, Woah there buddy, what are you doing, you're not supposed to do that

This addiction is ingrained so much in me that it's muscle memory now

Hey wait I’m one of those :D

life is beautiful because there's neurodivergent lesbains on the internet

I've begun to experience something really weird.

When I first questioned my gender, one of the biggest things that led to my certainty that I was non-binary, and not a man, is that I couldn't stand the idea of being intimidating to anybody, as I've always had trouble making friends and want to come across as approachable and kind as possible.

After a while, I kinda had it down. After I made the decision that I didn't want testosterone in my body anymore, and started on estrogen, it got even easier as it's much easier to connect with other women when you are girlbrained. Now that I'm 7 months in and actually appear feminine (maybe even pretty on a good day), I've found that most people really pick up the harmless critter vibe right away.

But lately when somebody is attracted to me, they instead get this like, I don't know, like angelic vibe from me instead?? And to be clear, this is by no means a brag, this has been a problem. Like every girl I talk to on dating apps tells me she wants to fuck my brains out but when I actually ask her to do so she gets all nervous and runs away with her tail between her legs.

Like, I've come full circle??? I'm now back to being intimidating but not because I'm manly but because I'm too pretty??? Man this is so fucked up Alexa play your woman by white town

Fuck it. Y'all deserve to know how hot I am. Ren faire fit pics

The three genders: masc, fem, and chaos

Edward Lutczyn (1975)

Remember it is a competition and you are here to win, you WILL be the faggiest person on the train

reblog if you are breaking the sqlite code of ethics

& a bonus acoustic version of bless ur heart which never fails to get me to cry when I feel like I need to cry

like black people are present in every single fucking genre and scene and popularized and straight up created several but people are so fucking hell bent on finding every possible excuse to not engage with their music because its easier than trying to confront their own racism. like okay well if its truly just a disinterest in most rap music then surely you listen to black artists in other genres right? who am i fucking kidding. of course you dont.