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friendly reminders to self-harmers
Don't overuse antibiotics like neosporin, polysporin, etc, they can cause bacterial resistance and you'll be fucked if you get an actual infection. Use them only if a wound looks sketchy
Do NOT clean injured skin with alcohol or peroxide. Use them to disinfect anything that you have or are going to use to harm yourself (cutters, razor blades, etc) to avoid any funky stuff going into your body, use either a fragance free soap (doesn't have to be antiseptic or antibacterial but it's better if it is), iodine or another antiseptic meant for wounds to clean injured skin. Alcohol and peroxide can impede healing when used long term.
Never, and i mean never, use rusty stuff to harm yourself, things of dubious origins or dirty things. I dont care if you are vaccinated. There are ways to clean and disinfect stuff and get rid of rust.
You don't always need to cover you wounds (obviously if you dont feel comfortable not covering them because you don't want others noticing its okay!) if they're shallow but for deeper cuts (styros and deeper) you might want to, this way its easier for them to be in a sterile environment and stay moist, which minimizes scarring, promotes faster healing and prevents infection. If you want to cover your wounds change the dressing regularly and clean the wounds regularly.
Don't cut too deep if you aren't ready to go to an hospital. Some deep wounds ("beans" aka hypodermis/fat layer and anything under it) is likely to need stitches. For styros and some light beans you can do well with steri strips and bandages, but please go to an hospital if you cut very deep.
Finally:
Eat well and drink water (i know many people who sh have eds as well but your body cant repair itself well if you dont eat well)
Sleep well, also at night (because your body repairs itself better when you're sleeping during the night)
Moisturize your wounds often (preferrably vaseline for the first few days or as long as you can, after the first few days you can use a moisturizer that's apt for sensitive skin)
Dont shower too often (hot water can strip your skin of natural oils and also irritate it, so if you shower everyday with hot water try to do it every other day or shower with colder water)
Dont wear tight clothing on fresh wounds
CHANGE !! DRESSINGS !! REGULARLY !! AND DONT PICK ON SCABS!!!
lol LOLLLLL Lol lolol
Okay first for some context: I used to sh. I did it for almost 2 years but i’ve stopped and I’m currently 4 months clean!! I have scars all over both my arms and upper thighs. I have some in other places but those are less visible.
Anyway, I’m so happy because this week I took a big step in recovery; I wore shorts and a t-shirt to school! This was my first time ever wearing a t-shirt without covering up since i started sh.
Btw my left arm looks “worse” than my right arm so when i was wearing a t-shirt I was mostly covering that side with a jacket but some times I wasn’t so i was close. But I had my right arm completely out and although it has less scars and less noticeable ones I’m still proud of myself. Right now I feel almost completely comfortable with showing my right arm maybe even without bracelets on but not my left one yet but i’ll get there soon.
And for shorts I also mostly had my scars out but since my shorts go up kinda when I sit i covered it with a jacket a bit but it’s okay. I have 1 big scar on my thigh that’s pretty low down which is probably the only reason I’m uncomfortable wearing shorts. The other ones are pretty small and less noticeable.
I think the reason I was scared to show my scars is because I thought people would judge me and say things about me or think bad things but so far no one has said anything and I also realize I can’t hear other people’s thoughts so even if they were thinking about it I wouldn’t know. Also i shouldn’t care what others think of me.
It was so random when I started being brave enough to do this. I think it’s because I have this school trip for orchestra to an amusement park coming up and we have to wear t-shirts and the past 2 years i’ve worn a long sleeve shirt under it but this year I wanted to just wear the t-shirt. So now i’m kind of like practicing wearing short sleeves until I’m comfortable enough to maybe wear it on the trip. I might even wear shorts too.
Lastly, I think another reason i feel more comfortable is because I’m starting to lose weight and rn I’m not like fat but I am a bit overweight. And the crazy thing is i’m barely even exercising and i’m still losing weight because i’m being calorie deficit. I used to think that i’d have to do these crazy daily workouts but i really don’t need to. I think I started around mid April and so far I’ve lost 9lbs!! I don’t feel that much different but I hope i start seeing the difference soon. But anyway i feel like when I lose weight i’ll be more comfortable in clothes.
Thanks for reading all the way through if you did <3. It was very relaxing and peaceful writing this. I will be updating on my progress for both weight loss and wearing shorts and short sleeves in the future.
Everything hurts, i have chronic pain everywhere. I dont want to do anything. It huts, it hurts. Where is your humanity for me? Am i sub-human in your eyes? Dont you get it? IT HURTS. I cant eat, i cant sleep, i cant do anything without pain. Do i deserve it? Is that what you think?
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Hey guys! ٩(ര̀ᴗര́)
Heres a short vent:
Tw: ana/sh/crybaby
Hey yall, im struggling like usual! /srs tho.
Im falling back in the ACTUAL PITZ OF HELL i crawled out of, i relapsed (sh) and every inch of confidence i had, got snuffed out this weekend. I got kicked out for 4 days and all my friends told me i was annoying/called me ugly x2 or just said sm that hurt my feelings.
Context: my best friend (hes my best friend, im not his) called me annoying for alway following him around while we’re in the city hanging out, plus just talked shit abt me. All my friends call me ugly, like i just get voice messages of people calling me a ugly bitch.
Lolz idk why either because i literally try to be the nicest friend; i go to their sport events, i buy them food when they don’t have any at home, i inquire about their personal life, and like so much more.
It literally hurts my feelings so bad that they don’t care about me like i do them. I’ve LITERALLY gave these people ALL i have, both physically and emotionally. But they just don’t like me, i dont know whats wrong with me, its just like everyone automatically hates me. It makes me feel so guilty for being alive, it makes me feel so weak.
Im kinda giving up on friendships, Sometimes i think like, what about me makes me everyone hate me? I think, why do i make everyone want to hit me? I wish i could just be invisible all the time so i couldn’t be annoying and bother anyone. Idk, even just saying this stuff makes me want to say sorry,
im sorry. :p
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Intro into the un.know!
Welcome to my online-public diary )^o^(
My name is $&#% :/info:corroded:///:http
But you can just call me uni!
Im 15-16 years old, i have no preferred pronouns.
Sorry if im to srs/sad all the time : /
Im into: bugs! Animals! Art! Anime! Mangwa! ELLOTT SMITH!!!!!!!
¡Caution!
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If…
You’re a pedo( its okay if you have p-ocd, its a safe place)
You’re racist/says Derogatory terms(figure out where you’re hate comes from frl...)
You’re here just to be freaky(im non-sexual on here)
But if you’re pro
Right to choose!
Pro-everything-not-evil!
Pro homo!!
Pro woman-rights
Mental health recognition 
FOLLOW ME :D
GUYS, I JUST DONT GET IT.
Why is being in recovery called “being clean” but its the dirtiest you’ve ever fucking felt, i constantly feel dirty for even covering them(⭐️’s) in the first place. AND NOT EVEN TALKING ABOUT SHOWERING. sometimes all i can do is stare and them and miss the blood. I really dont even understand why im clean, its not like i want to. Being clean just feels like means to end, like its just a break and ill get right back to it.
AND DONT GET ME STARTED WHEN IT COMES TO PEOPLE SEEING YOUR ⭐️’s,
God forbid, i get a little confidence and act normal and not some freaky creep. Like what compels a person to see someone with ⭐️’s and point at them and say suff.
LIKE WHAT THE DUCK.
Customize my book too hard now I can’t read in public😒
The titty grab😭🫶🏻Somewhere in an alternate universe they're happy and healthy in their special place and OMG I'M LITERALLY NEW TO THE FANDOM AND AM SOBBING OVER THESE TWO💔
Mr. and Mrs. Sunderland 😌😏
tw: sh
i didn't even manage to stay clean until my birthday :)
❤
I hope anyone who need this get better. you deserve it
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i’m so proud of myself!
two years cutting free and one year self harming free :')
SFX Makeup, fake blood
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Some old pics :)
