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Do NOT Support ‘Adam’ When The Film Comes Out

I’ve talked about this before on this blog but this is the most disgustingly transphobic and lesbophobic narrative I’ve ever come across. 

CWs: transphobia, homophobia, lesbophobia, corrective rape, voyeurism

The book Adam by Ariel Schrag is being turned into a movie which has been named as one of the most exciting LGBTQ films of the year. You should know before watching that the book is about a cis boy who pretends to be a trans man in order to persuade lesbians to sleep with him.

Yeah… you read that right.

Book plot summary: 

boy spies on his lesbian sister having sex

boy decides to pretend to be a trans man (gross)

i.e. pretends to have a vagina because he thinks lesbians will want him then (he literally wants to fuck lesbians because he watched his lesbian sister have sex wtf)

he does get a lesbian to sleep with him, he straps his penis down using ace bandages and uses a strap on.

all the actual trans dudes we meet identify as lesbians this basically implies that trans men are not real men (lesbians i.e. women)  

another time they have sex again only he uses his actual penis but tells her its a strap on. that’s literally rape, she didn’t consent to an actual penis.

he confesses that he’s been lying to her this whole time but she doesn’t break up with him. she even says its okay cause she fantasised about him being “a real boy"

that’s a direct quote. massive transphobia. huge. not to mention this is now the “lesbian is cured by dick trope” which is disgusting and that trope leads to real lesbians and bi women being raped to “fix” them. 

he leaves new york, they’re long distance. they get in an argument and he calls her a slut and a whore among other things and then she dumps him

eventually they get back in touch and she has a new cis boyfriend so yep, she’s been “cured” woo she’s actually straight and he helped her realise that yay (massive sarcasm)

It is deeply deeply transphobic. To imply that our identities are just costumes for other people to put on erases who we are as people. More than that, to imply it is done to trick people into sex is a dangerous lie that literally gets us killed.

It is also deeply lesbophobic. To fuel this narrative that lesbians can be “fixed” by having sex with a man leads to real corrective rapes happening. 

Here is a review of the book by a trans man. I have yet to find one by a lesbian but will edit this if I do.

This book gives out incredibly harmful notions about trans men and lesbians that are used to hurt them in real life. It’s so entrenched in the narrative that I don’t see how the film can possibly be any better.

I do not say any of this lightly. it’s very very rare for me to call out a piece of fiction or for me to decide that a story is unfixable. But this… there’s no excuse for the bigotry in this. 

I’d like to tell people to boycott it but I can’t tell you what to do. So instead I’m going to ask that you share this because it being named as an exciting new LGBTQ film is going to make LGBTQ teens want to see it. And they should know beforehand how hurtful it could be. They should be able to arm themselves with that knowledge.

Don’t make queer kids see this film believing it will represent them only to be exposed to this hatred of their identities. 

Please reblog.

Life Among Ducks turned 1 today! 7 JAN 2018

27 DEC 2017

I dreamed that I was stationed in Alpha Company during my psychosis and I was back in Headquarters Company for whatever reason.

I ran into McCants and they wondered where the hell I had been.. that I had disappeared off the rosters. I told them that I had been working retail and had been diagnosed with schizophrenia. From that, I guess they surmised that I needed help and began setting up a chow station.

I mentioned that the medication that I take (Risperidal) has made me gain 50lbs. They are horrified and I take that as a renewed sense to do PT after not exercising for a very long time.

I also recall trying to shine my non-Airborne boots because some officer was coming and my uniform looked “chewed up from the floor up.”

Time to shape up with yoga and walking every day

Time to start putting polish on my worn out boots

Important higher-ups are coming

Old colleagues have wondered where the hell I’ve been these past years.. time to gather them around and tell them the truth about my diagnosis

Time to start working on getting my voice out there and doing the work of advocacy

Lessons from the mat..

I sat on the mat for quite some time imagining that I was a tree. We walked afterwards but I had instinctively known that it was time as I was starting to come back to just being a human leaning against a tree.

After walking, my friend came in sometime afterwards. I had nervous energy running through me. I imagined that I was letting go and releasing the energy. I was grounding myself.

I also had lots of thoughts about my twin friend. I still wished that they would come back into my life but that I do not control them.. only myself.. so I wished them the best and continued on with my meditation.

I felt my hands get heavy while I was grounding. I also had imagined that my energy had sprouted from my head and was flowing freely and swinging along like a thick mop of hair. It made me smile at the time.

The world is a hamster wheel. I am grateful that I can take time to sit in solitude every week to remind myself that life is a hamster wheel. I need to take time to appreciate my life and where I am and how I am living.

1 June 2017

Women compose 14% of today's military forces. That number is expected to double in 10 years. Service [the film] introduces the issues faced by this wave of mothers, daughters and sisters as they return home. We want to wake up a sleeping civilian population to the challenges women face.

http://www.servicethefilm.com/

vacation sunrise | 17 March 2017

Before Dawn

Why did I have to wake up at exactly 0555 this morning?!? I didn’t get to sleep until after 2300 hours last night.

11 JAN 2017

Things Done List

Today I woke up at 10am, had breakfast, organized my backpack and all of my  active folders (aka college classes, therapy, recovery, and NAMI), had lunch, took a shower, and spoke to my mom by phone. I realize I am actively avoiding reading more of my ACA textbook. I did this going-back-to-college backasswards but hopefully, I won’t be too scarred by this semester. I still need to complete the disability services paperwork for my psychiatrist to sign off and the work history for my SSI/SSDI paperwork. These are my reminders to self. I’m too keyed up from my cryfest last night to sit down and write in my paper journal. 9 Jan 2017

Cabin Fever Time

Things I wish my support team would do in times of crisis:

Question my motives i.e. “Why do you think it’s a good idea to start school after five years and especially so soon after being hospitalized?”

Remind me to look at the bigger picture: “What is next semester’s book budget in addition to this semester’s budget?”

Use ‘I’ statements: “I understand the situation to be that you want to go back to school using your GI Bill because you do not want to be a financial burden on your loved ones.”

Remind me that things will be okay and that life will be different in five minutes! This is my personal mantra and I forget it when I am in meltdown “snotty from crying so hard” mode.

9 Jan 2017

If some are still dominated by their former bad habits, and yet can teach by mere words, let them teach... for perhaps, being put to shame by their own words, they will eventually begin to practice what they teach.

Saint John Climacus, Step 26: Discernment | Ladder of Divine Ascent 15 NOV 2016

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story. 

Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy. 20 NOV 2016

Same tree, just a different branch

on referring to a secondary department coworker by another coworker who works in the same department as said coworker | 31 DEC 2016

Around the tree, down the way, up comes bunny, hooray, hooray!

on making paracord bracelets | 27 NOV 2016

A rainbow symbolizes hope.. hope for a balance between the sunshine and the rain.

17 NOV 2016

why.. hello, friend

I’ll attempt a tumblr on life now I’ve been diagnosed. It’s taken a while to understand what exactly is my diagnosis due to the length of time it’s taken me to get back to me. The discharge paperwork just mentioned psychosis but nothing else related to schizophrenia or schizophreniform.

I’m not sure if that is the experience most people go through in civilian hospitals or if that’s just the special treatment that veterans receive.  7 JAN 2017