change
change.
a change in scenery
and change of pace
while i keep my space
you build miles while i build minutes
what’s the speed limit
it takes to diminish someone’s spirits
is it the cold
as the distance grows
is it seeing who can put on a bigger show
i’m not afraid to take the stage
i refuse to go in another cage
but if we’re both in the spotlight
blinding white, like a deer in headlights
how can we find each other tonight?
cause maybe we can’t hold hands
when we’re too busy holding our cigarettes
dry lips, to occupied to build connections
of affections
to those we so desperately cling on showing
baby, i’m glowing
no wait. it’s slowing
dragging like a cripple in mud
heavy like a high school backpack
in the summer
heat
heating up
when you think you’ve had enough
burning
like your grandmother’s cast iron
sizzling
until
it cracks in your broken mirror
of the reflection you’ve left behind
i thought
but that’s the thing about skeletons
they’re a part of you apart from you
shadows stretch and shrink
because just when you think
you’re in control
you fall deeper in the rabbit hole
We just all need more of that "don't give a fuck" attitude. What does anything matter if you can change your entire life around? You are in control, not some blue guy with twelve arms, or Jesus Fucking Christ. Feel the friction from the warm Play-Dough glide across you hands, fingers, edges, and curves melting into the life in your dreams. Home is where the heart, spirit, and soul dance and grind to the groove of your own heartbeat. With the body of nomad, never tied down to worry or getting stuck in a rut. If it's not what makes you happy, it wasn't meant to be. Pack up, and move on. No need for guilt, just no wasted time when you could be improving yourself. Or, snorting Molly.
X,
Night
Zodiac 2017 Resolutions!
So my boyfriend’s mom bought me a Mindful Colouring book for Christmas before I went to jail, and I finally coloured in my first piece! I’m so in love with this, and it really does help w stress.
It allows you to fully envelop your mind, and forget about all the problems you’re having while you have fun and colour. Plus, it helps me create some art while I’m waiting for the warmth until I get back outside and paint. 😊🎨
How can I write when my eyes see more than what's really there I thought I was stronger but I didn't know my heart was this bare When you can only stay up and keep nothing down Your body screams but misguided thoughts control the crown Reality is nothing but chemical levels and wavelengths To test your will and lack of strength Cheeks in blush that secretly flush out your will to stay alive Purple and blue never looked so cruel on calloused and bruised fingers Tasks that once were simple now make you tremble unless you pull the trigger Of that crystal pistol And watch days blur into one, until the final end when you look in the mirror Of a picture you haven’t seen in forever this clear Small shifts in appearance like sunken cheeks and vacant eyes Try to tell yourself it’s a better disguise
Can’t seem to sleep and too tired to weep At seven in the afternoon, half gone all along Watching with envy while I skip the rip on your bong Even if I could, my mouth can barely open With so many words that are still left unspoken
The phone screen is the lamp… and we are all moths.