Point Of View

Cloudy thoughts

Laying in bed,

so much stuff in my head

cant decide what i think about

so much shit to care about.

So much questions to understand

but who will respond to em ?

I cant say whats right or wrong

but does anybody can ?

Looking out my window,

thinking is there anything we know.

Everyone doing their daily routine

thinking they’re doing their own thing.

But that’s wrong

cause we’re following the system for way too long

Nothing we do is our own choice

Its just the only way we survive in this weird place.

But the’re is a way to escape

This is a experience just a few people can make

This exit is called love

Its a feeling u cant get enough

Its the way out of this grey place

And i can feel it when i look into your face

-B.I

Reality Check

Hello again after a while

I know, such long absence is not my style

But i have so many struggles to deal with

I am praying for „its getting better“

to be no myth

So i packed up my warmest sweater

And wrote this letter

Its about feelings happy or sad

Its about the best i ever had

And all the times i got mad

Mad because i feel so empty

Like the nutella jar on day twenty

But no one is seeing

My loneliness and emptiness

Just how well i‘m being

How thin i‘m becoming

All the happiness

All the dm‘s incoming

I must be famous or something

I wish someone would look under this cover

If its my mother a brother or a lover

I just want it to be recognised

To be recognised that i‘m not doing well

and its a long way down i fell

To come for me, to love for me, to fight for me

and to never leave me

But the longer i wait the more i understand

That there will be no one coming

And it has to be me I’m counting

I have to come for me, love me, fight me, and

never ever leave me

Its like in Phantom of the Opera

„Learn to be lonely

Learn to find your way in darkness

Who will be there for you“

And i think thats true

-B.I

Thank you so much for liking my posts, I really appreciate that🥰💕& thanks for your reply too.. though it was hard to digest it first😅, but i think I really needed that. To love ourselves is something I’ve only read about till now😅but it’s just always confusing.. i mean i do all that self care n all of my own stuff🤔🤷‍♀️😕… but yeah, I do admit I don’t really have that mentality😅.. ‘To actually love myself the way I expect someone else would’ is something I need to look into. Like I really think you were right with that! I do think whenever/if i will be in a relationship, i do have a huge tendency to turn into someone clingy (if not by actions then thoughts🤔)..

Also yes😁, I went through your poems and read each of them😍they’re really well-written & relatable. I’m not much of a poet or a writer myself😅, but i can say.. I really enjoyed reading yours🙌😁n they do get the msg through!✨

Hey i just wanted to say that i am so touched by your message ! I am so happy i touched you with my words and that you understood that i meant it ally by heart and for your happiness. I hope you have started working on loving yourself more because you deserve to be loved !!!!! ❤️❤️

And thank you for all your kind and nice kompliments to my poems, its such a blessing when my work gets appreciated 🥰🙏🫶❤️

Keep on beeing such a beautiful person beeing and always protect but not prison your heart ❤️❤️❤️ (learned that from a beautiful person)

hii , literally thank you so much for supporting me since the start and liking my posts and commenting , I truly appreciate it and it means a lot❤, hope you really have an amazing day!! You made my day 💕

Hiii sweetheart !!!! You are very very welcome. I just treat people the way i would like to be treated so please continue beeing so sweet and creating such beautiful art ! I love your work 🥰 and i hope you have a beautiful day too 🫶🤍 the greatest gift you can give me is your happiness ☺️🤍🤍🤍

Wahre Gefühle

Ach wie vermisse ich es jemanden zu genießen,

so sehr dass mir die Freudentränen durch die

Adern fließen

und wie der Volltreffer beim schießen.

Ich vermiss es süchtig zu sein als würd ich

ersticken im Keim als würden alle Dächer auf

mich herab fallen

und der Himmel auf den Boden knallen.

Ach ich will ein Feuerwerk im Bauch

so wie’s dir geht nach deinem Lieblings Schmaus.

Aber wie soll das gehen,

wie soll so ein gewaltiges Gefühl entstehen.

Ich suche Tag und Nacht aber dennoch hat es mir

nichts gebracht.

Was ist der Fehler was ist die Lösung

ich will hinaus in die liebe ganz ohne Sicherung,

mit vollem Knall und ganzer Energie

geh ich hin und vergess sie nie.

-BI

Wenn du deine größte Muse benennen müsstest, welche wäre es?

Cro und Genetikk. Ich lieebe wie gut ihre lines und ihre reime sind, wie sehr sie darauf achten dass der flow, die musik, die geschichte UND die reime zusammen passen is einfach nur bemerkenswert. Man muss echt viel talent haben um alles in einem zu schaffen. Ich hoffe ich kann des auch irgendwann einmal 🙏

Beispiele zum rein hören:

Genetikk: Vielleicht, Alles möglich & mal es in die wolken

Cro: Forest gump, high, hoch & kapitel 1

Für jeden der reinhört: sagt mir was ihr darüber denkt :)))

Lügen Labyrinth

Sommer sonne sonnenschein

Ich bin so verwirrt das kanns nicht sein

Ich will ans gute der welt glauben und meinem

instinkt vertrauen

Doch wie soll ich es durchschauen?

Bei So viel hass und von liebe kein hauch.

Aber wer sucht sich das schon aus

Es ist wie das Labyrinth und die maus

Du kommst aus dem ganzen nicht raus

Es scheint so als gäbe es einen weg

Und es kommt nur raus, wer den richtigen geht

Doch es gibt kein ende, keine lösung

Halt dich fest, schnall dich an, check die

sicherung

Denn das was ich dir jetzt sag bringt vielleicht

Verzweiflung

Die welt ist nicht fair

Ich weiss das ärgert sich sehr

Aber sie ist nicht korrekt

Und sie hilft dir nicht wenn du in der scheisse

steckst

Es gibt keine garantie

Und die liebe findest du villeicht nie

Aber sei dir eines gewiss

Es ist der glaube und der richtige biss

Der dich trägt durch all das leid

Und durch all die negative zeit.

Du fragst was ich damit mein ?

Ganz einfach, du sollst sein

Du selbst sein

Und fällst du in einen graben hinein

Dann buddel dich nicht noch weiter rein

Strebe nach dem besten in dir

Denn glaub mir…

Du bist das beste an dir.

-B.I

I love it ! 🤍

the hardest quest of the day

is the journey to my bed.

the place where all my thoughts

go racing in my head.

.

lavender tea, a hint of honey,

my nightly calm routine.

bittersweet potion to aid the fight

with the demons that I keep.

.

climb in cold sheets, pen in hand

my notebook in my lap.

these words are my sword and shield.

attack, attack, attack.

-Ink Knight-

BL 2022

“They tried to put me on the cover of Vogue,

but my pain was tooooooo strong”

Everyday is painday,

Monday Tuesday Wednesday,

despression and pain,

my tolerance level is insane

but after 4 years

I still don’t Know how to control my tears.

Trying to stay strong

but that doesn’t last long,

That’s no surprise

With a pain in this size.

Pills, Doctors and therapies

are my worst enemies,

they all do the same shit

that not even helps me a bit.

So I accept it every day,

that the pain will never go away.

-B.I

Hard feelings.

Now I’m in his bed

This moment fulfilling every dream I ever had

Cuddles, kisses and he treats me like a Mrs.

But there is no satisfaction in it

There has to be a problem with me at least a bit,

cause I thought we were the perfect fit.

Now my thoughts keep running crazy

Just like Donald Loves Daisy

and I dancing with Swazy

while smoking the blunt Bob said is hazy.

This makes no sense ?

Oh didn’t knew that, thanks.

I know I should enjoy

Not all men treat woman like a toy

But it’s so hard to believe

Because of all the pain I received.

-B.I