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Guess they are all just gay freaks afterall

Also, Nicky's foreshadowing right there was crazy

(The Foxhole Court, ch.6)

I'm coming back to this and laughing because it turns out that 'fuck you, faggot' didn't really narrow it down either

Neil Josten is absolutely fucking incredible narrator.

He has his priorities straight and does not pay attention to anything else.

Do we know Katelyn's surname (well now we do)? Do we know ANYTHING about her appearance? Do we know anything about the appearance of HIS MOTHER? Yeah, she was short and ... and what? And NOTHING, THAT'S IT. She was short and paranoid. I'm sure we know about his father ONLY because they were similar and Neil had a couple of breakdowns because of it.

But let him start about Andrew's fucking broad and solid shoulders-

Just yes

Same vibe

And I will die on this hill

THE DRAGON PRINCE SEASON 7 | HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON

To be honest, they have been the victims of crimes more times then they have actually committed crimes

I think this has to change

Time to be gay, do crime

my take is they should do more crime actually

Couldnt agree more

I’m not gonna lie. On a Paramore kick right now.

Turn it Off by Paramore is Renee coded.

Their time on Tartarus is the perfect example of that

One couldnt have survived without the other down there

They made it across bc they naturally work toghter like if they were one

This isn't even a hot take, but Percabeth weren't smart x dumb. They weren't even book smart x street smart. They were strategic x strategic. Their minds worked in very similar ways that complimented eachother. It's why they were such great friends, it's why they were a formidable team, hell, it's why they could fight a war against a deity with an army of forty fricking kids and win. They shared their braincells, in the most beautiful sense of the phrase and THAT'S why, for me, they're perfect together.

Our queen Kevin "it is easier to make court if you are straight" Day

I was going to change the username but then I realized there was too many people it applied to so I decided to leave it up to interpretation

i could be convinced im a demigod purely because of how vivid my dreams are but in a way that one of the olympians is completely fucking with me in the dream cast. like none of the plot lines are making sense, im existing across two completely different metaphysical planes, somehow jason grace is there, but im physically experiencing all of it nonetheless

Girl, Im sobbing with this one 😭😭😭

I think part of the reason I’m so obsessed with MXTX’s works is the way that each story seems to hold you gently as say “Your kindness mattered. It didn’t alleviate the suffering, it did not undo the pain. But your kindness mattered.”

Kindness could not erase Luo Binghe’s abuse, but it changed the story into a kinder one.

Kindness did not stop Wei Wuxian’s death, but it did save a-Yuan.

Kindness did not undo Xie Lian’s suffering, but it renewed his sincerity to help others.

Kindness did not change the entire world, but it helped create a softer future.

Its such a nice message, that maybe kindness will not protect you, maybe you don’t see the outcome of it, but you should still try to be kind, and I love that honestly.

I NEED Kevin's POV or at least some insight on how he reacted

Like, did he feel relief, but also guilty for being relieved??? Did he mourn the brother that Riko could never really be and now will never be??

can we talk about how we have NO IDEA how Kevin reacted to Riko’s death. the book literally ended when Riko died.

in tsc when Renee calls Jean to tell him to stay offline, he says you can hear a fight in the back, i will bet everything i have to say that was Kevin.

like did Neil tell them when they were on the bus??? Did they find out in the morning when the news broke??

did Kevin have a panic attack?? how did Andrew react??

Still refuse to believe Kevin is straight

is anybody in else still thinking about this

after sparring

Him noticing how beatifull she looked with her hair colored in purple, in a moment where his whole life had fallen a part, kinda broke my heart, not gonna lie

Maven was all "how did I lose to those idiots"; "that bitch and her mother are gonna come for Norta"; etc and then he saw Mare laughing, noticed she had colored her hair and eveything else evaporated from his head and he just thought that she looked beatifull like that

The fact is that Elara took a kind hearted child and made him into a psycopath. Maven had always been full of emotions and he took all of them one by one

I dont know if he could have been fixed (I dont think so) and of course, after all he did to Mare, they could never stand a chance, but I feel the grief of what could have been without Elara. Sometimes we could still see the little boy behind the monster and it hurts to

Favorite Maven lines?

ugh I have to read the books again but:

"The punishment she deserves. Really. Are my parties that bad?"

"I don't use my spies to track your emotions, Mare. No, my darling. I just know you better than anyone else."

"But yours is coming up, isn't it? I have no doubt we'll spend it together."

I forget the exact wording but something in his letters in Glass Sword about how Cal wasn't going to escape Mare's leash

"But if you'd like to return, and pretend you're doing it to save some nameless soldiers, then I'm happy to welcome you back."

"But I do so miss our conversations. You keep me sane, Mare."

"Jon said he couldn't see them, the dead futures. An easy lie. It let him manipulate me in a way even Samson couldn't. And when he led me to you, well, I didn't argue. How was I to know what a poison you'd be?"

"I like your hair."

"I tried, Mare."

The entirety of the bathtub scene

And that's all I can remember off the top of my head

Im 22 and I cried a few days ago bc I burned the food I was making 🤡

maven calore was committing regicide and usurping a throne at 17 what the hell are you doing. sitting in bed reading fan fiction. get a grip

i know jeremy & laila and cat & jean are The best friend duos but i wanna talk about cat & jeremy and laila & jean.

cat kisses jeremy’s knuckles. laila brushes and plays with jean’s hair. cat giving barkbark to jeremy becomes the start of their friendship. jean feels safe and comfortable enough to talk about elodie to laila and braids her hair as he did to elodie. jeremy feels so relieved to see cat & jean on his doorstep that he almost tears up. laila says “we’re his people” about jean. cat hugs jeremy from behind and says “we need you more than she does. she doesn’t deserve you.” laila takes the painting that jean chose for their home. cat is the first person to say ‘i love you’ to jeremy.

they’re a family. all four of them.

Girl, I NEED this so much 😭😭😭

This would literally be amazing!!

Other super cool ep: a shot of Mary telling Neil that girls are trouble, he shouldnt think about love, that it is too dangerous to fall in love....and then it cuts to him kissing Andrew for the first time

I swear, this would be so amazing

Aftg series adaptation idea:

Every episode starts with a brief flashback to Neil's life on the run/ his childhood, and at the end of it, the scene cuts to a contradicting thing he does in the present (which would be the plot of that ep).

Like, for example, "i have been running for 9 years, always hiding, staying out of sight, (bla bla u get the picture)" and then BOOM it cuts to Neil dressed up on live TV. Like ??? Yknow, and then it proceeds with the story leading up to that moment.

Or or or

Smth about how he got his scars, some dramatic montage of Neil and Mary fleeing, shots fired in the background, her prying off Neil's kevlar vest to reveal an ugly wound, and then the scene abruptly cuts to that same wound, but healed. Camera pans out, and its Neil showing Abby his scars.

DO YOU SEE WHAT I MEAN??

Like there are so many options:

Playing at Evermore as a kid/ ...playing at Evermore

Neil getting struck by an iron/ showing his scars to Andrew (again. Or smth else).

Lola teaching Neil how to cut things/ kidnapping scene

Nathaniel Wesninski/ Neil Josten

Etc.

Like, this way we get bits and pieces to Neil's past like how we do in the books; we're not getting totally info-dumped, but we get insight throughout the books as to who he actually is.

It also works with how strongly Neil holds onto Mary's rules, how sick/ sorry he feels whenever he breaks them, because we can actually see why she was so hell-bent on laying low; she doesn't only come off as some paranoid freak, she had reasons- (This is getting off track, Mary ily).

And then we get to experience pure whiplash as to how crazy Neil's life acctually is without him suppressing/compartmentalizing it.

Ah, a girl can dream...

reblog if you’ve read fanfictions that are more professional, better written than some actual novels. I’m trying to see something

☝️They also waterboarded him for trying to not be alive anymore

Famously known as you are fucked either type of situation

“they hit you for making a mistake on the court???” buddy they waterboarded him for being alive

andrew, who is hopelessly devoted and desperately in love: i hope you get curbstomped. neil, stupid demisexual who could not have less of a clue and doesn't know what romance is: you just want me to stop asking you questions. too bad. i have to know you, because how else am i ever supposed to know myself? my soul was welded to yours with the heat of my heart the first time you set it on fire. let me in, andrew. that's all i can hope for. can we go play exy

Neil I-need-to-live-obscurely-so-I’m-never-ever-found-otherwise-I’ll-be-killed Josten:

*taps a microphone* “to all the mobs currently out for my life: this is my address, social security number, and schedule of all the times I’ll be home alone without protection.”

Andrew, who just promised to keep him alive:

The thing is that Kevin has no one to lean and confide into

Thea could barely believe that Riko broke Kevin's hand. She gets mad at him for not being open with her and then proceeds to discredit and not believe in him (how to be an awfull person 101). Kevin could never trust her enough to really talk about the level of abuse he faced, she could barely handle the surface of it

Even though he has his dad, I dont think Kevin feels confortable to really share those things with him, simply bc Wymack is also too emotionally involved in the situation and probably blames himself for not being there to protect Kevin (which is not his fault).

He cant connect or trust Bee and considers her to be Andrew's

Andrew and Neil are in a world of their own

This leaves him with no one and a very serious alcohol related problem

Not to mention Kevin was the one who spent the most time In the Nest. Jean arrived when he was 14, Kevin has been in that hell hole since his mom died. He probably watched Riko get more and more cruel and mean everyday, without being able to do nothing about it. Not to mention how hard it must have been to deal with the change in the way he was treated after his mom died. Being slowly turned into a thing, into property, by the kid you considered your brother and the man you considered your uncle. When did things got so bad?

How it must have been the first day Riko tortured him? Does he remembers it? And how it happened? Did Riko slowly started to realize, now that Kevin was alone in the world, he could do whatever he wanted to him? Did Kevin try do defend himself only to learn that Tetsuji would ignore Riko's behavior, but wouldnt ignore it if Kevin fought back? In the back of his mind, does Kevin remembers the days in which things weren't like this? Like a faded memory of him and Riko playing around and laughing while Tetsuji and Kaylight talked? Did he grab onto this memory at the begging, hoping the kid he considered his brother was still in there somehow, somewhere, only to learn slowly that whatever path Riko chose had no coming back from?

Like, just imagine being a kid, grieving your mother and all of a sudden Uncle Tetsuji becomes Master and your best friend becomes self proclaimed n° 1

And then abuse becomes almost a second language, all your days feel like a fever dream , training like hell, being hurten like hell, all alone in the world, stuck in the Nest and trying to tell yourself this is what your mother would have wanted, even though the fading memories of her touch feels so different from the heavy hands and sticks you are now used to. How could someone who cradled you so gentily want this for you? But...did she ever cradled him? Or was that distant memory just a dream? It certainly felt like a dream sometimes.

Kevin really desearves to heal properly 🥺🥺🥺

no Listen kevin is doing the least healing out of everyone andrew goes to therapy he trusts people in his life he confides in neil and neil coped by running and lying and now he’s Staying he’s trying to be honest and to confide in others and letting himself love even jean is going to therapy for his water phobia and is working to trust people and is getting to the point where he can admit what happened to him was awful and he didn’t deserve it but kevin?? kevin doesn’t talk about his feelings Ever the most vulnerable we see him is when he has panic attacks about riko and what does he do? talk to the people around him? NO he chugs vodka and shoves it all down that’s all he does repress repress repress I doubt he’s even vulnerable in therapy yes bee knows the facts of the situation but when I first got into therapy I would give my life history so rehearsed and robotic and detached he can’t acknowledge how the horrible things he went through Affected him part of him still thinks the abuse made sense!!! because it was punishment for not being perfect!!! and he still believes he has to be perfect above all else!!!!

Yess

Like, that "give your game to me" shit with Neil was the most non-straight interaction I have ever seen in my life

That sh*t was literally screaming homosexuality

Or him taking Jean's hands, the way he talks abt Jeremy

There is no way our diva queen of Exy is straight, I cant accept it

its truly poetry that kevin “it’s better to be straight” day only has 4 friends and both pairs of them are gay and fucking each other

the wildest thing about lan wangji is the way he’s immediately enraged at his own feelings for wei wuxian. because we’ve seen wei wuxian fall in love slowly and surely, right? he goes from a quick interest to an oblivious attraction to liking lan wangji then being infatuated after his return to life, then to straight-up loving the guy intensely. we watch him develop his sexual and romantic attraction equally.

but lan wangji’s different. from the very first second he’s desperately smitten — all it took was one sly smile and he was going through the four stages of love: the desire to marry, kiss, bed and die with him. and he’s so goddamn outraged, because how dare this troublemaker trespass into his house and steal his heart so easily??

he was so conflicted that he didn’t see any other alternative if not to unsheathe his sword and fight the hell out of that idiot. feelings?? for a rebellious teenager?? right in front of my clan’s three thousand rules??? not today, devil.

And he has chemestry with the four of them, and has already flirted (even without noticing ) with the four of them

its truly poetry that kevin “it’s better to be straight” day only has 4 friends and both pairs of them are gay and fucking each other

Girl, yess

The way Neil trully cares about Jean makes my heart warm

Like, he makes sure to include Jean on his deal with Ichirou, he offers to ditch the FBI so Jean can process what happened to his sister, he guarantees Jean's abuser will never get close to him again, he always picks Jean's calls (even though he ignores when most ppl call him, bc he actually hates cellphones and calls)

Can we appreciate the fact that Neil answers to Jean calls? Like, Jean is one of the few people that has the privilege to get Neil to pick up his calls

But according to incels, Marvel has gone woke and now only has shes, gays and theys (I wish)

So I have been thinking and I noticed one kind of disturbing thing in the backstories revealed in TGR

So, we all know Jean tried to end his own life at the Nest and Riko tortured him for it and then locked him basically on a box with breathing holes

During the time Jean was locked in there, Kevin went to talk to him and made him promise to not try it again, bc he wouldnt be able to handle being left alone with Riko again (before Jean's arrival when they were all 14ish, it was just Kevin and Riko). Jean promised it to him, and not matter how much he wanted to, he never dared to break the promise, even after Kevin had left.

Riko never knew this talk or this promise happened, which means that this mtf probably thought the reason why Jean never tried to kill himself again was bc of the torture he faced after he tried it 🤡

Like, Riko was probably outhere thinking that locking someone up in a coffin for days is a super effective way to prevent future suicide attempts (kinda ironic since Riko died of "suicide", aah the karma that came to this little bitch will never not me amazing to me)

Anyways, just wanted to share with yall my disturbing thought of the night

He has already started a fight with Kevin on the bus on the way to a game

And everyone had to deal with Kevin fuming and bitching abt this rando (Andrew) on Twitter who was saying all those bad things abt Exy. Everyone had a horrible trip, except Andrew, that was internally laughing his ass off

Kevin didnt notice that coincidentally the guy on Twitter stopped answering the moment Andrew slept and came back to answering the moment he woke up

It is cannon, I was the bus window

Andrew has multiple anonymous Twitter accounts where he hates on exy and has started many of fights with Kevin on Twitter

Thinking about this and then I remember Jean was so forbidden to speak his own language in the Nest, which only makes Jeremy attitude way more special

Jean was stripped from all that made him an individual, from all that could ground him or just make him feel good

And Jeremy is going like: no mtf, you are special, you are loved and you are gonna talk in your mother tongue and dialect, fuck it, Im learning it so you can talk to me

feeling a twist in my gut every time i think about jeremy learning french because he wants jean to have at least one person to talk to in his own language, in his own dialect. no ulterior motive, just “i’m not learning french for anyone but you”. this boy doesn’t even have time to SLEEP yet he’s learning a whole ass language just so jean can feel a little bit more home