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Yes.

"Fight because you don't know how to die quietly. Win because you don't know how to lose. This king's ruled long enough—it's time to tear his castle down."

Too long for a tattoo but this quote is engraved into my soul.

fake idgafer i saw you beat up four men for being homophobic to your cousin. i saw you kill your brother’s abuser. i saw you befriend a kindhearted religious girl even though you knew the others would tease you. i saw you offer two traumatized boys protection when they thought they would never get any. i saw you ask “how many kids” when you found out that your abuser targeted more people. i saw you sitting on the roof even though you’re afraid of heights because you didn’t want to feel nothing anymore

Kevin would not - could not - defend himself against Riko. Years of abuse and torture beat into him that he was to obey Riko.

But when Riko goes for Neil, Kevin tries to stop him. He catches Riko's arm, he lays a hand on him, he goes against him. Because protecting Neil, who at the time was just some random nobody Kevin was trying to mentor, was more important than his fear of Riko.

Neil kissed his survival instincts goodbye when he defended Kevin against Riko on TV, but Kevin also fought against his survival instincts to protect Neil from Riko just a few minutes later.

It's so satisfying to know that Riko, out of all the people that were supposed to be in the perfect court, was the worst player overall (if the others played at full potential).

Like, we know for a fact he was worse than Kevin, that's explicit.

Then we have Neil, who is like... both an amazing striker AND backliner just by having trained for it for the grand total of like...2 years. He knows both roles and plays them top of the line. He is also always the fastest player on the court, and has enough endurance to play full games... he is so well rounded it's scary.

Andrew is just...out of the league when it comes to ability. He is out of any chart canonically. He just never tries -but when he does? To be able to choose how many shots he wants to let go through, to again play full games and letting only what 16 shots in out of HUNDREDS against the ravens?? He is overpowered, nora gave him depression because if he had the passion to play frfr he'd be court by like 19. No college needed.

Jean is able to be one of the best backliners while playing with broken fingers, broken/bruised ribs, being 2 years younger than everyone else, sleep deprived, tortured...the list goes on. He is still out there blowing everyone out of left field. He is big and coordinated, steady on his feet. And unmovable object. In saner and safer conditions he'll shine so hard the fans will need sunglasses. He's harder to point down as objectively better than Riko but like,, you see my point. Even if they were to be equal players he'd still win in the physique department, making him overall better.

Just. I love this.

Okay, I might be pulling this out of my ass but since that finals match was in Evermore that means the foxes should have been wearing their white away jerseys. Which means: the final match was a game of chess.

Not only are they wearing white, but they have first serve (Dan won the coin toss), and near the end the Foxes' king (Neil, because this is a battle between Riko and Neil) changes positions with the tower (Matt, a defenseman that towers over most people) creating the illusion of a castling.

And right there at the end, Riko attempts to kill Neil because they're in front of each other, but that's not how kings work. In the time it takes him to take that step, Andrew closes the gap and strikes. Check mate.

TW - SA

I suffered SA by a family member when I was 12-13 years old and one of these days I was thinking abt it and couldnt understand why I didnt react faster, why it took me so long to just get away from this person

Then I realised that 12 years old me didnt have any idea what touch in a sexual way felt like, no one had ever touched me like this. I only knew what it felt to be touched with care and love or straight up anger. When it happened I didnt even have had my first kiss yet.

This realization helped me to forgive myself a little (it obviously isnt my fault, but shame and guilt are hard feelings to push away completely), but it also added a little to my pain. It feels like something was stolen from me. I never had the chance to slowly learn what being touched with desire felt like, to leran it in my own time, in a consensual way with someone I desired too. Instead I had my trust explored by a f-ing grown man whom I loved and cared about. And this will forever be my first experience with sexual ""affection""

neil "negligent narrator" josten 🤝 jeremy "avoidant narrator" knox

andrew pulled up to psu after his visit to california and immediately went to renee like “hey walker guess what your boyfriend wants a boyfriend”

Boss is asleep, cannot stop me from frogposting

Im gay af, so everyone is fine around here

quick reminder that my own lesbian-nonbinary-ass genuinely supports the hell outta each and every one of you. regardless if i know you or not, im happy to be living in this shithole of a life in the same world with you.

and im proud of you, i know in my heart just how beautiful, amazing, talented, smart, and worthy you are and i hope you can see that too🏳️‍🌈🌈

Wymack did say it was gonna be a desaster and it indeed was

Also, the comment on Riko's aim should be cannon

We all know he would indeed say it hahahahahhahahahaj

pt.34: Neil’s Q&A!! <pt.33 pt.35>

RIP David Wymack’s blood pressure

tags for the homies ❤️ @andrewsleftarmband @blurryhour @you-know-i-get-itt @notexactlythatgirl @longspacerat @tessasilverswan @minyard-05 @carbon-dated-gal @bisexualchaosdemon @stormiiflies @watercoloureyes01 @vampire-overlord @iron-sides @azure-wing @buffalo-fox @ohgodnotagainplease @pink-hydrangea @jaywalkerss @ohmynoggin-blog @cosmic-marauder @min-getoutofmy-yard @plazybones @disastersappho @leestars13 @the-witch-forever-lives @minyardsss @post-historical-posts @andabuttonnose @hidinginmyhands @aftg4l

Nora knows very well the power of traumatised gays in need of emotional comfort (or emotional pain, that book makes me feel pain and comfort in equal measures), she knows she doesnt need promotion

really love that nora does basically no promotion. either you heard about tgr being out because gay people were screaming in your phone, or you didn’t

Yo, if the freshman thought Neil was insufferable before the Ravens game, then they are so not prepared to deal with him when he’s sidelined, in pain, and dealing with the fact that his beloved boyfriend was almost murdered

Ееее я закончила 🎉

Shoutout to Jean dropping “stupid, beautiful Kevin” on us because he ate with that. That’s exactly what Kevin is, both stupid and beautiful. Amazing, descriptive, heartbreaking, straight to the point. I haven’t stopped thinking about it. Stupid, beautiful Kevin indeed

as painful as it was to read, neil getting his ribs fractured was so powerful

he gets interviewed and very pointedly calls the ravens out for breaking jeans ribs. then lane, presumably in retaliation, breaks neil’s ribs. and jean watches his misplaced forever partner sustain that injury all while clutching his own ribs in memory and sympathy pain, panicked for neil

jean has never had someone truly suffer with/for him before. except neil.

real footage of what happened when they weren’t filming

Neil is that stray cat who will scratch the absolute sh*t out of you if you try to hug or pet it

He needs ppl who will just accept his presence there, no matter how many cups he pushes off of the balcony(and he WILL push every mug or cup he has the opportunity to, bc he is just waiting for the time it is gonna be too much and everyone is gonna leave him, like he is used to) and ppl who will not bother or make a big deal out of it once he eventually decides to get close and lay on their laps or by their side. But getting close has to be his decision, bc his problem isnt that he thinks no one would ever show him love, his problem is that he believes he is too much and that this love will never be something permanent, at some point he is gonna cause too much trouble and ppl will give up on him. So he has to be the one to get close and he just needs ppl to be prepared for when he realizes they arent backing away, no matter how hard he tries to make them. Those are the Foxes. They respected all his limits (biggest example is the shower thing), stayed away as long as he needed to (but always in arms reach) and once he believed he had gone too far and nobody would be there for him (Baltimore), they still are there waiting. Thats when he opens up and allows them to come in his world. He would never survive the Trojans shower of affection or their worried intromissions in his life (not bc he didnt like them, but bc he would never see them as genuine, so he would see it as threat and run)

Jean is that dog that has been beaten and put to sleep on the outside way too many times. He doesnt know love, but he also doesnt know freedom. He doesnt need ppl to prove that they will stick by him, bc his abusers have stuck by his side all his life. He needs ppl to prove to him that they will stay by his side not because they hate or despise him, but because they love him deeply. Once he sees affection he will find it weird, but he will accept it (bc he was taught not to bite, unlike tge stray cat, that learned to bite and scratch at the smallest sign of a threat) long enough to actually start liking it. He will see the love he never had and even though it scares the fuck out of him, he will stay. He doesnt believe anybody would ever love him, but he has wished to be a loved qll his life with every cell of his body, so once he is in fact loved, even though it scares him and he doesnt think he desearves it, he cant help but to be drawn by it. For him it feels like a trap (why would anybody ever love HIM??), but he just cant help to fall for it. And once he realizes it in fact isnt a trap and that ppl actually like and find him worthy, he will also start to give this love back, bc thats all he ever wanted, to love and be loved. It still feels like ge is in a fever dream, but he just wants to enjoy every single part of it, like someone who has walked on a desert for days and suddenly finds a river with clean water

They are completely different, but at the same both Neil and Jean just wanted to find a family, to find ppl who would love and accept them for who they were and both have found it 🥹🥹

I just love them so much

The more I think about the differences between how the Trojans show affection vs how the Foxes do, the more I come to the conclusion that they unwittingly created the perfect environment for Jean and Neil’s arcs respectively.

Take for example the way Cat and Laila show Jean affection. The forehead kisses, the hugs, the endless reassurance and compassion. It may go without saying but Neil would’ve hated it if he ended up in that situation. He would’ve booked it faster than you can say Wesninski. But Jean? I mean sure he was baffled at first, but the way he grows to lean into it? The way he shows affection the same way back? Jean needed that brand of affection in a way Neil won’t ever. He needed to learn that he was deserving of such love; that there are people out there now who cared about him as deeply as he does them.

Neil on the other hand needed to learn a whole different set of lessons. The Foxes showing him that they care was less such obvious displays of love and more about patience in the face of his complications. More about their willingness to stick by him when the fabricated life he clung so hard to unraveled at the seams. Jean wouldn’t have flourished as much in that environment because he didn’t need understanding as much as he needed love. He didn’t need someone to help piece his life back together as much as he needed someone to love what was already there.

Neil is like an innocent looking stray cat that the foxes still kept even when they got bit; while Jean is like an abused show dog that the Trojans nurse back to health. And good lord do I love them both for it.

Yessss

me as a writer

Andreil is gonna be the reason ehy I die single, bc after that I seriously cant settle for less

if you ever think about settling for less than you deserve just remember that andrew minyard quit smoking in fear his lungs wouldn't allow him to be fast enough to save the man he loves in case he needs it

I mean, Neil and Jean were actually trying to protect Ichirou not Riko (Neil would probably love to throw some more shade at Riko)

But still, we all stan Kevin Day

neil and jean: making up stories and lying to the FBI to keep riko out of any negative light

kevin on national television: RIKO WOULD HAVE KILLED NEIL IF ANDREW WASN’T FAST ENOUGH

The US-backed terrorist state of Israel deliberately shot a 7-year-old Palestinian child.

Where is the outrage from the West? Imagine if this had been an Israeli child.

Israel is the land of baby killers.

I love them, your honor.

reblog if it's okay for your mutuals to message you and create an actual friendship, not just interactions

Eu me sinto uma palhaça

Lendo "A Prisão do Rei" (da saga de Rainha Vermelha) eu jurei que odiava profundamente o Maven e que nunca sentiria pena dele

Agora estou lendo "Tempestade de Guerra" e deu vontade de dar uma abraço no Maven kkkakka O menino realmente era um monstro, mas a consciência dele disso e o fato de que odeia o que se tornou me pegaram desprevenida (não deveria, estava claro desde a Prisão do Rei, mas eu fiquei tão brava lendo q nem notei)

Em fim, no final de tudo a culpa sempre volta para a maldita da Elara

Essa sim eu quero que queime no inferno

The foxes are there exactly bc they keep on pulling miracle year after miracle year

Most of them were supposed to either be dead or in prison. But they are in university, playing Exy. The fact that they lived to see that day is a miracle. The thing is that no one noticed their miracles before because it didnt had yet translated into results in the court

But they are used to this, to have all conditions against them and still thrive. They have no other option but that. Wymack said it himself: "you are gonna fight because you dont know how to die silently, and you are gonna win bc you don't know how to lose". That pretty much sums up the Foxes

All of them had to pull themselfs out of the bottom of the pit. They didnt come out stronger, neither they came out in one piece, but they came out and thats what they have done all their lifes

If there is one thing I believe is that they can pull themselfs until the finals. Thats just who they are.

bold of jeremy to doubt the foxes' ability to "pull off two miracle years in a row", buddy half of them are only alive out of spite, they are literally fueled by pure resentment and bitterness, they can pull it off if they're angry enough

doodle bc this is extremely Jean coded

And the fact there is chemestry enough for him to be dating any (or all) of them

love how kevin’s top 4 favorite exy players are just two gay couples. unintentional allying

jean and his lil peach has me emotional