Latest Posts by eeeeeeismeee - Page 7

I love the sun I love sunny stuff this is the most beautiful time of the year and I'm so here for it

if ed, why no skinny

I feel so bad turning down the food my parents or friends got me just to make me happy

Because despite the fact that my mom and I watch shows or movies almost every day together, it's kind of rare that my dad joins in as well and recently we're watching through some old classics and it's kind of special

And I was really excited to watch another movie with them today and I told them and they extra bought chips and said they were for me and 🥲

It's so sweet but chips are like my fear food number one

It's a dangerous game always asking my parents to buy me protein bars and coke zero, but that way they'll pay for it, which is good because I really need to save atm

So the only safe food I'm buying for myself are energy drinks because my parents don't allow them

This Moment when I've borrowed my friend money the other day and I ask her about it - it's not even that I care about the money on itself that much, just wanted to remind her - and she just says that she doesn't have cash and offers to buy me something in the cafeteria instead - despite always being the first to make jokes about how I never eat

It's not that big of a deal, but it did kinda bug me, because the way she said it made it sound like she knew exactly what she was doing and stuff

Because she's always trying to pressure me into eating, which I appreciate, but then it also gets annoying

If I for some reason ever end up having kids of my own I will never ever comment on their body, their weight or compare them to other children, not even their siblings, and then try to soothe them by telling them they're just built bulky. No. I will definitely not be encouraging of they may be overweight and - fucking (un)surprisingly - eat less. And if they lose weight, I won't comment on how grown up they look now with all the face fat gone or grab their ribcage and act fucking impressed or openly diet in front of them or fucking WALK INTO THE ROOM TO WEIGH MYSELF EVERY DAY WHILST I LITERALLY STAND THERE LIKE 🧍🏽

And if I notice my kid is ⭐ving themselve I'm not going comment on it constantly and never do anything, and I won't just shut up when they suddenly begin eating again, devouring everything in sight and all the other things.

And if their Grandma does any of these things I'm just not going to let them see each other when I'm not around. Because I won't have her feed them every fucking calorie in the house just because she didn't give a shit, and then have her try to gossip about my weight with my Mom and keep fucking comparing me to my sister and shit there is so much more and I'm sorry for the rant

Checking my cal counting app for comfort

someone called me "the lady with the ukulele" today.

Not a lady and you can hardly call a fucking cello a ukulele

May have been a joke, but....

Lady? Ugh

Dad bought me coke zero but the caffeine free one.... I guess it kinda defeats the purpose but imma enjoy it anyway because diet coke duh and that was really sweet of him to think of me

I feel so much more fat being on edblr and edtwt when I’m not underweight

Bought these protein bars today

I'm planning to have one for breakfast each day next week, because I need to fucking stop binging once I get home from school and maybe eating something before school will help

freedom is being in charge of your own destruction

this is so fucking true

u ever see fit ppl n wanna recover for a sec then realize u just carry fat unfortunately and if you gain any weight you’ll just be ugly. cuz yeah

"What do you do in your free time" how do I say "pace around my backyard whilst imagining myself reacting to WL related compliments and situations" without sounding weird

I ate a banana today and it was huge. Seriously. Largest banana I've ever fucking seen I don't think it was real

might be a bit over specific, but at the moment I like romanticise ⭐ving by pretending I'm just some cool guy commanding a space ship, classes are space ship school or something and I can't eat because I am infected by some alien parasite that'll eat me instead if I eat food... Or something.

Seriously, why am I like this

Too real, too real.

tempted to steal my Dad's laxatives

I kinda came out to my friends yesterday? We were talking about celebrity crushes and I mentioned that I used to have a huge crush on Katy Perry, and my friends were just "Oh Really?" but they were cool with it and I'm so glad... It's just the next morning we did some kind of blind karaoke thing and my one friend was like "I got the perfect song for you!" And it was a Katy Perry song but one which I didn't recognized 😭

So that was kinda embarrassing but whatever

feeling fatter than ever any oversized clothes but also being scared to wear anything else, because they're my only "safe outfits"

was at my friend's birthday party and I fucked up SO BADLY. I promised myself to only eat one slice of cake and a to y portion of dinner today, but then came the evening snacks and all the stupid food and in my head I was constantly like, "I need to stop" but I fucking couldn't and now I feel like the worst person on earth. I woke up to the regret and we're about to eat breakfast, and here's the thing: I never eat around them usually and they keep pestering me with those "What have you eaten today? It's unhealthy" and stuff, and now I completely ruined that. So I planned not to eat breakfast at all, but if I don't eat that now after that fucking horrible binge yesterday... I'm just going to try to go to the bathroom in between and then get away with eating some fruit.

I fucking hate myself.

loser idiot binges instead of starving

realizing that I can ALWAYS lock in, even if I'm 1000 cals deep in a binge I can put the food down and not make it 3000 everything makes a difference in the long run

drinking peppermint tea is like reliving memories of being dehydrated at the hospital and sitting lonely as a kid in the sad summer camp cafeteria

my week has been going well but then today I ate some biscuits.... which were like 500 cals.

I feel so fucking guilty now and I'm going to have to have dinner with my family later, and tomorrow is my friend's birthday and she loves food and it's Saturday so I'll have to eat two meals instead of one, and none of that would be so bad had I not fucksed up today

"Nothing feels as good as water in an empty stomach"

Truuee but let me propose sf monster on an empty stomach

Having a white monster rn, man it's been months since I last had one, I missed that stuff

active 4n4 blogs in february 2025 reblog this , trying to find active moots

my friend was complaining about how she didn't like the sweets she was trying and I said "awwww" as in a friendly banter kind of thing and she just shot back, "Well, at least I am eating."

She said that so accusingly as well but I felt super fucking happy

getting used to the hunger once again (it's literally the best feeling)