I Can Actually Read My Notes For Once!

By an absolute miracle my gold capella schefflera bounced back from a fungal infection that it had at a grocery store. I had told my sister I wanted a yucca plant/tree whatever for my graduation/birthday gift. She panicked and grabbed my tree, which I named Ray. He's now been in my care for a little over 2.5 years 💚

Yike

Don't buy grocery store plants

My grandma is being put into a hospice. I'm not ready to lose her 💔

Any support means a lot. She's been fighting cancer for years now and the radiation and chemo caught up with her fragile body. She originally fell and cracked her hip - first admitted to the hospital. Then she was put into a rehab where they weren't taking care of her incision or giving her the physical therapy they said they were. She developed the worst level bedsore. It went all the way to her tailbone. She was then moved to this new place. They were taking great care of her, but the bedsore never healed. They recommended hospice. She fell out of bed last night. Now she's going to a new facility and they're letting visitors in (double masks, etc). I haven't been able to touch her or see her in person since maybe Novemeber or Decemeber - everything is a blur with my grandpa passing away around then. She never got to see him because of covid restrictions. I 100% agree why they're in place - it's just so hard to watch my loved one dying through a window while assholes continue to walk around without masks on and preaching complete bullshit about the virus.

If there's a loving, caring, and stable adult who wants to take in a child... why are you trashing this????? Is this a cultural thing????? I don't understand this. I knew one girl who was from Bolivia and her white parents adopted her and they kept her in soccer, threw her a lavish quinceanera, and kept her in other culturally appropriate things. These were the whitest people I've ever met, yet they did a wonderful job raising Hannah. It's possible to be culturally aware of how you are raising an adoptive child... idk why that's even a debate. Educate yourself. A great example is hair maintenance classes for white parents who adopt a little black girl. Her confidence is boosted by walking into whatever life throws at her if adults help her navigate her hair. I don't get why that's a problem. The list goes on. Disappointed that there's shade being thrown anywhere.

White couples that adopt non-white kids

Any tips for dealing with a parent who won't acknowledge your accomplishments? Tonight was my university's honors convocation. I sent my mom a link to the YouTube video (it was a virtual ceremony) and told her the time my picture came on the screen. She read it and never said anything. It's been about 2 hours. I was actually proud of myself, but now I'm bummed out. It's like when she said she would go to my K-12 band concerts and then I'd look for her in the audience and she wouldn't be there because she "forgot" or something like that.

This semester needs to end 😫😢😓

Today was crunch day and was finished off with the first anxiety attack of the semester... heheh so much for a less stressful semester

Unfortunately, I actually studied a lot more than what is displayed (just didn't start the app). I'm incredibly stressed out. I'm not a writer by any means. Some people have math anxiety, but I swear I have essay anxiety. I had to write an "essay by example"... but that doesn't make sense to me. It was very unclear what was meant by "essay by example" so I tried a persuasive essay that highlighted individual examples to refute a really dumb prompt. Idk. I missed the first 1.5 weeks of the class and feel lost. She wouldn't extend the first draft due date for me by even a few hours. I turned in the most garbage essay of my life. I feel like I did the entire assignment wrong.

What I did today:

● finished the other half of a stats module

● made an initial discussion post

● replied to 2 discussion threads

● took a walk in nature with one of my doggos and my sister

● oriented myself for the composition class I joined late (syllabus, directions, assignments, expectations)

● read a couple example essays / instruction in the textbook I finally got

● wrote a 4 page essay that is absolute garbage

● anxiety attack

School has been a bit chaotic. I had to take a couple days off to recover from the first dose of the vaccine (I'm notoriously bad about shots). While I'm so incredibly grateful that I could get it, I was knocked out for 2 whole days and am behind.

72 hours of chaos:

●read a chapter + notes + watched necessary videos and presentations

●graphic organizer activity for this (past) week (mind map with bubbl.us or whatever that took too long)

●discussion readings + post + reply

●19 page assignment

●"long term assignment" that was a 4-5 page essay in response to an article that I did within 12 hours

●170 minutes of stats videos + notes

●initial contribution for stats group project

●lots of essay revising for a comp class + submission

●reading this week's essay for comp class and prepared notes

●shoveling my corner house and my grandma's house *twice*

I wish I could say that tomorrow is going to be better, but it's not :/

My region is currently being pummeled by a snow storm and I'm going to have to get up early early to shovel 7-12 inches of snow before my online comp class and another grueling day of online learning while my grandma is currently dying alone in a hospital with a positive covid test along with many other health issues

~It's fine. Everything is fine~

Mom’s potato staring at me across the room

Transgender Day of Visibility.

Quando... avresti molto da dire ma a nessuno interessa la tua opinione...

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