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This semester needs to end 😫😢😓

There's so many new cases in my state. K-12 got a week long spring break. It ends Monday, and I'm honestly so worried about returning to in person instruction. A lot of families travelled and didn't take proper precautions. There's going to be rapid testing for most K-12 before spring break ends, but I'm worried because it's only so accurate and it's voluntary. I'm fully vaccinated, but some of these kids are high risk because of asthma and diabetes and other health conditions. I'll survive if I'm jobless or my substitute teaching hours are cut again, but these kids struggle so much with online learning. My suffering in fully online college is only a glimpse into what they go through. My heart goes out to them. I think we're going to have another shutdown soon. It's completely necessary, but still hard.

My mental health has taken such a large shit as of late. This week needed to be productive as hell and I'm barely barely barely keeping up with what needs to happen. I'm working 4 full days next week and I have 3 group meetings and 1 class presentation and 1 group report on an experiment and all the other shit I've been dealing with. Online school is kicking my ass y'all

most people: *organize their bookshelf by authors, alphabetical order, ect*

me: i’m going to organize my bookshelf purely by vibes and contrasting colours

Transgender Day of Visibility.

Any tips for dealing with a parent who won't acknowledge your accomplishments? Tonight was my university's honors convocation. I sent my mom a link to the YouTube video (it was a virtual ceremony) and told her the time my picture came on the screen. She read it and never said anything. It's been about 2 hours. I was actually proud of myself, but now I'm bummed out. It's like when she said she would go to my K-12 band concerts and then I'd look for her in the audience and she wouldn't be there because she "forgot" or something like that.

Day 70/100: March 30th

Can this semester be over already?

never underestimate the power of:

• cleaning off your laptop/computer

• changing your sheets

• straightening up your room

• changing out your toothbrush

• drinking water

• changing the lock/homescreens on your phone

• changing your phone case

• changing your pajamas

• putting on chapstick

• washing your face and putting on moisturizer

• putting lotion on your body

The current view from my desk 🌱

Was not expecting that

(via)

3. 29. 21 //

A word of wisdom: mind maps aren't supposed to make any sense, they're just suppoesd to get your thoughts down on paper!

I love my houseplants, but I have to say this post resonated a bit

I am very glad to have drawn away from the houseplant hobby before it went... entirely to shit. I'm doing one order of plants online this year because I want to try some fancy gesneriads but my brain is just checked out on houseplants and ready to do some real gardening

You mean I have like 10 more years of this?

Ughhhhhhhhh

being in your 20s is just going through everyday wondering is this a defining moment? is this a defining moment? is this a defining moment? is this a defining mo

me making another post for my 12 followers knowing that it will get approximately 4 notes

One of the very few things I'll miss about online learning is being able to audibly cuss and throw things while taking difficult tests

Officially caught up on all my sick work!!!! 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

Now to tackle this week's activities that mostly accumulated on this weekend 🙃

Also, I use google docs as a planner because my online classes are hard to manage with their random postings and due dates and changes. I normally don't need to do this, but the rainbow highlighting at the top was part of a list of everything I needed to do this week (I am doing the work for this week and last week). I color coded it for each day to help break it up.

The most beautiful giant fern ✨

Prints

I can actually read my notes for once!

Today I:

●went to a virtual comp class that was a total waste of time

●partially caught up on week 8 module videos for my stats class

●added the video content to my running review for the stats class

●went to a virtual 2 hour group meeting for that stats class (so unnecessarily long and dumb)

●took a practice quiz

●started some practice problems

●studied outside! (For a little bit- still quarantined so it was in my backyard and there's very little shade and the umbrella isn't big enough to accommodate sun movements)

@kopikuestudies that's the worst. Especially since proof writing isn't always the most natural feeling thing. I hope things worked out for you. Just know, math feels like such a horrible and unrelenting subject. If you're struggling, everyone else is or just lowered their standards or already took the class. Please try to find it in you to relax and do something non-math related. Take home math exams are literally torture in a new form.

Yesterday was a very long  day, and was made even longer by attempting to do a math test for a good 6 hours.

What I got done today:

●read a chapter (late)

●pre wrote for an essay (late)

●wrote a draft (late)

●read an excerpt for class tomorrow

●peer edited an essay that needs to be done by tomorrow

●wrote a discussion post (late)

●wrote a reply post (late)

●finalized an activity I need to test on a pretend student (my little sis)

●made a plan for catching up and keeping up this week after being sick + emailed all my professors

I feel kinda proud that I toughed it out. Still have a headache and sore throat, but significantly less coughing and just an on and off again low grade fever. I'll live and just need to buckle down and get my homework done.

I have no idea how I got a 5 on the AP Econ Marcoeconomics exam junior year of high school. I'm looking at your notes and recognized I once crammed this knowledge in, but it's now gibberish.

back with economics!!

Math tests with online school is no joke. Last semester I spent about 18 or so hours on a take home final. He said 20 hours would be a reasonable amount of time to spend on it. Bless your soul bruh cuz I was so mentally traumatized from that constant nonsense

Yesterday was a very long  day, and was made even longer by attempting to do a math test for a good 6 hours.

I love it

So there’s this artist, Alex Schaefer, who makes a bunch of paintings of Chase Bank burning.

There’s just

so many of these

and I think it’s incredibly funny but

I just read this bit from the artist and

This is a "plein air" painting which means I set up my easel right across the street of this Chase bank in my city and painted it like it had caught fire. The police questioned me on the spot. Three weeks later Homeland Security was knocking on the door to my home. The question they kept asking me was "Do you hate these banks?" I can honestly say yes.

And I just think this is the greatest artist statement I’ve ever read.

I was very sick and had to be admitted to the ER Tuesday night. I had a really high heart rate and fever so they told me to treat it as covid despite negative results. I am quarantined now and was told to take it easy and not stress out over things. I already emailed my professors that I will check in on Monday on how to better catch up and keep up. I just started making a list of all that I need to do and I'm beyond stressed out. More is going to be added to that list as this week's modules are posted. I'm also in 2 group projects. I feel pretty OK right now. It just feels like a cold. I'm just getting very stressed. I know it's just a matter of buckling down and cranking out work, but it's a daunting task. Wish me luck.

MATLAB has an Onramp kind of crash course. I'm gonna be honest... I don't think many people know how to use MATLAB well. It has potential, but it just isn't used a lot (in my opinion). Congrats on the internship tho! It sounds like you'll learn a lot and it will be a cool experience!

03.02.2021

I finally got an internship, I start in a month! I'm going to improve/adapt a code used to analyse exoplanets data. I'm a bit scared as it will be "translating" MATLAB to Julia, and I never used either language, so if anyone has any resources, I'm taking it!

On other news, we are doing an intensive English week with my class, and it's... Not that bad. But I made it even better with homemade waffles!

I've been a mess lately, but it's a good kind of mess. I actually felt ~happy~ yesterday. It was a foreign feeling. I've been trying to catch myself feeling happy or proud of myself. It's the same idea as trying to catch kids being good instead of catching kids when they're being bad. I had a really good day at work yesterday. Driving home I was a bit stressed, but I heard some great feedback and I was just on cloud 9... well compared to stressy and depressy. I really needed that with the pandemic, online classes, weird hybrid subbing, my grandma, and just everything else.

Hey I've been like incredibly swamped lately so sorry for being absent.

I actually have been working a lot, but this week I only worked on Monday (I was so incredibly off that day for no reason and I made some really bad mistakes such as saying shit in front of sheltered middle schoolers when I got locked outside of the building when the door became unpropped and I let them out to break up the weird hybrid schedule and also kinda losing 4 kids but they just twisted my directions to go for a walk around the school... those incidents shouldn't have happened). I normally have Tuesdays off because of my inconveniently timed composition class. I took Wednesday off to get ahead for school (would have gotten more done if I didn't get blown out cuz CANVAS glitched the literal second I submitted my high stakes midterm). Tomorrow, Thursday I get my second dose in the morning. I had a kinda bad reaction to the first shot (actually was like the second dose with swollen lymph nodes, low grade fever, exhausted, headache, dizzy, just overall feeling bad) for 48 hours and then still a little out of it for another 48 hours. Fingers crossed this dose goes much smoother. Just in case it doesn't, I have everything done that is due before Sunday at midnight. I also got my mom to drive me to my appointment tomorrow cuz I damn near passed out at the place and driving home (i dont do well with shots if you can tell but they're so important and I wouldn't risk not getting it).

I've been doing in person subbing, which is a big jump for me. It's a lot more stressful because I'm constantly reminding middle schoolers to pull their masks up and to give each other a little more space. Their behavior also got a lot worse because they haven't been in person for nearly a year. However, they really needed this. It just sucks that they're being put in this position. Getting the first dose made me feel a little better, although I walk in with a thing of wipes, two masks, hand sanitizer, a pack of back up masks, and no lunch (they've been shoving kids into classrooms to eat because the lunch rooms are tiny). Wish me luck!