The Most Beautiful Giant Fern ✨

Studying with the boys (my trees Monty and Ray and my doggo Teddy and my succulents and cacti). I'm really not in the mood to study, but it needs to happen.

Yesterday was a very tough day. I cried a bunch. My grandma gave up and they're moving her from the rehab portion of the facility to long term. My family is talking about hospice. I had to help my aunt and great aunt find a wedding certificate because they need it to help my grandma claim my grandpa's retirement benefits (he died a little over a month ago but we still cant find it). It was a very hard day. I did a window visit with her (covid) and I called her so we could talk but she dropped the phone and couldn't pick it up. She had to sign some papers for another life insurance claim and it was very hard to watch. She struggled to lift her arms and was crying the whole time but it had to be done by that day. She was so weak she couldn't turn her head to see us. It's hard watching her go because she was like a mother to me. My own mother is just unstable and horrible at parenting. Up until my grandma got cancer, she filled in the holes for my own mother's pathetic excuse for parenting. I lived at her house for a decade and lived nextdoor to her house for nearly another decade. It's hard to let go.

You mean I have like 10 more years of this?

Ughhhhhhhhh

being in your 20s is just going through everyday wondering is this a defining moment? is this a defining moment? is this a defining moment? is this a defining mo

    Flowers blooming time lapse

I love it

So there’s this artist, Alex Schaefer, who makes a bunch of paintings of Chase Bank burning.

There’s just

so many of these

and I think it’s incredibly funny but

I just read this bit from the artist and

This is a "plein air" painting which means I set up my easel right across the street of this Chase bank in my city and painted it like it had caught fire. The police questioned me on the spot. Three weeks later Homeland Security was knocking on the door to my home. The question they kept asking me was "Do you hate these banks?" I can honestly say yes.

And I just think this is the greatest artist statement I’ve ever read.

Today and yesterday were school-free days. I got my first dose yesterday morning (!) But I ended up having a shitty reaction. I had a headache, low grade fever, aches + chills, fatigue, and a little dizziness. I'm better now and that's honestly how I respond to a majority of vaccines. I just took a couple days off to relax too. I'm so relieved I got that first dose though. I'm literally so glad.

@kopikuestudies that's the worst. Especially since proof writing isn't always the most natural feeling thing. I hope things worked out for you. Just know, math feels like such a horrible and unrelenting subject. If you're struggling, everyone else is or just lowered their standards or already took the class. Please try to find it in you to relax and do something non-math related. Take home math exams are literally torture in a new form.

Yesterday was a very long  day, and was made even longer by attempting to do a math test for a good 6 hours.

One of my great great aunts or something like that used to have a lemon tree in her kitchen (old greek lady) and I want to do the same when I finally get my own place 🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋

Happy leaf sweeper

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^Today's set up. Currently reading about online teaching practices.

I'm in a really pissy mood because my dad has been very very very hard to live with as of late. I'm currently in my room with literal ear plugs in and I can still hear the TV blaring. The house has the worst set up and everything is heard everywhere. However, he's a grown ass adult and can go down stairs and watch tv there. I miss the quiet floor of the library so much 😥