It's About How The Universe Always Finds A Way To Exist Despite Destruction And That Betrayal Can Only

HOLY S*IT

You remember me? Gosh it has been so long...

I...I must have fucked up.

I really did.

You remember when I say I would try to open a portal because I couldn’t take reality anymore? 

Yeah

I never thought I was so close from reality.

I haven’t been here for the past two years or less, I don’t understand what happened because apparently I have been living my life normally here. But you need to understand, I HAVENT SEEN MY PARENTS DURING THIS WHOLE TIME.it took me two days to recompose myself. I HAVE BEEN EVERYWHERE ELSE DURING THIS WHOLE TIME AND NO ONE NOTICED!!!!

I recall those days through a haze, a blurry screen, almost like when you try to remember a dream.

So now I will mostly recall every single places I have seen, before I forget. Because I don’t want to forget, I don’t want to forget those people I met and those skies I saw...

The castle and the sea of cloud

To be completely honest this one was the first and I believed at that time it was just a dream and nothing more.

I was sitting under an arch on the side of a long open corridor, at one extremity there was a door, a monumental door, and on the other side it would simply connect with another corridor. I knew that if I went this way I would find a garden with apple trees with golden apples and blueberry bushes. The stone the pillars and the arch were made of was white stone which was lightly pink and golden due to the setting sun. My head was resting on the pillar and next to me was the empty of the sky. It was filled with clouds and I could almost touch them. 

Beyond the roof of the castle the sky was a light blue becoming purple and the moon was bigger and brighter.

I heard laughs echoes on the walls and two teenagers arrived running and laughing, they stopped at the door and tried to calm themselves before knocking on it. They didn’t see my but I was watching them smiling softly.

I turned back to the moon and sight before getting up. I was taller than I normally am, my skin was a deep blue-grey and my jet black hair were tickling my face in the lazy breeze.

This has nothing to do with my book but hell yeah ! COLOURS !!!!! Somehow it takes a lot of time to draw something like that, like 3hours or something.

Pilot part 3

With my friends we had a really philosophical discussion about : “would you like to live in outer space” . them and I tried to think on it and I came with this : 

“The only thing I know is Earth, yeah I love looking at the stars, looking at the night sky wondering if we are alone, I love watching NASA documentaries about space and all that have a link with it, listening to people speaking about the Univers Mysteries, I think I would love to go to space but I know myself, I will be quickly homesick. Earth is a pretty good planet trying it’s best, as I do, to stay alive, it’s a beautiful place, I love all it’s features such as cloud, rain or trees, the animals and the seas… 

“I don’t think I will be able to live in space, first for this reason, but it’s not the only one, then it’s also because I’m claustrophobic, living in a spaceship/station or in a base on an other planet with no easy ways to go home quickly would be a nightmare to me unless the planet have a breathable atmosphere, because that would mean we can be outside “safely” and whenever we want so, yeah, it would be easier. Finally because I would panic if a thing a little bit unexpected would happen. Oh and I almost forgot, if it’s on Mars we wont see Earth, home, anymore, it will just be a tiny shinning dot in the night sky and I think it will be complicated for everyone.

“Now let’s imagine Earth is pretty destroy, there’s no longer forest and wild animals, the pollution is everywhere and cause horrible new illness. The Earth we know no longer exist and you are choosed to go on a mission in space. Then I think it wont be this difficult anymore because Earth is no longer a peaceful place, it’s not a Home you want to go back to, I think that if it was me I would have remorse, maybe will I feel homesick to but it will quickly fade as I look at the infinite space and it’s promise about a better futur.

“And finally, if I never knew anything else than space, hearing people talking about Earth will just make me curious nothing more.”

They agreed on that but I know everyone is different, they wont have the same reaction as me, and this is why I love talking about such subjects. they makes you wonders how you would react in a totally differents situations as you are right now but the best are when we know the subjects will never be real because it force you to speculate about yourself. 

Sometimes I think about the rovers and the deep-space probes we send in  space, I imagine them drifting away further every day that pass. 

Maybe I’m over-thinking but think it’s sad and sometimes a single tear run down my face I think of that, and it’s the same for stars dying and exploding into Supernovas, planet floating alone in deep space because they lose their solar systèmes, cold ans in the dark. 

Yes I’m very sensitives, I hope you understand what I’m saying because It usually don’t make sense for the others.

New art challenge : use picture of crystals and other rocks under polarized light as colour palettes for your ocs.

I invite yall to go and look for more they can be breathtaking ! Also making two colour schemes for your ocs one from the polarized light and one from the "analysed" polarized light sounds amazing

Geology core for real ! A little retrospective on my September and October! And some sneaky pics of the beginning of November!

Pilot part 5

Hey, long time no see, it's like the hundreds time I try to post this, and I was so close twenty seconds before but it disappeared, I don't have the strength to write down everything again. I was talking about the places I wanted to be instead of my current location : the ocean, on a hill and in space watching a supernova. A friend of mine confess his feelings to me and it feels so wrong and weird. I feel sick and I want to cry ! Everybody keeps telling me I should be happy but I am NOT HAPPY! I feel bad, I don't like it,I am scared and I don't know what to say! I don't understand, I don't like it, I want to run away from my life! Be anyone else! Nobody will ever find this account, I know those things I post are supposed to be part of the pilot of the story I planned to write but I use them essentially as a diary. Goodbye

Being in geology means struggling with trying to take a pic through the microscope binoculars (biologist also know the pain lmao)

My hands are shaking lol.

Hello 👋 can we request our own OCs?

Hello ! Nice to see new people in here !

To answer your question and make it public : YES ! You can absolutely request your own OCs but...

Remember the quality of a request is lesser than one of a comission and the time I will take to make and complete the piece will be completely random ! It can take a long while !

With that disclaimer out of the way, it will realistically, at worse, take up to three weeks but I will keep you updated during the whole process! You can always ask me question during the whole process !

Sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do.

Do you even read something so bad, or play a game with terrible script and worldbuilding that you think "I'm not even good at writing but even I would do a better job ?" Yep, that was me when I was 14 and today I just finished writing my first book. Keep your eyes peeled because I fully intend to publish it !