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Aight, I don't think I've ever heard out The SQUIP Stalks, it's good!

I was reading the lyric booklet along with the Broadway album and I found that SQUIP calls Jeremy bae in Be More Chill Part 1 and I'm not sure how to feel about this :/

Also does anyone else find the text is like, super tiny? Like, I had to borrow my mom's reading glasses. I mean I don't know if I'm just blind, this is a possibility, but like I swear I can normally read CD booklets? I dunno. ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

Tower of cat 😻😻😻😻😻

Oh my goooooooooood this is too good I caaaaaaan't you guyyyyyyyyyyyyys aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Thank you to the wonderful @miikpal​ for the promotional art! [Commission Info]

IT RUNS IN THE FAMILY by caswell on AO3

Jeremy Heere has had a lot of bullshit in his life. He’s been bullied, he’s struggled with mental illness, he was in a car crash that ruined his hearing- but he can cope with all of that at least moderately well. When he receives a letter from his estranged, domineering mother inviting him to her new home in Nacogdoches, though, the ground beneath his feet threatens to crumble.

Jeremy doesn’t respond at first. Should he tell him? Of course he should know, he’s his best friend, but… he’s not his therapist. It’s not like it’ll help. It’ll probably just be burdensome (because, after all, he is burdensome). Still, he finally answers, “I, uh. I don’t think I like my mother.”

Michael blinks, mildly surprised. “Really? When she left, you ran to my house sobbing.”

That’s true. That day was a blur- he remembers waking up, asking his father why he looked so sad and where his mother went, because it was Sunday, after all, so she should be home, and then it bleeds into the deep recesses of his mind and he can’t quite claw it up. But he remembers, too, Michael holding him in his arms, hugging him while he shook and sobbed and whined for his mother like a fucking baby. Michael, who had always been there; Michael, who always would be, like he’d promised him that day.

(Credit for the Partially Deaf Jeremy au goes to @tinylittle-femalechrist!)

Heard some important information on Twitter today, and thought I’d post it here for anyone who may not have heard it. This is actually a thing, devised by human rights organisation called Karma Nirvana.

Reblog to save a life?

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Merry Christmas darlings, love y'all ❤️❤️❤️

SnoedripsoRjlezzz not as terrible as I thought it would be

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Kitty too cute aaaaaaaaa 🥰🥰🥰

Aight, listened to the second half, and Revolution Song, I Hope, Masochist and I Fell In Love In Juvie Hall are all EVERYTHING

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Joe Iconis I love you

Oh my goooooooooood I tried to find a new musical to listen to so I am trying Love In Hate Nation and it's eeeee-vryyyyy-thiiiiiiiiiing and ughhhhhh I caaaaaaan't I'm on Oh Well at the moment and it's beeeeeeeautiful like just too many feelings aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

So um yeah would recommend :)

It's by Joe Iconis if that helps :)

Basically it's an epic lesbian romance set in juvie hall in the 60s and yaaaaaaaaaaas

Aight love y'all and happy not pride but it's pride in my head because I said so 🥰🏳️‍🌈

Perfection 😍😍😍

The Ocean, Me, MS Paint, 2022

Top tier BMC analysis

Christine Canigula was socially ostracized & developed a complex to protect herself: an essay

(suddenly i NEED to infodump about Christine actually so here)

Something I only noticed on rewatch: the way Christine will say something silly and then just kind of gingerly wait to see if Jeremy reacts well to it before continuing, almost like she's asking permission?? (e.g. the gap after the first stanza of "Play Rehearsal"). And it's only after he riffs off her bowling alley bit that she feels comfortable talking about her personal feelings with him (right before "Guy that I'd Kinda be Into"). The same happens with their "weird noise" exchange immediately before "It's pretty killer to sit and chat with you." I know theater relies on being succinct, and that 'bonding over shared quirks' and 'feelings talk' are both just crucial parts of relationship development... but I don't think it's a coincidence that it always goes in that order!

It's like Jeremy has to pass these *trials of weirdness* before she feels safe opening up to him and it drives me BONKERS so I wrote a whole 1000 word thing about it under the cut and this got too massive and I'm sorry. Also some autistic Jeremy meta at the end if that sweetens the pot hehehe

Table of contents:

Why she was ostracized

How she was ostracized

How that might inform her pattern of relationship development with Jeremy and Jake

How gender caused Jeremy's experiences to differ from hers, and how that affects their current relationships with "popularity" and peer acceptance.

1. Why she was ostracized

I am just so certain that Christine has been bullied or at least majorly outcast for a lot of her life. She's very obviously neurodivergent and because of that she can have these obnoxiously deep and repetitive interests, she can't judge if a piece of information will be genuinely interesting to someone, and she doesn't take social cues very well.

She frequently interrupts people when they're talking (an ADHD symptom btw), even when they're literally talking to her about the thing she wants to hear!

(C: "Do you find that? Because I totally find that!" J: "Uh, yeah, I-" C: "-And no matter how hard I try....")

(J: "I know the last thing I deserve is another shot, but-" C:"Jeremy, just... say what's on your mind.") (girl I'm sorry but that's what he was doing..... I have a whole other thoughtpiece on how this particularly fucks with Jeremy while they're dating but thats another thing...)

She doesn't seem confident in her interpretations of people's emotions and she'll ask/talk about them point blank (both theirs and her own) in a way a lot of people would find rude

("Uh, you seem really nervous...") ("Popular people are fucked up! *mutual laughter* …I mean, you're one of them!") ("I am flattered, this is new / still I'm not sure what I should do" <- as a response to getting asked out, that's pretty bold! Plus the entire part where she laughs at Jake's "rich boy routine") (also compare and contrast to Jeremy's "I don't know what I'm supposed to say right now." idk. are your allistic stage dorks in the room with us right now motherfuckers)

I'd go on about her hyperfixations/special interests too but I think Play Rehearsal pretty much sums it up lol

2. How she was ostracized

All this to say that I am CERTAIN she spent a lot of her schooling having "nice girls" patiently let her sit with them at lunch for weeks at a time until they finally get sick of her rambling and faux pas. Only when they leave does Christine realize that they didn't actually care about anything she said... And this happens over and over and over. (I know this seems hella specific but I swear it's an actual phenomenon... at least I'm pretty sure? sdjflksjf)

But anyway, it's clear that by the time they're juniors, Christine has kind of (and I do only mean kind of) figured out what behaviour other people respond poorly to. And from evidence I stated in the intro, I think she's become really careful about which people she lets herself get attached to. She doesn't want this to ever happen again - which means if she's going to hang out with someone, she has to know that they actually care about her, that they know she will sometimes be obnoxious or blunt, and they'll still be okay with that forever.

3. Applying this to her canon relationships

You can extend this to Jake, someone who sees her in her element in drama rehearsal (the thing everyone finds annoying about her because she won't shut up about it) and STILL likes her. I think it's a totally valid reading that her bluntness with him later ("Upgrade") is just because she misreads him / doesn't quite get the social standard that she should be white lying instead. But I think you could also read her as testing the waters. If she's really going to commit to dating this guy, she's gotta know he's okay with her being herself. And the fact that this guy (and I think it's significant that he is a boy, for reasons I'll explain in the end note) genuinely seems to like her is a whole new level of peer validation ("I am flattered, this is new") -- so of course she's gonna fall at least a little! It doesn't hurt that he's "tired of being the person that everyone thinks that I am..." just like her!

Her history with being pity-liked makes Chloe's "advice," that Jake's just toying with her and is going to move on soon, even scarier, because that's genuinely happened to her (on a platonic level) so many times before.

Jeremy is also a good candidate from the beginning because he's weird he's a weirdo he doesn't fit in and he doesn't wanna fit in you ever see him without this stupid cardigan on? that's weird! And she keeps warming up to him not only because they're getting to know each other but because he gets progressively more willing to not only tolerate (as Jake does) but *participate* in her weirdness!

First, she does something weird and he tolerates it ("Play Rehearsal"); the next time she's weird, he participates! (bowling ball before GTIKBI). Then finally finally finally he initiates the weirdness and lets her join in! ("weird noises" exchange before GTIKBI reprise).

And notably, it is THIS moment that canonically signifies that they've hit the apex of their canon relationship development. If there was an achievement called "Befriend Christine," it would have popped up right then and there!!!

IN CONCLUSION: YOUR HONOR I LOVE THEM T_T

4: Christine vs. Jeremy: Gender differences & how that ultimately impacts their social goals

I also think all of this would have happened to Jeremy too if he'd been a girl. But because, generally, young boys feel less social obligation than girls to take pity on the autistic kid (and because boys tend to be more quickly recognized as autistic) he just ends up completely alone for most of his school life (Michael nonwithstanding - and yeah there's an important distinction between your childhood friend putting up with you and knowing that, woah, I guess literally nobody else ever will).

Meanwhile, Christine has had people "put up" with her, and she's SICK OF IT!

That's part of why their complexes are so different, because Christine is trying to check everyone she meets to make sure they'll be okay with her weirdness before she gets attached, Jeremy is trying to eliminate his weirdness altogether because he's never even experienced his peers listening out of *pity* so how the hell can he expect someone to ever listen to him out of *interest?*

Jeremy has never had someone pretend to like him before, so he completely lacks Christine's fear of befriending someone who secretly hates you. He doesn't realize how bad it'll hurt him if he destroys his real self for popularity, if he befriends people who would have bullied his real self. He doesn't know what disingenuous friendship feels like, so like a very young Christine he's still actively trying to get there because he thinks it's the only kind of validation he'll ever get.

Do you see what im saying? Do you see it???? AUAUGUGUUGGH

THANK YOU FOR READING!!! If you have thoughts or even rebuttals please share i am so desperate to discuss the blorbos

So, I watched the Dear Evan Hansen movie, cos it was on BBC iPlayer and a lot of my mutuals love DEH, it was very very good, I totally get why y'all love it! It was also very sad so I will not be coming back to this cos I like my media light-hearted, but like, I super get it's beautiful and got all the feelings and like it's very powerful and the music is beautiful and I love the characters, they're like totally relatable, that's kind of the problem for me, it's a bit too relatable and like, trying to move on from that era and not think about it too much, but I get for other people in a similar situation it could be very good to see representation, so like, if you feel it, wonderful! Overall, it's an excellent musical, I super appreciate it, it's just not for me personally, but like, would totally recommend it to other people if you don't mind it being sad! Alright, love you all, hope you're doing amazing, and if you're struggling with your mental health, please try to reach out, cos like, I know it sounds kinda dumb, but like, you all deserve amazing things and amazing people who love and respect you, cos like, every life is valuable, and like, I know it can not feel like it sometimes, but like, you're amazing and wonderful and I really hope things get better for you if you're struggling, cos like, yeah. Big hugs, peace and love <3 <3 <3

Random thing that happened at animal care college: at least 5 kids spontaneously singing Karma Chameleon to a chameleon. I love humanity sometimes :)

Aw yissssssssssss we stan Christine

“Christine Canigula is a strong, lovable and valuable character,” I say into the mic.

The crowd boos. I begin to walk off the stage in shame, when a voice commands silence from the room.

“She’s right,” they say. I look to the owner of the voice. There, in the 5th row stands: Stephanie Tsu and the entire BMC cast and creative team themselves.

EDIT: Jesus Christ how did this get 30 notes in 5 minutes hdhdhfij

Y'all are doing amazing and I'm so proud of you all :) <3

Here is cat as well done

Cat says meow

Meow translator: I love you and you are doing amazing

by Comicname

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this is quite possibly the softest picture in existence

the person reading this is going to survive the rough patch they’re going through

Just in case

Yo! I'm here to remind you that you, yes you, deserve love and respect! No buts! And if anyone tells you there is a but stopping you from deserving love and respect, then they are a butt!

Yikes teehee

Absolutely, everybody deserves to be treated with love and respect no matter what their gender or the gender of their partner. And don't forget this applies to non-boys who love non-boys too!

I don’t know how many boys follow me, but I gotta bet there’s some. I just wanna tell y’all to be careful.

Abusive girls exist and what they’re doing is seen as like “badass tough don’t take no shit” but your girl should not hit you. Ever.

She should not demand for you to hand over your phone to look through.

She should not yell at you and humiliate you either alone or in front of people.

She shouldn’t make you distance yourself from your friends or family.

She shouldn’t scratch you or twist your arms.

She should not call you names.

She shouldn’t tell you ‘she’ll kill herself if you break up’

These are just a few examples of abuse and it’s just seen as okay when girls do it and god knows I’ve fallen victim to it a few times, but you shouldn’t have to.

Never worry about not being in a relationship. If they’re worth it, they won’t hurt you.

No one has the right to hurt you.

Love this ❤️❤️❤️

yap alert about jenny and the first time she smoked with mikey post-squip:

ok so i do think that jenny also smokes, just not as much as mikey. i think being high calms mikey down and shes super chill, laid back, yk , cool, jenny on the other hand ..

being high calms her anxiety but since it calms her down it makes it alot harder for her to ignore certain thoughts that she chooses to push down when shes not high, mainly guilt. its happened before but on numerous occasions she is found dissacociated and upset due to overwhelming guilt, with things like her mother leaving and such.

well post squip, the guilt is EXTREME. and it definitely takes a long while for mikey to be able to convince jenny to smoke again, as jenny is afraid of doing anything that could mess with her mind (she will never ever drink mtn dew again)

but similarly to alcohol being a depressant and shutting the squip off, mikey tells jenny that weed should be okay for her, so, they get together to hangout.

they smoke, get high, mikeys chill, playing video games when all of a sudden jenny just starts sobbing??? breaking down. the guilt of everything that happened with the squip and mikey and brooke and such is killing her so she just starts bawling. mikeys like ??? oh my god are you okay jen whats wrong?? and jenny explains that shes so so sorry and shes so upset and everyone hates her and mikey tries comforting her but fails as shes .. really high, so. mikey says she will call christine and explain, jenny of course, being upset by all of this doesnt want christine to know she smokes weed (another thing she is guilty about) but by time jenny can mutter "no dont tell her im smoking weed 😢😢😭" christine has already picked up the phone and heard this (she doesnt care lmao) shes worried ab her gf and mikey asks if she will come over.

christine comes, jenny sobs some more and says how much she doesnt deserve her and all that blah blah, christine takes it all in and isnt bothered, she just wants jenny to feel better. they eventually lay in mikeys bed and christine cuddles and comforts jenny as she falls asleep (weed makes her sleepy lol) and she manages to get up and leave without waking her, asking mikey to text her when jenny wakes up to make sure shes okay.

sooo. jenny sleeps for nine hours 🤔 and wakes up completely sober, a little confused as to where she is then realizes shes at mikeys, mikey, who stayed awake the entire time, is there to be like oh youre awake! jenny forgets completely that she even smoked, their convo would pretty much go like this:

j: oh gosh how long was i out for?

m: oh yk like nine hours

j: NINE HOURS?? oh my god?

m: hey are you alright?

j: yeah??

m: youre not upset anymore?

j: i was upset?? what do you mean?

m: yea dude i mean i really didnt know what i was gonna do you seemed like youd never STOP crying

j: i was crying? so you put me to bed??

m: i didnt. christine did !

j: chrstine???? but im at your house??

m: i didnt know what to do so i called christine!!!!

j: you did WHAT?! why was i upset why was i crying?? why did christine come here?? why did i sleep for nine hours??????

m: okay okay jen woah youre getting hostile 🤔🤔 listen, we smoked some weed. you! got really weird. i was super high. so i called christine, and you were like "dont tell her im smoking weed" but she was already on the phone and totally heard, so then she came over and you kept crying and were like "waahhh christine i dont deserve you" but she knew you were high and was okay with everything and she just , yk, waited until you fell asleep and then she left! oh i gotta text her by the way, let her know youre awake and alright.

j: well idk if im alright... (embarrassed)

then mikey obnoxiously takes a flash photo of jenny, who is sprawled in mikeys bed, confused and embarrassed as hell

christine, whos been FIGHTING to stay awake (not a night owl at all) waited the whole time for that text and as soon as she responded she CRASHED, out, sleepytime.

sorey for such the long post i just fucking love jenny and my au so somuch i wanted to share this with tumblr i doubt yall will care but thanks for reading if you made it down here

Omgggggggggg I just saw this for the first time and it is everythinggggggggg, I can't even, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ So yeah, would recommend :) Alright, love y'all <3 Hope y'all are doing amazing

Okay….Will Roland and Joe Iconis playing an acoustic version of “Loser Geek Whatever” is giving us ALL the feels! 🎧

Awwwwww

Beautiful 😍

Me and my babies cos I can't pick a favorite

Also I need a froggy hat

Thank u luvly @goldenrings-n-pillows for the tag </3 mwua

Make this picrew of you and your blorbo

Me and my HUSBAND Damon Salvatore

Np tagging: @onlyasimp4-2dbitches or @hor3nee plus anyone else who wants to make picrews of their blorbo :3

Me: just casually vibing

Joints/back/stomach/head: this seems like a good time to hurt for literally no reason