I Think My Bf Secretly Doesn’t Like Me

yeah maybe it’s the schizotypal personality disorder talking but what the freak bro

cluster a culture is having a safe person who you'd like to talk about stuff and things with and then just. *loud incorrect buzzer* wrong! actually you should shut up forever

I want to return to mother

I need my bf to do this with me

I will connect with the gods from my culture then I will have a deeper understanding of the divine feminine and be closer to mother once that takes place I will sacrifice my blood for her :) mother will love me then maybe I can even be a high priestess for her :)

Can someone recommend goth music especially female lead singers or solo female singers

bpd friend

I had a friend he has bpd and today I had a psychotic episode I tried to text him again and he blocked me idk if I caused that or he probably split or something even so I’m not even mad, he’s genuinely a nice guy and fun to text I did try to him help when he was going through issues if I was the cause for him to block me I’m so terribly sorry I truly am

Maybe you prefer if I was in pain? Do you like to see me cry? I know you do, you love it when I’m hurting which is why you kept doing it :)

songs that are relatable to people with schizotypal personality disorder

Ladytron- destroy everything you touch feeling a lack of empathy towards others and destroying your relationships with everyone you know 

Jack stauber- baby hotline wanting to seek professional help when your at your lowest, psychosis/anxiety 

Cristianmirror- the mind electric 4 demo - struggling with mental instability and not being able to tell reality from delusion

Balde and bath- Bloody sink I feel like think song relates to those who suffer in silence, with crippling anxiety and paranoia to the point they will have panic attacks in public 

Black Sabbath - paranoid obviously paranoia that an entity or a person is out to get you yet no one sees it but you

Marc Demarco- chamber of reflection this song could relate to the feeling of isolation and loneliness as people with schizotypal will often ghost or push people away due to paranoia that others will hurt them 

Cannibal corpse- hammer smashed face relates to those who actually killed or experience wanted to kill (not all people with stpd experience this though keep in mind)

Radiohead- creep a song about feeling isolated as you don’t fit in can relate to those who struggle to socialize as they are seen as awkward or eccentric 

breaking up

I might break up with my bf I just feel like he doesn’t love me he just doesn’t put in effort or he might submissive idk like I don’t think he ever liked me