Well There You Go

REBLOG IF I CAN MESSAGE YOU 'HEY' AND START A FRIENDSHIP.

always gonna re-reblog

So many looks but my eyes stay the same focused on you

Vanilla

So plain yet it stains..

you cry wolf and I'm credulous

Ànd everything else becomes mundane.

Masking the pain of you basking in the shame.

.people would frown trying to understand how it all went down

So I store some parts of you in manilla folders

I deserve better than these clandestine folders

Oh vanilla,strip tease as i please..you on your knees..

Pleading. Kneading your want into crevices of my skin.

I impede your needs for I don't know where it would lead..

I remind myself vanilla stains

And how I don't want this pain

Cause it will make me insane and the safe words wont be so plain.

but scintillating we could be even if its just a tease i appease

to accept

monotonous Vanilla stains

ig: @roomvibes

Vivid dreams that make you want to scream...

There's a little girl..she mimics my temperament,

I find some sentiment in the Inner me thats still with me.

And here I thought I'm like I tree and you've left me,I've left you to be free.

Afraid of the change,little girl I won't abandoned you like a wicked mage..and you bound to the cage of your childhood trauma

Magic drew me and then threw me when somewhere In my spirit you said let me go

let go..

A shadow form..in reality I'm in a heat storm.

Night sweats pull me close in this realm where you a ghost..haunted stained and I wake up with the pain..that I haven't let you go..

So as I dream may you know I'm with you..holding your hand.

Altho it's just a dream

May it be serene.

Be genuine

Eczema

The itch I have, yet can not scratch

For if I scratch the itch

It will lead to a series of uncontrollable scratching

Allowing me to glitch and open wounds

With no cognizant mind....

That I'm actually hurting myself

Followed by self-loathing as to why did I just do that

Opening wounds after would all to satisfy the 10min bliss of a

Itch..

That wanted to be scratched.

Similar to sex... That most can't deny...

They wonder why did I just do that.?

Cause 10minutes of bliss can fill the void of a father that left for bread and milk and...

His still coming back..

10minutes can make an empty vessel feel whole

10minutes of destruction could help uncover a foundation

10minutes does help a hole feel whole but 10min.

Is all I have to allow myself to self inflict and further no more

Cause 10minutes is all I have look over myself and clean my wounds.

10minutes is what he said it would it take..

For him to come home

10minutes is all I get to scratch the itch I got..

#poetry #creativewriting

I agree I miss my dad

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