Hello, my name is Panic. Find my other links on my Carrd
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Latest Posts by panic-volkushka - Page 3
Hey man, I just found your Bart and Chris in therapy comic through a queer podcast about a book series, and I just wanted to say thank you for creating it and putting it out there. As a fellow trans man, I really enjoyed reading it, and I hope you’re having a good day.
I’m so glad you enjoyed it and thank you for taking the time to message me!
Can I ask… what podcast mentioned my comic???
(People with podcasts, if you want me to talk about art or comics or trans stuff, I’d be down for that.)
I didn’t know that!! Thank you for the additional context! It adds another layer to this that I wasn’t aware of. I am delighted!
I have a new comic – a real, physical one – up for sale on my Etsy!
It’s $6 + shipping, and you get a sticker!
Because I have brainworms and want to infect everyone I can with them, I will be posting the whole thing here but the draw for the hard copy is a pretty color cover! And a sticker!
Read the whole thing below the cut and then maybe buy a copy.
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I have a new comic -- a real, physical one -- up for sale on my Etsy!
It’s $6 + shipping, and you get a sticker!
Because I have brainworms and want to infect everyone I can with them, I will be posting the whole thing here but the draw for the hard copy is a pretty color cover! And a sticker!
Read the whole thing below the cut and then maybe buy a copy.
I’m taking this as a sign from the universe to no longer sell my fancomics. I’ve taken both “Naruto: The Last King, The Last Priest” and “Therapist R. J. Hill” off my etsy store. Both comics can be read, in their entirety, on this tumblr.
I intend to order new prints of my original comics (with updated color covers) and get back to selling hard copies of my own work.
I resisted the urge to send a PDF of “Air Pirate Funnies.”
Is there a way I can purchase your Therapist RJ Hill digital comic without going through Etsy? I learned about the comic via a post on Imgur, so I don’t think Etsy deserves a commission.
Ha! I respect your conviction!
You can send me $3 on paypal ($5 if you'd like the printable version of the comic. My email is panicvolkushka@gmail.com) and make sure to include the email address where you'd like me to send the digital files.
Previews of the next comic I’m working on.
No idea when it’ll be finished. It’s at least 14 pages long and I’m just starting page 3...
Your comic about how you used to love to draw.. I sympathize so much. It must be so difficult to process those feelings during times like these. If it is any consolation, the space your art takes up is a joyful, meaningful one in a lot of people's hearts. It's like a language guidebook that creates the foundation of a second language in the mind of the reader. I know how poisonous it can be to think of your art as needing a function, to be small and disposable yet widely used, I hope you are feeling better these days with your art and that you are able to heal. Your art has helped heal a lot of us, but more meaningful is if it is able to heal you
Thank you for sending me this.
Honestly, I think disenchantment with, and then falling back in love with, art-making has been (and probably will always be) a cyclical part of my life. It’s my own little myth of Sisyphus wherein I laboriously roll my absurd art boulder up the hill, convinced that this task matters, only to watch in despair as it rolls back down the hill. I accept that I must do this task again, that my labor doesn’t matter, but pushing the art rock up the hill was fun so I might as well do it again.
are you ever gonna do more rj hill🥺 it really really changed things for me and id love to buy a compendium or something. i got the two comics digitally already and i am YEARNING for more :(
I’m so glad you like the comics and thank you for buying the digital copies!
I don’t have any ideas for more comics involving Bart, Chris, and Bobby. I do have an idea and some thumbnail sketches for a comic that takes place in the same “universe,” I guess? But it’s not high on my list of personal projects at the moment.
Hey Panic, I just read your Couples Therapy comic. The panel where B--- says "The sooner you leave me, the sooner I can figure out my life without you." helped me realize why I push away all the people I get involved with. Thank you! This isn't really an ask lol I'm sorry.
Sometimes I get these anonymous asks that are, like, so perfect and validating that I think “If I reply and post this, people are gonna think I’m making these up and sending them to myself.”
Thank you for messaging me and I’m glad my comic gave you insight into your feelings.
My partner heroically located the cables for the scanner so I can finally post high res versions of these painting studies.
First is geometric shapes with open acrylic paints, second is broad colors with heavy body acrylics, third is open acrylics as the base with heavy body acrylics for defining highlights and shadows.
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in case there’s ever been any ambiguity about the themes and focus of my art, Baruch HaShem for hairy trans masc titties.
I regret to inform you that I have begun scripting and thumbnailing another Simpson’s comic. Not directly/explicitly related to my previous comics. No idea on how long it will take to complete. So, y‘know, watch this space.
Returning to this painting for the first time in well over a year and just obliterating it with saturated colors.
Also finished this painting but need to find the cables for the scanner to actually get a good quality picture of it.
Doing some painting studies.
Top left: straight lines only, open acrylics. Bottom left: heavy body acrylics. Right: starting with open acrylics as the base, will go back on top with heavy body acrylics.
Here’s the complete comic, compiled in one spot.
11/14/22: I’ve taken both “Naruto: The Last King, The Last Priest” and “Therapist R. J. Hill” off my etsy store. Both comics can be read, in their entirety, on this tumblr.
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A few years back (maybe 3?) I saw your couples therapy comic and I spoke about it with my own therapist and went "wow, that was a lot of violence on kids in those cartoons and it was downplayed normalized." And in turn helped me realize that my own issues with my parents were downplayed and normalized. I'm in a much better place and I wanna say thanks for helping, in the small way you did just by sharing your comic with tumblr.
Thank you for messaging me! I'm glad to hear you're in a better place and I hope therapy was beneficial to you. Whether it's from a therapist or from a friend, it can be really important to have another person validate that what you went through WASN'T okay.
was there ever a part two to ur therapy comic? also following because Naruto and Sasuke are my faves
Yes! And think you for making me realize the first post of the comic doesn't have a link to the second part lol!
The second part is here: https://panic-volkushka.tumblr.com/post/146046796495/its-here-a-hard-copy-version-of-my-comic
Can you send a link/show anyway to view your Therapist Bobby Hill comics?
Sure!
Part one is here: https://panic-volkushka.tumblr.com/post/142590132565/clients-names-and-personal-information-have-been
Part two is here: https://panic-volkushka.tumblr.com/post/146046796495/its-here-a-hard-copy-version-of-my-comic
I'm just kinda running into this blind, but is there a way to get your RJ Hill therapist book? I didn't know it was ever made physical, and I'd love to own it.
I have made a printable download version!
https://www.etsy.com/listing/1115825810/printable-comic-book-therapist-r-j-hill
I was previously printing and shipping them myself but when my job switched to work from home I lost access to the office printer (lol). Because RJ Hill is my most popular comic, keeping up with the physical printing and shipping can be a bit much on top of having a full time job, especially when there's a sudden upsurge in interest. So I've decided to keep my fancomics as printable downloads.
Exciting update! I've added a new listing to my Etsy where you can purchase a PRINTABLE version of this comic! Now you can print out your own physical copy of the comic, if you'd like.
Check it out here: LINK
The profits from the printable version will also be donated.
11/14/22 UPDATE: I’ve taken both “Naruto: The Last King, The Last Priest” and “Therapist R. J. Hill” off my etsy store. Both comics can be read, in their entirety, on this tumblr.
NOW AVAILABLE AS A PDF!
Several people contacted me about getting a digital version of my “Couple’s Therapy” comic, as the cost of shipping for the hard copy was prohibitive.
So you can now get this as a PDF download, for half the price of the hard copy, and no shipping!
Digital copy here: LINK
Hard Copy here: LINK
I’m hoping to make some of my original comix available as PDFs too. This is the first time I’ve done the digital purchase/download option, so I appreciate any feedback or notification if anyone runs into problems with the files.
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I was waiting to post these final pages until I'd completed the cover and done a couple other things to go along with this project, but I decided to quit being precious about it and just post the dang things.
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So, previously I had all pages set to 90 lpi at 45 degrees, but suddenly CSP has decided it won't go higher than 85 lpi and the materials downloads that I'd gotten for higher lpi aren't working. I had to reconfigure the lpi and degree for the screentones, so these and subsequent pages may look slightly different.
I like CSP, but some of the functions remain a mystery to me. Either the available translated instructions/English guides aren’t detailed enough for me, or I’m trying to do things in such a weird, sideways approach, there aren’t instructions applicable to my problems.
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I’ve decided to become a person who paints and draws over unsuccessful sketchbook pages, rather than leaving them to fester.
how do you feel about your bart/chris/bobby comic being low-key iconic in some circles? I just read it again and it really brings me totears
I'm glad you find the comic so meaningful.
On one hand, it's gratifying as an artist, to know that my work has resonated with so many people. Based on some of the messages I've gotten from people, the comic has been part of how they processed their own childhood experiences or part of what inspires them to start their own therapy. That's amazing! It's not like I set out with that being the goal of the comic or anything!
On the other hand, it's given me a small experience of "death of the author." I didn't conceive of the comic as a sweeping critique of the "nuclear family animated comedy" or depictions of violence, trauma, or abusive relationships in media. I have LOTS of complex and contradictory opinions on "difficult" subjects in art. I created the comic while taking a class on family and couples therapy, and was inspired by the class to explore how real family/relationship dynamics might occur if I approached these cartoons as real families. I think a lot of people get this backwards -- they see the comic as using a lens of psychology/counseling to critique popular media. My actual experience of thinking up the comic was using popular media to explore what I was learning about psychology/counseling.
That said, I recognize that once something is out in the world, I can't completely control how it's interpreted or used. The positive messages I've received greatly outweigh my ambivalence about how some people view/interpret the comic.
Hey, your Bobby Hill comic was recently re-posted on Reddit, and it's the first time I've seen it since training to become a therapist. Do you have a background in therapy? Or a background of going to therapy? Because I have to say, the therapeutic style you used for Bobby in the comic is top notch. If you were a peer of mine I'd offer a few minor critiques, but really, amazing job.
Thank you!
I have been to therapy, and I do work in mental health. It's not something I talk about in-depth on this account (or any other account, honestly) due to the confidentiality of the work. Additionally, who I am on this account is not who I am in my mental health work; similar to how who I am at work is not (all of) who I am in my personal life.