My Light - Blog Posts

I am grateful for my moon, it shines on me whether I'm quiet, unhappy, hurting, happy...... It doesn't just come out when life is good and it certainly doesn't stay hidden when it's rough.

As I sift through the fading remnants of my dreams.... One thing I know... I desire you.

This is a very open love letter to the one embedded deep in my heart.

Love

You are my obsession, I see your words /your face... My heart pounds and I feel calm, I feel perfect and right..... You are my addiction, I crave and need, in in those moments after our interactions I need, crave, my desire grows, so much I shake, you are powerful.

Don't ever feel you aren't strong, because i beg to differ.

You are my moon, my moonlight.

Why?

I look at the moon I feel calm, it's reflective light bathing us comforting.

I look up at the moon the same time as you and no matter our paths, no matter the distance, we are looking and loving the same thing.

Only you are my moon..my comfort, my inspiration. You are my light when all I see is dark, when I'm bright, you reflect my light, spread it farther than I ever could alone.

You speak to my heart, understand me in ways many could not, even when I don't understand myself you somehow find what it is I can't voice.

You take every part of my intensity, even though I know it's one of my biggest issues, you accept all my faults, the moments when I know it's my past trust /abandonment issues taking, and even when hard, with tears in your eyes, you not only handle me, but love me more.

I didn't have to learn to love you, and that is why it's so easy to love you.

The faults you carry, you know I don't see them as such, never have.

Thank you for your light.

Your love.

Your glow upon my life.

I need the moon close tonight... Seems from watching historical documents (cartoons), I can pull it closer with a seemingly average length rope.

If only it was so easy.

my stinky baby. Mr. Dasher Constantine Wayne. Yes, he is named after a reindeer and two DC characters.

Remember

I remember you racing to my house after you dropped your kids off at school know you race from our house to pick them up and take them.God I miss those days we where so in love or at least I was and I believe you where too. I'm so sorry things didn't turn out right but I figured as much nothing ever goes my way and that's why I was the way I was when we meet. See after so many years of everything going bad you just give up and stay numb. Sorry for getting you to stay even though it was the best year of my life. But I also know it caused alot of hurt for you and I'm sorry for that. I love you and always will. You was my light in a world without sun. But it's time to stop the games go home to your perfect world