One Day At A Time - Blog Posts

Every once and a while I feel happy. Then i think about all the sapphic TV shows that have canceled...

And then I'm no longer happy.

Netflix I just wanna talk...

This happened awhile ago but I'm bored so I'll share it with you all.

Some months back while I was walking down the highway in the pouring rain just for something to do.

And an ambulance drove past me which isn't a strange occurrence because of the state I live in. There's a lot of violence and drugs use here.

And I stopped on the shoulder to let the ambulance pass without worrying about me jumping in front of it because that has actually happened. And I don't know what possessed me to do this but I waved at them. And I watched in horror as the driver's face went pale and his face just dropped while he was looking at me.

About twenty or thirty feet down the road towards the hospital they slowed down and turned off the emergency lights.

For those who don't know that means the patient has passed in the ambulance and they're too far from the hospital to continuing resuscitating you. It happens the most with D. N. R patients.

And this paramedic has had some kind of grudge against me since then because everything he passes me. I get the rudest looks for him.

Pardon the back ground. I had already walked a couple miles and I was passing through a trailer park.

Not the best outfit and I lost my belt at the time.

5/12/2025.

Getting scrutinized by a police helicopter while listening to the apparition by sleep token was not on my bingo card.

A guy that I'm fairly familiar with kept reving his engine up and down the road while I was trying to journal and after about the fifth pass he finally got the highway patrol's attention.

So after getting pulled over he waited until the cop was halfway to his car, this man peeled out and flew down the highway.

And I wish I was joking but seven cars went after him. Quiet a few sheriffs but a few highway patrol's. And then I don't know if he crashed or he caused the crash but two cars collided right by a school and a ambulance and fire truck was sent out there.

A police helicopter was issued to help find the guy and it flew so low to inspect me I got hit with some rotor wash which felt quiet nice because I was cooking in the humidity. So that's fine.

TW.

I had a cosmic brownie, a strawberry shortcake and barbecue onion rings. I got back from the store and I survived my mother. I'm fully aware that I'm not eating healthy and I'm trying to get back on track. I have plans for more healthy meals tomorrow.

It was a long day of her acting like it was her first day of modern society and kept saying embarrassing and out of pocket things. Plus she kept nearly running in to me and shoulder checking me all because she was mad at my father. I'm preparing to move out but for now I'm still here mostly out of obligation to my siblings.

Plus she called me fat and hinted at me eating too much and that's why this tiny bag of cereal wasn't going as far. I personally will not be touching it after that.

The urge to binge those delicious chicken tenders hit me like a train but I know I'll regret it and the. want to purge. I'm just going to lay down and hopefully fall asleep.

what I've been eating the last couple days.

Tomato soup with egg noodle. Coconut water with pulp and sparkling water. What I didn't photograph was the two pieces of homemade cake. The three chocolate chip cookies. The random pieces of bread and the four marshmallows I eat straight out of the bag. And the concerning amount of pasta I've eaten all week. I need to go shopping so I've just been scrounging. I did eat a bit more sugar then I probably should have but I refuse to feel bad about it. I'm enjoying getting my appetite back after being sick.

Hello everyone. I wanted to show you what I've been eating for the past week or so.

Some toast I didn't finish, hibiscus tea, some pasta with tomato sauce with extra onion and garlic, stale bread but it still tastes fine, steamed eggs with spinach, and cherry blossoms tea.

I hope everyone is doing well. I just wanted to say I appreciate everyone who likes or interacts with my posts. It means a lot.

March 7th.

I'm alive and my whole house is sick again. But I made food.

March 4th.

I had rose tea, a spinach salad. Some pot roast with carrots and potatoes with a side of stuffing. And lastly butter noodles with soy sauce.

March 2th.

I was on the move the whole day and didn't have time. I had three gummies worms, a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. And Gatorade from a quick trip and peach water.

I've been out of commission so to the stomach flu. But I'm back now. I apologize for my absence.

It's not much but this is what I've eaten since the 25th. I also had a bowl of soup that I forgot to photograph.

I'll be posting more often now that I'm feeling better.

I made pancakes, ham and steamed eggs for breakfast. I walk to my local store and bought a dollar sparkling water. And finally I can home and make some white bread.

I also met the cutest German Shepherd/Husky mutt; his name was Buddy

Changes

Being told you look happier than before is probably one of the best compliments that I have been given🥰

Unchaperoned Thoughts #1

I have been thinking lately about what I want out of my life. Everything feels stagnant, but the only constant is me. I am the one who is holding me back. I am the one who hesitates on making the first move. I don’k know why, I just do. I know it doesn't make me happy, but I've been doing it so long its hard being social again.

I need to start trusting the fact that I am a likeable person and I deserve to be loved and be surrounded by people who appreciate me for who I am. Surround myself with people who challenge me to grow and change for the better. It doesn’t matter that some people won’t like me or find me a bit weird, because they won’t be staying in my life and that’s fine.

So here’s my first challenge:  Find 3 people outside the people you know that you vibe with and accept you for you. There is no time limit take your time and try not to stress yourself out. It’ll be fine.x