Perfect Fit

I can actually read my notes for once!

Today I:

●went to a virtual comp class that was a total waste of time

●partially caught up on week 8 module videos for my stats class

●added the video content to my running review for the stats class

●went to a virtual 2 hour group meeting for that stats class (so unnecessarily long and dumb)

●took a practice quiz

●started some practice problems

●studied outside! (For a little bit- still quarantined so it was in my backyard and there's very little shade and the umbrella isn't big enough to accommodate sun movements)

There's so many new cases in my state. K-12 got a week long spring break. It ends Monday, and I'm honestly so worried about returning to in person instruction. A lot of families travelled and didn't take proper precautions. There's going to be rapid testing for most K-12 before spring break ends, but I'm worried because it's only so accurate and it's voluntary. I'm fully vaccinated, but some of these kids are high risk because of asthma and diabetes and other health conditions. I'll survive if I'm jobless or my substitute teaching hours are cut again, but these kids struggle so much with online learning. My suffering in fully online college is only a glimpse into what they go through. My heart goes out to them. I think we're going to have another shutdown soon. It's completely necessary, but still hard.

Now I want iced coffeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

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I have this disgusting habit of making weekly to do lists that stress me out and have entirely too much on them and then remaking that list about 2848573 different times. I also do it right before I go to bed to stress myself out. It's hard to stay organized this semester because all my classes are online + post at different times + have different length modules + I have to do things like read a textbook, but obviously there aren't due dates for that specifically.

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Today was productive for being MLK Day.

○ wrote an initial discussion board post (4 solid paragraphs because the questions I had to thoroughly answer required that and my peers also thought so)

○ made 2 replies to that discussion board

○ walked one of my dogs

○ picked up a little coffee treat while socially distancing

○ completed a pre-quiz (I'm not worried so much how I did but more so how it'll be graded and whether I followed her strange uploading and answering directions)

○ cleaned up a laptop a little bit (I'm trying to rehab a dinosaur laptop so I don't have to be as limited by my chromebook)

○ read part of a book of Martin Luther King Junior's essays/speeches I have

My mental health has taken such a large shit as of late. This week needed to be productive as hell and I'm barely barely barely keeping up with what needs to happen. I'm working 4 full days next week and I have 3 group meetings and 1 class presentation and 1 group report on an experiment and all the other shit I've been dealing with. Online school is kicking my ass y'all

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I've been thinking about the mums I most likely killed in my garden. I hope they come back in the spring.

Today was crunch day and was finished off with the first anxiety attack of the semester... heheh so much for a less stressful semester

Unfortunately, I actually studied a lot more than what is displayed (just didn't start the app). I'm incredibly stressed out. I'm not a writer by any means. Some people have math anxiety, but I swear I have essay anxiety. I had to write an "essay by example"... but that doesn't make sense to me. It was very unclear what was meant by "essay by example" so I tried a persuasive essay that highlighted individual examples to refute a really dumb prompt. Idk. I missed the first 1.5 weeks of the class and feel lost. She wouldn't extend the first draft due date for me by even a few hours. I turned in the most garbage essay of my life. I feel like I did the entire assignment wrong.

What I did today:

● finished the other half of a stats module

● made an initial discussion post

● replied to 2 discussion threads

● took a walk in nature with one of my doggos and my sister

● oriented myself for the composition class I joined late (syllabus, directions, assignments, expectations)

● read a couple example essays / instruction in the textbook I finally got

● wrote a 4 page essay that is absolute garbage

● anxiety attack

3 of my classes are fully asynchronous. I love it. I think the discussions are just dumb and superficial, which I miss having good conversations about the material, but I need all the flexibility I can get right now. However, my comp class has zoom meetings once a week and I hate it. Our discussions are dumb and are literally the questions in the book.

I hope online learning starts to look up for you! The internet connection sucks bruh. It happens at the most inconvenient times too

I’m really grateful about how our university only holds video conferences once a week because our internet connection at home is not that stable. However, it does make me sad how our discussions on lessons have to be fast-pace. It is understandable but I wish we had more time to engage on the topics because all of my subjects for this semester are highly interesting. 😕 Would love to hear how are the online classes in your school 🙏🏻

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