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most annoying man vs. world's strongest idgafker!! who will win!!

my favourite part of the apothecary diaries is jinshi freaking out over maomao's impulsive freaky tendencies (but he's lowkey into that)

jinmao in a nutshell:

Maomao, every time she looks at Jinshi:

I love how immediately Gaoshun has to tell Maomao to stop treating Jinshi like a bug because he's being an absolute freak about it. He's like hey, I know we only met a week ago, but you've already given my insane boss a sexual complex and for all of our sakes you should probably try to avoid activating it

THE APOTHECARY DIARIES SEASON 2 (EP. 17)

// spoilers below

OH one more thing about the luomen scenes:

luomen going "i can't let this interfere with my duties" vs. jinshi thinking "my duty is to find maomao" just hits for me. like, i know luomen was referring to his literal and official duties in the medical office, which are largely to care for the pregnant consorts, but like. he also makes this choice because he believes this is the path that will lead to the most good (this is not the same as the greater good btw). so if this is the intentional parallel i think it is, then jinshi calling finding maomao a duty, making it a priority above all his other official duties, feels like him saying that to him, that's the path that leads to the most good ^^ (i'm aware this is me overanalyzing the lines okay but *waves at the blob on the floor* jinmao!!)

Jinshi is not fucking around. In one episode alone, he scares someone so badly she poisons herself:

And the next woman he interrogates pisses herself in fear:

walk’ em like dog!!!

Jinshi and Maomao in LN 13/14 in a nutshell:

Jinshi, freaking out: we can't have sex right now because if we do, that means Maomao has the burden of birth control by herself and will be even more involved in politics 😱😱😱😱

Maomao:..Damn, I sorta wanted to have sex with him.

If I were to give a general estimation as to when i think Maomao gained romantic feelings for Jinshi, it would have been at the end of LN4

Jinshi saves Maomao from her kidnapping, and she returns to working as the Verdigris House's Apothecary. With Jinshi's true status revealed, Maomao assumes she's never going to see him again

She thinks about this a lot, about how she's too low born for someone of his status to ever see her, and how he doesn't even need her help with his injury anyway, because Luoman is at the rear palace now. There's no logical reason for them to ever see each other again. And it itches at her

And so she starts her experiments again, harming herself. There doesn't seem to be a purpose for the concoctions she's making either, as if she's trying to treat something with no obvious cause. Something too deep for the failed medicines to reach

So she goes to cut off her finger. Specifically, her left pinky finger.

Again, there doesn't seem to be a purpose for this behavior at all- until you remember that her mother cut off the tip of her left pinky, out of anguish and rage at Lakan for abandoning her. Fengxian's love for Lakan is the reason her mother harmed her.

Maomao relates that particular finger of her's to romantic love, because of her parent's tragic love story and the trauma it caused her

Maomao knows how stupid love can make even the most intelligent of people, and has consciously and subconsciously avoided it, because she doesn't want to experience that same sort of attachment and hurt. She's heard her parent's story, heard stories of those seeking love at the Verdigris House, how courtesan's speak about love in hushed tones, and how it always ended in pain for everyone involved

But when she thinks she's never going to see Jinshi again, she goes to cut off her left pinky finger, as if on instinct. The finger she associates with romantic love. The same action Fengxian did, when she thought she'd been abandoned by Lakan.

Maomao is doing the exact same thing as her mother, for the exact same reasons.

It's only when Jinshi walks in through the door that Maomao unties her pinky and puts away the knife, and returns to her normal self.

It's one of those things where - I don't think even Maomao understands the reasons behind her actions here. Something was bothering her, something deep, and she went to the only solution she could think of to fix it- cutting off the piece of her that she associates with romantic love- but she stops feeling that subconscious itch as soon as Jinshi comes to see her. As soon as he's back in her life, things are right again, and she stops hurting herself

it's a moment i think about a lot, and it's one of my favorites in the series, because of what it represents for Maomao specifically. it says a lot about her character and how she feels about Jinshi, even if it takes years for those feelings to fully bloom

“apothecary diaries is a romance” “apothecary diaries is a court drama” wrong. jinshi’s apothecary diaries is a first love romance and maomao’s is a workplace drama. her biggest problem is being fired via execution and his is falling behind on work worrying she’s taking the wrong man home

Spoilers for Anime Onlys Ahead and for picture perfect arc (vol. 10)

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Hanako was probably at his worst during Picture perfect arc, his expression honestly scared me and somewhat gave me Tsukasa vibes.

I usually don't describe him as "Yandere" because he is such a complex character, but that's the best word I have for him in these panels

On my first time reading this huge arc, I was sure Tsukasa was the big villain in it, but, surprisingly, he had a pretty minor role in it. The main antagonist of this arc is HANAKO. I was SO not ready for that twist.

Let's run away together. To the real world!

These scenes being a cinematic parallel is so funny to me because the Hanako and Nene scene is like: "Let's be together in the real world!! <3" and then the Mitsuba and Kou scene is "do you want me to KILL MYSELF for you? :D"

Hold me, forever

[More Trouble Than You’re Worth]

It has been a while since I drew something for a fanfic, haha. Anyways, have this art for this cute little story.

Scene from chapter 5 (them having breakfast together). 

Fanfic: https://archiveofourown.org/works/39226671 by VoidJelli.

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* linktr.ee/gcq*

hey guys, so i been working on these character sheets and i haven’t drawn everyone yet but im sharing them anyways cause im excited to share LOL

ft. stupid notes to myself about the characters. i don’t have a very strong definition of everyone’s style, but i kinda narrowed it down with these.

truly the goal of this au was to draw nene in whatever i wanted haha. i suppose that goes for everyone in it.

if you guys have questions my asks are open btw!

edit: i added the lineup so you can see them all next to each other

hananene teacher AU cont.

scorpion's heart

Sometimes while thinking about TBHK thoughts will run through my head that I realize aren't universal among the fandom. I have actually touched upon this topic before, but I still wanted to make a quick post for the uninformed about an official parallel drawn between Tsukasa and a moment in a beloved piece of Japanese literature.

Night on the Galactic Railroad is a classic Japanese novel often taught in Japanese classrooms, similar to how English classics will often be taught in the Anglosphere. It's well known in Japan for this reason, and for the sake of this post I'll assume you either haven't heard of it or that you don't know much about it. Regardless, this post is centering on only a small portion of the novel, so you won't come away from it with a total understanding of what it's all about. I encourage you to check it out yourself!

As you might be able to tell by the name, the story involves a boy riding a train through a fantastical version of outerspace. During his trip through the cosmos, he meets others riding the train. One of these people tells him the story of Antares, the brightest star in the constellation Scorpio. Already there is one connection to the story of Hanako-kun, that being Amane's infamous monologue about the star during the Picture Perfect arc.

The story goes as follows: a scorpion was being chased by a weasel. In a last ditch effort to escape the weasel, it threw itself into a well. But the scorpion had no means of escape, and realized it was going to die there. The scorpion bemoans this fate, because as a predator it has only ever taken life away. It regrets not taking the chance to help the weasel, even if it would only help the weasel live a single day longer. And now the scorpion is going to die having helped no one.

So it prays to God, and asks that its body be used to bring happiness to everyone. And as if God had heard its plea, the scorpion's body burst into a brilliant red flame. This same light is said to be the star Antares, the heart of the Scorpio constellation.

...so! Already somewhat superficially you can compare this story to Tsukasa and the Red House. Little guy jumps into hole/well,

little guy makes a wish to a God to bring happiness to others,

little guy bursts into flames...

Personally I find these alone to be staggering similarities, but it leaves you asking: What is the significance of this?

Well, I tend to interpret it as a reflection of Tsukasa's selflessness. I think Tsukasa's intentions as a child were very pure. But later on it seems like this selflessness distorts into something else, something more twisted. Regardless, Tsukasa's motivations involve destroying himself for other people's happiness. His own destruction will bring happiness to Sakura (she needs all the yorishiro to be destroyed to have her wish granted) and also Amane, who has a wish of his own he wants granted.

Anyway, besides Amane comparing himself to Antares in Picture Perfect, we also have this official Night on the Galactic Railroad AU art with Tsukasa bearing the tail of the scorpion:

Note the red flame on the tip of his stinger. (And most importantly note his cuteness. 🦂🔥❤️)

Touching briefly upon Amane's Antares story in Picture Perfect, there aren't many obvious comparisons to draw between it and Night on the Galactic Railroad. However, one thing I'll touch upon is how Antares is a binary star, or a "twin star." It being a binary star isn't talked about in Night on the Galactic Railroad, but Amane mentions it. He also mentions how you can't normally see its twin. This is because its twin is a main sequence star, much less bright than the red supergiant Antares. It was only ever discovered that Antares had a twin when the moon covered the red supergiant and an astromer spotted the main sequence star beside it. Perhaps Amane and Tsukasa are supposed to represent the red flame of Antares in different ways, but it does make me wonder if Amane is meant to represent the little main sequence star too, since Tsukasa is very clearly the red flame in this story. But considering Amane's analysis of Antares is so much more scientific than the fantastical version seen in Night on the Galactic Railroad, I think it's safer to regard these as fundamentally separate stories. Still fun to consider however.

But if we did want to talk about the scientific implications of Tsukasa being Antares, I'd bring up how red supergiants often become black holes, almost the antithesis of what the scorpion wanted to become. The scorpion wanted to bring light and happiness to everyone, but a black hole only devours and destroys, just the thing the scorpion didn't want to be anymore. I don't think Tsukasa started in the same place as the scorpion, who regretted its life of selfishness... but it makes me wonder if he's meant to be the anti-scorpion: a selfless being becoming a black hole of destruction. That's a very sad way of looking at things, but it's hard not to think of it when we see what's happened to him in the series as a whole:

In the context of Night on the Galactic Railroad, the scorpion is regarded as a selfless hero. Although another character expresses distastes for dangerous creatures like the scorpion, the character who tells the Antares story argues that the scorpion is a fundamentally good creature. It's another one of those little things in Hanako-kun that reminds me that Tsukasa, for all his faults, has good inside him too. But it does leave me wondering how far this comparison will go, and what that means for Tsukasa's fate. Will he continue to sacrifice himself till the end? And will that sacrifice be for the good of everyone, or only a few?

My favorite part about all this is there's no answer! It's just a fun comparison AidaIro made that helps recontextualize Tsukasa's character. Is this a meaningful comparison, or just a surface-level one? Will his story end the same way as the scorpion, or will he subvert expectations? Who knows! I mostly just think back on it and remember that Tsukasa started as an extremely selfless character that still displays these traits in the manga today, even as a nefarious ghost. Maybe he is isn't misunderstood like the scorpion, but he's certainly just as tragic. Thanks for reading!

fight fight fight!

then eventually, we'll forget!!

amane: windows XP shutdown noise

flood my inbox with your teen drama au headcanons so that i actually have something to draw as stress relief for the next few weeks

it sets in to me every once in a while that amane is. really just a kid.

— what symbolizes who in tbhk?

gimme your thoughts! crystals, flowers, animals... name them! i don’t mind headcanons or theories~ i’ll likely be using this for reference in my writing & art! feel free to reference for ur fanfics <3

yashiro nene — strawberry flowers, pearls, fish, corals, pearls, water, all things sea, her ankles :’), daikons :’), her smile, hearts & love & all things happy,

hanako-kun/yugi amane — red camellias, the moon, the stars, the night sky, etc etc, cats, dogs, toires, knives, seals, red & warm red-brown & gold, red string, string, being possessive,

minamoto kou — orange kalmias, dogs/wolves/yes, lightning, gold, his safety earring, friendly gestures (thumbsups, smiling, hugging, fistbumps, etc),

mitsuba sousuke — doves, sad smiles, photography, the true mitsuba™, making kou gay,

mit2ba — crows, locks, chains, eyes, bones(?), ripped/torn/burnt/shredded pieces of clothing

nanamine sakura — sakura/cherry blossoms, ceramic items (esp teasets!), tea, old-fashioned & antique items,

tsukasa yugi — the sun, eclipses, cats, include half of amane’s things, AMANE AMANE, eyeballs, antique items,

akane aoi — clocks, mahogany & gold items

aoi akane — snakes?????, porple/violet, flowers.

ty to: @frogwithaflowercrown, @pollen-blogs & @redcamellia13 for helping!

nene yashiro is such a highschool girlfriend

JOKINGLY CALLED NENE A MAKE A WISH KID CAUSE OF THE BEING ABOUT TO DIE THING BUT THE SHOW LITERALLY STARTS WITH HER MAKING A WISH 😭😭😭😭 HANAKO IS THE MAKE A WISH FOUNDATION 😭😭😭

amane: windows XP shutdown noise

flood my inbox with your teen drama au headcanons so that i actually have something to draw as stress relief for the next few weeks

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