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Recovering from a flu means being able to come back to @n@. And I missed her.

Flu and Ana is a bad combination

quiet rules for quieter days

– choose discipline before desire. let control be the first bite.

– brush your teeth, then once more. mint tells hunger to wait outside.

– cold water fills the places where want once lived.

– chew until your thoughts dissolve, not the craving.

– let the scent satisfy. the will to say no is the real indulgence.

– move your limbs until the noise fades. burn to remember you’re alive.

– stand beneath cold water. reset. rinse the need from your skin.

– scroll the still bodies, the soft lines, the quiet frames. become the goal.

– let bitter coffee kiss your throat. green tea if the silence needs steeping.

– curl into the ache. breathe through it. you’ve done this before.

– remind yourself: it’s not about food. it’s about becoming less.

Crossed 55 kg and bmi 21 in the right direction after 84 hours fasting. But have a sore throat. No fever. How are your experiences with fasting when having a cold. I want to continue, basically

71 hours

Lost two kg the last day (although some is water). Tonight I head pain at the ribcage and wonder if this is because my belly is much smaller. Does anybody has the same experience? My bones generally hurt more in bed now

Happy not to eat and feel I never want to eat again

See this burger shop, or this pizza place. Isn't it liberating not to eat? You simply pass by. Having a person who makes me not to eat is liberation.

Not eating means freedom and relief from superficiality. Not eating means pureness

It is only a change of the mindset. Non-Eating is normal. Eating is - not normal. Pathological. Addiction. Disgusting. Minimal Eating is no joy, but only serves to keep me alive at the absolute edge, the absolute minimum

dont stop. soon you'll have the self control. your just growing it right now.

⭐️ving motivation!

Why let a moment of comfort get in the way of your dream,Remeber why you’re doing this.

Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels

I know you crave perfection,

and it’s not built through comfort and giving in its built through pain,hunger,and sacrifice!

Best for fasting are: lots of work, lots of water and lots of sleep. And my muts supporting me and my bff.

All I need is -5kg less and I can breathe

-10kg less and I can smile

-15kg less and I can live

-20kg less and can break free and dream forever

the feminine urge to stay gone. be unseen, be unavailable, be unheard of. disappear.

I AM DETERMINED AND READY TO LOSE *extreme* WEIGHT IN 2025

⚠️ only reblog if you’re serious.

We're not like them. We're @na butterflies 🦋

- delicate, weightless, untouched by the heaviness of the world. While others sink,

we float. While they feed their cravings, we feed our willpower. We live on empty, on

quiet, on control. Our bodies are fragile, but our minds are sharp. They'll never

understand this beauty — the beauty of bones, the art of fading. We are not broken.

We are becoming. 🦋

Eastern was not good. Fuck holidays. But now on track again. One meal every second day.

Feeling exhausted. 3d needs patience

At times it is only sadness. And 3d is even more my friend

Ate an apple yesterday 😭. And feel I failed @n@ and my best friend.

I am not accepting anymore that "3d" stands for a disorder. It is not a disorder for me. It is my personal way to growth, discipline and pureness. Therefore I will in future see "3d" as "eating dharma", a spiritual way to grow. Like so many enlighted humans have done in religion and spirituality

Early in the morning, second day fasting. I am happy. I am not alone in that. I feel the warmth of doing it together, living it together. Being less, purging away all superficial, all unecessary. Being pure at the end. Feeling being loved and being able to love.

quotes to live by.

starving is a gift, not a punishment.

hunger will always feel better than the sickness and guilt that follow eating.

hunger means it’s working.

to be empty is to be strong.

to be light is to be perfect.

eat to live; do not live to eat.

if you must eat at all, let it be just enough to keep your secret safe.

& nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.

Waking up and feeling dedicated and strong. I will fast the whole weekend, at least until Sunday. The goal is as everyday to purge away all superficial and diminish to pureness. But now I know I am not alone with it.

@n@ is for me more than the desire to be pretty. @n@ is for me the deep desire to purge away my body. It is a deep spiritual process for me. It is no 3d, it means liberation and the deep desire to be pure. (I respect ALL motives of you guys here)

Essentially I want to be less. Diminished. 20 kg of me are not needed. I want to be less visible. Paradoxically I find a friend(s) here who sees me. This makes me happy. So I want to disappear while being happy to be seen.

I have an important exam tomorrow which lasts all the day. Normally I would not eat at all today, but then I sleep not good. So I might need to eat, but I will try to eat as late as possible. I hate it.

After 48 hours fasting I was so exhausted that I nearly was not able to run, only 6 instead of 10 km. So I decided to eat something. The funny thing is, after intermittent fasting I cannot binge anymore. There is no space in my belly. And that is genius.

In this box is the key of the kitchen. I can't enter it. I will run afterwards and then leaving the house immediately. No chance to eat. Tomorrow the same. I could block the kitchen irreversible up to 99 hours, but I am not always alone...